In the final chapter, more than 10,000 words were written, and when I wrote "the full text is finished", I was in a small chain hotel, and a person watched the morning light outside slowly brighten up. It felt like going to school with the stars in the winter when I was a child, and although the road was dark and the sky was dark, I knew in my heart that everything would be fine. Everything awaits in the dark, and the feeling of being alive is rare in adulthood. Only occasionally did I survive the long night, listening to the birds chirping in the dawn, and shivering with hunger as I watched the light slowly appear in the cracks of the curtains. At this time, he came out of a world of his own creation and returned to the real world.

That's what it's really like to write something, as if you've been abandoned by the whole world and have to talk to yourself to prove that you exist. In other people's happy or painful moments, the sound of the keyboard becomes the only accompaniment. People who can endure this kind of loneliness are good, and I shamelessly think that is so.

The full text of "My Goddess" is 3 million words long, which is already the longest attempt in history for me. Although it may not be as good as it should be, at least it proves that I can still continue to write for two years with little to no need. Halfway through, due to physical problems, he delayed some progress, but in general, he still surpassed himself back then. After I finished writing, I told my friends that it felt like having a child at home, and although I was dissatisfied with him, I still had a lot of reluctance when he left me on his own. There is always an end to the novel, just like people always have to go through one part of the road and then another, and there is nothing to regret. As an author, my regret comes more from not working hard enough, and this self-blame runs through almost all of my writing life.

In 2004, I started to devote myself to online writing, writing "The Legend of Rebirth", and I was lucky enough to become famous almost overnight. Since then, I have been criticized for being too literary, too sour, and too willing to spend a lot of effort to express the inner changes of ordinary young people. According to the current law of online literature, this way is almost playing to your own rhythm. But I'm also a stubborn person, so choosing the theme of My Goddess this time is not a good idea in the eyes of most people.

For this, I also wondered, what is a good idea?

The synopsis of "My Goddess" has changed twice in my heart, the first time it was called "A Good Man", which is so vulgar that it can't be more vulgar. The character in the story, Su Yifan, has been a good person countless times, but no girl really favors him. By chance, he began to change himself, and his life finally changed while insisting on continuing to be a good person. Because this subject matter is too close to reality, it is not written.

The second time it was called "Dad, I'm Your Lover", and the synopsis of the story is almost the same as the current one. But considering the almighty network surveillance...... This title was also passed, and a lot of details were modified, and finally it became today's "My Goddess".

Yes, you and I both have one or even many goddesses in our hearts, don't we?

The pursuit of the goddess is an indispensable process on the road to the growth of all young people, just like cooking with salt to taste. No matter whether you are in love or in love, whether you succeed or fail, a life that has had this experience can be considered rich and worthy of your youth.

So at the end of the day, I'm still the same Zhou Xingwen who wants to say something to others, although it's probably sour, at least I have to keep trying.

It's better to say it than not to say it, for me.

Someone asked me, what did you talk about in My Goddess? I don't know how to answer him, but I think I have a more standard answer.

I told a story about how to recognize yourself.

Only by recognizing yourself, only by knowing yourself clearly, can you know who your goddess is, who your goddess wants to be with, and whether you can be with your goddess.

Whether you're pursuing a girl or doing what you want to do, that's more important than anything else.

Patience, tolerance, kindness, these are things that have been not very optimistic in this era, if you can keep some of them, maybe you will get more than you imagined.

Even if it's waiting, sometimes it's a kind of beauty.

I want to say a lot, but it's just a story, and I hope it's satisfying.

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Su Yifan is different from most of the protagonists of online articles, although he always expresses his stance and often has to make choices, more often than not, he hopes that life can be peaceful and happy, and he hopes that everyone around him can be happy.

This kind of role is not suitable to be the protagonist of an online article, but I just wrote it.

The results are not very good, and I feel really sorry for my editor. This is the price of willfulness. In the next book, I hope to write a story that will make everyone more relaxed and happy, or at least make the editor in charge happy.

I would like to believe that there is a person like Su Yifan in this world, he is kind but not weak, he is silent but not cowardly, he expects beauty but is not crazy to pursue, he can accept the kindness of others, and he can also understand the pain of others. Each of us should have at least one or two of these qualities in order to make this world a better place.

I know that many people may say that this kind of thinking is too OUT, too old-fashioned, and too boring. But I prefer to believe that I write something and can bring something good to the reader. Beauty is not given by others, and if you want to get it, you must first understand how to do it.

