"Yue'er died?"

Seeing the Q-Q message sent by the other party, Tang Xiaosheng's mind went blank in an instant, and he didn't react at all, he even wondered if the other party was joking, or Yue'er's Q-Q number was stolen.

It's just that the other party actually knows Tang Xiaosheng's name, which is obviously not something that can be explained by the theft of the Q-Q number, because Yue'er never directly calls Tang Xiaosheng's name on Q-Q, and it is impossible for outsiders to know Tang Xiaosheng's name.

Tang Xiaosheng immediately sent a message to the other party's Q-Q and asked, "Who are you?" ”

The other party responded to the message: "My name is Katie, I am Yang Ziwen's classmate, she and I have been classmates from high school to college, we have a good relationship, we have nothing to say." Last year, on her deathbed, she told me the password of this Q-Q and asked me to keep it for her. ”

Tang Xiaosheng: "When did Yue'er die?" ”

Katie: "Last September. ”

Tang Xiaosheng: "How is it possible? I also met Yue'er in April last year, and I talked to her about QQ in July, what happened to her? ”

Katie: "Ziwen (Yue'er) was diagnosed with a brain tumor in early April last year......"

Tang Xiaosheng: "At the beginning of April last year? She came to China at the end of April to see me, and she was sick at the time? ”

Katie: "Hmm. When Ziwen learns that she has a brain tumor, the doctor says that she will probably not live for more than four months, so she decides to go back to China to meet you. Her parents originally disagreed, they wanted Yue'er to stay in the United States for treatment, but Ziwen wanted to see you. Her parents then took her to China. ”

Katie: "Ziwen was worried that you would be upset, so she didn't tell you about her cancer. A few days after arriving in China, Ziwen's condition tended to worsen, and her head became more and more painful, so her parents decided to take her back to the United States for treatment immediately. On May 3 of last year, she returned to Miami. ”

Ziwen didn't want you to know about her illness, but she was worried that you would find her, so before she died, she asked me to help her keep her QQ. She only has one friend on QQ, and she said that after her death. If not necessary. Don't tell you about her death as if nothing happened. So, I didn't want to tell you about Ziwen. ”

"Until this morning, I saw you send Ziwen birthday greetings. I suddenly felt that it would be better to tell you what happened. ”

"Oh. That's right. Yue'er left a letter before she died, this letter was written to you by her, and she gave me the opportunity to pass it on to you again. Can you give me your current address? I am sending you a letter today from the United States. ”

……

Tang Xiaosheng and Katie chatted for more than an hour.

It's past eight o'clock in the evening. Tang Xiaosheng got off work.

After leaving the computer city, he did not go to eat or go to the station to take the bus, but walked aimlessly on the road.

Until now, he still couldn't believe that Yue'er had passed away, it felt so ridiculous, so unreal, how could this lively, savage little girl suddenly leave?

When I met Yue'er in April last year, this girl looked energetic and energetic, and she kept saying that she wanted to travel around the world, how could she just leave?

Recalling the days when he got along with Yue'er last year, Tang Xiaosheng couldn't help but feel remorseful, feeling that he was too sloppy to see that Yue'er was terminally ill at that time.

I remember that on the night of April 30, 2010, Yue'er once sang a song "Angel's Wings" on the guitar to Tang Xiaosheng, when this girl suddenly burst into tears after playing and singing, which scared Tang Xiaosheng.

It wasn't until now that Tang Xiaosheng understood what he was crying for that night.

At that time, Yue'er was already going back to the United States with her parents for treatment, and she knew that once she returned to the United States, she might never have the opportunity to see Tang Xiaosheng again.

This time the separation is not a month, not a year, not a decade, but forever.

It's hard to imagine what kind of mood this girl would have felt at that time?

How much pressure will she have to endure in the face of imminent death?

However, recalling the days when he got along with Yue'er last year, Tang Xiaosheng saw any clues, he didn't believe that the little girl who had chased him all over the construction site was actually terminally ill, and he didn't believe that the little girl who repeatedly told him to eat more meat had left.

When chatting with Katie, Tang Xiaosheng got the contact information of Yue'er's parents, he originally wanted to make a phone call with Yue'er's parents, but after trying several times, the international call never got through.

After wandering the street for a few hours, Tang Xiaosheng walked directly back to the rental house, and when he arrived, it was already three o'clock in the evening.

Although he tossed for a day, after returning to the house, Tang Xiaosheng never fell asleep. When he saw the acoustic guitar placed on the chuang in the house, he couldn't help but think of the short few days he spent with Yue'er.

Last year, Yue'er once said that she was going to learn to play the guitar in the summer, so that she could travel around the world with a guitar on her back in the future. Now that I think about it, this is just a lie she used to deceive Tang Xiaosheng.

Yue'er was already suffering from cancer at the time, how could she go out of her way to learn guitar?

Actually, this guitar was specially bought by Yue'er and given to Tang Xiaosheng. On April 24th, that is, the first night of Tang Xiaosheng and Yue'er's reunion, Yue'er once found a copy of "Guitar March Pass" in Tang Xiaosheng's house, and saw that Tang Xiaosheng had made a lot of annotations and annotations on the book, which showed that Tang Xiaosheng had studied this guitar book.

