Chapter 317: He Took What She Loved the Most
"Why are you in such a hurry? I haven't finished my words yet, you can rest assured, what I say definitely counts, Maomao will definitely be able to return to you in a few days. However, you have to answer me, did you ever love me? Fang Yichen looked at Su Luoyan stubbornly, eager to get the answer he wanted from this woman's mouth.
All along, he was very confused, and he didn't know what he was to Su Luoyan. She agreed to his request and married him, and now that he had lost his legs, he had been cold to her before, and even angry with her, and did not give her a good temper, and he thought that this woman would definitely leave him. But so far, Su Luoyan has not made a move to leave. Sometimes he didn't know if it was because he controlled Mao Mao that Su Luoyan was so obedient.
What he actually wants is not a woman who is submissive to him, he wants to see Su Luoyan's happy laughter from the heart, and he longs to be able to talk and laugh with Su Luoyan like a normal couple. Instead of staying in the same room as now, two people are doing their own thing.
However, his simple idea has sometimes even been a luxury. He didn't completely reveal his heart, but he believed that Su Luoyan could see his actions. He really wanted to love passionately again, just with this woman. He admitted that he had done many things before, and he did not care about Su Luoyan's feelings.
In the past few days, seeing Su Luoyan by his side every day, he still rejected Leng Yunhao for him, and he was happy in his heart. At the same time, he was also scared in his heart, he didn't know whether Lu Dao's accommodation was out of sincerity or helplessness. He was afraid that he was thinking too much, and he was even afraid that if he continued to be so willful, this woman would be more and more distant from him.
It's not that he hasn't thought about the situation of the two people, it's not that he hasn't sketched the future that belongs to each other, he just becomes more and more scared, and it is difficult to find his own sense of security. He wanted an answer from Su Luoyan, and only then could he decide what to do next.
He knew in his heart that Su Luoyan regarded Mao Mao as very important, but to a certain extent, he was a little dissatisfied in his heart, Mao Mao was not his son, this was a fact that no one could change. For a long time, he had been strongly persuading himself to accept the coming of this life. But he was afraid, if one day, that man returned to Su Luoyan's side, I am afraid that everything he did could only be exchanged for a word of thanks.
If it was really Xie Luxie, he would rather say that sorry himself, he would not allow others to hurt him unscrupulously. This time, he took away the thing that Su Luoyan loved the most in his heart, and he just longed for this woman to give him a little bit of strong love. It's just a little bit, he doesn't want much, as long as she has a little love for him in her heart.
He looked at Su Luoyan blankly, expecting to get the answer he wanted from her mouth. Su Luoyan was stunned at the door, and was silent inexplicably. In this time when love should not be said, this man naively thinks that everything can be interpreted by love. But he may not know the way, many times love is so helpless, and even can't be explained by love at all. She just smiled bitterly, then turned around and looked at Fang Yichen seriously.
"I think you misunderstood me, Yichen, although the two of us are legally husband and wife, you should know from the beginning that I have never loved you. This pattern of getting along with each other may seem strange to others, but since we have chosen, we can only maintain it. I won't love you, it was like that in the past, it is still the same, and as for the future, I think it's hard to change. ”
Su Luoyan's expression was unusually solemn, she didn't say many things, but she was afraid that if she said it, she would hurt those innocent people. But in this moment, she felt that she was better off saying it. Especially Fang Yichen, she wanted to tell him all these words. She can't give him any hope, it's a responsibility for herself and a responsibility for him.
"I never expected you to really treat Mao Mao as your own son, but you secretly took Mao Mao away from me, I was hurt by this matter, if you see me compromise, see me compromise, think this is a sign of love for you, then I can only say that you are thinking too much. I just hope that my son will come back to me as soon as possible, and I hope that you will follow your conscience and get that child back as soon as possible. ”
She spoke very seriously, and every sentence seemed to use a lot of force. Fang Yichen leaned there, with a look of disbelief, in the past few days, he had been secretly hiding hope in his heart, thinking that Su Luoyan still had a little love for him. At least she did. However, now this woman actually told him in person that all the accommodations she had given him for so many days were because of that child.
