Chapter 248: Because I Love Him
Song Xiaojing didn't expect that Song Anle could explain her intentions so bluntly, it was obvious that she was not because of any scruples, maybe it was accurate to say that she was for the supreme position, but she still said with a relieved face: "You are finally no longer attached to your promises, I am really happy for you." ”
Song Xiaojing's words seemed to remind Song Anle that since he was not clinging to those meaningless promises, did it also mean that Bai Huaqing could also boldly pursue his own happiness.
Song Anle couldn't explain the truth, so she just said meaningfully: "What I am obsessed with has never been a promise, maybe one day, I will also selfishly chase happiness." ”
She didn't mean to hint at anything, she just hoped that one day in the future, they would understand that everything she did was not because of those promises, but just because of the complicated relationship, but she also revealed that maybe she was tired that day, and she would give up living for others to pursue her own happiness.
"Either way, I will bless you." Song Xiaojing couldn't fully pay attention to Song Anle's words, but she firmly believed that she would figure everything out, which was the biggest shortcoming of her curiosity.
"Thanks, then I'll go first." Song Anle got up as he spoke, meaning to leave.
Song Xiaojing nodded, "Be careful." ”
Song Anle left with a smile, when she walked out of this kind of palace, she inexplicably felt relaxed all over, Xu is Song Xiaojing was too cautious in every link, so it was difficult for her to breathe.
Finally absorbing the comfortable air, Song Anle strolled alone in the garden, looking at the budding stamens in the garden, she was stunned as if she saw them in the past.
At that time, they all had a girlish feeling, yearning for a different future, recalling every time they have passed, and moving towards an unknown future, even so, they can live a carefree life.
That kind of time that does not distinguish between you and me, like a flower waiting to be put in front of you, they are in the delicate time, but they do not fight for you and me, nor do they distinguish between gorgeous, only you are next to me, and I snuggle up to your expectations.
It's a pity that the beauty they once expected has become different now, maybe the love that was once envisioned was beautiful, maybe it has changed too much now, so she is always reluctant to accept it.
Wandering unconsciously, Song Anle had deviated from the route, not wanting to usher in a familiar figure, she looked at it in a daze, this was the first time she saw Gao Yuanyi again since the draft, but he was no longer alone, but accompanied by Shen Xiaoya.
"Comfort." Although Shen Xiaoya noticed Song Anle's gaze on Gao Yuanyi, she still felt very surprised because she hadn't seen him for a long time.
"Xiaoya." Song Anle also greeted Shen Xiaoya, but in front of Gao Yuanyi, she still bowed her head and said, "See King Yong." ”
Without waiting for Gao Yuanyi's words, Shen Xiaoya took Song Anle's hand very affectionately, and said very happily: "I haven't seen you for so long, I want to kill you." ”
Song An smiled indifferently: "I miss you too, but I haven't had the right opportunity to see you, how is it, are you still used to it?" ”
Shen Xiaoya pouted, as if she was not very happy and said: "I'm still like that, as long as I have food and play, it's the same everywhere, but it's a little too boring without you by my side." ”
"When I decide where to live, you can come to see me often in the future."
Listening to Song Anle's words, Shen Xiaoya said in surprise: "What, don't you have a place to live now?" Haven't you been given the title of full clothes, do they dare to abuse the people who have been given the title by the queen's mother? ”
Song Anle didn't know how to explain it, and besides, Gao Yuanyi was on the side, so they couldn't ignore him directly, so she said embarrassedly: "It's not, it's just that I'm not sure of where to live for the time being." ”
"Oh" Shen Xiaoya nodded thoughtfully, and suddenly said in surprise: "By the way, are you also running for the position of the eldest prince's imperial concubine?" ”
Song Anle subconsciously glanced at Gao Yuanyi, she was already ashamed of his affection, if she was talking about Gao Yuanshang in front of him, it would be a little bad.
Even if Gao Yuanyi had no prejudices against Song Anle, when he was embarrassed by her, he still couldn't help but want to help her out of the siege, so he stepped forward and said, "Xiaoya, aren't you going to visit Concubine Jingbian, you go over first, this king will come later." ”
Shen Xiaoya saw a little bit of involvement between them, but she still nodded a little sluggishly and said, "Oh, then I'll go first, Anle, you must come to see me when you have time." ”
Song Anle also nodded and said, "I will, take care of yourself." ”
After sending Shen Xiaoya away, the two of them fell into complete silence, Song Anle was entangled for a long time, because he didn't know how to speak, so after half a ring, Gao Yuanyi took the initiative to say first: "Can we walk together?" ”
"King Yong, I" Even though Song Anle's silence was broken, she still couldn't explain.
