Chapter 39: Death
Shen Ying's lips tossed gently on mine, my mind was in a state of confusion, and my body began to respond to him uncontrollably. My hand climbed up to his neck and kissed him. The kiss lasted for an unknown amount of time, and it wasn't until my whole body was soft and hot that Shen Ying let go of me. My face was hot and burning, my heart was beating faster, I must have been embarrassed to look at Shen Ying's gaze at this moment, but Shen Ying's gaze at me gradually cooled from ** Wen Cun, and a disdainful smile climbed up the corner of his lips. It was as if I had been pushed hard by someone, falling into a cliff and breaking my bones. I was teased by him. To make matters worse, Shen Ying slowly backed away with that playful smile, backing away...... Not far behind him stood the smiling and shrewd Queen Mother of the West and the embarrassed Yang Jian, like a thunderbolt on a sunny day, five thunderbolts thundered, and I was stunned in place.
Yang Jian didn't look at me, his gaze was vague and didn't land, and the Queen Mother of the West asked him with a treacherous smile: "Jian'er, have you seen it?" What kind of woman is she? Does he deserve your heavenly rules for her? From now on, put away your seven emotions and six desires, concentrate on being your Erlang Zhenjun, and don't be stupid anymore. ”
Yang Jian didn't say anything, his face was dark.
The Queen Mother of the West stretched out her hand to Shen Ying and said with a pleasant face: "Shen Ying is here!" ”
Shen Ying had already trotted forward to hold the hand of the Queen Mother of the West, only to hear the Queen Mother praise: "Shen Ying has done a good job and has lived up to the trust of the mourning family." ”
"Queen Mother, Shen Ying helped you go back to the Queen Mother's Palace." Shen Ying replied meekly.
The Queen Mother of the West glanced at me, her smile was not cold, but with endless schadenfreude, "As for Concubine Xiang, this time the mourning family will let you go, so you can do it yourself!" The Queen Mother of the West said, and Shen Ying helped her turn around and leave. Their backs are as harmonious as their grandchildren.
I stood there stunned, Yang Jian didn't speak, didn't look at me, and after a long time, he finally turned around and walked forward.
"Yang Jian......" I called out to him, but he stood still, but did not turn back. Looking at the back of this red cloak and instantly lonely, my heart was indescribably sad, "Yang Jian, I'm sorry ......"
Yang Jian didn't look back, and said in a dumb voice: "I said a long time ago that you and him can't go back to the past, and you can no longer be friends, from now on, don't trust anyone easily except me." ”
My tears welled up in my eyes, and Yang Jian's back blurred and damp in my vision, turning into a bundle of red.
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I began to walk through the door of the Xiaoxiang Pavilion again, not to laugh, and even to speak, I didn't listen to me a few words. I have closed myself up, as I said, people in the heavenly realm should not have that door of heart, and enjoy the immortality and well-being that ordinary beings cannot enjoy, so they should give up something accordingly, such as the love of children. There is no chance to meet again with Shenying, and if you see again, you will also be a passerby. I was ashamed of him, and he finally repaid me for once. Is it a flat? Ai Mang said that it is easy to forgive others, but it is not easy to forgive myself, and I have to learn to forgive myself. I've always been myself, and the burden in my heart has long been overwhelming. What I can do every day is to take the string of Buddhist beads that Ai Mang handed over to him and recite the Heart Sutra. The power of the Heart Sutra is to cleanse the heart, but as soon as I stop chanting, Yang Jian's figure flashed in front of me, and the lonely red cloak fluttered in front of me, and then my tears fell, wetting every rosary that the Buddha gave me. Why am I so uncomfortable? It's not because Shen Ying calculated me, but because my side was seen by Yang Jian. The Queen Mother is right, a woman like me is not worthy of him turning the sky and lust for me, but subconsciously, I hope that I am worthy, I hope.
Whenever I thought of this, I sat alone under the window and wept bitterly. Sorrow is like a tide, which only rises and does not fall. At that time, Bao Chan and Yu'er would knock anxiously on the door outside Cuizhu Xuan, shouting, "Sister Xiangfei, Sister Xiangfei, what's wrong with you?" "I can't answer them because I can't give an answer myself. I once suspected that I had a child's affair with Shen Ying, and Tianjun told me that it was just an illusion of repaying my kindness, so what about me to Yang Jian? Is it also to repay the favor that I have some confusing feelings? Yang Jian has no grace for me to be reborn, and I have no kindness for him. Why do I think of him, and the pain in my heart turns over?
Yang Jian, Yang Jian, after the night of separation, are you okay? Did that bohemian and unreserved Zhuzhu hit you?
Outside the door, Bao Chan and Yu'er had already said loudly and urgently: "Sister Xiangfei, Tianjun is here!" ”
I wiped away my tears, and I opened the door and went out to greet me.
Tianjun walked out of the bamboo forest with extraordinary courage, and when he saw me, his expression became serious, and he helped me from the ground who knelt down and bowed, and said, "Why are your eyes so swollen from crying?" Aren't the minions in the Xiaoxiang Pavilion easy to use? ”
As soon as the words came out, the immortals of the first palace fell to the ground, and they didn't dare to come out, and Bao Chan and Yu'er trembled unconsciously. I had no choice but to say, "Where, it's the wind and sand that have lost my eyes." ”
Originally, he just prevaricated, but Tianjun did it really, summoned Feng Bo, and said with a cold expression: "Feng Bo, what's the matter?" Why did you blow the eyes of Concubine Xiang? ”
Feng Bo was so frightened that he quickly knelt on the ground, and said in fear: "The old minister is guilty, the old minister is guilty." ”
I want to defend Feng Bo, but the Heavenly Monarch has already given an order, "Since you like blowing sand so much, I will degrade you to go to the Nether Desert Land, where the yellow sand is all over the sky, let you blow enough!" ”
"Thank you." Feng Bo is old, and he will be exiled to the realm, all because of my unintentional words. But I was powerless to defend him, and the Heavenly Soldiers and Heavenly Generals had already appeared and detained Feng Bo. Guilt has climbed above my head like a sword, ready to be chopped off at any moment. I'm such a pest!