It's not that he didn't think of this, but when the truth appeared naked in front of his eyes, she was a little unacceptable. What he wants is love, not sympathy, why does every time he thinks he loves love, in the end it becomes a kind of bamboo basket to draw water? He couldn't understand, he couldn't understand at all.
"You lied to me, you must lie to me, if you don't love me, why would you marry me? If you don't love me, why will you always be with me? If you hadn't loved me, and I've become like this now, you'd definitely leave me. There was a painful look on his face, and even if the reality was so cruel, he still didn't believe it. He preferred to believe that the woman in front of him was just duplicitous, and she must have thoughts of love for him.
"I didn't lie to you, I didn't lie to you from beginning to end. I admit that I was a little selfish, and when you said that you were going to take care of me, I was very moved, I accepted your protection, and you said that you wanted to get married, and I didn't object, and at that time, I was in a mess. Even, I can say that I didn't care about your feelings at all. Su Luoyan exhaled deeply and continued.
"Yichen, this matter is that I am sorry for you, I am not responsible for myself, nor am I responsible for you. That's what led us to the end we have today. However, I can tell you that even though I never loved you, I never thought about divorcing you. It doesn't matter which woman you're out there with. ”
Should this be taken as a consolation, or should it be taken as a mockery? Fang Yichen's heart couldn't calm down. He spends all day drinking outside, just because he is depressed in his heart, and if this woman gives him a little warmth, he thinks that the thing he hopes for most in his life is to go home for dinner. But such an idea is just a luxury in the end.
"Now that you have no legs, I never wanted to leave you, even if you are now a beggar, I will not leave you. But I hope you don't think too much, I really haven't loved you. It's just that I don't mind you hurting me with Maomao's affairs, so I think it's probably hard to have any intersection between us in the future. ”
This is what Su Luoyan said with great effort, that child was the only thought she had in this life, but Fang Yichen cruelly joked about her thoughts. She couldn't do it anymore, and she continued to move forward with gratitude and gratitude in her heart as before. She is now repaying him bit by bit with the mentality of repaying him.
"Do you pity me now? Su Luoyan, I don't want you to pity me, I just hope you can love me a little bit, even if it's just a little bit. I didn't ask you to love me like you love Leng Yunhao, I don't want that, I just hope you can give me a little bit of your love, I didn't want to hurt you, never. ”
Hearing Su Luoyan's words, Fang Yichen's heart couldn't calm down. He prayed for her love so pitifully, but she never understood, and was not willing to give him a little bit sincerely. He felt like a beggar, standing alone in the streets, just to look at him more as she passed. All he could do was look at Su Luoyan's back, and this woman never included him in her sight.
"I don't need to pity you, what kind of person you want to become, that's your own choice. I don't think we need to be children at this age. I hope you'll calm down, but I'd rather you'll be sensible. I have something to go first, and I'll come back tomorrow. ”
After Su Luoyan finished speaking, he left without looking back. The firm footsteps knocked out a resounding note on the ground, but Fang Yichen was stunned at the head of the bed, and the whole person fell into a chaotic mood. What did he do wrong, why did he not get the slightest favor from this woman?
He was in great pain, but he couldn't understand it, all the things in the room were thrown to the ground in his anger, and there was a chaotic sound of ping-pong in the room, Su Luoyan just frowned and continued to walk forward. She didn't look back, because this man didn't do anything worth her to turn back.
Everyone has the right to choose their own path, and once they have chosen, there is no turning back. She was destined to walk this path alone, so she would not let anyone come near her. Leng Yunhao, I love you very much, but I'm sorry, I can only silently bless you, hoping that you can find a better woman than me.
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