Yan Yue was in a trance for a moment before he came back to his senses and smiled comfortingly at Fang Zixuan, "Actually, it doesn't hurt that much, but I was only eight years old at the time, and I couldn't bear the pain, so I felt extremely uncomfortable." But even then, I insisted on gritting my teeth and refusing to reveal Yan Qi's whereabouts, in fact, it was really silly to think about, there was still some heroism complex at that time, I knew that I would tell them that it would be good for him to run away from the vent, why bother to hold on, but they tortured me just to find an excuse, and they wouldn't stop because I said it, and I was the only one who was stupidly immersed in my own fantasies from beginning to end. ”

Looking at his self-deprecating smile, she felt even more uncomfortable, "Don't say these things if you don't want to say them, it's not a good memory anyway, I don't have to know." ”

"No, you have to know these things, and I will tell you more about my past in the future, because I promised you that you would not deceive you about anything, so I don't want you to have any doubts about me in my heart after knowing these things from others, so that they will not be able to use these things to take advantage of you." He insisted on looking at her, although every memory made him bleed, but for her, he would rather peel off his rotten wounds again, "You said you didn't want me to hide anything from you, and I promised you that you would tell you everything slowly." ”

"Okay." This time she understood his insistence and held his hand tightly, trying to give him strength.

"Later, I was tortured by them to the point that I passed out, and I don't know how long it took, but I vaguely heard them drinking and chatting, and it turned out that their main purpose was not to ransom. It's that someone paid a high price for my life at the beginning, and they just became greedy later, and wanted to tear me up after getting two sums of money, and Yan Qi was not in their plan at all, and even they were in a gang...... Hehe, it's ridiculous, the person I once trusted with all my heart should treat me like this, it was he who completely destroyed my basic trust in people, and since then. I can't trust anyone anymore. Including my grandfather, who was so kind to me. ”

"He was only a teenager at the time, right?" Fang Zixuan's intuition was a little incredible, how could a teenager design his cousin to death so ruthlessly?

"Yes, at the age of thirteen, I kept calling him 'brother' affectionately. He always looked at me with loving and pitiful eyes. But it was this 'brother' who led me to the racecourse. It was also he who transferred the people who protected us, and he was naturally deliberately let go by them, but the people closest to me gave me the deepest and heaviest stab. Why do you think they don't even spare an eight-year-old child? In fact, all this is not difficult to investigate, but why was my grandfather so angry after I was rescued, but he never investigated the truth of the matter, and simply killed those kidnappers, what was he trying to cover up? The entire Yan family was silent, and none of them stood up to say a word of justice, or was all this what they acquiesced to, or even dominated? For some people, I am a thorn in their side, I wish I could get rid of it quickly, for others, I am an orphan without a father or mother, without any dependence, whether I exist or not has nothing to do with the overall situation, in short, my life is so worthless......" Yan Yue's emotions gradually became excited, and crazy hatred appeared in his eyes.

"How did you get rescued?" She held his hand tightly, her eyes unblinking, looking deep into his pupils.

"It's Uncle Han, my father's friend of life and death, he is a person in the military world, he rescued me as soon as he got the news, but when he got the news, it was already three days after I was kidnapped, at that time I was tortured to death, if it wasn't for my grandfather to call a famous doctor everywhere, I would already be a piece of loess, how many people are hindering them from saving people in the past three days, they don't want to give me any life. It was also at Uncle Han's insistence that my grandfather sent me abroad, and later he arranged for Da Mao and Xiao Mao to come to my side......"

"Da Mao and Xiao Mao are Uncle Han's people?"

"Strictly speaking, no." Yan Yue smiled bitterly, "The two of them are the people left to me by my father, when I was not born, my father adopted two orphans, in addition to them, there are more than a dozen of them, and later they were handed over to Uncle Han for training, the purpose is to be able to protect me in the future, Da Mao and Xiao Mao are responsible for protecting me closely, and the others are helping me outside, everyone in the Yan family, including my grandfather, knows about their existence, but I can't figure out their details, if it weren't for them over the years, I'm afraid I would have died more than once." It's ridiculous, I always thought he didn't love me, I didn't expect him to do these things for me. ”

"There is no parent in the world who does not love their children." She sighed.