Tianjun Yun said lightly: "I will take you to the Queen Mother's Palace to meet someone, and your mood will definitely be better." Tianjun couldn't help but say, and pulled me out of the Xiaoxiang Pavilion.
When I arrived at the palace of the Queen Mother, I was afraid to go in, I was afraid of meeting Shen Ying, and I was afraid of meeting the Queen Mother of the West. I don't have the courage to stand in their disdainful gaze. Tianjun didn't embarrass me, he slapped his hands a few times, the palace door opened, and a girl dressed in a beige female doctor fairy dress appeared in front of me. Double-ringed bun, no flower arrangement, no gold, but beautiful and lovely, gentle and amiable.
"Sister!" Mother-in-law jumped out of the palace gate like a rabbit and jumped in front of me.
"Ana!" I looked at my mother-in-law with surprise and joy, and in an instant, sadness and worry rose to my heart. I still couldn't stop her from coming to the land of heaven.
"It's so good to see you, sister, we can be together again in the future." Ana said naively.
I sighed in my heart: Silly sister, you work in the Queen Mother Palace, I'm afraid that it will not be easier to meet in the future than you in Linghe! Due to the presence of the Heavenly Monarch, I did not say this.
Tianjun said: "Mother-in-law, you serve my mother well, as long as you behave well, I will tell my mother to let you see your sister once a month." ”
"I only see you once a month!" The mother-in-law was stunned, and then became happy again, "But it's much better than Linghe, Linghe basically can't see my sister!" "Mother-in-law is happy, and her heart is not like a city, and I only pray that she will be treated well by the Queen Mother of the West in the Queen Mother's palace.
I said to the Heavenly Monarch, "Ana, please take care of the Heavenly Monarch in the future." ”
Tianjun nodded: "Don't worry, my mother-in-law is my mother's benefactor, and after curing my mother's leopard tail and tiger teeth, my mother will remember her good deeds." ”
"In fact, the first dragon should be the first to cure the queen mother......
"Ana, what credit can Chu Long have, you have already asked for the reward of the Heavenly Monarch and the Queen Mother, so don't help everyone to invite the reward, otherwise the Heavenly Monarch will feel that we are dissatisfied." I hurriedly interrupted my mother-in-law's words, I didn't want Chu Long and Zijuan to be called back to Heaven as well, so that I would have failed my original intention of sending them away in the first place.
Mother-in-law is also smart, she immediately understood, changed the topic and bowed and said: "Mother-in-law Naduo thanks Tianjun and Concubine Xiang for their love." ”
Tianjun laughed loudly and waved his hand.
I went to the Queen Mother's Palace with the Heavenly Monarch to meet the Queen Mother of the West, and the Queen Mother of the West spoke politely to me in front of the Heavenly Monarch for a while. Of course, I can't take it seriously, and if I still think that the Queen Mother of the West will turn enemies into friends with me, I will lose without a fight.
Say goodbye to the Queen Mother of the West, say goodbye to my mother-in-law, and the Heavenly Monarch will send me back to the Xiaoxiang Pavilion. Along the way, Tianjun was in a good mood, and he also held a few pieces of flowing clouds to play, full of childlike innocence. I didn't care, but he had already pounded the clouds into the shape of marshmallows and handed them to me, "Taste them and see if they taste like marshmallows?" ”
I was stunned. "Eating something sweet will make you feel better," he said. ”
It turned out that he knew that I was in a bad mood. "Are you worried about your Linghe friend?"
"Hmm." I nodded, and my mother-in-law came to Heaven, only Zijuan stayed in the crocodile cave to take care of the first dragon, and I don't know how the body of the first dragon of the Dao Dao has recovered.
"I have sent Yang Jian to visit them in the Western Heavens, and when Yang Jian comes back, I will immediately ask him to report to you, you just have to rest assured."
The Heavenly Monarch had thought so thoughtfully.
So I began to look forward to Yang Jian's arrival. I look forward to Yang Jian bringing me the news of Chulong's peace, and I also look forward to seeing Yang Jian again. After the separation that night, I didn't see Yang Jian's face, and I don't know if he would still be willing to see me.
Yang Jian came to visit me at the Xiaoxiang Pavilion at night. Bowing as a matter of routine, he reported the situation of Chu Long in the Crocodile Cave, Chu Long and Zijuan were all right, and then he sat silently in the courtyard of the Xiaoxiang Pavilion, without speaking or getting up. Bao Toad and Yu'er retreated in acquaintence, and then he took out a jade bottle from his arms and handed it to me, saying, "You haven't drunk the water of the Spirit River for a long time, right?" ”
I shuddered, I drank the holy water of the Spirit River fed by Shen Ying for five hundred years during the Frost Tribulation, and I haven't drunk it since I arrived in Heaven.
Yang Jian said: "I brought you a bottle back, and you keep it to make tea." ”
My throat immediately swelled like an egg, and my vision blurred with grief and grief hit my chest. Yang Jian put the jade bottle on the stone table, did not say goodbye to me, and walked out of the Xiaoxiang Pavilion silently. When his red cloak disappeared at the end of the bamboo forest, my tears finally fell uncontrollably. Yang Jian, I don't deserve you to treat me like this.