The four eyes are facing each other, and Shen Ying's face is also electric and flint, changing rapidly. When I saw him, I felt a clear pain in my heart. This miserable green boy in white clothes and handsome looks is close at hand, but he is far away from the world, and he can no longer play with me without any worries. I vaguely remember that we played chess in Kunlun Mountain, chased by the colorful pool, and slept under the osmanthus tree...... It's as clear as last night, and as far away as the previous life.

We stared at Shen Ying for a long time, and I must have looked at Shen Ying with sorrow and anguish, because at this moment my heart burned and ached, as if it was about to burst open my chest. And Shen Ying looked at me with the same sadness in his eyes. His face was pale, and his mouth was a trembling and hoarse voice, full of vicissitudes: "You...... Coming back? ”

My heart burned like a hammer, and I vomited blood. I came back, but he and I couldn't go back. The hatred of the mother is like a chasm, so wide and deep that it cannot be crossed for eternity.

"I ...... I'm coming to see Ana. "My voice was also so dry that it was like a rough bone disc scraping against a person's eardrum.

"Ana?" Shen Ying trembled, and the blood on her face suddenly disappeared, "She...... Not in the Queen Mother's Palace. ”

"And where did she go?"

"The Queen Mother has sent her on an errand." After Shen Ying finished speaking, the pestle was in a dilemma between the door frames.

I tugged at the corners of my mouth, bitter and lost. The foreboding in my heart is like a fog that is getting thicker and thicker.

Shen Ying didn't mean to drive me away, and she didn't mean to close the door. I didn't have anything to say, "Haven't you always been the queen mother?" Why did you only work as a doorman in the palace of the Queen Mother? ”

Shen Ying was slightly stunned, and then returned to her cold expression, "There is no distinction between high and low positions, and Concubine Xiang's status is noble, of course she can't look down on the errand of the doorman." ”

There is no speculation, and there is no possibility of re-talking.

I dragged my lost and tired steps back to the Xiaoxiang Pavilion. Back in Xiaoxiang Pavilion, from the mouths of Bao Chan and Yu'er, I learned that Shen Ying was punished by the Queen Mother to guard the door of the Queen Mother's Palace, or because of me. Tianjun picked up her mother-in-law from the Queen Mother's palace without the consent of the Queen Mother of the West, and it was Shenying who quietly let her mother-in-law out of the palace. My heart is full of mixed feelings, and my sore feelings are turning over the river and the sea. He knew why his mother-in-law left the palace to go to Xuefeng to save me, and he naturally released people for me.

Even if I kill your mother and live up to the beautiful friendship between us, even if I destroy the sprout of love between us with my own hands, you will not hate me, but you will protect me and think about me.

The sunset was like wine red, falling on the golden and jade ground of the Heavenly Palace, and in this golden red brightness, I stepped on the cotton and walked dizzily.

When I came to the palace of the Queen Mother again, I held back the tears that were about to burst out of my eyes and opened the palace door.

Shen Ying's plain white and pure face appeared in the crack of the door again. Seeing me go and return, he was taken aback, and said without any emotion: "Why is Concubine Xiang here again?" I said that Mother-in-law is not in the Queen Mother's palace and will not lie to you. ”

I couldn't help but hug Shen Ying's waist, burying my head in his arms for a long time and reluctant to lift it. This long-lost embrace, my miserable green boy, it turns out that you have never left me.

Shen Ying was stunned for a moment, but quickly pushed me away and said coldly: "Concubine Xiang is self-respecting!" ”

I was stunned for a moment, then realized that I was out of shape, and embarrassedly let go of my hand that was tightly wrapped around Shen Ying's waist, and said abruptly: "Thank you, Shen Ying." ”

"Thank me for what?" Shen Ying's complexion became more and more unfathomable.

"You were punished by the Queen Mother to be a doorman in the Queen Mother's Palace, and you were killed by me......"

