Maybe I'm really a person who is extremely selfish, and I don't want to give or lose. Always suffering from gains and losses, both afraid of loneliness and fear of loss, so they are unwilling to have. And when I have it, I don't have a moment when I don't worry about losing.

It's like a poor man who suddenly gets a great fortune and is always afraid that this treasure that is not his own will be stolen.

Once one day I really lost, I seemed to be relieved, and my Jinmo finally left me.

In the bare, ugly stump, I saw Chu Jinmo, who was pale. His face was painful, and he looked at the plum trees that I had cut down in disbelief, and the remnants of the branches in one place were broken, and the dilapidated scene made people feel cold.

Chu Jinmo said slowly: "Do you know the truth? ”

I threw away the axe in my hand and nodded, "I know." ”

Chu Jinmo took a breath and said, "Mu Lan, listen to me, she is just a side concubine, and you are my main concubine." ”

I shook my head: "I'm not your concubine. ”

Chu Jinmo's face changed, and his expression became even paler: "You promised to marry me, have you forgotten?" ”

I replied, "I haven't forgotten, and I told you that I want a relationship for the rest of my life." Since you can't do it, I won't marry you again. ”

Chu Jinmo showed a trace of despair on his face, gritted his teeth, and suddenly said: "You promised to marry me in Juyanhai that night, but you ran away, I thought you would never come back." I am sad, do you know my pain? Don't treat me as Huo Quai, I really care about you! ”

My heart felt like I had been stabbed hard, and Chu Jinmo and Huo Qu were sick in my heart, like a rope pulling my heart. Chu Jinmo held one end, while Huo Quzhi held the other end.

No matter who pulls hard, my heart will hurt, I have always been entangled in the two ends of this rope, but now I clearly hear the sound of clicking, the end that Chu Jinmo is holding... Broken.

From then on, he could no longer control my mind.

I Yun Tanfeng smiled lightly: "Xie Lu thank you for your kindness, you saved me, and I have helped you do a lot of things, and counting the stubble of the four major tribes, the two of us can be regarded as even, from this moment on, we don't owe each other, just be a passerby!" ”

Chu Jinmo's body shook, staggered, and said in a low voice: "How can it be calculated?" ”

I sighed lightly: "Jinmo, I didn't run away that day, Ju Yanhai once had memories of me and Huo Quai, the reason why I left the camp was to make a break with the past, although I didn't expect to be taken away from you later because I was evading the pursuit." ”

"I have always had you in my heart, and I regard you as a relative and a friend. For you to dare to go to Akatsuki alone, for you to make a mess of the four major tribes, I am afraid that they will join forces to deal with Whitewater City. Just because I haven't said a lot doesn't mean I don't value you. ”

Chu Jinmo raised his head slowly, and there was no blood on Junxiu's face.

I continued: "I used to think that Huofu was my home, but the reality tells me that it is not. After I followed you, I really thought that I would marry you for the rest of my life. ”

Chu Jinmo said with difficulty: "Are you complaining about me, you cut down this piece of Merlin, this is what I gave you..."

I smiled awkwardly: "Don't mind, I heard that you spoiled others here, but it was just a temporary vent." I have lived a handful of years, and I still understand a little bit of the truth, and from then on you and I will not violate the river water! ”

Chu Jinmo still looked at me fixedly, and paused for a long time before saying, "Mulan, it's not like this. After that ** left, I looked for you for a long time, even after returning to Whitewater City, and I never stopped looking for you for a moment. Later, I thought about it a lot, I knew that you love Huo Quai, and I was jealous of him. Mulan, I only have you in my heart. ”

These sweet words may have worked well with others, but I just fixed my mind and sighed: "You are not the only one, you have always pursued what you have lost or cannot ask for all your life, and once you have it, you will never cherish it again." ”

Chu Jinmo's eyes actually filled with tears, and it was a long time, and he smiled astringently: "You say this, you just want to reduce the burden, right?" You've never loved me in the first place, have you? That's why I married Luo Qiao'er, and you let go so chicly, in fact, you've been very tired of me for a long time, haven't you? ”

The blood in my chest, which had finally calmed down, immediately surged again, and I gritted my teeth and sneered: "You have done such a wrong thing, and you still expect me to serve a husband with Luo Qiao'er?" Now it's not mine. You only say that Luo Qiao'er is a weak woman, and she needs your pity. No matter how strong I am, my heart is not made of iron, and if I am trampled on by the two of you like this, it will be bloody. ”

Chu Jinmo's face was pale, he stretched out his hand to hold me, he froze in mid-air for a long time, and when he silently withdrew it, his face was dejected, and he only said hoarsely: "Can't we go back?" ”

It was all foggy, and his voice was also ethereal, very unreal.

