Chapter 37: Feeling Love
Jue has always misunderstood love.
The love in my memory is still the love from a long time ago, the love that poked my third eye blind.
The love that caused her countless injuries, the sister she wanted to protect but couldn't do anything about.
Because after that, the love basically disappeared from her eyes.
She knew she was still there, but when she saw it occasionally, she would be like a passerby, and she didn't remember it until she passed by, but when she turned around, she couldn't find where she was.
She had always been by her side, but she had completely become a ghost underground, suddenly there, suddenly absent, visible, but seemingly invisible.
Jue thinks that it will be because of her own fault, if it weren't for herself, the current love is still an innocent and simple little girl, and this will never happen, such an idea, of course, makes her very self-blaming.
The more she blames herself, the more confused her mind becomes, and when she is immersed in a certain thought, it is difficult to come out.
It's like the love that drilled the horns of the bull at the beginning, but now, the person who drilled the horns has become herself, and she doesn't realize it.
It's not that she doesn't realize it, but she doesn't want to realize it, for her, this world is no longer the same, when a person goes astray, how difficult it is to pull it back, not to mention that at that time, there was no one who could pull her up, and her closest sister was also gradually moving away from her.
She seems to have lost a qiΔ, alone in that lonely underground regret, praying, and, began to raise some pets, even if most of the pets are still afraid of her special abilities, she does what she can do, and wants to continue like this, even if it is completely forgotten.
She herself, as well as that past, will probably disappear from memory.
She didn't understand what else she could do, whether she was slowly losing herself like this, or what should she do, she didn't understand, so she began to make a little note.
That was the beginning of Jue's writing, which at first was just a diary-like transcript, but then it was burned, and she started writing nonsense, and then it was called a novel.
In the end, she put all the things she had written under the bed, because no one usually came to her room.
Loneliness is her worst enemy, and in this battle with the enemy, she finally loses.
Ever since she gave up her diary, she had forgotten about the past and was immersed in another world.
The two sisters seemed to be in despair, until recently, when she and Lian Lian left the ground again and came to the surface.
And the cause is to open up the key space that connects to the ground, and to say that the mastermind behind that time is the god Yasaka Kanako who guards the Yaya Shrine.
But is that really the case?
Jue also had suspicions, but unfortunately she didn't find any clues, and later ...... After that, I didn't pay much attention to it.
In fact, too many things exceeded her expectations, and it has made her gradually begin to be numb, and the love is not wrong, although she was the crazy person at the beginning, but the deeply hurt Jue is the ultimate victim.
It's a pity that the victim herself didn't realize it - or rather, she realized it, but in the end, she forgot about it.
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"That's it, sister."
It seems that the loneliness and dissatisfaction that have been silent for hundreds of years have exploded all at once, and I feel like a ghost at this moment.
Of course, such an adjective is inappropriate, because Jue has no horns, and his appearance has not changed much, but his body emits a black dead air, and that looks like when Lian Lian was stabbing his eyes blindly.
Covered in black gas, his temper is extremely violent, he can't listen to anything, and he doesn't want to pay attention to anything.
All those who do not share their own opinions are enemies, dissatisfied, unhappy, unhappy, depressed, angry, sad.
And that origin is all because of the loneliness brought by loneliness.
"Jue" This kind of monster has no history, no precedent, as if it appeared suddenly, and it is impossible to even understand why such a monster was born.
They can read other people's hearts and understand other people's thoughts, which should be a very good ability, but a youkai with such an ability will never be loved.
Everyone has their own secrets, and no one wants to tell anyone else everything they have on their mind.
Therefore, the monster named "Jue" will definitely be isolated and will be very lonely.
Lian Lian is also a member of "Jue", she doesn't like her ability, but as she grows older, her ability to read minds is getting stronger and stronger.
Even if it wasn't what she intended, she could read the heart of any other youkai, and this one was even more powerful than her sister.
As strong as Yuxiang and purple, she couldn't escape from her mind-reading skills.
Her ability is stronger than that of Purple, and her problems are earlier than Purple's, but at the beginning, because she was by her side, she didn't fall into absolute loneliness.
However, he also fell into another kind of sick thinking.
It's enough to have a sister in my world.
In my sister's world...... It's enough to have me.
She still vividly remembered why she had gone crazy - I remember it clearly.
In the time when my eyes slowly opened and my memories slowly recovered, I remembered a little bit of the past.
Then, she also realized that her sister was not good.
Especially when Satoru locked her underground and said that he didn't want her to leave, she once explained to Satoru that she didn't have any killing intent towards Hongbarny.
She loves to be with Hongnai, so she won't hurt him.
However, her actions only caused dissatisfaction, and when she said this, she made Satoru even more unhappy.
She insisted that Lian Lian would definitely kill Hong, and then she didn't want Lian Lian to leave the underground, and Lian Lian was claustrophobic there.
At that time, looking at her sister, she suddenly noticed that it was the same as when her sister looked at her.
It's just that after such a long time, the identities of the two people were reversed, and the feeling at that time, just like the love at that time, had completely fallen into their own world and couldn't get out.
I only have my sister in my world.
In my world, there is only love in love.
Is this the idea, this made Lian Lian shudder, and the first thing she heard after her mind reading ability was turned on was actually the sentence in Jue's mind.
She put Jue in the same desperate situation as herself, she was only liberated by stabbing her eyes with the help of others, and for this, she lost hundreds of years, and finally regained her memory recently.
No way.
Not allowed!
Absolute!!
Such madness, such despair, even in retrospect is a nightmare, how can I let my dearest sister experience it once.
However, it is impossible to dissuade her with words, and some special methods must be used.
Although she definitely doesn't want to have this kind of experience again, I have to say that it really helped her to go through this process before, and she can recall how she was able to awaken in the first place.
Quite simply, she had been defeated before she could blind herself in the eye.
Many times, some things must be solved with violence, but the love at that time could not accept such an ending, so he would rather choose the path of self-destruction, and this choice is the root of Jue's repetition of the past.
So Lian Lian also knows how to alleviate that symptom.
At the beginning, Lian Lian didn't like that person very much, and kissed me and me with my sister, and it seemed that she had neglected her own savings.
She didn't want that person to take away her sister, but she could also see her sister's admiration for him.
So, she was furious, lonely and lonely, she fell into a desperate posture, but after sobering up, she still refused to accept such a result, so she wanted to use some violent methods to get Jue's attention.
For the current love, it is simply the black history of the second phase of secondary school.
Fortunately, there is that black history, and now I can help my sister.
But if it weren't for that black history, maybe I wouldn't need her help now......
This kind of thing really has no fixed result, but, looking at the awakened Jue, Lian Lian knows that what she needs to do now is to help Jue win in this struggle, and then, change back to the original form.
She believes that her sister's favorite person is also herself.
At the beginning, she sacrificed a qiΔ for herself, and she let her down, but this time it won't.
Now the love is different.
Lian Lian grabbed the brim of his hat, then threw it to the side, and then, a happy smile appeared on his face.
"That's how it should be, sister."