Chapter Twenty-Nine: To Go or To Stay
"Mulan, wake up! Mulan, you open your eyes and look at me. ”
I heard a earnest call in my ears, and I slowly opened my eyes. Everything in front of me was a little blurry, a familiar face came into view, and memories flooded back. I was stunned, but my voice was a little hoarse.
"Chu Jinmo?"
His dark eyes were deep, burning and passionate, as if he wanted to suck someone in. I was also a little moved in my heart, and when we parted, I didn't think that I would meet him again one day.
I still looked at him in amazement, vaguely remembering the first time I met him in the woods and was taken captive by him. Thinking about it now, everything in Yuexi seems to be a matter of the previous life.
Is it that I have never left Yuexi, is it all an illusion?
"Why am I here?" I asked softly, still breathless, but there was a bit of confusion in my voice. The heart suddenly swept over Huo Quai's peerless face, such a clear sourness and pain, how could all this be a dream?
"You've been asleep for three days, and you've been muttering in your dreams" Chu Jinmo took a bowl of decoction and said, "It's good if you wake up, but don't fall asleep anymore." Come, drink the medicine quickly, the doctor said that you are weak. ”
I was already bitter in my heart, and the strong bitter taste of this Chinese medicine made me even more uncomfortable, so I couldn't help frowning and shaking my head.
Chu Jinmo looked down at me, his eyes containing countless complex emotions. With a straight face, there was a thick burning and concern in his pupils, and a cluster of lost and regained flames jumped in his pupils.
He suddenly sighed, took a sip of the potion in the bowl, and suddenly leaned over and kissed my dry lips.
I was caught off guard, and the tip of his tongue was gentle, and little by little he poured the bitter medicine into my mouth.
I didn't expect him to do that, and his eyes widened. He looked at me very closely, but refused to let go of my lips again, put one hand around my waist, and kissed deeply, gentle but full of aggression.
I didn't respond, he slowly let go of me, his eyes were full of nostalgia, he shook the decoction in his hand, and said, "What, do you want me to feed you like this all the time?" ”
I had no choice but to pinch my nose, take the decoction and drink it.
"That's good." Chu Jinmo sat down on the edge of my bed, his slender hand brushed my hair, the heat on his lips lingered in my ears, and his voice was magnetic and affectionate, "Do you remember what I told you when we separated?" ”
I looked at him with a leisurely sigh in my eyes, and I still remember it even though the past was like a dream.
That day in front of the wolves, he said, "If I meet you again, I will definitely keep you by my side at all costs."
Chu Jinmo lightly grabbed my earlobe, exhaled a thick hot breath, and said faintly: "For the rest of your life, you don't want to leave again." ”
I don't know what the secret medicine that Lu Dao Chu Anguo gave me is, but it is indeed very effective.
During this time, Chu Jinmo sent several doctors to take turns to see me. Deer antlers, snow lotus, ginseng and other precious medicinal materials were also sent like flowing water, and I recuperated for more than half a month, and my body gradually improved.
At that time, a sword was stabbed in the shoulder, and the wound gradually healed, leaving reddish marks on the skin.
But every time I think of the day I was locked up in prison by Chu Anguo, and when I think of my feelings of waiting for Huo Qu's illness with the last glimmer of hope in the raging fire, it is like a nightmare, which makes me feel cold.
Trauma to the body and mind. It will take a long time for us to recover.
Recently, I didn't get up until three o'clock in the morning, and Chu Jinmo sent the maid Huan Ningxiang to serve me to freshen up and dress me, looked at the sky, and said, "At this hour, the lord should be coming over soon." ”
With admiration on her face, she said to me, "Girl, you are blessed that your lord is so kind to you. ”
I leaned on the bed, my heart moved slightly for some reason, Chu Jinmo was really good to me.
I remembered that the day I just woke up, I was really useless, he fed me medicine and gently grabbed my earlobe. When I saw him, I already had mixed feelings, and at that time I was even more angry and bloody, and I actually fainted again.
Perhaps it was for this reason that he never made any deviant behavior towards me again, probably because he was afraid that I would faint again.
For half a month, he has come to my room every day, completely treating it as half a study. Under the window there is also his large bookcase, on which are placed various colored brushes and bamboo slips.
Most of the time, he sat there looking at his bamboo slips, and I leaned on the head of the bed to rest or be in a daze. The two of them didn't speak, just silently accompanied each other, and the atmosphere was harmonious and harmonious.
In fact, Chu Jinmo's heart for me, I don't feel it at all. But what can I do? For many nights, those pictures with Huo Quai's illness always passed in front of me like a streamer.
My heart is very messy, I really can't figure it out.
I sighed, and suddenly felt a little bored, so I said to Ning Xiang, "Help me change my clothes, and want to go for a walk." ”
It's the end of summer, and the cicadas are chirping, with a taste of midsummer. In front of it is a simple courtyard, with only a few blue brick houses, and there are no garden flowers around.
