He should understand.

In the huge world, he is the only one Mo Huaiyuan, who has no way to come from, and his way is unknown.

When he drove out of the military hospital on a rampage alone, he lost his direction, and with the absence of his youthful vitality over the years, his physique, physical fitness, including his mental head, were no longer as good as those years in the army, his body was old, his heart was also dead, and looking back at the way he came, it was a ridiculous and shameful absurdity.

Hatred, like a time bomb buried in the bottom of his heart, his cousin's words proved his conjecture, he no longer needs to ask his uncle and aunt for verification, and then face such relatives, facing uncle, Mo Yubei will probably only feel that after death, he will let go of the world, and the children left behind cannot control their own destiny, so that life is like a joke until now.

It only adds to the sadness.

"Don't tell Uncle I've been here, and even if I do, don't mention what I told you."

Mo Huaiyuan touched the child's head, and begged faintly in a dumb voice.

Monet's face changed slightly when he heard this.

His chest was shaking slightly, he couldn't help it, squeezed his wife and children and walked over, dragged him up, stared into his eyes and asked: "You bumped into me halfway, not expected, and now you have confirmed that these things are true, and there is evidence, but you don't come to take refuge and rely on us?" What are you going to do yourself? For a lifetime, hide from everyone and swallow the bitter fruit alone? ”

"What else could you do otherwise?"

Mo Huaiyuan didn't refute at all, only said in a cold voice, his raised eyes were mottled with bloodshots, and he stared at him calmly.

"The legal prosecution period has passed, that person's position is high, and he can't shake half a point, do I want to fight with him for the rest of my life for what happened twenty-six years ago? I can't fight, even if I win, my parents won't survive, and I can't go through all those years again......"

"Cousin......" he let out a low cry with his narrow eyes down.

"It's good that I know about this alone, and as for you, living your life well is more important than anything else. You see, you have a family reunion, a wife and children, what else do you want to do with these? Need not. ”

It's not that he's great, it's his own business, and he doesn't want anyone to worry about it anymore.

If only he knew those things himself.

He took a step back indifferently and straightened up some of the dirty cuffs, and the melted snowflake mud marks on them were also a little dry.

"Now that the snow has stopped, I'll go refuel and leave, I saw that your New Year's goods are not ready. Hurry up and prepare. He put his big hand on the child's head, took off one of his epaulettes, and played with him.

At this moment, it is the twenty-eighth day of the new year, and the festivities are approaching.

Monet stood stiffly in place, somehow very sad and depressed, walked over, pulled his arm, and said: "My construction company is short of manpower, especially the lack of competent ones, didn't you say that your work in Maicheng is almost over?" If you don't have anywhere to go, come and help me in the next year. ”

“…… Well. ”

Regarding this matter, Mo Huaiyuan still thought about it carefully.

He would not refuse anyone's help because of his arrogance, because he knew very well that the army itself would never be able to return, not because the rank hung on it was no longer useful, but because a person like him who had no faith would have no perseverance even if he entered.

And officialdom ......

Officialdom. Too dirty. It is not entirely his wish to be in politics for many years, and besides, where An Zhanyu can intervene and touch, he does not want to be contaminated again in this life.

He could feel his faintly beating heartbeat at the moment, the heat and velocity of his blood, proving that he was barely alive. To live, you have to do something to keep yourself alive, to feel the feeling of being alone and alive.

……

The Mo family stayed until it was completely dark, and a person came outside.

Monet was accustomed to living in this kind of bungalow and small courtyard, remote but quiet, the folk customs are more simple, a little far away from the downtown but when you need to drive there, and few people can generally find him here.

Every family here has a dog, and when there is a slight movement at night, the continuous barking of the dog is heard far and wide.

Heavy snow is falling.

It's almost all over the windows.

"Mom, there's someone out there, stealing a car." The older child screamed and pointed out the window.

Lin Ruo was taken aback.

I patted the flour on my hands, hurried to the window, and sure enough, I saw a person, wrapped in a heavy scarf, wiping away the snowflakes on Monet's car and looking inside, thin and small, like a woman

tang。

"Ana, look!"

