Browsing records line by line, making Leng Yun worried, a week, two weeks, a month...... The computer at home is almost used by He Jiquan alone, it turns out that Milan and Huang Mei's words are true, I once thought that homosexuality was just a product of capitalist drunkenness, but I never thought that it was by my side, by my pillow. With traces and targets to be found, and doubts to be seen, Leng Yun tracked along the line, typing Comrade XX in the search, and the results showed that there were places where comrades gathered in the provincial capital, and there were bars and other places.

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He Jiquan, who doesn't think about work, often falls into the contradiction of self-reflection, looking back at the marriage, he will feel that he doesn't love Leng Yun enough, he is not fully involved in this marriage, everything is according to plan, maybe the other half of the marriage will be treated like this by whoever resides, but unfortunately Leng Yun, he also wants to fulfill his obligations as a husband and father, so he is trying his best to maintain this family, and strive to let himself play his role. For example, he would take the initiative to go to the health care store to buy viagra again, because he found that with the support of this blue magic medicine that time, he became a quite capable striker, and he could also observe that Leng Yun was very satisfied with his eyes closed. But try to play the role, although he has never done anything sorry for Leng Yun, but in his heart he is still more eager for that world, just like this bar, only by being there, can he have a feeling of returning to the world that originally belonged to him, he only appreciates some of the people in front of him, and he just appreciates it.

After Leng Yun and her daughter went to work and school, they went on the Internet at home for a while, read a few online articles, and were sad for the joys and sorrows of the people who loved each other in the world described in the article because they had to compromise with tradition, so they simply ate a bite of food at noon and prepared to go to that bar. He Jiquan has always had a principle for himself, but he just looks at it from a distance and does not set foot in that circle, firstly, he must be responsible for Leng Yun and others, and secondly, he is even more self-conscious. He just wanted to come and have a look, or to have a chat with someone, to be comforted. entered the bar, found a place to sit down, ordered a pot of green tea, and the waiter put the tea vessel in front of He Jiquan. To serve him, He Jiquan told the waiter to come by himself, He Jiquan pumped some water into the kettle, boiled it, and began to use a clip to hold the tea cup and other tea utensils to rinse. After the blanching is completed, fill the teaspoon with Biluochun and brew high and low. Pour a little and put it in the incense pot to smell the sweet fragrance of the tea. After drinking half a pot of tea, a middle-aged man with gold-rimmed glasses walked up to He Jiquan's table and asked politely, can you sit here for a while? He Jiquan raised his hand to ask for convenience, and the man sat down, his eyes looking at He Jiquan from time to time. Suddenly, he said, "In fact, people's lives are fast-paced now, and young people like fast-paced food, and drinks are milk tea and instant coffee that are brewed and brewed." It's rare to see someone like you who can sit down and drink tea", He Jiquan knew that this person was looking for a topic to chat, so he indifferently said "hehe" twice to show his acquiescence. And the man said, "Do you come here often?" "No, only occasionally", "What do you like?" The man asked. Just come and see". He Jiquan thought it was time to end the answer to the man, but the man stretched out his hand to the upper and lower parts of the body and tried again, "Which type do you belong to?" He Jiquan was unhappy, and the man then asked, "Are you married?" Prefer older or younger? ......" He Jiquan was a little unhappy, "You care too much", got up and went to the bar to settle the bill, the time to step out of the bar was still very early, the light outside was very bright, and he didn't get used to it for a while, he vaguely saw Leng Yun standing in front of him, shook his head, adjusted the focus of his gaze, and suddenly felt like he was running naked in the square and being watched, and his mood instantly fell to the bottom, Leng Yun stood there expressionless, and even a little strange, terrible strangeness, as if he had seen through all of himself, and his mind was empty for a while, and he didn't know where to start, or how to answer Leng Yun's question.

Following Leng Yun, the two entered the house one after the other, the atmosphere in the room was extremely cold, Leng Yun didn't speak, he didn't even take off his coat, he sat at the table after entering the house, ten fingers were tightly inserted in her hair, she was very entangled, He Jiquan rubbed his hands like a child who had done something wrong, and raised his eyes from time to time to look at Leng Yun and wait for Leng Yun's trial.

Leng Yun said, "Are you leaving, or am I leaving?" When Leng Yun said this, he couldn't hold back the tears he shed, and all kinds of feelings of sadness, grievance, unwillingness, and anger came to his heart for a while. He Jiquan said, "It's not like that, it's not that step", Leng Yun sneered, "It's not that point, I have to wait until I catch the rape in bed and find out that my rival is not a woman but a man, and then I get to that step?" He Jiquan's heart was like a knife, "I didn't mean that, I didn't mess around, let alone anyone, and I didn't feel sorry for you, I don't deny that you say I have this tendency, but I haven't done anything, I swear I promise", "You didn't feel sorry for me, you dare to say that you never felt sorry for me, you couldn't lift your mind after seeing me when you went to bed, and you were thinking about others, isn't this sorry for me?" After the answers to Leng Yun's tangled things in the past few days were revealed, she all vented out, of course He Jiquan couldn't argue about the difference between mental derailment and physical derailment, she was destined to choose in her bones, and she was indeed too cold to Leng Yun sexually, so she said, "I didn't do anything out of the ordinary, nor did I make and meet any friends, since I chose marriage, I will be responsible for marriage", "I can't afford such a responsibility of yours, I actually fell in love with a person who likes men, and my husband turned out to be gay", It is true that he did not catch the evidence that He Jiquan was wrongdoing with others, or who he fell in love with, Leng Yun was very aggrieved and mocked himself.

He Jiquan said, "I won't divorce, and you don't want to leave, I will only be a hundred times better to you in the future", and at this moment, Leng Yun only felt that his head was as big as a fight, and he didn't know what to do for a while, so he told He Jiquan, "You go back to Yunyang first, I don't want to see you, I want to think about it", seeing Leng Yun like this, He Jiquan was in a dilemma, and wanted to follow his wife's will to return to Yunyang, each of them was calm and calm, and he was afraid that once he left, Leng Yun would do some other paranoid or radical behavior, and he was hesitating, and his daughter came back from school, Leng Yun didn't want his daughter to see any difference, so he said to He Jiquan, you really go back to Yunyang, I will be fine, don't worry, He Jiquan had to turn around and leave, thinking about it, maybe they might be separated for a while, and it would be okay to sort out their thoughts, but after thinking about it a lot, I suddenly felt that maybe it was a wrong start to go down to the grassroots level. (To be continued......)