Fine beads of sweat broke out on Ruyue's forehead.

She remembered Yang Guang's scarlet eyes: "You can continue to be close to your eldest brother, help him keep the crown prince, come against me, and then more people will die—but, let me tell you, I just kill everyone, and you have to give me a good life-"

She remembered her eldest brother's last words: "Ah Mi." I still remember when you were a child playing hide and seek with others, you were always found, crying angrily, I secretly told you in order to coax you, as long as you hide in Mrs. Liu Yu's room, she is the most favored lady, and no one will dare to go in to find you—this is the most regrettable thing I have ever done—because maybe you don't have that momentary curiosity, and then we must be fatherly and motherly love—you won't hate us like that—"

She remembered that after getting acquainted with Empress Xiao for the first time, she said to herself, "Thank you Xie Lu today, if it weren't for your existence, I'm afraid he really felt that he loved Xuanhua very much, and a person who killed the woman he loved would be dead." ”

She remembered that she deliberately hit the wall in order to blame the third sister: "I'm sorry-" Yang Guang suddenly spoke, and his tone softened, "Whether you believe it or not, I, I never thought of hurting you-" Crystal tears flowed down the tip of his nose and smashed into the palm of his hand, even he was shocked, Yang Guang sat in front of her bed, lowered his head, like a sad child for the first time, "If it is light, it will hurt the body, and if it is heavy, it will be damaged-what have I done-what have I done to you-"

She remembered seeing Yang Guang when she came back from Taiyuan, and the emperor looked affectionate: "For her." ”

Ruyue turned her head, and her whole face was unobstructed in the bronze mirror, and she saw that face that seemed to be no different from her mother, with red lips and white teeth, looking forward to life.

Suddenly stood up, undressed, put on a cloak, ignored Xuan'er's shouts, and ran out.

The Frost Hall maintained its usual coldness, and there were early maids who were listlessly sweeping the fallen flowers of last night, standing in the courtyard, and vaguely heard the sound of beating wooden fish from the Queen's Buddha Hall.

A maid was busy going in to report, but was stopped by Ruyue, drove all the people out, closed the door, tied a wooden bolt, and the smell of spices filled the whole room.

Ruyue walked over, and Empress Xiao seemed to know that the road was coming like the moon, still closing her eyes tightly, and her expression was as usual.

Ruyue knelt next to her and said softly: "For so many years, does Niangniang hate the emperor or love, if it is hate, worship the Buddha and incense here every day, if it is love, Ruyue really doesn't know how to cultivate the realm of indisputability, jealousy, and anger." ”

Empress Xiao's fingers slid over a Buddha bead, slowly opened his eyes, bowed to the Buddha statue three times, got up and lit three incense sticks: "He has to stay in a room every night for such a stick of incense time, I originally thought he was dealing with political affairs, presumably at that time it was also very good to me, three hundred miles away from the lychee, the night pearl of the South China Sea tribute, but also naïve, thinking that it was love, and then I saw more of this kind of thing to other women, only to know how ridiculous he was, and he thought that he was the only one in his heart." There was a faint smile on the corner of her mouth, as if she was recalling a very happy thing, "Until one day, I couldn't help but be curious, and sent the maidservant, and the room was deserted and empty, except for a painting and a bloodstained vermilion dance robe." If it's just an ordinary woman, it's a pity that the eyes in the painting are tactful, a pair of eyes are colorful, and the ice muscles are snowy. It was also because of pampering that I cut the dance dress. ”

Empress Xiao suddenly stopped her voice and walked over to help Ruyue up.

"What happened?" She couldn't help but wonder.

"There's no after." Empress Xiao shook her head, "How did I become what I am now?" Zuo is just that he mistook his mercy for the truth, relying on his self-righteous favor as a blessing, and then he recognized his own existence, in the end he could not resist his own heart, he could only curl up in the position he gave, greedy and did not leave, from that day on, we slept in separate rooms, he did not touch my washed clothes, did not drink the tea I made, did not eat the food I cooked, occasionally entered the palace, but also a dormitory, two wings. ”

"Then my mother is also misunderstood by the emperor's lovesickness?" Ruyue thought of the gossip in the palace, and remembered the increasingly cold expression of her father-"The princess is really joking." Ruyue's thoughts were interrupted by her, and Empress Xiao's smile was like a cup of bitter tea. Presumably, when he saw the appearance of the saint now, he thought that he was just a child in the eyes of Mrs. Liu Yu back then, and he blushed when she spoke, and he was very happy when he took out an apple and gave it to him. His feelings, Lady Liu Yu, flew out of the city wall before she even knew it—"

Ruyue stood up, stumbled, and didn't even have time to salute, so she was about to go out, but she was pulled by her: "Where are you going, princess?" ”

"Where to go?" Ruyue smiled bitterly, "Where can Ruyue go?" It's also a hurry to blow today, Niangniang's words Ruyue didn't hear a word clearly, Ruyue was just entrusted by Princess Xuan to find favor and leave the palace, but now Niangniang's plain clothes and light makeup line, presumably out of the palace can not be the master, but Ruyue came early in the morning to find rudeness, I hope Niangniang is not to blame. ”

Ruyue turned around, saluted her, and said that she was about to leave.

Empress Xiao did not stop Ruyue, the goddess in the courtyard cleaned the courtyard as usual, as if she didn't hear anything, and Empress Xiao's voice seemed to come from far away: "The smart people in this palace must be people with stories, and they are also poor people at the end of the world, and this palace also agrees with the princess's words, maybe the weather is irritable and stuffy, and today the palace is speechless." ”

Ruyue walked out of the Frost Hall in despair, and the maids on both sides didn't dare to step forward to help, Yang Guang's heart was actually thinking about her mother - she had a deep premonition in her heart that Yang Guang's forbearance and forbearance for many years, his father's undisguised favor, and Yang Lin's expression of wanting to stop talking from the moment he saw him was because of his mother.

So what are you? Mother, you are wearing a vermilion gauze robe, your posture is resolute, Ruyue is your shadow, in the eyes of everyone, you are not the fourth princess of the Sui Dynasty, you are your rebirth. It turns out that for so many years, the people they love, pet, endure, and wait for are their mothers. Not yourself. How ridiculous, what is the difference between oneself and a puppet?

Ruyue closed her eyes, and there were no tears to meet the situation.