Monet was also taken aback, looked carefully, comforted his wife and children, wrapped himself in an overcoat and went out.

There was a lot of wind and snow outside, and a cold air instantly enveloped him.

The slender little woman, looking inside with the snow on his car, her face was pale from the cold, and the five fingers exposed on the open finger gloves were as red as turnips.

"What are you doing?" Monet spoke out unceremoniously, "Looking for whom?" What for? ”

An Ran glanced at the flat snow on the ground in his house, there was no trace of the vehicle rolling, and his frozen little hand put the phone in his pocket, and took out a piece of paper to spread it out to show the owner of the house.

"Have you ever seen this license plate number? Kyoto drove over, Beijing V, the listing of the troops directly under the central government, very special, have you seen it? ”

"You guys ...... here" An Ran's nose was red from the cold, and the moisture in his eyes became cold in a few seconds, and he looked around, "Every family has dogs, all of them are big dogs, I'm a little scared, I'm not a bad person, I'm just here to find this car and the owner of the car, don't let the dog bite me......"

Monet was stunned for a moment, staring at the license plate number on her open paper with a somewhat dull expression.

“…… What are you looking for this car for? His voice was slightly harsh.

Enron shook his head.

"It's okay if you haven't seen it, I'm very short on time, I'm looking for it in every house, thank you, goodbye."

She slipped the note into her pocket and was about to leave.

"Hey, you wait," Monet stopped her, and by the light of the light she could see that her face was a little familiar, "you will definitely be bitten by a dog if you break into every house like this, you tell me what are you looking for this car?" How did you know he was here? ”

An Ran didn't have time to talk to him about that.

She was in a hurry.

The slender legs had already stepped out of the door of his house, and he was taking out his mobile phone to make a call.

"The address you provided is incorrect...... There are only these rows of houses in this area, I followed the camera at the intersection to see, that is, I turned into here, but I found the last one, you didn't give it right, hurry up and find it! ”

She stamped her feet, her eyes were full of hot tears, she gasped, her chest rose and fell, and she looked very excited.

Monet followed, looking at her fixedly.

He was also searching in his memory for something that might be related to Mo Huaiyuan, this age, this woman, she was wearing a big army green casual cotton dress, her legs were very thin, her hair was slightly long and slightly curly scattered on her shoulders and back, her eyes were swollen from crying or what, her eyes were round like a lost deer, and the tears fell down with a blink of an eye.

Hanging up the phone, she was silent.

Alone, standing there in a daze, letting the snowflakes wrap her whole, she looked into the distance, her expression was distracted, clutching her phone, still waiting.

The phone rang twice suddenly, and when she saw it, it was almost out of battery.

An Ran looked at the phone twice in a daze, looked up at the man who had been watching him, and said in a hoarse voice: "Can you borrow me a plug to charge it?" A little bit is enough. ”

This man, with his height and size, and between his eyebrows and eyes, seems to be somewhat similar to Mo Huaiyuan.

She just saw someone who looked a little like him now, and she couldn't stand it, staring at him carefully, and her eyes became hot and flashing a little.

Monet turned his face sideways, thought for a moment, and nodded.

……

Lin Ruo looked at the Qiē in front of her in amazement, her husband actually came in with the "female car thief" and found a place to charge her.

The little woman's eyes were blank and inattentive, and her whole body was full of wandering.

While Monet was looking for a suitable plug for her, he asked, "Who are you looking for?" Who lost someone in the family? In such a hurry? ”

The little woman squatted there, waiting for the electricity to be charged little by little, silent.

Monet was unwilling, even a little impolite, and asked again.

This time, her tears fell directly, and a few "pops" fell heavily on the floor of his house, still not speaking. Lin Ruo pulled his clothes and pulled him to speak, with a look of reproach and questioning.

When Enron was about to reach the high-speed toll booth, it was forced to stop due to road closure.

It was already past dinner time in the afternoon.

An Ran ran rampant in Kyoto and couldn't find anyone, so she asked a friend to help her check the surveillance video of the Road Bureau, Qin Yi repeatedly asked her what happened, she didn't answer, just begged him to say, please find it quickly.