After discovering this problem, Yue'er expected that Tang Xiaosheng must like the guitar. So, the little girl took matters into her own hands the next morning, went to a musical instrument store in the city center, bought a new guitar, and prepared to secretly give it to Tang Xiaosheng in the evening to surprise Tang Xiaosheng.

It's just that the plan can't keep up with the changes.

Yue'er soon found out that Tang Xiaosheng didn't like others to give him gifts, and that night, Yue'er bought sun hats, sunscreen, gloves and other things for Tang Xiaosheng, but was reprimanded by Tang Xiaosheng and asked her not to buy things in the future.

After this happened, Yue'er didn't dare to give the guitar directly to Tang Xiaosheng. So, after returning to the hotel. She lied that she was learning guitar and asked Tang Xiaosheng to teach her guitar.

After that, in the name of learning the guitar, Yue'er naturally brought the guitar to Tang Xiaosheng's rental house. In the seven days they got along, Tang Xiaosheng always thought that Yue'er was really ready to learn guitar, and he once enthusiastically taught this girl.

Looking back now, this girl didn't really want to learn the guitar at all, she just turned a corner and gave the guitar to Tang Xiaosheng. She acted so well that Tang Xiaosheng didn't find any flaws at all.

If there was a flaw, it was the night before the separation. Yue'er once cried after singing "Angel Wings". Tang Xiaosheng can still clearly remember Yue'er's eyes full of crystal tears at that time.

After standing in the room for a while, Tang Xiaosheng walked to the chuang, leaned on the chuang's head, and looked at the ceiling. Sit quietly......

……

The next day. Tang Xiaosheng did not go to work in the computer city. He asked the shopkeeper for a week off. The boss did not agree, but Tang Xiaosheng did not go to work in the end.

For the next three days. Tang Xiaosheng didn't go anywhere, and stayed alone in the rental house for three days.

It wasn't until the fourth day that he received a courier from the United States, which was sent by Katie, and it contained a letter written by Yue'er to Tang Xiaosheng before her death.

The envelope of Yue'er's letter is white, and the surface of the envelope has a snowflake pattern.

Carefully opening the envelope, Tang Xiaosheng took out the pink letter paper from it, and after unfolding the letter paper, the text that came into view:

"Brother Tang:

See the letter, I'm Yue'er, hehe.

When Brother Tang saw this letter, I thought I should have left. Brother Tang, you must be very angry now, right? I left without saying goodbye to you, which is indeed a bit unjust. I originally wanted to tell Brother Tang, but I'm afraid you will be sad......

Brother Tang, although I am gone, don't be sad. Last time I told you, based on my years of research, I discovered that there are souls in this world. After a human dies, his consciousness is still preserved, and he continues to live in the form of a soul.

However, the soul is shadowless, formless, colorless and tasteless, and ordinary people can't see it, so Brother Tang may not be able to see me. However, I am still alive and well, and when I die, my soul may be floating around the earth, wandering around, and starting to travel around the world. Brother Tang, I may be hiding next to you somewhere you can't see, don't do bad things, otherwise I'll see them all, hehe.

Brother Tang, don't worry, I will take care of myself, don't worry about me. There are many souls on Earth, I'm sure I'll be able to find friends to play with, and maybe I can resonate with other souls.

I'm looking forward to it, what is the soul resonance like?

……

Brother Tang, I have been sick for the past few days, and I have remembered a lot of things from the past.

I was really stupid when I was a child, and I gave Brother Tang a lot of trouble. I'm so afraid of the dark that I don't dare to sleep at night, so I always run to your room to sleep with you. (Shy~) As a result, I was later discovered by the old witch in the orphanage, scolded you, and punished you to stand on the wall of the corridor for half a day.

When I was in the first grade of elementary school, there was a male classmate who bullied me, and you had a fight with him, I remember that the male classmate was a fat man, and his body was a lot fatter than Brother Tang, but Brother Tang still beat the fat man to tears. Later, the fat man's mother went to the orphanage to complain, and the old witch started scolding you again, and then punished you for standing in front of the wall in the corridor for a long time.

…… (1788 words omitted here)

Brother Tang, I sometimes think, if I hadn't met Brother Tang when I was a child in an orphanage, how miserable my life would have been? When I went to bed at night, no one accompanied me, and when my male classmates bullied me, no one helped me......

Thinking about it now, I suddenly feel that Brother Tang is so important, hehe.

Brother Tang, do you know the truth, when I decided to go back to China to find you this time, I was very worried and uneasy. We haven't seen each other for eight years, I don't know what will become of Brother Tang? Many of my classmates told me that eight years is enough time for a person to become unrecognizable, and they all said that Brother Tang must have become another person, and they may have forgotten Yue'er.

So, I was very worried, and I was really worried that Brother Tang would forget me.

However, after meeting Brother Tang, I found that Brother Tang has not changed at all, and he is still the same as when he was a child, he is really happy! When I met Brother Tang, I felt as if time had gone back in time. It's so familiar, so familiar, it's so good.

