From the moment I was born, I was infinitely favored by my father and the emperor's uncle. My father is the sworn brother of the emperor's uncle, and the emperor's uncle trusts my father very much, plus he has no daughters, only three sons, so I have been favored by the emperor's uncle since I was a child, running around the palace, even hiding in his study to hide and seek, and no one dares to care about me.

Not only the imperial uncle, but also the three princes and brothers also treated me very well, and the concubines in the palaces also liked me very much, but when I grew up, I realized that they liked to spoil me, so they flattered me and wanted me to say good things in front of the imperial uncle. Whether it is sincere or false, the people in the palace and the palace are very good to me, and that is true.

No one ever said "no" to me before I met him, and no one ever scolded me.

I was twelve years old at the time, and I was leading a group of people to play in the corridor outside the main hall, and a little eunuch broke my paper kite, and I kicked him a few times in anger, and I raised my fist to hit him, but I was grabbed by the arm by a young man, who was very good-looking, but very cold, and the words he said were also cold, "Why did you hit him?" ”

I glared at him angrily, "He's my minion, I can fight if I want, who are you, why do you care about this county lord?" ”

He glanced at me coldly, "It's really like a rumor, it's a spoiled child!" ”

The first time I was said to be a spoiled child, I immediately became angry, and yelled at the guards behind me, "What are you doing in a daze, teach this kid a lesson for me!" ”

So the two guards with knives fought with him, and the three of them flew around the courtyard, which was very beautiful, and I clapped my palms and laughed, "Faster, yes, yes!" ”

Soon, Uncle Huang led the imperial guards to appear, and Uncle Huang's face was not very good, but he didn't lose his temper at me, but asked him sternly, "Shen Qingshu, why are you fighting in the palace?" ”

It turns out that the cold young man is called Shen Qingshu, isn't that the new champion of this year? I raised my eyebrows and looked at him carefully, a seventeen or eighteen-year-old boy, tall and handsome, just a little cold. He received my gaze and glanced at me, I winked at him proudly, and said in my heart Even if you confess me, Uncle Huang won't blame me, you just wait for the embarrassment.

But he didn't confess to me, but hugged his fists and pleaded guilty, "Your Majesty, Wechen heard that the palace guards were superb in martial arts, so he wanted to learn a few tricks, but Wechen was too reckless!" ”

Uncle Emperor's face softened, "I have heard that Shen Zhuangyuan is not only brilliant, but also very superb in martial arts, and it seems that today it is true!" ”

"The emperor has won the award, and Weichen is ashamed."

A storm was easily resolved by him, and I became interested in him.

I began to pester him every day, whether it was in the palace or outside the palace, we could always "meet by chance", at first he ignored me, and then he became tight, he frowned when he saw me, "County Lord, Weichen has already known that he is wrong, I implore you not to pester Weichen anymore, okay?" ”

"Not good!"

……

Soon, when I was fifteen years old, Uncle Huang began to work for me, and I told him very implicitly at that time that I would not marry other men except Shen Qingshu.

Uncle Huang smiled heartily, and he said, "The girl has the same vision as me." I was so beautiful at the time that even Uncle Huang agreed with him, it seems that he is really one of the best men.

However, I didn't expect that he already had someone he liked, and I heard that she was still a Qing/Lou woman, called Ling Xiao, and she was the top brand of Qunfanglou.

I thought that after three years, he would accept me, but I didn't expect him to fall in love with a green/lou woman, and even because she broke off relations with her family, why am I a county lord, and I am not as good as a green/lou woman? My father persuaded me to give up, saying that I could get a better fate with my identity, but I was determined to recognize him. There was never anything I couldn't get, and I swore I had to get his heart.

I know that Qinglou woman is my biggest threat, and I must make her disappear in Shen Qingshu's life. Before making that decision, I actually had a trace of hesitation, but when I saw him and Ling Xiao shopping hand in hand, I was angry, for three years, he was either indifferent to me, or impatient, so stingy that he didn't have a smile, but he smiled very gently at her, I remembered that the emperor's uncle said, "Those who achieve great things must be ruthless", so I did not hesitate to order two personal guards to kidnap Ling Xiao. But those two fools actually let her escape, although she later fell into the valley again, but her body was not found, but the mountain is so high, she should be dead, and the body should have been eaten by wild beasts.

Ling Xiao disappeared, Shen Qingshu was sad for a long time, and he no longer resisted, in fact, it was useless for him to resist, in short, I married into the Shen family as I wished.