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There is no doubt that from the very beginning, I have set the identity of Su Xiaoqing in the end, why she came, and why she did this. If you look closely at the previous details, it is probably easy to find some clues. Su Xiaoqing's feelings for Su Yifan are not sister and brother, but with a mood similar to admiration, watching the person she has always loved grow up again.

For Su Yifan, Su Xiaoqing has never had any requirements, just like Su Yifan named her Su Xiaoqing.

I want you to have an easy life, I want you to be healthy and happy, and nothing is required of you beyond that.

Sometimes I think that if some parents could have such simple requirements for their children, maybe life would be better.

The details of Su Xiaoqing's relationship with Su Yifan during his growth did not describe too much, in order to leave some imagination for everyone. The story of a girl who was raised by Su Yifan's gentle care fell in love with her adoptive father is not unusual, but because of my personal aesthetic peculiarity, Su Xiaoqing was set up as a girl who was so strong that she was almost powerful. Such a girl can endure extreme physical pain alone and go back to the past through the gap in time, of course she can do anything for Su Yifan. So I won't feel strange even if anything happens to Su Xiaoqing and Su Yifan, after seeing through life and death, those are nothing.

Souls are loved, what are the others?

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The character of Cheng Shuixin didn't want to be written like this at first, but she was the first of all the characters to "live".

When a girl writes the most delicate part, it will fit her thoughts, imagine her emotional changes, and even simulate the ups and downs of her thinking. Cheng Shuixin played with interpersonal relationships with a little vanity from the beginning, and eventually became an indispensable part of Su Yifan's life. I love writing about this transformation process. Just like something you might not have liked many years ago, you can find it okay if you look at it for a young age. In fact, we all have a part of forgiving others in our lives, as the author, I also forgave Cheng Shuixin with Su Xiaoqing, this part was not written, but the change in Su Xiaoqing's attitude in the story can also be seen.

There are many people who don't like Cheng Shuixin because she is too realistic, so realistic that it is almost real. But one of the reasons why I'd rather write like this is ...... If a girl is your goddess, then there is a good chance that she is someone else's goddess as well. In the case of being pampered by many people, if you want to win her favor, you have to recognize the reality. Cheng Shuixin's own upbringing process is a mirror, I originally wanted to write her more realistically, but out of kindness to the beautiful girl, I just left it at that. In the end, one of Su Yifan's biggest helpers was Cheng Shuixin. It is precisely because of the reality that Cheng Shuixin chose to help Su Yifan settle down and unite several girls around her, and also took on a lot of things. From this point of view, Cheng Shuixin is actually the second female number.

This girl who people love and hate is the type you and I are most likely to meet in life. When I write about Cheng Shuixin, I think everyone may encounter reality. Conquering reality is the dream.

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Compared with Cheng Shuixin, Xiao Yang is more noble. But I don't like to write about that kind of bad cold beauty, so I wrote Yang Bingbing, who is a bit of an idealist.

The little lion is undoubtedly a character I like very much, I spent a lot of ink to depict Yang Bingbing's figure, she is not as big as Cai Qi's breasts, her figure is a little plumper than Cheng Shuixin, and she has a little more advantage in height. If you carefully imagine such a tall girl and little bird by her side, will you feel a sense of accomplishment and happiness?

Yang Bingbing is the kind of girl that all boys idealize, she is both a friend and a girlfriend, she does not have high material needs, and she never minds what she gets. These beautiful qualities are already very rare today, but Yang Bingbing's character of daring to love and hate and full of a sense of justice I believe will be seen in many girls.

The world needs beauty, and I have emphasized it countless times, so there is Yang Bingbing.

Su Yifan didn't get much help from Yang Bingbing, and even more often he helped Yang Bingbing. This is because I think that if Yang Bingbing always helps Su Yifan, this story will probably become "My Tyrant Girlfriend" or something. Although it's pretty good, we're still a little bit chasing, right?

When Yang Bingbing went out with Su Yifan for the first time, I wanted to write a pop scene, but unfortunately I always felt that it was better to hold back at that time...... Later, I held back my internal injuries and blamed me.

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Zhang Yao is a very amazing character, and this character comes from a game man novel I wrote before.

When she sang, she was shocked, and she suddenly became a goddess, and she was usually silent until she didn't say a word. This is actually a true portrayal of many otaku around us, and even a portrayal of myself.

I've seen a show before, a dancing girl who twisted her foot the day before and could barely move. In order to perform, she insisted on going on stage, and I couldn't tell that she had a foot injury when I tried to observe the whole performance. But after the performance, she almost jumped off the stage on one foot - everyone knows that it is dangerous to do that, and she really hurts so much that she can't bear it.

