230 Truth II
"It's a pity that creation makes people, the fake is a fake in the end, I am not qualified to accompany you for a lifetime, so God will arrange for me to go to Bailiao Country and relatives, but seeing that you are in pain for the upcoming parting, I think maybe telling you the truth can make you better."
She originally wanted to say it decisively, so that Shen Wu'an could completely let go of her most attachment, but when it was time to say it, she found that she had no way to say it at all!
Sitting in front of her was the man she loved the most in her life, and she would rather hurt herself than let him be hurt in the slightest! Fortunately, the truth she wants to say has been said, and after learning that he is not the real Qu Wurong, he should no longer be as attached to himself as before, right?
When she said this, Shen Wu'an didn't speak, her eyes lowered and she didn't know what she was thinking, and after a while, she finally said hoarsely: "Then your feelings for me are all fake?" ”
Of course not! Hearing him ask, Qu Wurong was almost about to blurt out this obvious answer, but when the words came to her mouth, she was forced to suppress them, she knew that she couldn't say that, if she said so, then what she said earlier, and the determination she had made up with great difficulty would all be in vain!
Although she couldn't hurt him ruthlessly, she also knew that she couldn't give him any more hope.
After stabilizing his mind a little, Qu Wurong did not answer his question directly, but said lightly: "When I met Shen Duanlang on the shore of West Lake, I thought we would love each other for a lifetime, but then something like that happened, do you think that after such an unforgettable betrayal, I can still fall in love with someone else, and will I still have real feelings?" ”
Hearing her words, a hint of gloom flashed in Shen Wuan's lowered black eyes, but it quickly disappeared. He slowly raised his head and stared at her, "I don't care what happened between you and him, I just ask you, did you ever love me?" Or are you just using me from start to finish? ”
Before today, he had never understood that after learning the truth about pretending to be crazy and stupid, and the purpose of his doing this, Qu Wurong not only felt strange and scared, but even offered to help him take revenge together, he thought that she was thinking about the love between them and husband and wife, so he wanted to help him, but now it seems that this is just wishful thinking on his part.
If it is really like what she just said, she is not really Qu Wurong, but Shen Duanlang's Empress Kou Shaohua, who came to seek revenge on Shen Duanlang from the beginning, then she proposed to help herself take revenge, in fact, it was not because she felt that they were integrated into one, but because she wanted to use her own power to achieve her own goals, after all, the target of their revenge was the same person.
Thinking of this, Shen Wu'an felt as if his heart was invisibly held by a hand, making him almost breathless, and the momentary effort of waiting for Qu Wurong's answer became a long and tormenting because of this.
Qu Wurong was stunned when he heard him ask.
She didn't expect that after she told the truth, Shen Wu'an would question her mind to such an extent, although this was exactly the result she wanted, but when she really heard him ask if she was using him, her heartache was no less than Shen Wu'an's.
But she had no way to defend herself, and she couldn't defend herself, so she could only hold back her heartache and follow his words: "That's right, I have never loved you, and I have only been using you from beginning to end." ”
As soon as she finished speaking, she only heard a soft "bang", the teacup in Shen Wuan's hand was crushed to pieces, and blood dripped on the table along his fingers, so frightened that Qu Wurong couldn't care about the weird atmosphere of the two at this time, stood up and grabbed his hand, asking him to let go of the porcelain cup powder in his palm, "Quickly let go, your hand is bleeding!" ”
"Don't touch me!" Shen Wu'an waved her hand away vigorously, raised his head and looked at her deeply, then stood up and walked slowly towards the inner hall.
That glance was full of sadness, disappointment, and determination, which made Qu Wurong completely stunned in place, and he forgot to even catch up and check his wounds.
I don't know how long it took, Qu Wurong finally came back to her senses, looking at the dried blood on the table, she thought about it, and finally resisted the urge to go in and take a look, raised her feet and walked towards the outside of the Qinzheng Palace.
The heavy palace door was opened, and the oncoming light made Qu Wurong feel dizzy inexplicably, but fortunately, Xiao Shunzi, who was guarding outside the hall, ran up quickly and helped her in time: "Guifei Niangniang, are you okay?" ”
"I'm fine." Qu Wurong shook his head gently, pushed away the hand he was holding onto himself, and walked forward slowly.
Looking at her almost stumbling back, Xiao Shunzi touched her head in confusion, what's wrong? Wasn't it okay when she had breakfast with the emperor just now? Why did she look weird after just a while?
The more he thought about it, the more he felt that something was wrong, he was worried that something would happen to Qu Wurong, so he hurriedly called a little eunuch to follow him from afar, and he ran into the Qinzheng Hall in a puff of smoke, "Your Majesty ......"
