Chapter 204: Self-blame
"She's dead." Mo Ruyuan's choked voice carried a kind of panic. She clutched Ouyang Tianyi's clothes tightly, raised her head, and there were faint tears in her eyes, "She's dead." ”
"Yes, she's dead." Ouyang Tianyi said repeatedly, stroking Mo Ruyuan's hair to soothe her, "But it's not your fault." ”
It wasn't her fault, but Elizabeth died because of her. If he hadn't married Ouyang Tianyi in the first place, then Li Shuman would not have come up with such a vicious trick to deal with her, and Elizabeth would not have died because of this. The cause of this tragedy was all because she married him.
Mo Ruyuan couldn't forgive herself. Even though Elizabeth was an unpleasant woman, she was unjustly killed because of herself.
"It's my fault." Mo Ruyuan's tears fell, "How could she die?" Didn't you say she was still alive? Why would she die? She said excitedly, a little unable to control her emotions.
When Ouyang Tianyi saw her like this, he knew that she had been stimulated too much in the past few days, and immediately picked her up to take her away. She could no longer be allowed to see Elizabeth, who was already dead, so that she would blame herself even more, even if it was not her fault.
For three days, Mo Ruyuan hid in her bedroom, not talking or eating.
Ouyang Tianyi stood outside the door and couldn't help frowning when he saw Xiao Man walking out with the untouched rice.
He pursed his thin lips and finally decided to walk in.
Mo Ruyuan was sitting alone in front of the floor-to-ceiling window, looking out of the window with her eyes, a little sluggish.
He walked up to her, but she didn't respond.
"How long are you going to torture yourself like this?" He asked with concern, distress in his voice.
Mo Ruyuan didn't look back at him, just looked at the world outside the window, and muttered: "She died because of me." ”
Self-blame and guilt grabbed Mo Ruyuan to death, she has had a lot of nightmares in the past few days, and Elizabeth in the nightmare choked her neck and asked her to die with her. She woke up from nightmares again and again, mentally tormented, and she felt that she was about to lose it, and this mental torment was worse than death.
Ouyang Tianyi didn't know about the torment she was suffering, and said a little angrily: "You can't do this anymore. Elizabeth's death has nothing to do with you! If it has to be related, it has to do with me. What are you blaming yourself for? ”
Mo Ruyuan glanced at him and asked him, "Is she going to the funeral today?" ”
"Yes."
"Take me to see her." Mo Ruyuan pleaded with dry lips.
"Okay."
Perhaps only by standing in this grassy cemetery can her mind calm down a little. Mo Ruyuan, dressed in black and wearing a black hat, stood under the scorching sun and stared at the smile on the tombstone for a long time.
At this moment, her mood is very complicated, with indescribable bitterness.
She had been standing here for three hours, and everyone had left, and she was the only one who still stood stubbornly.
Ouyang Tianyi accompanied her, standing behind her and looking at her thin back, not knowing what she was struggling with at this time.
"Let's go back." He said to her.
Mo Ruyuan didn't move, but just asked, "Will she forgive me?" ”
The smile on the tombstone was so bright, but why did she feel so cold!
Ouyang Tianyi nodded: "It's not your fault, she will forgive you." ”
Mo Ruyuan looked at a yellow flower next to the grave and said, "If you are willing to forgive me, just nod." ”
There was no wind, only the sun was shining, but the yellow flower suddenly swayed a few times.
Mo Ruyuan was surprised, tears suddenly fell from her eyes, and she wanted to look up at Ouyang Tianyi happily, but suddenly felt that it was dark in front of her, and she collapsed in front of the tomb due to physical exhaustion.
"Mo Ruyuan!" Ouyang Tianyi held Mo Ruyuan and scolded, "Damn! Silly woman! ”