When Wu Wei fell into a new kind of confusion and distress, he didn't know what to do, and there was another person in the distance because he was also in distress, which was the distress of lovesickness.

Wu Wei is already in his twenties, and although Song Rou has frequently appeared around him in the past, he has not eaten red grain and has no serious job status, so he is ashamed to miss the opportunity for development. Wu Wei's neighbor in Hebian Town has a young, well-proportioned, plump, dignified, elegant professional woman, the same age, and Wang Feng is engaged in political work in the wire factory, commuting to work in front of the house, Xingxi always has the opportunity to peek to pleasing the eye. In those years, there were occasional introductions to him, but they were all non-decent jobs.

In reality, Song Rou was ashamed of herself and didn't dare to think about it, so she had to look for the love affair between men and women in the book, and when she saw the description of the plot in the early novels, she repeatedly played with it so that it became a hobby, in order to help the erotic life of poverty. Unfortunately, at that time, there were few varieties of novels, and after strict screening and filtering, it was difficult to see women, even if there were also male ** appearances, revolutionary and combative personalities, some novels, there were almost no women, and reading popular novels was as fast as being able to read women's names. The scarcity economy also created a scarcity of female resources in literature, and this scarcity exacerbated the desire. Now Wu Wei feels the need for love. At that time, there was a lack of love, and he lacked love even more. He felt that Song Rou was imbued with sympathy for him. By the time the light of Eros shone on the earth, he had slowed down a few beats. He felt that Eros was so far away, so far away. When he felt the separation of the way he was pursuing learning from people, his thirst for love deepened, just as a parched earth needs to be moistened by rain.

He didn't know what to say, now Song Rou is in pain, Wu Wei decided to take the college entrance examination, she realized that Wu Wei was about to fly away, what she felt was separation, it was the separation of love and people, it was another separation different from the separation embodied by Wu Wei, Wu Wei felt that everyone was alienated and isolated from herself, she felt that the goal of her love and the love in her heart were separated, if two people built a love nest together to share the joy and warmth of love, love would be consolidated and sublimated. Now that the two of them are not together, far apart, he does not accept her love for him in the first place, she understands that he is ashamed of himself, and now it is the advantage of the position conditions that is reversed, and she feels ashamed of herself. Can love cross this distance, she feels that with the elongation of time and space, the weight of love will be reduced, and she often asks herself, will he still accept his love? She realized that once the affection of love was generated, and she wanted to withdraw it from the depths of her heart, it would cause pain like a thorn, and it was more painful to pull it out than not to pull it out, and she was frightened by the pain that she tried to pull out, and she couldn't bear to do it, and waited carefully.

There was no such experience in the past, because the past has always been full of confidence and hope. In recent years, Song Rou has seen the door of the Zhiqing Office diagonally opposite the door in the county party committee office, and the male and female intellectuals who come and go to go through the procedures for returning to the city are not as elated as people imagine, many people are leaving with pain and sorrow, and returning to the city means the separation of family and love, hope and sweetness for many people, which is the separation brought about by the great changes in society. When she saw the helplessness and confusion of the educated youths in the face of the pain of separation, her heart couldn't help but tighten, her separation from Wu Wei was the distance that existed from the beginning, the distance that had been covered by love in the past, and she couldn't see it or realize it. The distance between her and Wu Wei in pursuit, thought, taste, knowledge, and experience is getting bigger and bigger, she believes that love can conquer the distance of time and space, but she lacks confidence in herself to eliminate such a distance, and the stronger the sense of separation accompanied by love, the stronger her pain. The sensation of pain calms people down and strengthens their willpower. In the past, thinking of Wu Wei would make her feel sweet and warm, but now the pain triggered her calm thoughts, and she had to carefully consider her weight in Wu Wei's mind. In the past, he was just blindly passive to deal with himself, but now it is accompanied by a faint dissolution. She knew too well that once his talent for diligent learning encountered such a suitable soil and environment, it would be released like a volcano, which would make Wu Wei feel a strong sense of pleasure, and it would be difficult for anything to match and share with it. When she thought of this, her feelings were magically replaced, and she was sincerely happy that Wu Wei had found an ideal learning and living environment, which dissipated the pain, and that kind of love also dissipated. She seems to realize that the feelings of love cannot be forcibly withdrawn, but can only be dissolved, transferred and sublimated by alternative means. She felt excited and joyful about her psychological success, and she felt that she should be liberated from indulging in love for Wu Wei and establish the height of pursuit like Wu Wei! She suddenly realized that her feelings were changing in a strange way, her mind became extraordinarily bright and clear, and her vision seemed to become high and wide.

