Chapter 032: Long grief is not for men
In her previous life, Sister Qing's original name was Zeng Qing, who was one year older than Fang Chen in her previous life, and she was Fang Chen's senior sister.
When they met, Fang Chen was a sophomore and Zeng Qing was a junior.
The relationship between the two is very good, they have always regarded each other as brothers, or sisters, and it is not an exaggeration to say that they are best friends, Zeng Qing has never regarded Fang Chen as a man, because Fang Chen in his previous life was one meter seven tall, weak image, and spoke shyly.
The two have known each other for four years, and each of them has made friends, but they have separated after the worst, maybe it is because of their girlfriends' relationship, so until they graduated from college and went out of society, their relationship has been maintained very well.
In the year or two after graduating from college, the two of them lived in Dragon City, taking care of each other, encouraging each other, and helping each other......
Slowly, there was also mutual affection, and a very bland feeling was sublimated, just because the two of them knew each other too well, so no one dared to speak, especially Fang Chen, he was afraid that he would open his mouth, and the four-year relationship would come to naught......
Zeng Qing is a very beautiful and perfect woman, she belongs to the goddess in society, and there are many people who pursue her, including many men who are tall and mighty like Fang Chen and have a wealthy family.
As for Fang Chen, although his family has a little money and good medical skills, his appearance is too ordinary.
So he also has no self-confidence.
However, in the past two years, the two have had a little ambiguity, warm words, holding hands, hugging, and moving...... But in the end, no one pierced the last layer of window paper.
Crossing over, Fang Chen didn't dare to think about the past, his parents, relatives, brothers and friends, and Zeng Qing.
Every time he thought of these people and the things he had experienced, Fang Chen's heart felt a heart-wrenching pain, and his heart was about to suffocate.
But today, after the crossing, a woman who was almost exactly the same as Zeng Qing appeared in front of his eyes, Fang Chen was excited and happy at first, he felt that God was really good to him, not to mention the ability, and sent Zeng Qing to his side.
It's just that her kick broke Fang Chen's heart and woke up the dream.
"Dad...... Mother...... Sister Qing......"
Fang Chen once again silently came to the rooftop of the inpatient department, maybe only here can see the breeze and clouds, can feel the elegant wind, and can give Fang Chen a reassuring environment.
Kneeling on the ground, Fang Chen's uncontrollable tears slowly fell.
The question that he didn't dare to think about during this time, because of Ouyang Xueqing's appearance, touched Fang Chen's heart that had been buried for several days.
Speaking of which, although he has been a human being in two lives, he is just a kid in his early twenties, which child doesn't want to go home?
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry...... I can't go back...... Mom and Dad, I'm sorry. ”
"Sister Qing...... I regret not telling you I love you...... I can't go back. ”
"I can't go back......"
Fang Chen knelt on the top of the rooftop, raised his head, his originally transparent eyes were already covered with mist, and he looked up at the sky, looking at the cloudless and bright sky, as if he could see another time and space.
Pulling his throat, Fang Chen wanted to vent and shouted: "I, I can't go back!" ”
Men have their fragile side, but usually men don't cry, that's because they hide it deeply, and if someone brings out his sadness, they may be even more vulnerable than women.
"Mom and Dad, I'm sorry......"
"Sister Qing, I'm sorry ......"
Fang Chen, who was heartbroken and sad, didn't see the woman standing at the door of the stairs on the rooftop.
After Ouyang Xueqing got Fang Chen's money, she gave it to Wen Feng directly, and Wen Feng didn't have any psychological burden to collect it, the money was originally hers, but now it is just returned to the original owner, and it is still a small amount.
Later, Wen Feng received a message from his assistant, saying that Fang Chen walked towards the inpatient department.
When the news came, Ouyang Xueqing left very interestingly, it was not good for her to meet Fang Chen in Wen Lao's ward now, after all, she and Wen Feng still had to worry about whether Fang Chen would sue Wen Lao.
Just then, Wen Feng also followed, and her assistant just made another call, saying that she saw Fang Chen enter the elevator alone, and then the elevator went straight to the twenty-eighth floor.
Hearing this news, the two women didn't quite understand what Fang Chen was doing, jumping off the building? Or go to the roof to meet the accomplices?
Then Ouyang Xueqing asked Wen Feng to stay on the fifth floor, maybe Fang Chen would come down when she would, and she wanted to go to a café outside the hospital first and wait for Wen Feng.
But when she got to the elevator, Ouyang Xueqing was a little curious, and the ghost almost ordered the twenty-eighth floor of the top floor and followed, she wanted to see what this liar was doing first.
As a result, she happened to see Fang Chen kneeling on the ground, looking up to the sky and howling, and then crying, like a helpless child.
For no reason, Ouyang Xueqing's heart was sour.
Men rarely cry, let alone cry in front of women, but the power of men's crying is definitely greater than that of women, and men's crying can infect women's sympathy.
Because women, especially those over twenty years old, will have some maternal birth to a greater or lesser extent.
Ouyang Xueqing's heart was a little sour, she didn't know that she had evoked Fang Chen's forgotten memories, listening to Fang Chen crying and saying sorry, she vaguely heard the name 'Sister Qing'.
Ouyang Xueqing frowned and said secretly: What do you mean? It can't really be the existence of Sister Qing, right? Really recognize the wrong person?
Fang Chen's grief came and went quickly, or rather, men's grief was like this, they couldn't control themselves for a while, and they cried loudly, but when they finished crying, they would remember that they were men, they shouldn't cry, they couldn't cry, this was a sign of cowardice, so they would recover soon.
This kind of recovery may just temporarily seal up all the unhappy things and things that you dare not think, and one day you may read it out, but anyway, the man has cried, and that's it.
Long grief is not for men.
It's just that although Fang Chen didn't put his sadness on the surface anymore, his heart still needs a while to calm down.
Standing silently in the fence on the top of the building, looking at the blue sea and blue sky, stretching mountains, Fang Chen only secretly told himself at this time, this was the first time he told himself since he crossed.
"I can't go back, now here, it's your world, the new world, no friends, no relatives, no lovers, you are a blank slate, everything in the future needs to be written by yourself, good and bad, you write it yourself......"
“…… Dad, Mom, Auntie, Auntie...... Sister Qing, I'm really gone, I can't go back, I just hope you can live happily in another space......"
Wiping away his tears and sorting out his mood, Fang Chen felt that he had 'grown up' and sublimated again, which was a kind of spiritual transformation.