I walked through a few crescent gates and walked along the bluestone path with flowers and willows, "What is this place?" ”
"This is the lord's courtyard." Ningxiang replied.
Unexpectedly, Chu Jinmo actually placed another courtyard in Chang'an, in order to find Huo Yong, the ** division of the Western Kingdom of Yuexi thousands of years ago, or to find out about the military situation of the Han Dynasty?
I shook my head, I wanted to get rid of the irrelevant obstacles in my heart, I don't want to think about Chu Jinmo's affairs, maybe I should think about where I should go now.
Back to Huofu?
There was a dull ache in my body, Huo Qu didn't show up that night, I was in a burning cell, and the last hope was burned out.
No, maybe Chu Anguo lied to me, he didn't tell Huo Quzhi that I was arrested, if Huo Quzhi knew how could he not come to save me?
The hope in his heart suddenly rekindled, maybe, maybe he didn't even know that I was being locked up?
I stopped, I should believe that Huo Quai, I want to go back to Huo Mansion!
Seeing that I was stopped, Ning Xiang asked suspiciously, "Girl? ”
I turned to Ning Xiang and said, "I'm going to go out of Lu, if Chu Jun comes back, he will know where I've gone." ”
After that, he ignored her and strode out.
After leaving Chu Jinmo's courtyard, he didn't go far, and found that this place was actually in the prosperous area of Chang'an City. Hidden in the city, Chu Jinmo is really a talent.
From a distance, I saw the gate of Huofu, and walked forward quickly, going to get sick... I am back.
Suddenly I saw someone come out of the gate, I saw that person, stumbling under his feet, almost unsteady on his feet, how could it be her? I held on to a tree by the side of the road and stood under it and watched.
I saw Li Ziwei and Huo Quzhi walking out of Huo's mansion together, she was dressed in a light gauze yellow shirt, with a loose bun on her head, a golden hairpin slanted on it, and the swaying on it gently swayed as she walked. She is smiling at this time, and her demeanor is beautiful, where is she half crazy?
Huo Quzhi stood with her, I don't know what Lu Dao said, Li Ziwei laughed lightly, and his body leaned towards Huo Quzhi intentionally or unintentionally.
I watched in a daze as she and Huo Quzhi got into the carriage parked in front of Huo's mansion, and were stunned to see the carriage disappear into the street. It turned out that what Chu Anguo said was true, Huo Qu made a choice on the day of his illness, and he went to save Li Ziwei.
I'm such a fool that I would be delusional about Huo Qu's disease.
Those who spoke, those gentlemen, those kisses.
It turns out that in his heart, what am I... Neither.
It dawned on me.
Have you ever loved someone?
Have you ever hated someone?
In fact, it was the love-hate relationship between the two of them, and I was just a passerby, vaguely involved, and it was fate.
A catastrophe, after waking up from a dream, I forget what happened in the dream.
I walked down the streets of Chang'an City in despair, and before I knew it, I walked out of the city gate. I don't know how long I walked along the official road, and the mud stained my shoes, socks and skirt corners, but I didn't know it.
Before I knew it, I came to the edge of a lake, where the sun was shining on the water, and a few birds were flying on the lake. Through the blue water, I saw Huo Quai's face in the middle of the lake. I subconsciously lifted my steps and took a step forward.
Immediately a man grabbed me from behind, and I turned my head to meet those ancient well-like eyes, long eyelashes flickering. Chu Jinmo said to me: "You don't want to commit suicide by throwing yourself into the lake, are you?" ”
I broke free of his arm and said coldly, "Why are you here?" ”
He put his hand on my side without a trace, as if he was afraid that I would jump, "I've been following you since you went out." ”
He followed me all the way, and he saw everything I saw, and I thought he would ask something.
But I just heard him say, "You're not in good health yet, it's windy here, go back!" After saying that, he took my hand and walked back.
After returning to Chu Jinmo's courtyard, I went directly back to the room, fell asleep, and closed Ning Xiang with a worried face outside.
At night, tossing and turning, thinking about things all the time.
Since Huo Quzhi has already chosen Li Ziwei, I will not appear in front of him again. But thinking about the bits and pieces of getting along with him in the past two years, and afraid that he would be worried about my disappearance, I couldn't bear it, so I finally stood up and walked to the side of the case to grind ink.
I picked up the brush, bit my lip, and wrote "Baitou Yin" with the silk handkerchief in my hand.
"It is as white as snow in the sky, and as bright as the moon among the clouds.
Wen Jun has two intentions, so he decided to break up.
Today's wine fight, tomorrow's ditch head.
On the butterfly ditch, the river flows from east to west.
Sad and miserable, there is no need to cry when you get married.
I wish to win the heart of one person, and the white head will not be separated. ”
He sighed lightly, took off the plum blossom earrings on his earlobes, carefully wrapped them in a silk handkerchief and put them in his arms, and walked out of the door.
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