On the night of the wedding, I was nervous and excited, obediently sat at the head of the bed and waited for him, but I waited for a long time and I was nowhere to be seen, I was very hungry and tired, but I insisted on wearing a hijab and waiting for him to come and lift it for me. I heard from the mother that the bride's hijab must be lifted by the groom himself, so that the newlyweds will be together for a hundred years and grow old together.

I sat at the head of the bed all night, and he didn't show up, and my mother said that the new daughter-in-law was going to give tea to her in-laws on the first day she entered the door, and I had to find him before the tea ceremony. I lifted my hijab, wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes, and called his little servant, only to find out that he had stayed in the study last night. When I walked into the study, he was not yet sober when he was drunk, he frowned tightly, and kept calling Ling Xiao's name in his mouth. My heart hurts, it turns out that he is still thinking about her!

My mother said that if I get married, I can no longer be willful, and I must be a good daughter-in-law, so I restrained my playful and rude temperament, accompanied my mother-in-law to go shopping and laughed, and won her favor, I treated everyone in the Shen Mansion with a pleasant face, and got their unanimous approval, but no matter how good I did, he didn't look at me twice, even if he talked to me, he was very polite, polite like two strangers.

Although we slept in the same bed, he never touched me, and every night when he lay in bed, he only left me with a cold back.

After two months like this, he was as cold as ever, and I began to change from lively to silent, I could hold a book and read for a day, or I could keep a quiet smile for a day without saying a word. If it hadn't been for that night, I thought I'd be living like this forever.

It was my birthday that night, and I was very happy that my uncle and father had sent me a lot of gifts, and my parents-in-law had also given me gifts, but I wanted to get his gifts.

At the banquet, he didn't say anything, he drank a lot of wine alone, after returning to the room, he vomited all over his body, I helped him change his clothes with my own hands, wiped his body, just wanted to leave but was grabbed by his hand, he said, Ling Xiao, don't go.

I covered my mouth and ran to the gazebo, sat on the floor and cried silently, I didn't dare to be too loud, I was afraid of being discovered, I didn't want others to see the joke.

"It's cold on the ground, so if you want to cry, sit on a stool and cry slowly."

I was startled, only to find that there was a man sitting in the gazebo, his bright red shirt looked a little strange in the dim light, and I immediately recognized him - Bai Yunxi. I couldn't make out the expression on his backlit face, but I didn't hear the mockery in his voice.

I wiped the tears from my face and waited until my breath had stabilized before replying, "Cousin said he laughed, Yunluo didn't cry. ”

Bai Yunxi didn't expose my lies, turned to look at the deep lake, and laughed softly, "Brother and sister, look how beautiful this lake is. ”

I silently walked up to him, only to see the broken candlelight sprinkled on the water, and the night wind blew, rippling with wrinkles, really beautiful.

After standing for a while, I began to feel cold, and it was already late autumn, but I was wearing only a thin shirt. I couldn't help but clasp my arms tightly, and suddenly I felt a wave of warmth blow over my body, and he draped the red flamboyant coat over my shoulders. I smiled at him and said, "Thank you!" ”

He smiled and rubbed my hair, his eyes doting, just like Uncle Huang and my father often did. I lost my mind for a moment, and I put my tongue out at him and grimaced, just as I often did to my uncle and father.

The smile on his face became even stronger, and he laughed out loud, his voice like a soothing breeze, making people feel comfortable and warm.

He said, you're still cute like this.

He said, the way you smile is really distressing.

He said, you are still a child who has not grown up, and you need to be pampered.

He said, let me spoil you.

My heart was beating fast, except for Shen Qingshu, he was the second man who made my heart beat so fast.

I trembled when his hand wrapped around my waist, and I pushed him away and ran away in a panic, but I couldn't suppress my beating heart.

Running back to the yard, I remembered that he was still covered in his clothes.

After hesitating for two days, I still decided to find an opportunity to return the clothes to Bai Yunxi and return them to him with my own hands, I think it is better to explain some things clearly, I can't let him misunderstand that I am a lonely woman who can't bear to cheat on her husband behind her back.

After dinner, I went back with Shen Qingshu, and when I passed by Bai Yunxi's side, I told him four words in a very low voice, Zishi Pavilion.

When I walked into the pavilion, Bai Yunxi had been waiting for a long time, I returned the clothes to him, then looked into his eyes, and said seriously, "Cousin, I am not the kind of woman you think, I will not betray my husband." ”

He seemed to be very happy, and he couldn't hide the smile on his face, he rubbed my hair dotingly, and said with a smile, "Silly girl, where do you want to go, cousin means to spoil you like a brother." ”

My face turned red with a brush, scratched my head, and smiled awkwardly.

