In fact, the helmsman's complete testimonial is the most difficult to write.

Because for me, there are all kinds of extremely mixed emotions.

When I finished writing "Lao Qu", it was a kind of relaxation and happiness, and for the first time, I felt that a hobby was appreciated and recognized, and it could be turned into a professional happiness.

When "Traitor" was completed, there was a kind of self-relieving feeling, because after a very clean and loud dream, even if the dream woke up and everything was still the same, the moment in the dream was always iron-blooded and tender, sonorous and firm, and I could forget the troubles in front of me when I looked back.

As for "Helmsman", I can only use the word complex to describe it.

From beginning to end, this book is just like the testimonial when it was first put on the shelves, and nothing has reached the point.

Compared with the idle clouds and wild cranes, the indifferent and chic eldest brother "Lao Gao", his overly heavy subject matter was unwilling to be accepted by many people from the beginning;

Compared with the second brother "Traitor", who stands up to the sky and is arrogant, as soon as it is put on the shelves, the subscription income is only a dozen times;

What's even more difficult is that "Traitor", which was originally purely soy sauce, has sprung up, thinking that the book that plays tickets has become the main hit, so in order not to be a prisoner, I can only grit my teeth and write two books at the same time.

Keep comforting yourself, you can take turns in your mood, but only when you do it can you know what kind of destruction it is.

I don't know what other writers do, at least when I write, I have to sit in front of the computer, substitute myself as that person, that young, passionate teenager or a well-stricken, cunning contractor, substitute into all the thinking, to be this person, what to say, what kind of thoughts should I have, Qi Tianlin will not care about a building, a car, a life, but Lu Wenlong is restrained everywhere, and he is tied everywhere, which can only be said when he calms down and feels it.

As a result, every few days of sinking, you have to pull it out in great pain, change the water tank and sink again, three or four times, every week to switch to a completely different life and mood If the time interval between the two books is too long, you will almost forget the plot and details, if the interval is too short, the consequence of frequent switching is confusion, and the torture of temperament can be imagined, in the past two years, I have committed countless tyrannical irritability against the family, although it is not to the point of beating women, schizophrenia or depression is not to run, Neither the newborn son will see me.

The store that had been open for eight years also closed down because of unintentional operation, and I only used the income from writing books as the only source of income to support my family, and the inexplicable pressure and irritability were almost maddening, which is why I hated those who watched pirated copies.

Fortunately, I survived, just because I must keep changing, not too prison, not unfinished.

Because I am also a reader, I hate such a writer, and suddenly I say that I don't play anymore, and the reader should go where to cool down, which is no less than a crime, and even when I embarked on this road, it was because of the habitual interruption of the end of the change, so I will never break, no matter how difficult it is, I will not break. (To be continued......)