Looking back at Sun Li, she was wearing a pair of pajamas, walked out of the Tan family, her clothes were forgotten on Xi Si in Tan's bedroom, she didn't know the road, she didn't care about the road, and stood alone on the street. There was no one on the street, as if this world was in a static state, in a static state. There was a black dog with its tail hanging down and its head down, and walked past her, walked far away, looked back at her with mournful eyes, and did not understand why he was standing on this cold street.

She stood for a moment, and the cold reminded her: Go home, the air will numb you, and it will freeze you. She looked towards the gate woodenly, the firecracker skin on the ground was the firecracker that exploded on Chinese New Year's Eve, and throughout the Chinese New Year's Eve, she sat in the living room, sat by the stove, looked at the portrait of Wang Ying on the table in a daze, people went to the empty room, there was no one who said warm words, the person in front of her, ruined her life, ruined her dream of being a doctor.

From birth to the present, I never remember a moment of joy, no real love, just doing mechanical movements, a few miscarriages, never able to get pregnant, never able to be a mother, to be a mother, to enjoy the heart-rending happiness of ten pregnancies and giving birth to a child.

His family does not do good deeds, does too much work, should cut off children and grandchildren, no children and no daughters, incest and troubled times, how can he give birth to children and give birth to dragons and phoenixes, and glorify the family from generation to generation. Since I got married, my grandfather, you are early and I am late, she is not a human being, a ghost is not a ghost, and she lives in humiliation and struggle. When she was older, she was young and young, and she realized that this was a dream, and the people who made it were sent to her.

Between her and Tan Yi, there is at least those warm happiness. It's not bright, but it's voluntary. But today, she suddenly sobered up, he is also a gentleman, just a person who picks flowers and steals apricots, but he has a complete home. It's so enviable and hateful!

She was on the couch, hugging her arms, looking at everything in the room. From a table and a chair, she saw the family hall hanging in the living room, and a wry smile flowed from the corner of her mouth, Wang Yingjia, since then, there has been no incense, no seeds, no land..., the roots have been broken. Sun Li, eating and laughing, that smile, with the cold of the cold weather, the cold, the wind is cold, the sun is cold, the heart is cold, although the room is warm, it is cold, it condenses the humanized nature, and the natural cold replaces her thoughts and emotions. On the sofa where she was sitting, her father-in-law had been on her, and her husband had been on her, but she couldn't tell who was her husband and who was her father-in-law. It all brought back memories for her. This sad home, this sad place, can't die of old age here.

Wang Yun and his little mother have a better relationship than Sun Li, and if they fight for love, they will definitely lose. But, what can be of value here. Sooner or later, I have to leave, leave this sad place of right and wrong.

Tan Yi, the one who dragged the oil came, and he brought the clothes, which were Sun Li's down jackets. She took a down jacket and put it on Sun Li,

"Brother and sister, don't freeze."

"Zhang Bo left, so I got up and sent the clothes over."

As soon as Tan spoke, he leaned over. Go and embrace her, this helpless lamb. Sun Li did not object and got dressed.

"Why are you telling me to get out of here, dare to scold me? ″

"You are too impulsive, I am on your side, only by letting Zhang Bo tell the truth can you know what to do. ＂

"Then you should scold me?"

"It's not right for me to scold you, but you shouldn't run out of the bedroom, what does that mean?"

"It means that I am yours. Don't you dare admit it. ”

"This is not a bright thing for the two of us, you are a married woman, I am a married man, I have children, daughters and families, and I can't be morally justified."

"Even if you know that you can't make sense morally, why are you so active in doing that? Is it true that everyone is like this, talking about morality, but doing immoral things? ”

"Actions and words are not the same thing, I am the village head, and I am a party member, I must build an external image, and it is the natural instinct and nature of people to do this."

"It's too hypocritical, in the future, we will go our separate ways, as if nothing has happened, I didn't expect that Nakamura from top to bottom, from the inside to the outside, on the surface benevolent and moral, calm and calm, but in the bones is flowing water and suppuration, full of turbulent waves."

"It's good to understand, all walks of life are competing, including love and righteousness."

"Let's go, I understand you, you are a person like Wang Ying's father and son, you do glamorous things on the surface, but you do unsightly things behind your back."

"Aren't you like that, to put it mildly, female dogs don't adjust their feet, and male dogs don't dare to get it."

"Get out of here, get out of here."

