Chapter 5 He Went Home

"Even if the enthusiasm is extinguished, the night of the breakup is important, sweet words and lies are laughing, give me more, never less. It doesn't matter if the topic is over, kiss me until the middle of the night, the bustling city, the lights are shining, but you have never dawned again. The red eyes looked at this lonely city faintly, like the joy squeezed out with a bitter smile, the whole city is for me, the flowers are ruthless, the flashy and prosperous world is the breakup scene, the legendary infatuated tears will fall into the city, the neon will go out and the world will gradually become cold, and the fireworks will Xie Shengge will stop to make the story more beautiful at the end. ”

In the voice recorder, the accompaniment of the mobile phone is not loud, so that Nick's voice is as clear as sitting next to Shen Nanhe.

Shen Nanhe cried loudly and pressed the recorder tightly on his chest.

Her heart hurts, it hurts, it hurts as if it wasn't her own.

The red-eyed eyes looked at this lonely city faintly, like a wry smile, squeezing out of joy. Qionglou Yuyu, poured the formation, to create this peerless scenery, the legendary infatuated tears will fall into the city, the neon extinguishes the world and gradually deserted, the fireworks will Xie Shengge will stop to make the story more beautiful at the end......"

Shen Nanhe's favorite sentence is, 'Qionglou Yuyu, inverted the formation, to create this peerless scenery', Nick's deep and magnetic voice, the best way to describe the scene embodied in this sentence.

The night breeze blew Shen Nanhe's black hair hanging in front of her, she cried so much that she almost wanted to die, at this time, the Qionglou Yuyu in her heart had collapsed with Nick's departure, from now on, who will create this peerless scenery for her?

At the end of the song, there was silence in the recorder for a while, and then the sound of Nick taking a deep breath came, and he said loudly, "Nanhe, my enthusiasm for you will never be extinguished, and I don't want to break up with you, you said that you like "Allure", I will learn to sing "Allure" for you; You said you like drag racing, so I'll accompany you from Central to Tsuen Wan; You said that you like to live without constraints, and I am willing to do whatever it takes with you; You say that you like to play with people who are compatible with you, and I try to make myself the person who is most compatible with you; But you said you didn't like me...... Nanhe, I don't know what to do......"

Nick's voice lowered inch by inch, Shen Nanhe hugged the doll's neck tightly, and pressed his face against the soft short hair of the tower, the temperature on its body came from herself, but she stubbornly thought that it was the temperature on Nick's body.

"Nanhe, I think you must not remember, once you were drunk, I sent you home, asked if you could officially fall in love with me, you told me, in fact, you have someone you like in your heart, you like him very much, even ...... Love him, I thought that person was Xiang Zheng, but you said that the person you fell in love with was someone who would never fall in love with you in this life, I never knew who that person was, but I tried my best to become the person who could replace him. ”

Jiang Qiyuan stood in the corner of the wall separated from Shen Nanhe, listening to Nick's voice coming from inside, calm as him, and couldn't help but reddened his eyes at this time.

Jiang Qiyuan, like everyone else, never thought that Nick would disappear so suddenly, forever, in this way, so that everyone who knew him was like a knife.

"Nanhe, whether you believe it or not, even if it is not for your brother-in-law to find Tan Xuanya, I am ready to confess to you, not for anything else, but I don't want to hide it from you anymore, I am afraid that one day, you will suddenly find out that I used to be a liar, I am afraid that one day, you will suddenly ask me, have I talked about girlfriends before, what are they like? I don't want to lie to you anymore, I don't want to use more lies to hide my previous lies, I don't want to live in lies day after day, and I don't want to see your smile every time I see the darkness in my heart like a living monster that will gnaw at my internal organs. ”

Shen Nanhe shook her head and kept shaking her head, she was saying countless times in her heart: Nick, I forgive you, forgive you, I don't blame you, I really don't blame you, I beg you, don't leave me, don't go......

Nick couldn't hear it, he asked in a nice voice, humbly and helplessly, "Nanhe, please, forgive me, okay?" Don't ignore me, I'm really wrong......"

Shen Nanhe clutched the voice recorder in her hand, and this time, she waited for ten minutes without hearing Nick's voice again.

Slowly raising his head, Shen Nanhe opened his swollen eyes that he couldn't open, and glanced at the voice recorder in his hand, and the indicator light of the voice recorder showed that the recording had ended.

Shen Nanhe was dumbfounded, helplessly looking at the flashing red light, and the fantasy in his mind was that Nick was holding his mobile phone and calling her again and again, but he couldn't get through, and he was thinking about a clockwork message, but something happened.

Tears blurred her vision, no matter how Shen Nanhe wiped it with the back of her hand, but she couldn't wipe it clean, she howled and cried, shouting loudly towards the empty lake, "Nick, you come back, I forgive you, I forgive you......"

I beg you, don't leave me like this.

