Chapter 25 Drinking Poisoned Wine with a Smile
In the ward, Xue Zuining approached the sleeping Xu Ze step by step, and his eyes were a little moist and hot.
How could there be such a stupid person, knowing that he would not get any response for his efforts, why should he be so persistent, even at the cost of his own life to protect her?
His efforts were far beyond what she could bear, and she could confidently refuse him for various reasons before, but when a man was willing to risk his life just to save himself, she was suddenly afraid that if he asked her to be with him again, she would not be able to refuse as firmly as before.
Love is born from the heart, and people's hearts are flesh and blood, although she can distinguish between sympathy and love, but in the face of a heart that loves her with a dead heart, she can't help but be emotional.
Even if this is not the other.
She reached out and gently stroked his face, the corners of his eyes were bruised from the fight, and his lips were a little broken, reminding her of the scene when bright red blood trickled down the corners of his mouth, and her chest suddenly felt a dull pain.
Xu accidentally touched his broken lips, or sensed her presence, Xu Ze suddenly opened his eyes Xue Zuining was a little frightened, because he hadn't thought about what to say to him.
wanted to withdraw his hand, but was caught by Xu Ze.
"Sneak me while I'm asleep, and I'll get caught." Xu Ze teased her in a voice that was hoarse than Xue Zuining.
Xue Zuining glanced at him, let him hold his hand, and wanted to smile at him, but tears disobediently ran out to stir up.
"Don't cry, isn't this okay, it's ......all fine" Xu Ze wanted to get up to comfort her, and his face changed color in pain as soon as his body moved.
Xue Zuining hurriedly wiped away his tears and held him down, "Don't move." β
"Then don't cry, crying makes me feel distressed."
Although Xue Zuining has said such undisguised words no less than a hundred times, after experiencing yesterday's scene, he felt more and more that his feelings for him were from the bottom of his heart.
"I don't cry." She bent the corners of her mouth and smiled at him, although there were still tears hanging on her eyelashes, and the appearance of red and swollen eyes was not beautiful to laugh at, but it made Xu Ze more emotional than any laugh.
"What if I want to kiss you?" The thoughts in my heart blurted out unconsciously, and as soon as the words fell, I saw Xue Zuining stunned.
"I'm kidding......" He immediately changed his words, looking faintly disappointed.
Xue Zuining looked uncomfortable, stretched out his other hand, and gently touched the back of his hand on his lips.
Xu Ze's eyes lit up, and he had to inch in, "How can you count it like this?" β
Xue Zuining was silent, withdrew his hand and pinched it lightly on his other hand to warn him to be honest, but he couldn't help but sore after seeing a scratch on his arm.
"Xu Ze, are you crazy or am I crazy? You spent four years chasing a woman who had disappointed you so much, and then you ran in after meeting again, knowing that you didn't get a response, and you didn't care if you gave me what I wanted, just blindly giving. Xue Zuining was gloomy, "And I spent four years loving a man who was almost related to me, from the time he didn't hate me and drove me away to the time he fell in love with me, countless things that happened in the past four years were enough reasons for me to leave him, but I couldn't do without him, but it made me more determined to return to him." Even if I leave, my heart is still on him. β
She looked at Xu Ze with a solemn expression, and a smile that seemed to be helpless and self-deprecating appeared on her lips.
"We don't get what we want, or we get it, but we don't realize it, or we don't get what we want." She lowered her head and closed her eyes, only to find his hand behind her back.
"This love has left me with a lot of heart, and although I still love him, I don't have the courage to be with him anymore. And now I am a new me, but I am a person without a heart, if, you are willing or you have enough patience to help me get my heart back...... I can be your cook for the rest of my life. β
There is a song that sings that it has nothing to do with love and happiness.
She used to think that a marriage without love would not be happy, but it turned out to be her fault.
In love, no matter how deep you are, no matter how infatuated you are, no matter how much you dedicate yourself to love, no matter how willing you are, it will eventually end up flat.
Without love, there will be no harm.
Xu Ze couldn't believe his ears, and even suspected that he was still asleep.
But the temperature of her hand was so real, and her gaze was so clear and sincere, how could it be in a dream?
"I'm going to correct what you just said." He spoke suddenly.
Xue Zuining was stunned, "What?" β
"You say we don't get what we want, or we get it, but we don't realize it, or we don't get what we wanted. But I'm telling you, you're what I've always wanted, whether it's a whole you or a missing heart. As long as you are willing to reach out to me, I will have the confidence to help you find your heart back. He raised his eyebrows and smiled, "So, you should prepare the best cook for the rest of my life." β
Xue Zuining smiled, not surprised by his answer.
Everything about her was good for him. Although, in her own eyes, she is nothing more than an empty shell of the walking dead.
"Have you thought about it? Do you want to give yourself more time to think for yourself? Even if he decided to let go of his feelings with Lu Huaining. But she still felt that it was unfair to Xu Ze to do so.