"Don't you think there's nothing convincing that comes out of your mouth?" Yan Yue looked at her with a strange smile.

She was slightly stunned, did Fang Jianlin give her or her brothers and sisters any trace of fatherly love?

"There are obviously very few people who are as irresponsible as my father." She shook her head helplessly, "He is an unreasonable existence, I don't think your father should be such a person." ”

"So I admire you very much, there is such a father, you can still maintain a peaceful state of mind, you have never had a trace of resentment when talking about him, have you really not longed for fatherly love?" He looked at her quizzically.

"Not really." She looked at him calmly, no matter in the past and present life, his father was the same, and she never had any expectations for him, "Because I have never regarded him as my own father, for me, he is just a man who is related to me, without expectations, he will not be disappointed, let alone resentful, why should I punish myself for other people's mistakes?" ”

The reason why Zhang Yun and Fang Zipeng resented Fang Jianlin was because they always had a trace of expectation for him, expecting him to look back and see them and take care of them, at this point, Fang Xinlan could see it as well as her.

"I'm not as good as you," he smiled bitterly, "I still have something to look forward to, although I have the impression that he is always so disgusted with me, even resentful, but I still hope that he can give me some warmth and care like someone else's father, after all, he was not like that before I was five years old, although the memory at that time was pitiful, but the warmth that my parents gave me at that time, I don't want to forget in my life." It's ridiculous to think about it, I didn't get my father's love when I wanted it most, and then I had such a surprise when I didn't expect anything at all, it seems that God is really playing with me. ”

"In the eyes of many people, you have gained enough, so don't be so greedy." She has always understood that she is always happy, especially in the form of feelings, whether it is family affection or love, it is impossible to ask for it.

"You're right, he's been dead for so long, how can I still struggle with this matter," he smiled, "I just want you to understand why I hate the Yan family so much." ”

She nodded thoughtfully, she didn't have any feelings for the other party, but she chose to ignore it, and he chose to destroy, "Your emotions are much more intense than mine." ”

Her brainless words made him stunned for a moment, and then laughed, "Then are you afraid?" ”

"What's there to be afraid of?" She glanced up at him, "I've seen you at your scariest. ”

"So what's the same," he smiled and hugged her into his arms, "they are not me, I can't bear you, you are afraid of the slightest threat to me, they will not, their methods are probably not as simple as you think, the methods they used some time ago were simple and rude, and I am afraid that the next may not be." ”

"Some time ago?" She looked up at him.

"My people have been secretly monitoring them, knowing that they are going to attack you, so we took precautions in advance, and we have never had a chance to talk to you before, but if there is a ...... in case"

"I'll be careful." It was a matter of her own safety, and it was impossible for her not to care, and immediately and seriously guaranteed.

"You have to keep in touch with me at any time, no matter what strange things you encounter, tell me as soon as possible, I will let people be by your side to protect you, don't feel uncomfortable, and the Zhang family and the Fang family may also be affected." He believes that she is cautious, and with her character of not going out of the door, it is not easy for the other party to make a move, and it is only possible to use her family to threaten her.

"If they want to attack the Zhang family and the Fang family, they can only say that they don't know me too well."

He smiled, "Grandpa said that you are not an easy person, it seems that he didn't look away, don't worry, you have to believe me." ”

"Of course I believe you, at least I'm not stupid enough to trust those people." She squeezed his hand soothingly.

"I'm afraid this matter won't pass so easily, maybe it's a protracted tug-of-war, you'd better be mentally prepared."

"I understand, you have to be careful." She nodded, looked at him hesitantly, and finally said, "Do you have to do this?" Your grandfather once said that even if you destroy the Yan family, you will not be happy, but you will regret it. ”

She won't say big truths, nor will she bitterly persuade him to put aside his hatred and reunite, his happiness or not is the first thing.

His face froze, "Even if it's my obsession for many years, I don't think I've ruined the Yan family, and I don't think I'll be happy after doing this, but if I don't do this, I can't let go of my hatred, I don't want to live with hatred for the rest of my life, so even if it's a break." ”

"I understand, I don't want you to be in the way, if your heart wants you to do this, you should do it, but the means should still be legal, otherwise it will not be good for you in the future." (To be continued......)