(This chapter is quite satisfying...... It would be nice if there was an artist who could help draw the plot illustrations. It's a pity that the profession is too expensive)

My dream is to become a truly lonely hermit.

This is not a high school student's sophomore dream, nor is it a blow after trauma, but a real behavior.

The knot is in the human realm, and there is no noise of cars and horses. Ask you how you can be, and your heart is far away.

This is the state of mind of a hermit.

Whether it's loneliness, behavior, or thoughts. I thought I had created something, but when I looked up the information, I found that someone had already listed a series of methods on it. This blow should have been very cruel, but I don't know what it is, but I felt relaxed when I looked at those words.

I am a hermit.

The small is hidden in the wilderness, the middle is hidden in the world, and the big is hidden in the court.

If I had to say it, the school was also a small social group, and it wasn't a mistake for me to hide inside.

Maintain an elegant and arrogant state of mind.,Observe every move of the people next to you with a unique eye.,And then analyze and organize it into your own things.。 No matter what happens around you or what you see, it doesn't affect your thoughts.

No matter what happens, you will remain proud, and no matter what happens, you will continue to be lonely. If no one can understand, there will be no harm, and if there is no harm, there will be no communication. It's not the same as the ancients, but it's my way.

That's the life I want.

I am full of yearning for this kind of life.

I don't need anything that interferes with this life, that makes me hope in others, that makes me try to get out of the shadows.

Loneliness is the enemy of the whole world, and I don't have this kind of cute and pitiful thought. Because I really walked into loneliness, I was willing to indulge in the shadows, but I knew the truth. I know better than anyone the nature of loneliness. Loneliness does not mean that the world is against you, and true loneliness means that you alone have decided to give up the entire world world. This is the body of loneliness.

This world is both well-intentioned and full of malice. The so-called malice and goodwill are entangled, so there is no absolute wrong, and there is no absolute goodness. I can't change the world, but I can change myself.

So I'm alone. Abandon the world, give up the mind, and use oneself as a fortress of loneliness.

"Yubihama."

Now that you have made a good decision, you will not back down.

Now that you have enlightenment, you will no longer be confused.

So let's keep the distance apart. I don't know about Yubihama's feelings, but I know my feelings.

I'm shaken.,I've already begun to look forward to it.,I've developed warm feelings for seeing Yubihama day after day.。 It's not good, it's not what I need, I don't need these, so separate.

…… Although this is just a pretext.

"I'm glad you could give me cookies, but I can't eat them."

There was a deliberate nonchalant expression on his face, and if I were a bystander, I would have punched this person in the face.

But now I'm the one who does it. So everything is my fault.

I'm the worst kind of person.

"It's too dry, and it doesn't look good, but I just finished lunch, so I'm worried about my side a little."

"Huh? Yes, is that so? I think I've done a good job this time, and it's rare to say with a little confidence......"

A little embarrassed expression appeared on his face, and Yubihama withdrew his palm with a slight smile, a look of confusion.

To be fair, the cookies were really good this time, and the colors looked a little weirder, but they were much stronger than when she first started. The news that she likes to cook is not fake, but she is really serious about studying hard. Just look at this cookie and tell how hard she's working. And I'm sure this cookie tastes definitely not bad, because she loves to put sugar, so it must be sweet. It's like honey with a little creamy and gentle sweetness. It's evocative.

Of course I know this kind of thing, and I can even say that no one knows it better than I do. She was in my house for a week. I know better than anyone else the process of what was uneatable and gradually became delicious. Because I'm the one in charge of the ingredients, and I'm the one who is in charge of cleaning up, so I know it.

"Delusion, people will always have delusions. Just because you think it's delicious doesn't mean others think it's delicious, at least for me, I can't stand it. ”

"Eh-don't say that, people work hard......"

I know better than anyone how good Yui Yui Yui is this girl. I also know better than anyone how the brilliance of Yui Yui's girl shines. The dazzling light is the same as under the snow.

If what happened under the snow frightened me, Yubihama made me feel guilty.

After all, I am a person who aspires to be a hermit, so it would be nice to erase my existence little by little.

Although the meaning of hermit originally meant purity and elegance of the heart, it had nothing to do with relationships. But I'm not that kind of level of existence yet, and I can't reach that kind of arrogant state of mind. Even in that dream, I couldn't have achieved it. So I can only use this clumsy means to keep myself clean.

So I'm the worst person, not one of them.

"Hard work doesn't mean it's effective. If hard work could affirm everything, then there would have been no controversy in this world for a long time. Wouldn't it be nice if everyone worked together? Anyway, I went first, and I had time to talk slowly. ”

"Huh? Huh? Wait, that's weird for small businesses today? ”

"Really? I think I've always been like this. ”

"Little ...... Stand on tiptoe? ”

So see you again. As he spoke, he lowered his head and waved his hand at Yubihama. With a slight pull back of her wrist, she made a defensive look, deliberately not looking at her somewhat stunned and sad face, and turned around and walked in the direction of her class.

Everything is my fault.

It was I who proudly started this so-called ministry and used it to distort other people's lives. Their behavior, their comments, and their thoughts will change according to my existence. Because I'm a rotten person, a person who doesn't exist, a person who lowers his evaluation even when they're together, which I proved in junior high school.

So I'm anomalous.

The only way to deal with the existence of the anomaly is to isolate it.

Then it's good to gradually separate the distance with indifference and camouflage. Re-establish the walls and relationships, and that's it.

I can return to loneliness, and under the snow and Yubihama will shine as brightly as ever. If you drip a drop of sewage into a wine barrel, then the barrel is also sewage. If you put a drop of wine in a bucket of sewage, then the sewage will not turn into wine.

So it's normal for sewage to choose to leave alone for the sake of others, even if sewage doesn't want to hurt the alcohol so much. As long as it exists, it will stain what is originally shining with impurities. And if such impurities appear in a group, others will inevitably make irresponsible comments. This behavior is the most normal choice of human beings.

So the sewage chose to break up.

Even though my heart hurts, and listening to her voice makes my heart throb, I can't help but do it.

Because sewage and wine can never be mixed.

Because, I am superfluous.