At this time, Wu Wei was completely immersed in the ocean of knowledge, which was enough to dissolve all kinds of unhappiness brought to him in life, and he used his own understanding and unique way of coping to dissolve the sharp contradiction between the way of knowledge and the way of life.

Until one afternoon, he suddenly saw Wu Wei's name written on the blackboard hanging on the wall outside the school gate mailroom, and he felt very strange when he saw it, because he had just received a remittance slip from his brother and sister a few days ago. He walked into the mailroom, and the eldest sister in charge of sending and receiving smiled and said, You have a remittance slip again. As soon as Wu Wei saw the familiar Juanxiu penmanship, he knew that it was Song Rou's, and sent 100 yuan, only to suddenly realize that she was far away and cared for herself, which aroused emotional ripples. After he returned to the silent classroom and sat down, once the emotional strings were plucked, it would stimulate people's thinking, and first her beautiful image flashed in his mind, as if he could taste the thick fragrance she emitted, he was immersed in it for a while, and psychologically the mountain ravine that had crossed them suddenly disappeared, and the figures of the two of them were getting closer and closer. His musings drew the attention of one of his classmates. His thirst for knowledge and sensitivity make his gaze on emotions seem particularly dull, and it takes a definite stimulus to penetrate the armor of his emotional world. He had a hunch that he was coming to the crossroads of the world of feelings, and Song Rou's foreshadowing of love now felt too thick and intimate to him, and the experience of being up close at that time was strange and fresh, because there was no clear goal and commitment to respond, and it was not yet very clear. He felt unusually empty and silent in the classroom, and suddenly, a feminine diary was quietly placed on his desk, and he looked up to see a familiar figure leaving him. His mind was pulled back to the diary, picked it up and looked at it, through the folded page number, there were clear marks, he opened it and saw the female font displayed in the field of vision, he hurriedly read it carefully, only to understand that this female classmate named Su Liu wrote about his favor and admiration, and his face suddenly felt slightly hot, fortunately, the classmates had not come in. He had heard the careful Shi Chong and Wang Chenglin tell him that some female classmates in this class and even other classes paid special attention to him. Young people in their twenties have different degrees of social experience, have experienced a certain amount of wind, frost, snow and rain, and their expression of emotions is somewhat subtle, and they are cautious for fear that they will be hurt by exposure, and it is difficult for people to catch them, let alone people like Wu Wei who are slow to respond to feelings. Su Liu had been hospitalized for jaundice hepatitis, Song Guang asked him to visit her, he recalled that she looked at him a little strangely, and soon after visiting her, Shi Chong once told him that infectious diseases would be passed on to the next generation, and he was still puzzled at the time, Shi Chong asked him such a question for what he wanted. He realized that he was in trouble, because deep in his heart, beautiful figures like Mei Yuan and Song Rou were deeply implanted, which made him feel like he had gained immunity, and undoubtedly raised his aesthetic standards for women. But he didn't want to hurt Su Liu.

Just when Wu Wei's mind was wandering, the students entered the classroom one after another to do self-study, at this time the Mongolian Haas came in, he was already very smart, and he kept talking witty, he shouted loudly as soon as he came in, Wu Wei, I saw your remittance slip in the mailroom, and I just wanted to sign it for you, and suddenly I had a feeling that my hands were burned. When he said this, everyone laughed, how could it be hot to sign it.

Haas said in a playful tone, I saw that the name on the remittance slip was not from their family, the name was much better than your girl's name, and then I looked at it, the amount was quite large, 100 yuan, Wu Wei usually received the remittance slip is 20 yuan, Wu Wei can treat this time.

The students were interested in the name, and some people shouted, what is the name?

Haas said, let Wu Wei explain the origin to everyone. Wu Wei said, what is the matter, it was sent by my sister.

Haas said, what sister, not Sister Lin, right? When he said this, he caused another cry.

Haas said that the name could be remembered with a glance of the eye. The classmates said, don't sell it, Wu Wei doesn't want to say it, you don't dare to say it? Could it be that you are also thinking about it, right?

As soon as Haas heard the call with him, he opened his mouth and came out, Song Rou.

A classmate who reacted quickly said, did you send Wu Wei tenderness and sweetness? Everyone turned their eyes to Wu Wei, and his face suddenly turned red.

Haas laughed, how is it, showing the horse's feet, right? Why is your face red?

