Chapter 56: It's easy to break up, but it's hard to come back
Having said that, whether they are only sitting on the stage and not coming out or will be introduced, they all have one thing in common, they don't have a complete family, they don't have a real home.
For some girls, home is a place to sleep for the night, and they run the risk of being beaten by their father for a long time and listening to the constant verbal abuse of their smoking mother.
For some girls, home is a place where they have to earn money to provide, although they are extremely reluctant, but there is no labor force at home, three or four four or five mouths are waiting for food every day, rent, water and electricity are the motivation for their daily work.
For many girls, home is an empty shell, a residence where several people gather together with little intersection, and the bond that binds them together is not family and blood, but a thin household register.
Chenchen didn't have a complete home when she was a child, her parents divorced and separated early, and she also had a younger brother, so whether it was in front of her father or her mother, Chenchen couldn't get the care she deserved.
But this will not be the whole reason why she has fallen to this point, the most important thing is that when she grows up, she still does not have a complete home.
I guess she and Yang Guoying must have no children, and looking at her current appearance, I don't think she could be a mother at all.
Sun Chenchen, what has happened to you in the past ten years.
I don't know what to do.
But I'm sure you've had a hard time.
What made you choose this path, I don't know, but it must be related to Yang Guoying, there is no doubt about it.
I suddenly felt the urge to sit here with a bucket of popcorn and listen to her story.
But that's stupid, I'll just think about it. I sat up, staring intently at the chandelier and asking questions into the air. "If you don't mind, tell me what has happened to you all these years. Oh yes, I forgot to tell you, I have already obtained the qualification of a psychological counselor a few years ago, and I will give you free counseling today. "
Chenchen didn't smile, and I knew it without looking at her face.
For the next half hour, I listened to an old story.
This is a bit like the story of Yang Zixi in "Beijing Love Story", but it may be a little more tragic.
What's more, I'm not Wu Di either.
Leaving me was a relief for Sun Chenchen ten years ago. In her own words, in the last days of being with me, she thought of me every day, and she thought of a burden, not happiness.
It's not that I have any problems, it's just that my obedience and love for her make Chenchen feel that she is getting farther and farther away from her dreams.
When I was a child, my parents divorced and separated, and Chenchen has been living with my mother. Although her parents were worried that it would affect Chenchen's studies and kept hiding it from her, they didn't tell her the fact that the two had divorced, on the surface, it was just a simple conflict between husband and wife, and they were separated calmly.
But this calmness is eight years.
Chenchen finished elementary school, junior high school, and high school, and his parents have no signs of getting back together.
Her parents are childhood sweethearts who have known each other since elementary school, so sometimes when old classmates get together, they will pretend to be together, pretending that their relationship is still good, and they don't want to lose face. Other than that, Chenchen never saw his father and mother live together again.
Since childhood, my mother has taken her own life, especially when I was in high school, Chenchen's mother rented a house very close to Chenchen's school, and ran back and forth between the company and home every day, physically and mentally haggard, looking at my mother's hard work and more and more gray hair, Chenchen silently made a vow in his heart that he must be strong in the future, and he must become a strong woman who can take charge of himself, not relying on men or parents, and breaking out of the sky by himself.
This dream was in her heart, brewing.
Until I came along, it all broke the balance.
For Chenchen, it was actually not a lucky thing for me to appear in her world. Why do you say that? Because Chenchen actually likes me very much, I like the feeling of being pampered by me in the palm of my hand, I enjoy the protection I give her as a boyfriend, I have a one-meter-nine boyfriend to follow everywhere I go, carry a bag and water, let me carry it when I am tired, and tell jokes to make her happy at any time, sing well, sing at a class reunion KTV, take me to a particularly long face, I can also help her write essays, write reports that the Youth Volunteer Association needs......
I have never been so used to being used to it, even my parents have not spoiled me like this, when I am with me, I fully experience the feeling of being a queen, which feels good, very happy, very happy.
However, this is contrary to her dreams.
With me, Chenchen couldn't convince herself not to rely on me, and when she left me, she didn't know what bus to take when she went out, which subway to take, and she didn't know where the east was and where the north was ...... Because I always accompany her to the city to play outside.
Every minute with me, Chenchen was full and enjoyed all-round care.
As soon as I was not around, Chenchen began to hesitate, and began to worry about whether he would finally deviate from the path of his dreams, be with me for the rest of his life, live a quiet life, rely on me forever, and never be able to do without me.
At least then, she couldn't do without me.
This scared Chenchen. So much so that every time I think of me, Chenchen feels a very heavy burden.
When Chenchen and I proposed to break up, she told me that she wanted to be alone and didn't want to fall in love anymore, but she really didn't lie to me.
She really had such thoughts and broke up with me.
Breaking up is easy, kicking me away with a blank face and leaving without looking back, it's as simple as that.
really broke up with me, and Chenchen found that he couldn't get used to a person's life.
Maybe the love I gave to Chenchen before was too intensive, and every moment, every minute and every second, made her under my care.
Suddenly there was no text message from me shushing and asking for warmth, suddenly there was no me standing downstairs in the morning with an early waiting for her to go downstairs, suddenly no one carried her to class when she came to the eldest aunt, and suddenly no one was in the Internet café for the night, when she saw that she was asleep, she quietly took off her coat and covered herself gently......
Chenchen found that he couldn't live without being spoiled.
Especially when I saw a pair of past lovers on the street, Qingqing and my sweet look, Chenchen's heart was particularly unpleasant.
Maybe you don't need to be taken care of all the time, but how can a girl always need no care and love.
By the time she found out that she needed an occasional shoulder on her way to becoming a strong woman, I was gone.