In fact, after a little recollection, you can still find the scene of the first time I saw Chu Jinmo in the depths of my memory. He is handsome and introverted, and his appearance and personality are very similar. Unexpectedly, in a short period of time, our fate came to an end. Frustrated, time is really very abrasive.

After this melancholy sigh, the deep sense of betrayal at the beginning has faded much more. Now thinking back to the past with him, one by one, my heart is stable, and there is no trace of waves, let alone the word "go back".

I looked at the stumps on the ground, and said helplessly: "I'm just your heart knot, and the heart knot will be untied one day, otherwise you wouldn't have married a side concubine so soon." ”

The corners of his ancient well-like eyes were slightly red, and his complexion became more restrained and handsome, and he didn't answer, just stared at me deeply.

I steadied myself and said softly, "We will never speak as calmly as we do today." Jinmo, you are indeed the only man that I have loved all these years except for Huo Quai. But we can't go back. ”

Chu Jinmo's body trembled, and after a while, he said abruptly: "I understood too late, I gave up on myself, and I used my thoughts about you on others, wanting to test you, but I didn't expect that I was hurting myself." ”

I nodded, Yu Chu Jinmo didn't have anything to worry about, and sighed: "I will be a passerby in the future, so I don't need to see you again." ”

Chu Jinmo's face changed: "You want to leave Baishui City?" ”

I nodded: "Naturally, I won't live in the palace anymore, and you don't need to ask where I am going in the future." ”

Chu Jinmo said quickly: "But because I have made too many enemies in Yuexi, since you flooded the Red Moon, everyone has said that you have the ability to penetrate the heavens and the earth, if you leave Baishui City now, you will definitely be robbed." ”

I sighed and said helplessly, "That's right." ”

Chu Jinmo saw that I was loose, and said, "In that case, you should stay in Baishui City, at least... At least under my power, I can keep you safe. ”

I squinted at him, "That was a good place to hunt last time, so I'll move to the outskirts of the city." After a pause: "I just want a quiet life, and I don't want anyone to disturb me." Doris, I'm going to take it. Her brother entrusted her to me before he died, and I have accepted her as my sister. ”

Chu Jinmo nodded: "I'll send you." ”

I smiled faintly: "No need, take care!" ”

After packing my luggage briefly, I took Doris out of the palace, and Luo Qiaoer ran to me and cried bitterly: "Sister, it's all my fault if you don't leave." ”

Without a trace, I pulled back her sleeve and grabbed me, and said lightly: "My sister is only Doris, when did I have a side concubine, but I don't know what to do?" If the concubine has some respect for me, she can call me a girl in the future, or call me Mu Lan directly. It's just the word sister, I can't afford it! ”

I deliberately put the word "side concubine" very seriously, and after I finished speaking, I didn't look at her again, and took Doris out of the palace.

When he walked to the city gate, Qinnan was already waiting here: "I'm here to see you off, there is a courtyard on the outskirts of the city that has been arranged." ”

Qin Nan looked at the city tower: "Actually, this matter can't be blamed entirely on the king, which man is not three wives and four concubines, not to mention that he is the dignified envoy of the Yuexi Festival, the city lord of Baishui City." Are you blaming him for not informing you and marrying the side concubine first, right? ”

I asked, "Qinnan, have you ever loved someone?" ”

Qinnan was stunned and shook her head.

I asked again, "Have you ever hated someone?" ”

Qin Nan thought about it and shook her head again.

I smiled faintly: "In that case, how can you understand?" ”

Jean Nam stopped talking and thought about it. I followed his gaze and looked up at the castle tower, and saw a dark figure standing in the wind, and the wind blew his robe, but he did not move.

Qin Nan arched his hand: "The carriage is ready, please get on the carriage." ”

I shrugged and turned to get into the car, feeling a deep sight behind me. It doesn't matter to me how long you like to stand, you won't feel distressed or uncomfortable. After cutting that piece of Merlin, I was relaxed, as if I had let go of the burden I had been having, maybe deep in my heart, I still didn't want to marry Chu Jinmo after all.

Emotional things have always been like people drinking water, knowing their own warmth and coldness. What kind of feelings I have for Chu Jinmo, I'm afraid even I can't tell myself.

Huo Qu's illness is a love disaster for me.

Chu Jinmo is a love affair for me.

Now it's a catastrophe or a disaster, it's all gone, and since then, the clouds are light and the wind is light, and the four directions are free, isn't it happy?

After sitting in the car for about half an hour, Qin Nan knocked on the door outside: "It's here." ”

I got out of the car and saw a very clean and elegant small yard, with two tall magnolia trees planted in the yard, which had short knots and dense branches, and the tree body was small and delicate, but the flowers were splendid, and the view from a distance was white and flawless, enchanting, and quaint. I nodded and said, "This flower is in line with my temperament." ”