He laughed louder and pinched my nose, his tone seemed helpless, "What a stupid girl, there's nothing I can do about you." ”

I couldn't help but grimace at him again, wondering, why would I be so relaxed in front of him, without the slightest feeling of walking on thin ice in front of Shen Qingshu.

Later, I really regarded Bai Yunxi as my brother, and the first thing that came to my mind was to tell him if I was worried or happy. He would make me laugh when I was upset, giggle with me when I was happy, and then rub my hair dotingly and say, "What a silly girl!" ”

Actually, I'm not stupid at all, I know that when he looked at me, his eyes flashed with something other than spoiling, which was something I would have in my eyes when I looked at Shen Qingshu before.

After Shen Qingshu hurt my heart again, I cried loudly in front of Bai Yunxi without any scruples, he stretched out his arms and hugged me tightly, this time he didn't comfort me with a nice voice, but whispered in my ear with a painful voice, "Yun'er, I feel so heartbroken if you are like this." ”

My tears soaked through his shirt, and he cupped my face, so careful, as if holding a treasure, and his lips fell gently to my cheek, kissing away my tears. This time, I didn't push him away.

When he entered my body, I felt a heart-rending pain, seeing me in pain, his beautiful eyebrows wrinkled together in distress, and he kept kissing my earlobe, saying over and over again that he loved me and loved me for the rest of his life.

If it weren't for Shen Mofeng's bump into us, I might have been the child who didn't grow up in Bai Yunxi's arms. When I faced Shen Mofeng's angry face in a panic, Bai Yunxi suddenly knocked him unconscious, and quickly took out a pill from his arms and stuffed it into his mouth. He explained that the pill could make him forget everything.

I was stunned, is this responsive and scheming man still the man I am familiar with who spoils me and loves me?

While I was worried about our affairs being exposed, while enjoying the love he gave, Ye Xiyan appeared.

I thought she would be as boring as the average lady, but Zhu'er reported to me her every move, what to hide and seek with her subordinates, take Shen Mofeng shopping, learn martial arts with Shen Mofeng, etc., she has a lot of tricks! It's just a matter of love tossing, but grandma is also up to her, Shen Qingyue and Shen Yafeng are also very close to her, and what's even worse is that Bai Yunxi is actually interested in her.

Obviously married to an idiot, she didn't cry or make trouble, and she laughed so happily every day, I was a little jealous of her open-mindedness.

Once upon a time, I also had a pure and simple smile, but now, even in front of Bai Yunxi, I feel a little fake, because the closer I get to him, the more I feel that I can't see through him. Although he didn't tell me about him, I learned from my father that his father, the mighty general, was sentenced to death for assassinating Prince Cheng, and I could clearly feel his hatred for the emperor's uncle and the Shen Mansion, so I was more and more unsure whether he really loved me or wanted to ...... Take advantage of me.

Ye Xiyan made a lot of tricks, she was practicing literature and martial arts, and she was busy building bridges for Yafeng, I was worried that she would stimulate Shen Mofeng to recover her memory, and Nianqing just appeared.

In fact, as early as half a year ago, I learned about Nianqing's existence from Shen Qingshu, he ransomed her body and bought a house in the south of the city, he confessed, but he didn't care about my feelings at all. Although my heart was a little sour, I still separated from him happily, and it was better to separate than lie in the same bed in name.

Nian Qing entered the door, I was silent on the surface, but secretly planned a plan to kill two birds with one stone, but who knew that Ye Xiyan, the stupid woman, actually threw herself to the ground and caught Nian Qing's heavy body with her body. The peach pit thing easily covered up the past, but I didn't give up, and I wanted to make sure that the people I hate would never appear in front of me again.

I didn't panic at all when Ye Xiyan bumped into me and Bai Yunxi, I knew it was time to drive the nasty people out of my sight.

I proposed to let Bai Yunxi pretend to have a personal affair with Ye Xiyan, but he refused without hesitation. I was on fire at the time, and I said do you feel sorry for her. He hugged me and explained, saying that he was afraid that Ye Xiyan would tell the truth, and the people in the Shen Mansion did not believe that the two of them had a personal relationship.

I raised my eyebrows proudly and told him that I was going to plant the matter of Yuhe's poison on Ye Xiyan, and the human and material evidence was there, plus the traces of our relationship were erased, so as to ensure that she had a hard time arguing.