Shen Nanhe was crying hoarsely, and she couldn't see anything in front of her for a long time, so she didn't know when Jiang Qiyuan was walking beside her, she only felt that she saw a vague figure in front of her, she subconsciously grabbed the wrist of the comer, and said urgently, "Nick......"

Blinking his eyelashes with tears, Shen Nanhe raised his head in confusion, and after a while, he realized that it was not Nick in front of him, but Jiang Qiyuan.

Her fingers trembled slightly, and slowly, she let go of Jiang Qiyuan's wrist, and when she was about to retract it, Jiang Qiyuan held Shen Nanhe's hand, and looked down at the person who was shrunk into a ball on the swing, Jiang Qiyuan said with deep eyes, "People can't be resurrected after death, and it's useless for you to cry no matter how much you cry." ”

Shen Nanhe lowered his head, suppressed his cry, and trembled all over.

Jiang Qiyuan sighed secretly, sat sideways on the swing, hugged Shen Nanhe, and let her cry in his arms.

Shen Nanhe's fingers inadvertently touched the playback button, and the pavilion, which was originally quiet, came with a beautiful singing voice again.

The red-eyed faintly looked at this lonely city, like the joy squeezed out with a wry smile, the whole city is for me, the flowers are ruthless, the flashy and prosperous world is the breakup scene, the legendary infatuated tears will fall into the city, the neon will go out and the world will gradually become colder, and the fireworks will Xie Shengge will stop to make the story more beautiful at the end......

Jiang Qiyuan patted Shen Nanhe on the shoulder, as if he was comforting a child, and said softly, "Nanhe, you have to know that Nick's departure was an accident, it's not anyone's fault, if he knows that you are so heartbroken now, he won't be happy." ”

Shen Nanhe closed his eyes and cried, "It's all me, it's all my fault, if I hadn't been so decisive in the first place and said that I would never see him again, if I could forgive him, if I had received the previous few phone calls, then Nick wouldn't have died......"

Jiang Qiyuan frowned slightly, and he spoke, "Haven't you heard a word?" Maybe between you and Nick, it is destined to be just a few months of fate, his arrival and departure are all destined, and it has nothing to do with me, let alone you. ”

Shen Nanhe shook his head and was speechless.

She had never hated herself so much, why did she always have to think self-righteously that the whole world would revolve around her? Why did she take it for granted that Nick had cheated on her, so she was stubborn and couldn't forgive? Why did she pretend to turn a blind eye for the sake of that high-sounding face after she saw Nick's digital calls?

Even if Nick had this fate, Shen Nanhe didn't want to regret it, didn't want to live in remorse, she knew that this time, she was really wrong.

She can blame Nick's death on Jiang Qiyuan's exposure in a momentary mood, but no one knows better than her heart that Nick's death was an accident, but she was the only deliberate one in ten thousand accidents.

It was her deliberate unforgiveness that forced Nick to get to where he is today......

Jiang Qiyuan hugged Shen Nanhe, and the two sat in the halfway up the mountainside pavilion where there was no one and only countless small lights lit up, from the middle of the night, until dawn, they were speechless to each other, and they were accompanied by Nick's "Allure" sung in a loop.

Shen Nanhe's crying didn't know when it stopped, and she didn't know when she cried and fell asleep, Jiang Qiyuan maintained a motionless sitting posture all night, looking at the lake in front of her, from pitch black to blue by the morning sun.

Shen Nanhe dreamed of Nick in his sleep, he was wearing the same clothes as when they first met, and everything was exactly the same, except for the black hair that was dyed back.

Shen Nanhe and Nick met in an unfamiliar place, where it was white, and there was nothing but knee-high white mist.

Seeing Nick, Shen Nanhe was overjoyed, and she shouted happily, "Nick! ”

Nick looked at Shen Nanhe and smiled.

Shen Nanhe ran briskly towards Nick, and in her dream, every step she took was extremely slow, even though she exerted all her strength.

After walking for a long time, Shen Nanhe finally came to Nick, raised his eyes to look at him, and Shen Nanhe said loudly, "Where have you been?" I've been looking for you for a long time. ”

Nick looked at Shen Nanhe and replied loudly, "I'm going home." ”

Shen Nanhe said, "Are you back in Taiwan?" Go see your aunt? ”

Nick said, "Well, I miss my aunt, so I'm going to go back and have a look." ”

Shen Nanhe said, "Why don't you tell me, I will go back with you if I know Lu Dao." ”

Nick said, "You can't come with me. ”

Shen Nanhe raised his eyebrows and said, "What are you doing?" ”

Nick looked at Shen Nanhe and replied loudly, "Because my aunt has passed away." ”

Shen Nanhe was stunned for a while, and then she looked at Nick and said, "Then you...... How can you see her? ”

Nick curled his lips and smiled lightly, "Fool, because I'm dead too." ”

Shen Nanhe's tears fell suddenly, and she reached out anxiously to pull Nick's wrist and said loudly, "How could you die......

Her hand ran through Nick's wrist and swooped into the air, dreaming, and waking up.