I've been quietly looking forward to Xiao Hai just being a ghost for a while, he will come back in three or two days, and even if he doesn't come back, he will give us a call or text message to tell us that he is okay outside......

This is just my wishful thinking, in fact, since the afternoon he left, his mobile phone has become as silent as his person, let me call the mobile phone with the tail number 092 over and over again, still the operator's voice is still the same "Sorry, the user you dialed can't get through......"

Once, twice, three times, in the past few days since he left, I don't know how many times I called the road, but the result was still as silent as ever.

I was angered by Xiaohai's indifference, I went crazy at home, helpless and dazed, I finally understood that Xiaohai made up his mind to break the boat, he wanted to stay with that Xiaosan forever, for the family he abandoned, everything in this family he had long since stopped taking to heart, he answered us with his practical actions, this home that had given him everything, all the relatives in the family, he had already completely ignored it, he unilaterally cut off all the ties with this family: emotion, flesh and blood, Everything in the past.

When I thought of Xiao Hai's desperation, my heart seemed to be pierced by the enemy with a sharp blade, lest I not die, they clenched the handle of the knife and used all their strength, twisting and twisting my internal organs into meat sauce, and the blood was like a gushing spring spurting out in all directions, I had no pain, only numbness before dying......

At this time, I seem to have suddenly opened up, and my thinking has changed dramatically: from the beginning of my concern for Xiaohai has now become full of resentment towards Xiaohai, I am full of disdain and disappointment for this ungrateful and irresponsible man, I really can't figure out what makes this once obedient child become a ruthless man now, he is always in front of us, we didn't even notice a little.

If he stood in front of me at this time, I would definitely slap him in the face, and I would ask him what made him what he is now, that hateful third party, how much charm Pan Xiaoyan had to make him make such a decisive choice.

He never thought about it! Although his adoptive parents did not give birth to him, they really raised him, a handful of and urine, how much energy and money were spent to build him a house, marry a daughter-in-law, and worry about him and work hard......

Now the old man has not received a penny of his filial piety, and has to take care of everything in the family he abandoned for him, to take care of his young wife, two young sons, and to bear the white eyes and spit of the villagers, doesn't he know that his mother with gray temples is about to cry for him, how can a father who has been strong all his life stand in front of people: without a son, he can't even keep it, what kind of fatal blow will this be to him, and the three sisters we have always regarded him as siblings, I have to worry about him when I'm busy,......

Could it be that we really did something unbearable in our previous life, deserve him, owe him, and let us repay him twice as much in this world!

I can't help but think like this.

I know that this is my state of mind in despair, and more of a helpless sadness.