Life is like continuous rain, and there is no sunshine in sight.

Because there is no notice, Xiao Yan is idle all day long, Belle is not at home from school, and her life alone is sad and lonely in the cruel reality soaked in salt water.

From the initial reluctance to believe, to the process of calm acceptance, she has experienced painful struggles that ordinary people can't imagine.

The second time she stepped into the hospital, after various physical examinations, she smiled and faced the doctor who treated her, "Has it been diagnosed?" How long will I live? Suppose I give up treatment. ”

"Diagnosed with advanced liver cancer, if you really give up treatment, at most ......" The doctor helped the glasses on the bridge of his nose, he stared at the pile of re-examination reports in his hand, and said in a deep voice: "Half a year." ”

"Half a year......" Xiao Yan squirmed her chapped lips, and she murmured softly, "Six months, it seems to be a little little, and I can't catch up with my daughter's birthday next year......"

The doctor's eyes behind the lenses slowly raised, and when he saw Xiao Yan's mournful expression, he opened his mouth, blurted out what he wanted to say, but suddenly remembered something, and swallowed back to his throat stiffly.

Stuffing the medical record book and examination report into his bag, Xiao Yan thanked him and turned to leave.

Stepping out of the hospital, the sun that I hadn't seen for a long time was hanging high in the sky, the sun was shining, and the sky was clear.

Xiao Yan raised her head and closed her eyes, she shed countless tears for her feelings, and when her life was about to come to an end, she couldn't shed a single tear......

It's just a step earlier or later, she just regrets that she can't take care of Belle growing up, can't witness Belle get married and have children, can't walk on the high-profile red carpet, and fulfill her dream......

As for the others, she didn't have the strength to think about it......

But she believes that without her life, they would still have a wonderful life, no matter how deep the sadness, there will eventually be a dull day, and no one will remember who for a lifetime......

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When she got home, Xiao Yan opened the calendar, circled it with a red pen, and put a big cross on the day after the end of half a year.

What can she do in six months?

When she's dead, what will Belle do? Who will raise her?

It is not easy to raise a child, manpower, material resources, and financial resources are a super burden, but she doesn't want to send the child to a welfare home, in case she adopts it in the future. What if the child's person, who abuses her Belle, and makes Belle unable to be happy? She thought that it was better to arrange Belle before she died, so that she could leave with confidence.

And the person who can replace her, she thinks about it, only Bai Shuo can do it, and he is also the person she trusts the most.

Mom is gone, the little girl lives with her father, and the impact on her heart will be smaller!

Xiao Yan thought for a long time, picked up the phone again, and dialed Bai Shuo's number, but unfortunately, it was always a mechanical female voice who answered her, "Hello! The phone you are calling is turned off......"

Xiao Yan hung up the phone decadently, she leaned back on the sofa, thinking that Bai Shuo must be inconvenient now, otherwise he wouldn't have contacted her, even if he was angry with her, he would have called her for Belle's sake!

Don't worry, there are still six months and 180 days, maybe there will be news of Bai Shuo in a few days!

However, she couldn't hand over Belle to Bai Shuo empty-handed, why did Bai Shuo raise a child who was not related to him for her? Raising a child is to be raised with money, not just an empty word, the child can grow up!

But where does the money come from?

Xiao Yan is sad and anxious, she has little time left, and she must earn enough money to support Belle in half a year!

But she didn't announce it, Jin Sheng was not in a hurry to teach her to wait patiently, but she was in a hurry, she waited one more day now, which was equivalent to wasting one more day of life, she couldn't afford to wait!

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Following.

Jinsheng Media Broker's Office.

"Mr. Kang, haven't you received a notice for me yet?" Xiao Yan intercepted Kang Dongcheng before he went out, and she asked anxiously.

Kang Dongcheng's brows twisted, and he said twice, "Xiao Yan, what are you doing in such a hurry?" This kind of thing can't be rushed, opportunities are very important, I think you don't blindly take on the play, it's more important to choose a good script and make it. ”

"But I ......"

Xiao Yan can't say it, where can she care about thinking about the future now? I'm afraid that if I don't have time to wait for the opportunity to appear, she will already die!

Kang Dongcheng smiled and comforted her, "Xiao Yan, there is no announcement during this time, you are just resting and recuperating, and when there is news, I will inform you later." ”

"Oh." Xiao Yan nodded listlessly, she turned around and walked out of the office slowly, walking towards the elevator.

There are a lot of people coming and going in the corridor, and two female artists are coming with catwalks, fashionable and enchanting, in a variety of postures.

Xiao Yan was preoccupied, she lowered her head and passed by them, and their conversation unexpectedly drifted into her ears-

"The president just went up to the top floor, I heard that I haven't been here for two days, and today I happened to meet us!"

"yes, my heart beats so fast when the president talks to me!"

"Let's find a way to invite the president to have supper at night!"

"Okay......"

Xiao Yan's steps suddenly stagnated!

Thinking of Lin Ling and the few people in the same period, they all had announcements, but she was vacant, and a vague thought slowly came to her mind!

Hidden. Rules!

