The most reluctantly hopeful

I couldn't find any clues about Xiaohai everywhere, so I pinned my last hope on Sichuan, Xiaohai's hometown, and I discussed with my father to prepare a letter to Sichuan according to the previous address.

My father told me to write everything as it was, and reminded me to put a few photos in the envelope: a group photo of Xiaohai and his family of four and a photo of their two children.

"Let them see how good our family is, what is Xiaohai doing! If Xiaohai really took that woman to Sichuan, I don't believe that Xiaohai's biological parents can tolerate them without telling us with a clear conscience...... Even if we're all fake, the two children are Xiaohai's flesh and blood, I don't believe they can do this."

In order to verify his statement, his father also talked about how Xiaohai's biological parents were reasonable back then, "You don't know, when I hugged Xiaohai, they didn't ask for anything, or I bought hundreds of yuan of nutritional products and sent them to the door......"

"Xiaohai's father and your grandfather are in the same coal mine, often move around in private, and love to drink with your grandfather, once the two of them were drunk, he swore that as long as we don't nod, he will never recognize Xiaohai in his life, if he doesn't talk, he is raised by a big girl...... This is the most vicious curse in the countryside, and you can see how sincere he is."

From his father's words, he could hear his admiration for Xiao Hai's biological father, and he was naturally very relieved, he didn't believe that Xiao Hai's biological father would tolerate Xiao Hai's behavior.

"If Xiaohai really went to Sichuan, as long as his family knew the truth, they would definitely persuade Xiaohai to turn back" What his father said was categorical.

I also know this point, I heard my father say that when he hugged Xiaohai, they left each other's addresses, and we knew their home, so naturally he also knew our address.

For more than 30 years, there has never been a word in Sichuan, not that they have forgotten this son who sent him away, but that they have been abiding by the original agreement.

A few years ago, Xiaohai didn't do it, making the family chickens and dogs jump, and in desperation, I once contacted Sichuan, and they still said that as long as we don't spit out, they will never disturb our lives.

If it weren't for Xiaohai causing trouble again and again, we would naturally not want to have anything to do with Sichuan, which is actually due to our selfish nature.

We hope that Xiaohai completely belongs to our family, forever and ever.

After that contact, we asked Xiaohai's opinion and asked him if he would like to go back to Sichuan to recognize his ancestors and return to his ancestors.

We privately speculate that Xiao Hai has made trouble again and again, it must be due to the knot in his heart, and if he wants to let go of his burden and make his future life easier, this knot must be untied.

As the saying goes, the bell needs to be tied to the bell, Xiaohai's roots are in his life experience, and his life experience is involved in Sichuan, and we have to contact Sichuan.

Xiaohai dialect is absolute.

Xiao Hai gritted his teeth and stomped his feet, let us never mention the word Sichuan in front of him, if anyone mentions it again, he will run away from home and never look back.

Xiao Hai's words made us feel relieved and a little worried-it seems that he still hasn't completely let go, because only by letting go, can there be no hatred in his heart, and the more intense he behaves, the more it shows that he cares very much in his heart.

We really want him to let go completely and live an easy life.

His brother-in-law, who has the same background and empathy as him, said that she can understand Xiaohai: because she is too, she only has resentment and no understanding for her biological parents who have abandoned them.

"Think about it, my biological father is right in front of me, he died of illness, I gritted my teeth and didn't go, but you can imagine how much hatred I have in my heart, you can't understand our feelings" my brother-in-law Xiaoyi explained to me.

Maybe she is right, how can we with normal backgrounds understand the loneliness and pain in their hearts.

According to my father's instructions, I sent a letter to Xiaohai's hometown in Sichuan.

I suppressed the resentment in my heart, and in the letter I politely told Xiaohai's life in the past few years and the harm it brought to this family again and again, of course, I did not forget to describe the two lovely children in the family, as well as the generosity and tolerance of my brother and daughter-in-law......

At the end of the letter, I begged the two old men to understand our feelings at this time in the face of my parents who had worked hard to raise their eldest son for him, and hoped that they would be benevolent and righteous, for the sake of this family, and for the sake of the children - if Xiaohai really took that woman to the past, he must give us a message, as for whether Xiaohai is willing to stay or leave in the end, as long as he can properly handle his wife and children to stay, we will not force it......

To be on the safe side, I sent the thin letter on registered mail, hoping to get a reply anyway.

Now this may be our only hope.

I prefer to believe what my father said, and I hope that Xiaohai's family will be as informed and courteous as his father said, and will be benevolent and righteous, so that Xiaohai can be comforted and returned home, so that our broken home will be finished again