A dark curtain separates Zhou Yuan from this huge city.

Sitting in this small room of more than ten square meters, the orderly arrangement, the warm color decoration style, the air conditioning was turned on properly, and the temperature felt very comfortable, Zhou Yuan's mood finally stabilized.

"Are you feeling better during this time?"

Zhou Yuan was lying on the leather recliner, his eyes slightly closed, his mouth opened and closed to say something, but in the end he just nodded lightly, mumbled, and then closed his eyes to enjoy the harmony between himself and the environment, enjoying the comfort of this moment.

Next to her, a middle-aged woman in a black suit, leaning against an office desk that matches her figure very well, she is Zhou Yuan's psychiatrist, Li Ran.

I don't know how long I lay down, but after feeling that a century had passed, Zhou Yuan finally opened one eye slightly and glanced at Teacher Li Ran.

"Actually, it's only been a few minutes, and you can lie down a little longer. Li Ran said.

"I'm afraid I'll fall asleep!" Zhou Yuan said, closing his eyes again.

Psychologists must maintain an appropriate distance from the patient, commonly known as social distancing, if this distance is exceeded, it may lead to an intimate relationship between the doctor and the patient, which is contrary to professional ethics.

But deep down in his heart at the moment, Li Ran wanted to walk over, pat him on the shoulder, and then touch that resolute cheek, which was full of helplessness, misanthropy, and even tyranny.

This thought was only for a moment, and it was pressed under the iceberg in the deepest part of Li Ran's subconscious.

"Can you tell me the story of you and your grandfather today?"

Li Ran took off his glasses and sat on a small pink round chair diagonally opposite the ancient one, and the distance between the two was almost 1.2 meters.

"Good!"

Zhou Yuan was very comfortable lying like this, lying like this, not thinking about whether it would be inappropriate to face a middle-aged woman older than himself, at this moment he just wanted to be comfortable, and he just wanted to follow the truest desires in his heart.

Still with his eyes closed, Zhou Yuan slowly fell into the memory.

"Thousands of miles back here,

Ten thousand years of wealth is in it!

Here are the verses on his epitaph.

I still remember when I was a child, I was very close to my grandfather, he was born in the thirties of the last century, I can't remember exactly what year, forgive me for this unworthy grandson!"

"It's okay, it's a matter of brain memory. Li Ran echoed that as a leading psychological counselor in China who has been licensed to open a psychological counseling room for 13 years, and also a supervisor of many psychological counselors, she is already familiar with the importance of timely echoing in the listening process.

Zhou Yuan continued: "Grandpa is a vegetable farmer, and he has been tinkering with the vegetables he grows all year round. He usually hoes and hoes the ground, sows seeds and applies fertilizer, and when he rushes to the market, he carries his vegetables to the town to sell. ”

"Sometimes there are more vegetables to push on the chicken bus, and less vegetables are picked up with a flat shoulder, when I was a child, I was very naughty, and often sat in the big basket of vegetables on the grandfather's chicken bus and let my grandfather push me away, when my grandfather was already in his sixties. ”

"Do you think I'm too bad, teacher. ”

"You're not bad, you're cute, just a little skinny, and I was like that when I was a kid, it's the nature of a child. Li Ran responded, there were too many words, her speed of speech was a little faster, and her main task now was to listen and make appropriate responses.

"Grandpa's back is very tall, and those white-flowered cabbages, carrots, and lettuce are colorful in Grandpa's vegetable basket, which is particularly beautiful. ”

"When I was a child, I liked to eat sugar, and my grandfather bought me that kind of sandwich biscuits, which we called 'sandwich candy' in our local dialect. Every time I came back in the afternoon after selling vegetables in the market, I bought one dollar, there were more than a dozen, I only gave my sister two or three yuan, and I ate the rest by myself. ”

"My sister was adopted, and the neighbors said that my grandfather was patriarchal, and now that I think about it, they were patriarchal, including my parents. When I was fifteen years old, I looked through my sister's diary, and it was full of her hatred for her mother, but then it slowly got better, and our family was very harmonious.

My sister and I went to the county seat to study in high school, went to college in other places, worked, and my sister fell in love and got married, everything was so beautiful. I am very grateful to my family of origin, grandpa, grandma, father, mother, sister, all of them gave me enough love, and it was I who did not do well. ”

Speaking of this, Zhou Yuan's face suddenly turned a little hideous, and Li Ran raised his voice after discovering it and said, "Grandpa loves you very much!

Zhou Yuan's fluctuating emotions slowly calmed down, and after a minute, he continued.

"My sister and I are growing up, and my grandfather is getting older, but his figure is not rickety at all, even when he is working in the farm, he is so majestic, he looks like an old farmer who stands up to the sky!

He bought a tricycle and rode to town every other day with vegetables, he was in his seventies, with gray hair, but everyone praised him for his youth, and people respected him. When I was in junior high school in the town, I occasionally went to the vegetable market to see him, and at that time I still had a little bit of self-esteem, thinking that my classmates would look down on me if they knew that my grandfather was a vegetable farmer. It's ridiculous to think about it now! Forgive me for blowing up! ”

"It's okay, grandpa is very kind, you keep talking, I like to hear your story with him. Li Ran said.