"Let me first state that although my affection for you is not sympathy, it may be a family affection that has evolved from friendship. What I just said is somewhat irresponsible, and this kind of irresponsibility is more hurtful than the irresponsibility of a man abandoning a woman, so you must think about it. β
"You're giving me a headache." Xu Ze pulled her hand over his forehead, "I can finally sleep solidly, I hope I don't wake up and find that all this is just a flash." Otherwise, it would be too hurtful. β
His cautious tone made Xue Zuining sad, "You sleep, I'll accompany you." β
Xu Ze took her hand and kissed it, closed his eyes reassuringly, but soon opened them again.
"What's wrong?"
Xu Ze looked a little hesitant, Xue Zuining pondered, guessing what he was going to say.
"You want to ask him if he's been here?"
Seeing him nodding, Xue Zuining lowered his eyes, "I've been here." β
"That ......" Xu Ze suddenly felt a little weak and didn't know how to speak.
"I know that you lied to me with him," Xue Zuining smiled bitterly, "I thought I was crazy in those days. β
"I'm sorry...... I ......"
"I know, you're all for my good." Xue Zuining interrupted his apology, "Sleep, I don't blame you." β
No blame? Since she didn't blame her, why did she cut off her relationship with Lu Huaining so resolutely this time?
He was confused, but he didn't dare to ask.
"By the way, I suddenly remembered that I had something to discuss with you." Xue Zuining said suddenly.
"You say."
"You told your parents that I was pregnant with your child?"
As soon as Xue Zuining's words fell, Xu Ze remembered that there was indeed such a thing. He saw Xue Zuining looking at him, with no expression on his face, and he didn't know if she was angry with him for talking nonsense, so he was worried for a while, and he didn't know how to respond to her.
Xue Zuining sighed, "I can't deceive others, and I hate to be deceived, if I really want to get together with you in the future, you will only make my position more embarrassing in front of them." And they're your parents, where do you put them? So I'm going to tell them the truth. β
"No way!" Xu Ze immediately retorted.
He knew very well that the reason why his parents would accept Xue Zuining was 80% because they thought that Xue Zuining's belly was their grandson. If the matter is exposed, then the opportunity that he finally let Xue Zuining promise to give him will disappear again due to the obstruction of his parents.
But he also knew Xue Zuining's temperament, and deceiving others would bring her a deep sense of guilt.
So he can only adopt a delaying policy and let her slow down and find a way.
The idea is certain, he spoke, "I'm injured like this now, I shouldn't be emotional, you have to confess, but wait until I'm injured and then talk, okay?" β
He had lost too much blood from the gunshot wound, his face and lips were frighteningly white, and now he had an expression of begging her, which was so pitiful that it was difficult for Xue Zuining to refuse.
It's just that she is sad about the hurdle in her heart.
"Oops, it hurts." Xu Ze suddenly frowned, let go of her hand to press the wound.
Xue Zuining's face turned white, and she stood up nervously to pull the first aid bell, Xu Ze grabbed her and sighed deeply, "I said that when you heard me cry out for pain, shouldn't you come to see my wound first and then decide whether to press the first aid bell?" β
Xue Zuining didn't react for a while, he was pretending to be in pain.
"You promise me to wait until I'm healed, and I won't be in pain."
Hanging Gao's heart was put down, but Xue Zuining was a little angry, he joked with her with his body.
"I'll be angry next time I do this." She reprimanded with a straight face.
"Don't worry, there will be no next time." Xu Ze's plan succeeded, and he grinned.
"Alright, you can sleep."
"But I don't want to sleep anymore."
"And what do you want to do?"
A grunting sound came from the abdomen instead of Asahisawa answered.
"But the doctor said you ...... There is no exhaust yet......" Xue Zuining whispered, Xu Zejun's face collapsed, and he rubbed the tip of his nose with some embarrassment.
"Have you eaten?"
Xue Zuining shook his head.
"How? Isn't my mom taking care of you? She didn't give you ......."
"Don't shout, my aunt made me chicken soup, I woke up and was in a hurry to see you, so I didn't have time to drink."
The second half of the sentence made Xu Ze smile again, "It feels so good to be so worried about the woman I like, okay, you go back to the room to eat first, don't starve you and the baby, I feel distressed." β
Xue Zuining saw that he was in good shape and nodded.
In fact, she still has a lot of troubles to deal with, after all, this time the matter is very big, and the daughter's matter is no longer a secret, and once the parents of both sides get the news, they will quickly find it.
But she won't let Xu Ze know about this, otherwise he won't be able to recuperate with peace of mind.
Coming out of the hospital room, she caught a glimpse of a figure at the other end of the hallwayβtall, slender, with a long body shining through the window, and although she couldn't see the outline of his face, those two fiery gazes burned her heart like hot magma.
Some people who were surprised to see it were not Xi Juan, but it was him, some words, some things, what should be said must be said after all, what should be broken, and it should be broken.
In thought, the slender figure walked towards her, and the closer she got, the more hot her eyes became.