"What is Concubine Xiang talking about? I am a waiter in the palace of the Queen Mother, and any errand sent to me by the Queen Mother has anything to do with Concubine Xiang? ”

The more Shen Ying cleared up, the more distressed and moved my heart became.

"You were punished by the Queen Mother for letting go of your mother-in-law without permission, and you let go of your mother-in-law so that she could go to the snow field to save me, because the snow girl made a condition that she would only be willing to hand over the lotus jade intermittent ointment to re-connect my beads, and there is no one else in the world who has rejuvenated her hand except her mother-in-law......"

"Concubine Xiang!" Shen Ying's eyes were as deep as two pools of black water, "You are self-inflicted." ”

My heart fluttered, "Whatever you say, I know that you care about me in your heart, and you can't let go of me in your heart!" ”

"If you insist on saying that, then I tell you, what I can't let go of is the hatred of my mother! You don't kill Beren, but Beren dies because of you, you are the murderer of my mother! I can't let you lose your memory, I want you to recover your memory, I want you to live forever in self-blame and shame, I want you to always bear guilt, I want you to be tormented by guilt every day! ”

Shen Ying's eyes were bloodshot, her pale cheeks were flushed with emotion, and I woke up like I was from a dream. I felt a roar in my brain, like a thunderbolt on a sunny day, falling straight down from the air to the ground, staggering back a few steps, my throat was hot, and a mouthful of blood gushed up, but in the face of Shen Ying's angry gaze, I swallowed it back without a trace.

Standing for a long time, his mind was still blank, and his ears rumbled, full of echoes of his every word. Straight in place, unable to come back to his senses for a long time.

What is Shinei talking about? Can't I understand a word? I understand every word! Everything he did was not to save me, but to get revenge on me, and I thought that he could let go of his mother's hatred and let me go. I'm so naïve, that's a revenge for my mother! That's his mother! For a weak plant like me, which has no father or mother like a crevice in a stone, how luxurious is maternal love, and how can I understand and comprehend the emotions between mother and child? I killed his mother, and it hurts ten times, a hundred, a thousand, a thousand times more than digging out the flesh of his heart, right?

Do you know how sinful you are, O Zhu?

I can't bear to look at the molten pain and injury in Shen Ying's eyes anymore, I'm afraid that if I look at it again, I will be ruined myself.

Shenying, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry......

I said these three words a thousand times in my heart, but I didn't dare to open my mouth to Shen Ying. What a vain and weak three words. An empty word can't save a life, so what's the benefit of saying more?

I turned around and walked along the pond in confusion and weakness.

The sunset is blood-red, like a ruined flower. I walked unconsciously, aimlessly, like a fog.

"Zhu-" It wasn't until someone called me that I came back to my senses, it was the Heavenly Monarch, I suddenly felt wronged, and tears fell.

Tianjun walked up to me, grabbed my hand, and exclaimed, "Why are your hands so cold? "Saying that, I was busy losing some real anger. I felt two streams of heat pressing into my body, my hands warmed up, and I gradually returned to my soul.

"Why don't you stay in the Xiaoxiang Pavilion, what are you doing here?"

I looked up and looked around, only to find that I had walked to the vicinity of the Love Palace, which was in the middle of nowhere, and it was difficult for the Heavenly Monarch to find me.

"I came to visit Mei'er Gui'er in the Love Palace after I finished handling affairs in the Lingxiao Palace, but I didn't expect that I just came out of the Love Palace and ran into you, I was about to go to the Xiaoxiang Pavilion to have dinner with you!"

Tianjun's words are distressed and mixed with hatred, and it is very heartwarming to listen to in people's hearts.

And I must be as pale as paper at the moment, and I can't help but say: "I went to look for Ana, but Ana's is not in the Queen Mother's Palace, didn't you tell me that Ana's is in the Heavenly Court and Ana's is in the Queen Mother's Palace?" Why can't I see her, where did she go? Did something happen to her? ”

I looked at the Heavenly Monarch pleadingly, hoping that he would tell me the true answer. I just looked up at him expectantly.