"Pretend to be innocent, don't think that I don't know about you, you and your father-in-law's, almost everyone knows how you got married, isn't there a saying in this, with Wang Ying's character, he must have fallen on you first, and then married you to his son, because the earth can't get rid of you, and he doesn't want to get rid of you. Besides, you did this when you were pregnant, didn't you have a miscarriage, a big joke. ”

"You, so despicable, can see through the darkness of others, in fact, you are worse, you are worse. The crow lay on the pig's belly, only seeing that the people were black, but not his own virtue. "Okay, don't say it, let's think about yourself, anyway, things are done, and it will spread in the outside world, but in fact, it will spread if it is not spread."

"I said, let you go, but you don't get out, you're willing to be eaten by shit. A man, in front of a woman, is too undignified. ”

"Li'er, I'll get out, but there is one thing, if you have something, as long as you need me, I will do it for you. I'm leaving. ”

As soon as Tan left, Sun Li stood alone in the living room, she walked to the dresser in the bedroom, combed her hair, applied some cigarette cream, the door was not locked, put on winter clothes, and followed the road to the west. She didn't stop for long, and then really walked towards the West Village.

Sun Li's maiden family has no brothers and sisters, no relatives and friends, and Sun's family is single-family. Sun Li came to the place where she had been stationed since she was a child, and lived in the place of eighteen.

The small arch bridge is still the small arch bridge, a hole to the door, the locust tree in front of the door, thick and big, a person can not hold it, the crack of the tree body, the growth of her unTaoist rings, the tree is old, but the life is very healthy, the locust tree head is a few meters of branches, and when the spring comes, it is like a girl-like rejuvenation of youth, first small buds, then into green leaves, to the March, April and May, like other people's locust trees, a tree of pearls and a tree of silver, the fragrance of the soul of the flower Oh....

Sun Li stood on the small bridge, and saw that the gate had fallen, the courtyard wall was crooked, and there was no roof on three sides of the main house, only four incomplete stone walls.

It was also in this room that a wolf came in and ate her. It's the king's camp.

It was also on this bridge at her feet, and for that dream, she sent him away and watched him disappear into the autumn wind and rain.

When I was seven or eight years old, I always loved to sit on this bridge, and when the sun was about to set, I waited for my father to come from the foot of this reclining Buddha Mountain, and then took my father's hand and walked into the yard together, and my mother appeared at the kitchen door on time with a smile. Set up a small table in the yard, serve sweet potato porridge, and eat dinner together. One day, my mother suddenly lay down and didn't get up. Dad said in tears: Li'er, your mother is dead.

In the days that followed, Dad smoked and drank. When she didn't finish junior high school, she had brain atrophy.

This small bridge is her favorite, because from here you can walk to the street, day and night, when you sit here, you feel comfortable. Especially in the summer evening after the rain, sitting here, stretching my feet into the water, smelling the fragrance of the locust tree, there is infinite comfort in my heart, singing "Chaoyanggou" is a good place worthy of the name, Wang Yinhuan has also become a member of the commune, here, in this life I will not be bored... I remember one time when singing this paragraph, Wang Ying stopped riding his defense vehicle, and because he was too popular, he fell from the road into this stream not far away.

Looking down, the water under the bridge was frozen, and there was only one crack desperately squeezing out the water, passing through the door of Wang Sangui's house and flowing south towards Luxia Village. Tears flowed.

Sun Li knew that now, his dream of being a doctor is over, and his life is over, just like the walking dead, there is no youth to reappear, and he has fallen into what he said in "Funeral Flowers": Once the spring is full of red and old, the flowers fall and the people die without knowing. Of course, it's not dead yet. It's just that spring is over, the flowers have fallen, and what is the difference between this and death.

When the sun is close to noon, the remnants of Sun Li's snow are undoubtedly exposed, the snow is beginning to melt, and there is such a scene under the small bridge, but there is no snow on the small bridge, and the small bridge of the mother's house is full of love and righteousness. Sun Li blurred his eyes again, it was tears, in the blurred eyes, his mother and father appeared, they held each other, and waved to her in the bright sun: Li, come back, here is your home, your yard, your locust tree, your little bridge and flowing water. How wonderful!

Sun Li stretched out her arms and wanted to hug her, but it was illusory, she stretched out her arms and shouted: I must go back, I let time go back, go back to my eighteen years old, and start from eighteen years old. ……。

Sister, don't be sad. ”