Before he could say anything, he saw Shen Wu'an raise his head and look at him with a gloomy face, so frightened that he shrank his neck, and looked down to see Shen Wu'an's bloodstained right hand resting on the table, so he couldn't care about Shen Wuan's face, and stepped forward to hold his hand and exclaimed, "Your Majesty, what's wrong with your hand?" Come on, pass on the doctor! ”
"Shut up!" Shen Wu'an glared at him fiercely, "Get out!" ”
I had never seen him lose his temper so much, Xiao Shunzi was so frightened that both legs trembled, but he was still worried about his injury, "But your hand is still bleeding, Your Majesty......"
Shen Wu'an jerked back his hand, "I told you to get out, did you hear that?" ”
Seeing that he insisted on refusing to let the imperial doctor come to see his hands, Xiao Shunzi had no other way but to exit the hall first according to his wishes, and at the same time couldn't help muttering in his heart: These two people don't look right, this time there should really be a big incident!
After driving people out, Shen Wu'an stared at his hand for a long time, and suddenly covered his face with his hand.
Xiangxue Temple.
A few girls were getting together to coax the crying little Shen Li, Qu Wurong didn't come back all night yesterday, the little guy didn't see his mother, he had a big temper for a while, the nurse coaxed a few girls for a long time before he fell asleep, and I didn't see Qu Wurong when I woke up this morning, the little guy was finally unhappy, no matter how much they coaxed, they didn't give any face, and they kept crying from waking up to now.
Jin Yu's eyes were sharp, and he was the first to see Qu Wurong who walked in from outside the door, and hurriedly trotted up to greet him, "Miss, Miss, you're back!" After speaking, I saw that her face was pale, her right hand kept covering her chest, and she hurriedly asked worriedly, "Miss, what's wrong with you?" Uncomfortable? ”
"I'm fine." Qu Wurong shook his head, pushed her away and continued to walk inside, while asking, "What's wrong with Li'er?" ”
"I haven't seen you since last night, little prince is missing Miss." The person who answered her was a good fate, and at this time she also noticed that Qu Wurong's face was very bad, and she paused when she wanted to hand the child to her, "Miss, your face doesn't look very good, are you tired?" Otherwise, let's take a break. ”
Qu Wurong shook his head gently, "No, give me the child." ”
Hearing her say this, Liangyuan hesitated for a moment, and finally handed Xiao Shen Li in his hand into her arms. It's also strange to say, the little guy is obviously not yet a full moon, but he can already accurately distinguish his mother's parents, just as soon as he arrived in Qu Wurong's arms, the crying voice was much quieter, pouting with a small mouth and sobbing and matching, that look really pitiful!
"Has the nurse fed her?" Qu Wurong asked while patting the little guy in his arms.
Liangyuan nodded, "I just fed it, and I usually sleep after feeding, but I don't know why today, he just didn't sleep after a few of us coaxed him for a long time, and he kept crying." ”
Hearing her words, Qu Wurong lowered his head and rubbed the little guy's face, probably because he had been crying for too long just now, the little guy's little face looked red, but fortunately, there was no fever, which made Qu Wurong feel a little relieved, "Leave the child to me, you all go and get busy." With that, he walked towards the dormitory.
When her figure disappeared from sight, several girls got together, and Yangchun asked puzzledly, "What's wrong with Niangniang?" The face looks so bad, it can't be sick, right? ”
"I don't look like I'm sick." Bai Xue shook her head and denied her statement, "I guess I'm in a bad mood." ”
Hearing her say this, Jin Yu touched her chin in confusion, "It shouldn't be, she said last night that she was going to see the emperor, and I was in a good mood when I saw her, why didn't she come back today?" ”
Liangyuan glanced at her and said hesitantly, "Could it be...... The two of them quarreled, right? ”
"Impossible, right?" Yangchun didn't agree with her statement, "Niangniang is leaving tomorrow, how can the emperor quarrel with her at such a time?" ”
As soon as she said this, several girls fell silent.
This is a topic that they all try to avoid mentioning, but not mentioning it doesn't mean that it will never happen, maybe it's because of the upcoming parting, so Qu Wurong's mood is so bad, right?
In the dormitory, Qu Wurong put the little guy who began to fall asleep after being in her arms on the bed, pulled the brocade quilt on the side to cover him, and then sat on the edge of the bed and patted him again and again, coaxing him to sleep.
The little guy was already sleepy after breastfeeding, but because he didn't see Qu Wurong all night, he lost his temper and refused to sleep, plus he cried for so long just now, and his body had already been consumed at this time, and he soon fell asleep under her coaxing.
After making sure that the little guy was asleep, Qu Wurong withdrew his hand and sat on the edge of the bed to watch the sleeping little guy distracted.
I thought that the child was still young, and the impression on her was not very deep, even if she left it would not have much impact on him, but now it seems that she thought too simply, although the little one was born for only a month, but he had been in her belly for more than seven months before, and they were connected by blood, how could the little guy's attachment to her be shallow?
It's just that she can use telling the truth to force Shen Wu'an to let go of her attachment to her, so what should she do with this little guy in front of her who can't even understand words?