And Gao Yuanyi is just starting now, avoiding Song Anle's embarrassment, and also hiding the gloom in his expression.
The two walked for a long time, still without words, as if they were walking side by side, and there was no end ahead, which was what they wanted.
"You don't have to be embarrassed to explain to me about that pearl hairpin, Xiaoya told me." Gao Yuanyi said indifferently as he walked, in fact, after the misunderstanding was resolved, he had no estrangement to Song Anle, but he couldn't accept it, and in a blink of an eye, the woman who should have belonged to him belonged to Gao Yuanshang.
Song Anle's footsteps paused slightly, looking at his silhouette, she still felt a sense of guilt, no matter what, Shen Xiaoya became Gao Yuanyi's person because of their mistakes, even if it was not what they wanted, Song Anle still said lightly: "Xiaoya is also a good girl, I hope you can take care of her a little more." ”
Gao Yuanyi breathed a sigh of relief in his heart, Song Anle knew that his heart was on her, but he still ruthlessly pushed him to other women, so he said childishly: "What about you, is it your own intention to stay in Yongfu Palace?" ”
Song Anle had no way to explain the bitterness in her heart, so she said lightly: "Anyway, I have a reason for me to stay, maybe one day, I will tell you everything, but now is not the time." ”
Gao Yuanyi was also unclear about the relationship between her and Gao Yuanshang, as well as Bai Huaqing, but he would have the confidence to figure it out, and at that time, maybe everything was not as complicated as the status quo, so he said firmly: "Then I'll wait for you that day." ”
Song Anle knew that he couldn't give it, he was waiting for the future, and she couldn't bear to wait for him, so she said with a solemn face: "King Yong has thousands of good women in the world, why should you wait for me to be a worthless person." ”
Gao Yuanyi's face was calm and indifferent, compared to Song Anle's melancholy, he said indifferently: "Like you said, maybe one day I will find out that you are not worth my wait, but at least now I am willing to wait for you." ”
Song Anle's tense heart was hanging, but she would still be touched, she couldn't make up her mind to decide him, a man who was infatuated with perfection, she didn't dare to imagine whether it was cruel or beautiful in the future waiting for them, so she still said sadly: "If one day I lose you, please don't remember me." ”
Gao Yuanyi's sword eyebrows frowned slightly, and his heart also stabbed violently, he had never thought about this question, and now it was suddenly mentioned, he only had one answer in his consciousness, if he couldn't have her, he could at least hide her in his memories, but if he wanted to forget her, he would rather die first, because he couldn't imagine the day when he completely lost her.
So he said solemnly: "If there is such a day, I would rather die." ”
"Don't." Song Anle grabbed his arm excitedly, because she had experienced the destruction of family affection and the loss of relatives, she deeply realized the helplessness of loss, so she hesitated to throw herself into Gao Yuanyi's arms, and said in a low and helpless voice: "Promise me, no matter when, you will live well, even if it is for me." ”
Gao Yuanyi soothed her hesitation, although he didn't know what Song Anle's so-called reason was, but he felt the heavy burden in her heart, but she would rather bear it alone than say it and let him help her bear it.
Because of Song Anle's low mood, Gao Yuanyi didn't want to stay in this topic, so he said in a low voice: "It's too early to say this, because I still have a chance to redeem you." ”
Song Anle also moved out of his arms, looking at his firm attitude, as well as his expression, all revealing his inner persistence, Song Anle suddenly felt ruthless, she said coldly: "Don't be obsessed with me, I can't belong to you." ”
Gao Yuanyi locked his eyebrows deeply, he didn't plan to entangle this issue with her, but he inadvertently found that Gao Yuanshang and Gao Yuankang were coming from not far away, so he grabbed Song Anle's shoulders and pretended to be excited and said, "Why?" Tell me why? ”
"Because I love Gao Yuanshang." Song Anle also excitedly broke free of his hand, since she was ruthless to refuse, she said coldly and ruthlessly: "I love him, so I am willing to wait for him, are you satisfied?" ”
Gao Yuanyi seemed to hear the sound of his own heartbreak, and the sound of breaking was like a sharp needle prick, deeply rooted in every cell of him, maybe only in this way can Song Anle be forced to tell the truth, at least let Gao Yuanshang know that Song Anle loves him.
After fulfilling others and breaking his heart, Gao Yuanyi looked at Song Anle directly, and then subconsciously glanced at Gao Yuanshang behind her, and then took his scarred body and left alone.
Song Anle also left tears of heartache at the moment when Gao Yuanyi turned around, and she seemed to see his broken heart from Gao Yuanyi's injured eyes, which were the traces of her own hands, and it could never be repaired.