The "Kuroko's Basketball" intimidation incident, which caused a stir a while ago, has temporarily subsided with the arrest of the prisoner. Recently, the suspect Hiroshi Watanabe (36 years old) underwent his first public trial. The Japanese media at the scene released the relevant information about the case for the first time, and recorded the table of the suspect Watanabe. The following is the content of the record:

I sat in on the first public trial of the Kuroko Basketball incident. I was overwhelmed by the strong sense of "loser's group" of the prisoners. The prisoner said that he was never allowed to love, to work hard, to live on his own. And for this unspeakable evil inflicted on himself, the prisoner tried to take revenge, and thought of suicide, but he could not figure out what to hate. In order to divert this affection, he needs to find a target for revenge.

Watanabe's defendant named the incident "the crime of discrimination in life." When he was arrested, he said, "I lost," a declaration of his failure in life. In previous reports, it was mentioned that he then said "I'm sorry" and apologized for the crime, but the defendant himself said that it was just fabricated fake news. "I didn't reflect. I didn't think about any introspection from the beginning. I won't apologize. ”

The defendant also claimed that he had lived for 36 years and had never experienced the feeling of burning out his passion for a thing. "The first thing I tried to do was this series of intimidation cases." He has been bullied since he first entered elementary school, but neither his parents nor teachers have paid enough attention to him. And the first time he thought about suicide was 30 years ago.

After being arrested, Watanabe was handcuffed. However, he said that he was not affected at all. "There has long been an invisible handcuff between parents and the child who is being bullied, and now it is just a concretization of it."

Watanabe's defendant stated that he was not financially responsible. Before that, I earned only 10 million yen in my life. There has never been a case of an annual income of more than 2 million yen, and there have been several times when the monthly income has exceeded 200,000 yen. "I'll have to hang myself in the future. When I am released from prison, I will commit suicide by trying not to cause trouble to others as much as possible. ”

During the course of the statement, the Watanabe defendant shouted in court: "I don't want to live this bullshit life anymore, let me die quickly!" ”

The defendant leaned forward during the trial. His voice is loud and his pronunciation is relatively clear, but he speaks very quickly. And from time to time he looked towards the auditorium. Although he seems to be very concentrated, it always makes people feel that he is not at peace at all. That atmosphere made me wonder if he was like a frightened little squirrel, with an unusually fast heartbeat.

In response to the smile he showed when he was arrested, Watanabe also denied that he was happy because he was famous. He said: "I have always been punished by some unknown deposit, and now I have finally been punished by the authorities, so I just laughed at myself. Looking at yourself in the photo, it is really unpleasant, and this smile is actually the opposite of your own mentality. ”

Watanabe's submissions were also lengthy. In it, he used slogans such as "euthanasia in social significance" and "life discrimination crime", and made an objective evaluation of his own expression, which was very clear from his subjective consciousness, and what he wanted to express was also very clearly conveyed to everyone, and he looked like he had a very good brain. But his feeling of despair in life wasn't a joke. But for some reason, he cares very much about his evaluation on the Internet and in the media. It's a little weird.

The participants were surprised that such a person who had given up his life would care about the evaluation of others. However, in fact, combined with the experience of being bullied when I was a child and no one paid attention to it, perhaps the prisoner came to this point in order to gain a "sense of existence" in society and gain the recognition of others. In any case, the poor man must have something to hate, and what awaits him will be the severe punishment of the law.