Qin Yi was stunned.

Queen An generally doesn't ask for people, and if she asks for someone, people can't refuse, he just teased "Why don't you go to your brother Huaiyuan for help", and immediately reacted, the license plate number she gave was not Mo Huaiyuan's!

At this time, he vaguely remembered those things in Maicheng a few years ago, Qin Yi glanced at her again, and asked seriously, "What's wrong with you two?" ”

An Ran didn't want to say anything, only said: "Let me find him, I'm willing to do anything." ”

Qin Yi was terrified when he heard it.

On the highway, the heavy snow fell one after another, the traffic police pulled the blockade line, closed the toll station, all the cars were going back, safely abandoned the car, and crossed the anti-landslide slope next to the highway alone, let the car be towed away She didn't want it, to the other side, found a car, gave money to the person to take her into the territory of Z city.

The man drove all the way, and the snow road gradually solidified into an ice road, and he didn't dare to drive fast, but An Ran kept urging quietly.

The heavy snow rushed towards him through the car window, and he couldn't see the road ahead clearly with the headlights, and there were small car accidents on the road in the past, but An Ran kept thinking about what kind of mood he was in when he drove all the way over and drove all night blankly.

When she got to the closed road, she did it, got out of the car, and changed to another one.

The world is too big.

If he wants her to find it, she's looking for a needle in a haystack.

An Ran held back the pain in her heart, looking at the city blankly, Mo Huaiyuan had accompanied her through so many places before, from south to north, from one end of the world to that end, without the slightest complaint, now that he was gone, she wanted to follow the route he had taken to find him, but found it so difficult.

She hated herself for being a road idiot, hated that she had lost the ability to take care of herself because she was favored by him, and hated that she was too weak to find him.

The children on the side were chasing and playing.

A golden thing crossed the eye for a moment.

An Ran was suddenly stunned, raised her head, looked at the two children chasing and laughing at the thing they were grabbing, her eyes followed the thing tightly, and as soon as the phone was loose and fell to the ground, she stood up and snatched the thing in the child's hand.

An epaulette!!

Not a formal epaulette, the golden trimmed base, but she knows the rank represented by the pattern on it, and the most important thing is that the back of the epaulette is also printed with the logo of the former Light and Shadow Team, a lightning logo.

It's him.

"What is this? Where are you from? ”

The two children were clamoring to snatch under her, but she ignored it, pinched the epaulettes, and suddenly asked.

The two couples who were arguing stopped.

Lin Ruo's mouth opened wide, there was no explanation, and she didn't expect that this woman was here to find Monet's cousin.

Monet looked at the epaulettes, then at her.

Walk over, take it, and continue to hand it to the child to play with.

"I keep asking you why you came to him, who of yours was lost, you didn't say it yourself......" He pushed the children away and let them play elsewhere, looking up at An Ran, "Can I know who you are now?" ”

An Ran clenched his fists, hung down at his side, stared at him and said, "If you don't tell me how this thing came about, he is in danger, and you will be finished." ”

Monet smiled.

He probably guessed the identity of this woman, and his hand, hanging down to his side, shook slightly.

"Are you all so arrogant? No wonder he wasn't happy to stay. I'm going to live with you every day, and I'm going to be crazy if I know that kind of thing again. ”

He really knew where Mo Huaiyuan was!

An Ran also knew that Mo Huaiyuan must have stayed here, maybe for a short time, and he left again.

The eye sockets were wet in an instant.

She didn't react to what the other party said, she couldn't listen to it, looked around, approached the past, and asked in a choked and trembling voice: "What about others?" He's been here, hasn't he? He's in trouble now, I'm in a hurry, I don't ask you anything, you tell me where he is, okay? ”

Monet stared at the woman for a long time.

He didn't know Mo Huaiyuan's love history, but he remembered that he had seen him with this woman on TV many times, but at that time this woman was wearing a military uniform, and he didn't recognize it for a while, they should be very close.

Pacing in place twice, he looked up at her, a bloodshot in his eyes.

Then, he spat out a hoarse sentence.

"The ...... of the New Year Why did you just let him know about it......"