During the performance period, she felt that she would shine, so she could block out that pain.

Zhang Yao is such a girl, only when she sings does she have a self and a soul that makes people feel radiant. Zhang Yao is not good at ordinary communication, she can only express her thoughts clumsily.

Such a girl is to let Su Yifan assume the identity of a protector, which is another way for him to grow up. If it weren't for Su Yifan, Zhang Yao probably wouldn't have encountered those things behind, and he wouldn't have become famous so quickly.

If it weren't for Zhang Yao, Su Yifan wouldn't have realized that he needed to be proactive to do a lot of things, and if he wanted to protect Zhang Yao, he would have to make himself stronger both internally and externally.

Life tends to be long and painful in the process, especially before we meet the right person.

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Neil is the focus of the contradiction in the early story, and the story about her is actually the same as Su Yifan, she came from loneliness and finally left the lonely person.

As for Neil, many people think that she was stupid and naïve at first, which is of course an illusion after seeing through many devilish souls. The real Neil, though simple, is enough to distinguish between right and wrong. For Neil, Su Yifan is the purest haven she has ever seen, and the reason why she is willing to live in Su Xiaoqing is that Su Yifan is a more important factor.

Neil is with Su Yifan, she can bring out Su Yifan's wild side and let him learn how to attack. This is very important to change Su Yifan's life, even more important than guarding. There is always such and such malice in this world, and Su Yifan has to learn to deal with certain things before they hurt him.

The appearance of Su Xiaoqing contributed to the change of Neil's original life, and the girl who was supposed to be gradually erased in the missions fell in love with the simple Su Yifan, but she didn't know that it was this decision that changed her fate.

Niel's love for Su Yifan is the purest, she is not interested in most things in this world, it is Su Yifan who helped her regain her love of life and dragged her back into the mortal world.

I myself like the character of Neil, a lonely and innocent girl who always makes people happy. If possible, I also hope that Neil can spend more time with Su Yifan, but things are always different from what I imagined.

Just like the trajectory of our lives.

When I wrote that Neil came back, I felt as excited as Su Yifan.

Come to think of it, I feel like everyone else, I still want the world to be a little better, even if it's cheesy.

Cheesy fruits and food are always the best to eat, aren't they?

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Chu Ruo represents Su Yifan's past, and Su Yifan is the infinite possibilities of the present and the future for Chu Ruo.

This may include regret and nostalgia for the past, but also expectations and yearning for the future.

Chu Ruo is the kind of little girl who is common - commanding in front of others, and being cautious in front of the people she really likes to care about, like an ignorant little girl. So most of the time in the face of Su Yifan, Chu Ruo is like a shaking M, and he is quite happy to be scolded by Su Yifan every time he is a dog.

Before this, Chu Ruo had tried to seduce Su Yifan several times without admitting defeat but was unsuccessful, although she was not very old, she understood that Su Yifan didn't really want to get that bit of happiness from herself, he really cared about her.

As long as you really understand, there is no little girl who will not be moved by this kind of thought.

Therefore, Chu Ruo felt that being with Su Yifan was the best choice, even if this choice had to face the threat of other girls.

The little girl has the persistence of a little girl, Chu Ruo is undoubtedly more naïve and simple than Cheng Shuixin and Yang Bingbing, but she is also the most stubborn one. No matter how calm Su Yifan is, she hopes that she can hug her tightly. In the end, Chu Ruo even did not hesitate to change herself to cater to Su Yifan, and her feelings for Su Yifan were so deep that others could not imagine.

Chu Yin is really pitiful, the female university really didn't stay......

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Han Yun is a person who wants to insist on himself, this kind of person will not end well in the real social system. There is no tolerance for the environment, and there is no tolerance for those who are accustomed to the unspoken rules. If she hadn't met Su Yifan, Han Yun probably wouldn't have been in the radio and television system for too long, and she would definitely be excluded from this system that requires stability.

Su Yifan's unusualness made Han Yun feel that there was still hope in this world, and she felt that some paths might not be correct. A teenager can spray himself-for-tat every time, making Han Yun review himself more.

If there is a mirror in front of you in your life, do you look at it?

Han Yun likes to provoke Su Yifan so much, most likely for this purpose.

The battle of wits and courage that you come and go, in the end, it becomes a one-sided situation for Su Yifan to help him. Han Yun was amazed by the wonderful interior under Su Yifan's wooden appearance, and was slowly attracted by Su Yifan's seriousness and sincerity.