He looked stunned, and then looked at me with a complicated expression, and said, "How can you risk our children?" ”

I didn't think so, and replied, "I won't really hurt the child, what are I afraid of?" ”

At that time, I didn't know that because she loved his father deeply, she abandoned her children and left with her husband at the same time as his father was killed. In his heart, he should blame his mother, who abandoned him and made his childhood lack of maternal love. I think it may have been from that moment that he felt that I was a ruthless woman who even sacrificed her children in order to achieve her own goals.

Although Bai Yunxi framed Ye Xiyan according to my intentions and successfully drove her out of the Shen Mansion, I could see that he felt guilty about her, and I could vaguely see the alienation from me in his eyes.

Shen Mofeng returned to normal, but fortunately, he forgot what happened on the day and after the poisoning, he was polite and polite to me, just like before the poisoning, but I always felt a little uneasy, even if Bai Yunxi told me that he sent someone to spy on Shen Mofeng and found that he had not recovered his memory, the uneasiness still lingered.

On the night of Qixi Festival, I saw Bai Yunxi and Ye Xiyan walking hand in hand, even though I had been mentally prepared, I was still stung in the eyes by their sweet smiles.

As a woman, I also have to admit that she was stunningly beautiful that night, she has never paid much attention to dressing up, but I didn't expect her to dress up so amazingly, I began to regret letting Bai Yunxi approach her. When she said "The mountains are edgeless, the heaven and the earth are together, and only then can I dare to be with the king", Bai Yunxi has been looking at her with doting and gentle eyes, and I heard a subtle breaking sound in my chest, perhaps, I was really wrong.

The next day, Bai Yunxi took the opportunity to explain to me, he said that he didn't make such an oath to Ye Xiyan, everything was her prank, and I smiled and said I believed him.

He smiled too, and I caught a flash of ease in his eyes. My heart felt like it had fallen into an ice cellar, cold. I know that I will defend my love again.

Although Shen Qingshu's suspicions were dispelled by us, the rumors in the house were spreading more and more, I knew that Ye Xiyan was still a virgin, I was afraid that she would take advantage of the chaos to run to the Shen family and ask for a verification of her identity to show her innocence, so when my grandmother and mother-in-law went to the Ni Dress Workshop to make clothes, I asked Si Qi to go out of the house to pass my order to the two guards hidden in Nanpu Temple, either to make her disappear unconsciously, or to let Wang Ying's pervert break her virgin/son body.

At the critical moment, Bai Yunxi appeared, and in order to save Ye Xiyan, he even did not hesitate to fight against the Wang family, and was stabbed by Wang Ying at the very end. I finally found a chance to visit him, but he didn't have a good face, and he actually got angry at me and blamed me for being too ruthless.

I know that he must be in love with Ye Xiyan.

At that moment, my heart was completely broken.

Although I don't know what he is doing, but intuitively, he will definitely be unfavorable to the imperial uncle, for his sake, I even let him hurt the imperial uncle who has always spoiled me and loved me, but why is he like Shen Qingshu, for another woman without scruples to hurt me!

Shen Mofeng died, and I heard that Ye Xiyan was very sad, and he lay in bed for a few days without saying a word. I should have been very happy, but after laughing, I was faintly sad, women, why are you always tormenting yourself because of men? After a long hesitation, I finally decided to visit her, and of course, I reassured myself that I was going as a winner.

A palace upheaval made me completely hopeless. Shen Mofeng came back to life, and when I was shocked, he ruthlessly dismantled me. Although he had not yet made my affairs public, I saw anger and determination in his eyes. I know that the East Window incident is a matter of time.

Before going to the hall, I touched my belly and cried, my poor child, it was not that my mother was ruthless, but that my mother really didn't have the courage to live, and I was so tired and tired all the way.

I took the crane top red.

Lying in Bai Yunxi's arms, I still couldn't help but ask him if he ever loved me, and I actually wanted to ask if he still loved me. But now that I know the answer, why should I bother him?

At the last moment of my life, I finally understood that my tragedy was not brought about by Shen Qingshu, but caused by myself, and everything stemmed from obsession. The hatred and jealousy of Ye Xiyan is also due to the fact that she has the innocence and happiness that I have lost.

And for Bai Yunxi, in addition to love, there are regrets. When we hate to meet and are not married, we carry too many things, it is impossible to love purely, love persistently, but I hope that there will be an afterlife, and then we will have a dream with Qing.