"He doesn't want to stay here, for fear of causing me trouble, how do I know where he will go anywhere else? Where can he go? ”

An Ran felt a dull pain in his heart, looking at him, he couldn't ease up for a long time.

It wasn't until she finally recovered that she understood.

In other words, Mo Huaiyuan stayed here for a short time, and then left, and the people in front of him didn't know where he went.

Enron didn't know.

The little woman standing alone on the floor of the room, her eyes were dull and stiff for a long time, and finally, she lowered her face that was deeply hidden in sorrow, pulled out the mobile phone she was charging, and said goodbye without saying goodbye, walked out directly, opened the door and rushed into the snowstorm.

"......" Lin Ruo felt pity for the same sex and wanted to stop her.

Monet, however, stared at her back and stopped his wife.

Who wants to do what in this world, they can't stop it, especially when he looks at this woman's eyes, as if he can see many years of vicissitudes at a glance, that feeling is exactly the same as when he looked at Mo Huaiyuan, he has a lot of things that he can't be sure, the only thing that can be sure, this woman must know him better than them, and understand his life better.

So, let her find it.

He couldn't think of anyone but her who could find him.

***********

Enron, of course, knew him. Understand his life.

Because from his life when he was 9 years old to the present, she has been with all of them, experienced them, and understood them all.

She understands that when Mo Huaiyuan learns the truth about his parents' sacrifice, the memories of the past will be completely destroyed like layers of fallen tarot cards.

She felt sorry for Mo Huaiyuan in every moment of her memory.

Every pain of his life was stained with her own sins, and she felt that her hands were full of his blood.

Every turn in his life, every decision, turned into a joke.

An Ran sat on the double-decker bus to the urban welfare institute, sat on the second floor, closed his eyes, tilted his head, and felt the snowflakes of the whole city falling on his face one after another, and she understood his feelings.

I don't know what life means.

I don't know where to go.

Qin Yi sent a new section of information.

An Ran finished reading it with the last bit of electricity, and the phone flashed twice and officially turned off.

She decided that this was the last stop to find him with the help of tools and connections, and that she would rely on her heart to find the rest.

***********

In the welfare home in Z City, Enron finally saw the car.

Jing v00***, parked in the courtyard of the rightful middle.

An Ran didn't sleep all night, and when she arrived in the early morning, she was holding the cold iron rod through the big iron door, and almost shed tears.

The night passed in a daze, she squatted down and shrunk in the corner, so sleepy that she hugged her knees and squinted, and when her knees loosened and her head fell and she woke up, she took a look at the car and the car was still there.

The snow hasn't stopped.

Twenty-nine of the Lunar New Year. Morning.

It wasn't that early during the Chinese New Year, and by the time someone found her, it was already around 90 o'clock in the morning.

The people from the welfare home let her in, saying that the car had arrived last night, and that it had been parked there since it arrived, and that they had not known where they had gone, and that they did not have the phone number of the gentleman.

He bought some things for the children, talked to a few people, and left.

There is another day that is Chinese New Year's Eve, where are the others?

A little girl giggled and ran after a big boy, which reminded her of the time when her mother Shen Pan died, and she grabbed her brother's clothes with her little hands and cried earth-shattering.

But those memories are just memories after all, and Enron's feelings for him have long been beyond the simple dependence at that time.

An Ran was embarrassed to ask the people in the welfare home for some food and drink, and found a place to wash his face with hot water.

She was going to see him, soon, no matter what he looked like now.

This day and night of cold seems to be not light, severe cold and fever, it doesn't matter if you are safe, and your spirit is still very strong.

She couldn't wait, put down some money, and went out to find him herself while the dean was out.

The small city of Z City is not as big as Kyoto, and it will become an empty city when the year comes, leaving the old Kyoto people to wander leisurely, and Z City is lively, thinking about him smoking while walking on the street, walking unhurriedly, pressing one step at a time, walking like this, as soon as she looked up, she really saw him suddenly appear in front of her, thin and long, with lazy eyebrows and indifferent eyes, and the cigarette between his fingers burned gently beside him silently.

Mo Huaiyuan stopped, raised his chin slightly, and looked at her.