Zhu Caimao, who rarely jokes, also smiled at this time, Wu Wei is just such a secret, why are you stabbing others, it's really ignorant. Another burst of laughter erupted.

At this time, Wu Wei paid special attention to Su Liu with the afterglow in his field of vision, only to see that she sat there quietly at first and listened, gradually lowered her head, and then lay on the table. Wu Wei thought, this is okay, whether it is true or not, in her psychology, she will realize that she already has an object, and then, he took advantage of an opportunity to return the diary to her without anyone noticing. It turned out that Song Rou heard from classmates in the countryside that Wu Wei's mother was hospitalized, which made his family, which was not well-off, even more difficult, and his mother fainted on someone's kang because she went to a relative's house in the county to borrow tuition for Wu Wei, and she was in a hurry to send him money when she heard the news.

Song Rou in the distance has already started a new psychological activity, and has confidence in using love to eliminate the distance between time and space, and has caused new doubts about lack of self-confidence, whether the distance between knowledge, ability, level, taste, pursuit, etc. can be eliminated with love, lack of self-confidence, but she sees a new artistic conception from this lack of self-confidence, she dimly realizes that she and Wu Wei still have new possibilities for development, which may mean hope, it is her love for Wu Wei, showing herself this possibility, Calling her to work hard for this possibility to become a reality, although she lacks self-confidence, it inspires a kind of pursuit of height, it is love that is elevating the height of her pursuit, she realizes that she can use love to make up for the distance between her and Wu Wei, now it is just a lack of self-confidence. When Wu Weilu and Song Rou will be able to reach the reunion that people yearn for and desire for a better love, he himself does not know, for him, even this goal has not been established. Song Rou didn't know whether the reunion of the two people could be realized, but the two of them were working hard with confusion and even pain. Wu Wei's pain is that he feels that he is always doing the right thing, but what is it that always causes people to doubt, dispute and even oppose him, when one day he is faced with the person he loves the most, and his persistent pursuit will also be strongly opposed, how will he react? Song Rou now doesn't know if she can use love to pull the persistent Wu Wei into her arms, and let herself express her love freely. Now, what is embodied in Wu Wei is the Tao, what Song Rou is condensed is love, love is the person, and the Tao and the Tao are now in a state of separation from each other. Only when people and the Tao are combined, can the two achieve each other, realize the combination of yin and yang, the mutual aid of rigidity and softness, and stimulate great energy. There is no way for anyone to come to the Tao, and no Taoist can not walk in heaven and earth. Only the combination of Wu Wei and Song Rou can dissolve and sublimate the contradiction between man and Tao now. Wu Wei is obsessed with the Tao but gets lost in the Tao, but Song Rou is more clearly aware of the possibility of resolving separation because of love. Although both of them have their own self-confidence, without self-confidence, they have lost the value of survival, and our story cannot be continued, and it is their respective self-confidence that allows us to continue to write. Wu Wei's self-confidence is the self-confidence of clinging to the Tao, and Song Rou's self-confidence full of unconditional love for him, is out of the state of separation, from the overall point of view, this self-confidence is incomplete, is incomplete, is dismembered, naturally makes self-confidence full of pain, precisely because of pain, is paradoxical, absurd, only the fusion and unity of two self-confidence, can constitute perfect self-confidence, is satisfied, fully realized, full of joy and happiness self-confidence. Now, the two of them have been shown a brilliant and bright prospect, but whether it can be realized and truly build a happy life is still a new test of risk and charm for the two people. We can assume that even if the two achieve a combination, will they be able to achieve a perfect combination, and can always maintain this perfection, or leave a suspense, not to mention that it is still too far away from the goal of combining the two people.

The teachers and students of the school have almost reached a highly unanimous consensus on Wu Wei's whereabouts, and they will stay in the school to teach. Wu Wei also regarded staying in school as his ideal place for study and research, but no one made it clear to him. Song Guang even consciously took him to meet the principal, saying that he wanted to deepen his impression. When he was about to graduate, Wu Wei suddenly realized that he should talk to the school, so he asked the head teacher to see if he could transfer his partner. The head teacher asked, where is the subject. In fact, Wu Wei did not communicate with Song Rou, but he felt that the relationship between the two was certain. The homeroom teacher looked very embarrassed, thought about it and said, I originally planned to keep you in school, but now you make this request, I'm afraid it will be difficult to do. And then say, let's talk about it later. Wu Wei imagined the demeanor of the head teacher, worried about staying in school

Things were going to be in vain, so I left school with this suspense.