This is an era when adults and children have "if you are serious, you will lose". Is it true that you will lose if you are serious? Of course Han Yun doesn't think so, how can someone who has lost even seriousness succeed? Han Yun has a strong identification with Su Yifan's seriousness, so she finally fell into it, unconsciously.

To be the kind of person you least want to be, probably only the power of love will make people do this, right?

At least Han Yun did it, and she didn't regret it.

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The love and killing of Cai Yan and Cai Qi sisters - well, in fact, only killing each other - was a catalyst for Su Yifan's transformation in the early stage.

Facing Cai Yan, Su Yifan behaved a little more normally, he knew that Cai Yan was curious about himself, and later even knew that Cai Yan liked himself. Because of this, Su Yifan will not do anything to Cai Yan, he feels that liking is a very beautiful feeling, and he himself is deeply trapped in it and can't extricate himself.

Compared with liking Su Yifan, Cai Yan attaches more importance to his family's interests. If the Cai family catches Su Xiaoqing's ride, it will naturally be excellent, and Cai Yan hoped to do something on his own at the beginning.

This kind of simple idea is a bit like the kind of spoiled eldest lady, but soon Cai Yan was completely changed by being saved by Su Yifan's hero, and she felt that she owed Su Yifan a lot.

With this mood, Cai Yan began to atone for her mistakes, until she found out that everything was to blame on her sister Cai Qi.

Compared with Cai Yan, Cai Qi is more sympathetic.

Because she is an illegitimate daughter, although she has an almost infinite space in terms of money and material, Cai Qi still lives a very distorted life.

After living with friends for too long, Cai Qi will also hate her sister who has got everything. It's not her fault, but she's going to take on the fate of being an illegitimate daughter and live with her mother, who has a twisted personality. Under the change of the general environment, Cai Qi finally made that crazy decision.

People only feel remorse after making some wrong decisions, and Cai Qi is like that. If it weren't for Su Yifan, if there was no coincidence, she would probably have gained a lot but lost more. So in the end, it is not surprising that Cai Qi's fate is here with Su Yifan, there is no one in this world who is worthy of her trust, and Su Yifan's appearance may be the best salvation for her.

Weakness exists in everyone's heart, and Su Yifan happens to be such a patient person, allowing Cai Qi to release his weakness.

Many people are speculating about who Su Yifan's first girl to push down, but in fact, from the beginning, I thought that it should be a girl who is not too deeply entangled with him. Cai Qi is undoubtedly one of the best choices, and her life experience also makes her easy to accept the current mode of getting along.

Compared with others, Cai Qi's life is more unfortunate, so she is also the one who is most easily satisfied.

Life is to be content, this is a lesson Cai Qi learned from Su Yifan.

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Everyone can learn a lot along the way, and I think this is one of the meanings of life.

Change and persistence, choice and abandonment. This is always the theme of life, and it takes a lot of learning and learning for a long time, and maybe you can know some clues.

Growing up is part of the theme, but it's more about how I think life should be

Sincere, kind, simple, and full of optimism.

In fact, "My Goddess" is a beginning for me to regain the state of writing online articles. Before that, I stayed away from online articles for a while, and a lot of things happened in between, and I gave a lot to my dream. If you start writing online articles again, maybe the subject matter will be out of place, maybe the text will not conform to the current trend, and maybe the story plot will tend to be bland...... But I really want to write this story of a long life and a happier life. This is the same as when I started writing online articles. Whether it is an online article or any other form of work, it is a window to other worlds. Su Yifan's campus life contains the yearning of many people when they were young, and even some of my friends and me.

As I said before, the most important thing about fiction is probably to give people satisfaction. I hope many people find satisfaction in my story. If that effect does work, I'm content.

Speaking of which, there will probably be people spraying me, what kind of text, what kind of feelings—well, I'll admit that the word feelings have been used terribly. Are these pedantic things really appropriate for this era? I don't know, but I think it's better to try and stick with it than not to try. Just as crushes are meaningless, speaking out loud and being rejected is the truly heroic life. Not afraid of being ridiculed, not afraid of being misunderstood, not afraid of being looked down upon by others, if you don't do what you want to do, who can do it for you?

If life is an easy path to mediocrity, at least tell yourself not to give up on something while you're on the road. Life can be better, just as fiction can be more interesting. I hope that everyone can continue to read happily, and I hope that everyone will live a serious life.

Life is the best gift that fate has given you, you have to love it, you can also hate it, it's entirely up to you.

This is the core charm of life.

You see, I'm still so verbose, so fond of talking to people. It's really hard to change......

Thank you all, and we'll see you in the next book. In fact, it doesn't take long, estimated at most a month. Let me live a few days of normal life first......