Ninety-one

A few days later, Zhu Yushen still didn't see Li Lulu's figure appear in front of him, and he felt a sense of loss in his heart. Since they separated at the hospital late last year, they have barely seen each other again.

Once, in the first half of the year, when he and Xie Wumei were walking side by side on the street, they saw Li Lulu's side. She was standing in a small supermarket to buy something, and he wasn't sure if she saw him at the time. I saw that she had been standing there sideways for a long, long time, until she and Xie Wumei walked past the supermarket.

In the afternoon, Zhu Yushen didn't have classes, he wanted to go to the street and go to the supermarket to buy some daily necessities. So he rode out into the streets. After turning around, Zhu Yushen was about to go back, when he saw a woman walking out of the store in front of him. Her hair was a withered yellow color, her face was very haggard, and her whole body was already skinny, not at all like the beautiful Li Lulu she had seen more than half a year ago.

Zhu Yushen stood still and didn't move, but Li Lulu didn't notice him after he walked out of the store. She put things on the bike. When she was about to ride up, Zhu Yushen shouted at her.

Li Lulu was startled, and when she looked back, it was Zhu Yushen, and a smile suddenly appeared on her face. She walked quickly in front of Zhu Yushen.

Li Lulu said: "I was about to go to the school to look for you, but I didn't expect to meet you now." Then they both walked side by side to school.

When he walked to the new highway, Zhu Yushen suddenly felt that the school was full of people at this time, and there was Xie Wumei in front of him, so it was still inconvenient to take her to school. He decided to take her to his new house to sit for a while.

After entering the door, Zhu Yushen wiped the stool with paper and made room for her to sit on. Li Lulu didn't sit down. She put her purchases on the stool. Say: "The rain is deep. Last year, you lent my sister money for treatment, and my family always wanted to pay you back as soon as possible, but they couldn't pay it back. Mom and Dad asked me to come and talk to you, and try to return the money to you at the end of the year. ”

Zhu Yushen hurriedly stated that since he supported their family, he had no hope of returning it. Tell her and their families not to worry about it anymore.

Li Lulu said apologetically: "How can that be done?" Tingting's physical condition is quite good now, and the family has basically paid off the borrowed debts, and your money will definitely be repaid. ”

The two were silent for a moment. Li Lulu said that her sister's health is better, but her own body is not good. Since the beginning of the year, she has felt unwell, and when she went to the hospital to check, she was sick. In order not to make matters worse for her family, she told her family that her illness was nothing and did not need treatment. Because she knows that she is no longer a normal woman, she has lost the qualification of a normal woman to marry and love. Just break the jar and break it, and everything will go naturally. But illness tormented her every day. It made her thinner and thinner.

When Zhu Yushen heard this, he looked at her carefully. It's less than a year. It was as if she had changed to a different person, her hair had turned yellow, her face had become thin, and her old white hands were no longer visible.

She was still wearing the navy blue she used to wear. Before, her body looked delicate, bumpy and seductive under the wrapping of this dress. Today's view is loose, because she has lost weight in her clothes.

Zhu Yushen comforted her and said, "You are still so young, why don't you go to treatment if you are sick?" A better day awaits you in the future. ”

Li Lulu smiled bitterly and said, "What good days are waiting for me?" And my disease is not so easy to cure, you don't understand. ”

Zhu Yushen said: "Anyway, you can't drag it out like this, you have to find someone to marry and live a normal life." ”

Li Lulu cross-examined: "I'm like this, who else wants me?" If the conditions are good, the character is good, and they are naturally not afraid of not being able to marry a wife. The rest of the poor bachelors, although they are all pitiful, most of them have problems of their own or have other bad temperaments. Am I going to marry them now, and I am not going to suffer more? ”

Zhu Yushen opened his mouth, but there was no squeak, he felt that what she said also made sense.

Li Lulu didn't care about Zhu Yushen's expression, she put the things she brought on the table, and said, "The money can't pay you back for the time being, so I can only show a little bit of affection." It's got your favorite food and your favorite drink. ”

Zhu Yushen said: "No need, you better take it back." ”

Li Lulu didn't answer, she paused for a moment and prepared to leave. She went to the door, put her right hand on the door for a while, and said, "I will not suffer unless I marry someone like you, but it is impossible." I know you hate me deep down, and it's a misstep that has become a hatred for eternity. With that, she rested her head on her right arm and sobbed.

Zhu Yushen's heart was stung and he was at a loss, but he said, "There is no such thing." ”

After a while, Li Lulu looked back and smiled. She opened the door and walked out. When Zhu Yushen reacted and chased out, she was already on the bicycle and rode forward with all her might.

In the days that followed, Zhu Yushen learned from Li Tingting that because Li Lulu was sick but had no money to treat her, she was subjectively unwilling to treat it, resulting in her body gradually failing. She sometimes vomited red at night, and her life showed signs of vulnerability. In addition to sighing, Zhu Yushen felt that he could no longer do anything.

By the time the autumn wind blew the leaves yellow, the weather in Huangzhen had already turned cold. Outside the back door of the campus is a field of farmland. Several nearby fields have long since ceased to grow crops, and were filled with poplar saplings a few years ago. Today, they have grown into poplar forests with slender trunks and dense foliage.

When Zhu Yu was deeply sad, he often came to this forest to relax. The weeds and artemisia in the fields have grown vigorously in the summer, and have grown to more than half a human height, and now they have all withered and turned yellow. Occasionally, you can see sporadic sturdy rice on the ground, which is the wild rice that was produced by the seeds that fell when the sowers passed through the area. Their vitality must not be compared with that of weeds and artemisia.

Zhu Yushen believes that rice is like the goodness of human nature, which needs continuous irrigation and care in order to grow vigorously and bear fruit; And the evil weeds can grow at will in the heart field, grow all over the sky, and penetrate into every corner of the natural world.

Kindness and love are like electricity, you can't see them, but they do exist. In addition to kindness and love, Zhu Yushen also hopes that it will exist like this after death. For it will be a great consolation to those who are dying of old age, especially to those who are young and dying in agony. In this way, they can also survive in another world. (To be continued......)