Ain't she needs to dive too. rules, can you get the opportunity to take over the play?

But what does that mean?

Dedicated to a strange man, she ......

Xiao Yan was short of breath, and she pinched the palm of her hand with her nails fiercely, ashamed of her dirty thoughts!

How could she ruin her innocence?

How could she be willing to be cheap?

Can......

She needs money, and she needs a lot of money, she is dying of her life, what does she care about innocence?

In the past, she cleaned herself up to protect Xu Jinqiao, but now? remembered that on the phone call, Xu Jin Qiao and Ye Meixuan were so excited. In the love picture, she closed her eyes vigorously......

There's no need to stick to it, is there?

His fiancée is rightly named, he has long since fallen out of her, and since the day he left four years ago, he has ceased to be her husband......

Xiao Yan trembled faintly, she couldn't help but raise her hand to cover her lips, two lines of tears slipped from the corners of her eyes, full of sadness, desolate like a desert......

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"Mr. Kang, I'm in the café diagonally opposite Jin Sheng now, I want to see you and talk to you about something, I don't know if it's convenient for you?"

When Kang Dongcheng received Xiao Yan's call, he was in a car and was about to rush to the scene of his subordinate artist Xu Mengmeng to participate in a public welfare event.

"Xiao Yan, what's the matter with you? Can I say it on the phone? Kang Dongcheng glanced at the watch on his wrist, slightly embarrassed, the time was too late!

"I'm ......" Xiao Yan pursed his lips, hesitated for a moment, and said in a low voice: "Then forget it, let's talk about it when you're not busy." ”

Kang Dongcheng's intuition was not quite right, he pondered it for a while, and said, "That's it, I'll look for you in two hours, okay?" I'll finish Xu Mengmeng's activities first. ”

"It's good."

"Then you take a stroll around the neighborhood first, and I'll call you when I'm done."

"Good. See you again. ”

Xiao Yan didn't go anywhere, she sat quietly in the café and waited, making up her mind, it was extremely painful for her, but she didn't seem to have a choice, she could open her mouth to borrow money from Huo Baixiao or Jiang Yejing, but how could she repay the borrowed money? She didn't even want to owe Bai Shuo's affection, let alone them who didn't have a particularly deep relationship?

And Xu Jinqiao ......

She believed that as long as she was willing to speak, no matter how big the amount, Xu Jin Qiao would give it to her, but she couldn't find him again, in front of him, she didn't want to be humble and even give up the most humble self-esteem......

Kang Dongcheng pushed open the door of the café and walked in, and saw Xiao Yan sitting in the corner at a glance, she lowered her head, her fingers were scratching something on the table, her long hair was hanging down, covering her eyebrows, but the gentleness and tranquility that her whole person exuded from her bones were like a sad lily, blooming quietly alone in a valley where no one was around......

"Xiao Yan!"

Approaching, Kang Dongcheng spoke softly, for fear of disturbing Xiao Yan's meditation.

"Mr. Kang, you're here, please take a seat!" Xiao Yan raised his eyes, the corners of his lips curved, and a shallow smile was raised.

"Sorry to keep you waiting." Kang Dongcheng sat down opposite her, the waiter came over, he ordered a cup of tea, and when the waiter left, he said softly: "Xiao Yan, what do you have to say, although I am your agent, you can also regard me as a friend, if there is anything I can do to help you, I will do my best." ”

"Mr. Kang, I ......" Xiao Yan was ashamed and couldn't speak, she didn't know where to start, her whole face was red, her ten fingers were twisted, her nervous heartbeat accelerated, and she gasped slightly.

Seeing this, Kang Dongcheng was full of doubts, "What the hell is going on?" ”

Xiao Yan kept swallowing his saliva, "I, you...... Can you help me pull the strings? I, I would like to meet Mr. President......"

"Huh?" Kang Dongcheng listened, "What did you say?" Do you want to meet the president of Jin Sheng? You...... Do you know who the president of Lu Dao is? ”

Xiao Yan shook his head blankly, "I don't know, who is he?" ”

Kang Dongcheng stretched out his hand and scratched the back of his head, twitching the corners of his mouth and said, "Xiao Yan, why do you want to see the president?" ”

"Me, I've heard other artists say they'...... They dived. Rules, so ......" Xiao Yan's face was red like blood, her ashamed forehead was about to be clubbed on the table, and her lips trembled with extreme difficulty, "So I also want to dive, dive. Rule ......"

"Bang-"

Kang Dongcheng slammed his head on the table in shock, such a big movement made Xiao Yan hurriedly raise his head, and asked anxiously, "You, you are okay, right?" ”

"I'm fine, you ......" Kang Dongcheng rubbed his head with one hand and pressed his heart with the other, he stared at Xiao Yan with complicated eyes, "Have you decided?" Xiao Yan, do you really want to ...... Want to do that? ”

Xiao Yan bit her lip hard, and she didn't dare to meet Kang Dongcheng's eyes without embarrassment, she forced herself to say firmly: "I've decided, I know that you will look down on me, but I ...... There is no other way. ”

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PS: Today's second update is 3,000 words, and there is one more!