"There was a time when I learned to play poker, and when I lost money, I went to him to get it, and he always gave me five or ten dollars without asking me. At that time, his income was only forty or fifty yuan a day. I still remember a few times when I went to his room to secretly take his money, all of which were five cents a piece and five yuan in change, and I didn't dare to take more, each time I took a piece of five yuan and a few pieces of money. But the older generation, who value every dime, how can they not know.

It was raining that day, and we were sitting and chatting under the eaves of the old house, and he and my grandmother used my cousin's story to vaguely remind me that they had found out about the lost money, and I never took their money again.

Teacher, you said that when I thought about heaven and hell, did I almost develop the habit of stealing, and I would become a thief in the future, and when I grew up, I would become a thief, and I would go to prison for committing crimes? ”

"No, a lot of things are predestined, you are kind. Li Ran said.

"Studying, peasant children can only get a position through reading, come back once a month when they are in high school, come back twice a year when they go to university, and come back once a year when they work.

I now have so few memories of those years, probably because I spent less time with him at home! But I remember very well how my grandfather was wearing the blue coat he had bought for pig feed. I still remember the name of the pig feed brand, called 'Tieqi Lux' because their LOGO is printed on the clothes, and later my family has been using this brand of feed when they open a farm.

Later, my grandfather became ill, and I learned from my cousin's mouth. Brother Heaven called me in a very heavy tone, I felt that my grandfather was about to die, so I immediately called my mother, she told me that it was esophageal cancer, not particularly serious, and asked me to go to work first for the New Year and then go home to see him.

I had a video call with my grandfather, and he said he was okay and I was very happy. The old man is very stubborn and resolute!"

"At the end of the year, I went home and learned that it was an advanced esophageal cancer and that I was going to have chemotherapy.

It was also raining that day, and Grandpa was standing under the eaves of the new house outside the old house in his blue coat, drinking from a bowl of water, and I came down from the stairs and heard a 'squeak' sound in his throat, which was like the sound of water filtered by a funnel. It sounded so intrusive that I turned around and left, ran upstairs and hid and cried. I saw the pain on his face, the tumor had grown all over his throat, and it was painful to drink, and he was very strong when he was eating, but I was very uncomfortable to watch.

In the thirtieth year of the Chinese New Year's Eve, my mother and sister sent food to my father to the hospital, and my grandmother and I went to the grave at home.

This kind of days lasted for a whole year, and it was better during chemotherapy, but it was serious without chemotherapy, and I had to go to the hospital for infusion when I had a cold. I went home many times this year, and at the end of the year, the hospital issued a critical illness notice, I asked for leave to go back, compensated him in the hospital for a few days, and then went back to my hometown.

At noon on the third day of the Lunar New Year, that is, at about 12:40 p.m., he passed away, and I couldn't see him for the last time, because we had a habit of visiting relatives there, and I was just having dinner with my aunt that day, and my sister called me to come back quickly. When I came back, all my father's relatives came, and he was lying on the floor of the old house, his body slowly stiffened, and I knelt beside him and cried......

Then watch him enter the coffin, which was prepared very early.

Go to the grave, bury it!

......

I don't understand why I went to my aunt's house instead of staying by his side, hasn't it been for many days?

I hate myself! I can't change anything, not even the last companion!

I'm just a jerk!"

Li Ran stood up, walked to Zhou Yuan's side, gently pressed his shoulder and said, "Because you love him, so you are afraid of losing him!"

Zhou Yuan's emotional ups and downs were very serious, time was passing, and silence filled the room.

Li Ran looked at her watch, the time for this consultation had come, she sat next to her and continued to wait, and she was faintly more curious about this man. This experience was not enough to cause his psychological problems, if not that he was hiding something, or that there were other experiences that caused the predicament he is facing now.

Gotta keep digging!

A few minutes later, Li Ran said.

"That's all for today's consultation, next week, you have to tell me the most important story hidden in your heart!

Lurking

Most importantly,

tale

These keywords were enough to give Zhou Yuan a hint and let him understand what Li Ran wanted to know.

"Teacher, can I lie down a little longer?" Zhou Yuan asked.

"Okay, I'll ask my assistant to wake you up later, I have a consultation in the evening. Li Ran walked out of the door and closed them gently, the time was six o'clock in the afternoon. Counseling is like this, sometimes 45 to 60 minutes at a time is all about listening to the patient.

Some people think that psychological counselors make a lot of money, and they can earn hundreds or thousands of dollars an hour by listening to other people's stories, but those who are really engaged in this industry are well aware of the pain.

Li Ran's emotional management is very good, she only receives four consultations a day, she can only do less and not more, otherwise her capacity will not be enough, which is what Li Ran often jokes with friends.

Li Ran's back disappeared, and Zhou Yuan lay in the consultation room and fell asleep.

Consciousness seemed to be separated in the haze, detached from his body, floating like another unknown world.

He is afraid, very afraid, this is the fear of the unknown in human beings, which stems from instinct!

Welcome!

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Abyssal World!