30. Do you want to really live?

(The third update ~ After tomorrow, if not, it will come to a standstill~ But I don't know why I feel relieved? 6,000 words a day, changing the original book has become more troublesome...... Hawkers,Anyway, I can relax after the third update on August 3rd. Unless it is not said that the local tyrant will make a trip to bite the gold, otherwise I will rest~ By the way, Xueba's new book is called "Death Truant Diary", I'll replace all the friendly links with his later, so that everyone can see it, right? It's okay to collect it.,Leave the recommended ticket to the fifty-year-old boy.,Let's make these two popular together! Anyway, I'm just going to read the book. )

"It turned out to be like ...... Ah, yes! That's weird! Substituting the masses for the individual is the violence of the majority! ”

"You're finally reacting?"

It's a bit of a pity to let Yubihama accept it only in an instant. It's a private liberal arts. But my purpose is not just a happy arithmetic classroom.

"It's all about numbers, it's a matter of how you think. Do you know what it means? ”

"It's really strange to be able to get the conversation back when it comes to this......"

Under the snow, he was half sluggish and half emotional, with a complicated expression.

"Hmm...... Although I don't approve of it very much. But 3% is not bad, so I feel a little happier when I think about it. It's still hard to have a good relationship with everyone. Yubihama's words were tinged with realism. Yuhihama redirected towards Rumi with an encouraging smile.

"So, if Rumi-chan thinks so too......"

Rumi holds the digital camera and smiles.

"Well, but in that case, Mom still can't accept it. I'm always asking if I'm getting along with my friends or something, and this forest school also lets me take a lot of photos back, and the camera is also ......"

I guess I bought it for this. Normally, you would think of events such as school trips as memories that will last a lifetime. For this reason, it is not surprising that the top of the body bought it.

"That's right...... She's a good mother. So concerned about Rumi-chan's business. ”

Although Yubihama said this with peace of mind, the voice under the snow that took over the topic was very cold.

"Really? …… Is it really not a symbol of all desires placed under one's own control for the sake of domination? ”

As if placing people on thin ice, words that evoke uneasiness come out one after another.

Yubihama couldn't hide his surprise as if he had eaten a stuffy stick.

"Huh......? There is no such thing! And...... That's a bit mean, huh? ”

"You're under the snow, oh ......"

Looking at the indifferent expression on the face under the snow, thinking of what Yono had mentioned, I suddenly showed a look of understanding.

"Anyway, every family has a scripture that is difficult to read, but it is not good to add personal will to other people's homes for suspicion. You have your family, she has hers. Everyone's thoughts and places are different, and the words are profound, just that sentence...... You might as well apologize to Tsurumi Liumei's children. ”

"Under the snow, it was just a little too much." Shahi frowned on my side as well.

"Because I'm worried about that, I asked this and that, if I really don't care about anything and want to hold it in my hands, then what else will she do to meet your requirements and help you block the wind and rain? Just make you feel the pain and beg her no? ”

“…… Yes. Generally speaking, yes. It's that I'm a little too nervous. ”

Hearing me and Shahi say this, she bit her lip and lowered her head under the snow.

The eyes were just fixed on the ground between us and her.

When she raised her head again, her expression was a little more gentle than usual. Under the snow, he bowed his head towards Rumi.

"I'm sorry. I seem to have made a mistake and said something that didn't make sense. ”

"Ah, it's okay...... And it's a little hard to understand, I didn't understand it too much. ”

Faced with the sudden Dao under the snow, he replied incoherently. This guy apologized or something, it's the first time I've seen it. Even Yubihama's eyes widened. After calming down all of a sudden, Rumi became uncomfortable.

"So otherwise, how about you shoot these three big sisters? Anyway, it's beautiful, and it can handle your mother. ”

"They're not classmates, so they can't."

“…… That's right. ”

Rumi Tsurumi replied with a serious face. Then, the serious expression inadvertently burst into a smile.

"Will my current situation and the feeling I hate now change when I become a high school student......

"At least, if you plan to go on like this, it won't change."

After apologizing, he didn't show any mercy, Miss Under the Snow is awesome.

"But there's definitely a lot of problems around, right? There's no need to get along reluctantly for this reason. ”

"But Rumi-chan is working hard right now, if you don't do something......"

Yubihama looked at Rumi with some concern. Rumi showed a somewhat troubled expression.

"It's said to be hard...... It's kind of annoying. There was a miserable feeling. I feel like I'm being ignored as if I'm inferior. ”

"Yes."

"It's annoying, but there's nothing I can do about it."

"Why do you say that?" Asked under the snow.

Rumi Tsurumi seemed to feel a little indescribable, but even so, she made it clear into words.

"I ...... It's all gone. Relationships aren't getting any better. Even if the relationship is restored for a while, I don't know when Lu Dao will become like that again. If the same thing happened again, I don't think it would be better than that. It's miserable, and it's annoying...... However, wouldn't it be nice to be like this now compared to the future......"

In general, abandoned. I heard it very clearly, Rumi Tsurumi gave up on redemption. If you are afraid of falling into this situation again, it is better not to come out from the beginning. With such a negative attitude, he gave up the path of self-redemption.

It's the same.

It's not like under the snow, it's not like Yubihama, and I finally know why she's so afraid of me.

Like-sex repels each other, opposites attract. When a small same-sex magnetic field hits a much larger same-sex magnetic field than her, it is normal to want to escape. It's none other than me. Because she was afraid of falling into such a state again, she simply threw herself into the abyss by the most decisive means, and this little girl will go to such a path in the future.

How can you let a schoolboy like you succeed?

“…… Hey, I said you, do you want to have a reminiscent of your elementary school life? ”

"Huh? What do you mean? ”

Rumi Tsurumi looked at me in surprise with an incredulous expression.

"Here we go again......" Shahi showed an unbearable expression, but a smile appeared on his face.

"Just in case we have a fever here and you're embarrassed, I'm going to ask."

I stood up and looked at the little girl, who was a little stunned.

"Do you want to change who you are now? Do you want to change your life like this? You want real ...... Survive? ”