Brother Tang, when I slept in your rental house, I always remembered the hut we used to live in the orphanage, and it felt so warm.

However, I still want to give Brother Tang an opinion, your room is really a bit messy, rats and cockroaches are ghostly, you still have to be careful. lest they take it away. Although such a room is very artistic. But it's not very safe.

Brother Tang, I think the solution to this problem is also very simple, that is, to have a girlfriend. If Brother Tang had a girlfriend. The house will be clean and tidy.

Brother Tang. You're not too young anymore. It's time to think about getting married and having children, and if you have time, you have to find a girlfriend quickly. Don't still act like a little fart, don't you know? (pouts)

……

By the way, Brother Tang, you can keep my guitar and the "Great Philosopher" series for me first, remember not to lose it. In the future, if I have the chance, I will go back and get it.

Brother Tang, you said that you would invent a time shuttle, and then we would travel time and space together. The time shuttle is very complicated, and it may not be easy for Brother Tang to invent it.

However, Brother Tang, don't worry, Yue'er will help you. When I'm not idle, I will also start researching the time shuttle, and if I invent the time shuttle, I will inform Brother Tang.

Therefore, Brother Tang should be mentally prepared, maybe I will suddenly appear next to you at some point, hehe.

…… (More than 1,000 words omitted here)

Brother Tang, although it is very important to study the time shuttle, but you don't have to be too tired, if you are tired, Yue'er will be distressed, do you know it? Be sure to have a good rest and combine work and rest. Also, remember to eat more meat! You've got to grow a little more meat.

……

Brother Tang, when you read this letter, did your anger disappear? Remember not to be angry, let alone sad, everything is fine with Yue'er.

Brother Tang, you may not know the way of the road, when you are reading this letter, you are hiding behind you. Don't turn your head to look, it's useless, I'm a soul body now, you can't see it.

Brother Tang, can you laugh? When you laugh, Yue'er will smile at you, hee-hee.

……

———————— Yue'er-Chen Yameng-Yang Ziwen

————————Miami, 13 August 2010"

After reading the contents of the letter, Tang Xiaosheng sat quietly on the sofa.

He originally wanted to laugh one, but unfortunately, he couldn't laugh......

……

For the next three days, Tang Xiaosheng did not go to work, and the owner of the computer city store was very dissatisfied. So, on August 21, Tang Xiaosheng went to the computer city, and then asked the boss to resign.

After the death of Zhilu Dao Yue'er, Tang Xiaosheng suddenly didn't want to work, feeling that everything seemed to have no meaning, although he didn't know what the meaning of Ludao was.

After resigning, Tang Xiaosheng nested in a rental house, except for eating and sleeping, he only did one thing - reading.

The book he read was the 36-volume philosophical series of "The Great Philosopher" that Yue'er left him.

This set of books was originally bought by Tang Xiaosheng and given to Yue'er, but he didn't expect to end up going around in a circle, and this set of books finally fell into his hands again.

Tang Xiaosheng didn't read philosophy books before, and he didn't like to read philosophy books.

There are generally only two kinds of people who are interested in philosophy, one is the dying person and the other is the lonely person.

For ordinary people, they have too many things to be busy on weekdays, about family, about study, about work...... There's always something to do. As for philosophical questions such as "the meaning of life" or "what is the world", there is little time or interest to deal with them.

Only when people's lives are about to come to an end, most people will wake up from a dream, and suddenly realize that they are going to die, and after they die, everything they have will disappear, and everything they have exchanged for their lives will no longer exist, and this sense of complete destruction will inevitably make people despair and fear. And this despair and fear can make people rethink the value of life.

It is precisely because of this that many people are philosophers before they die, and if you record people's thoughts before death, then it must be a good philosophical series.

In addition to the dying person, there is another kind of person who will be interested in philosophy, and that is the extremely lonely person, which is not only material, but also spiritual. To put it simply, it is a person who is too idle to be an egg.

Unfortunately, Tang Xiaosheng at this time belongs to this kind of person, and he is so idle now. After resigning from the computer city, Tang Xiaosheng suddenly didn't know what to do, but there was a doubt in his heart that kept haunting him: What is life?

Yue'er suddenly left like this, and a life disappeared like this, it feels so ridiculous?

Tang Xiaosheng couldn't help but start to re-examine his life, he would one day die, so what should he do in this short life?

With such painful questions, Tang Xiaosheng began to read the 36 philosophy books left by Qi Yue'er, reading them day and night.

From Aristotle to Descartes, from Plato to Hume, from Hegel to Heidegger, from Socrates to Kant, from Sartre to Russell, from Nietzsche to Kierkegaard, from Marx to Schopenhauer, from Dostoevsky to Wittgenstein......

After reading 36 philosophy books, Tang Xiaosheng was still unsatisfied, because he did not find the answer from the books. After that, he went to the book city and continued to look for philosophy books.

For three months, he spent almost all of his time in the book city, turning over almost all the thousands of books on the philosophy shelves.

It wasn't until three months later that he made a big decision. (To be continued......)