Feng Luan walked out of the backyard of Haitang Chunwu, walked all the way, his hands trembled all the way, and his heart was even more "plopping" and beating, until he walked into the Green Yi Pavilion and sat down, and he couldn't stop.

In my head, there was chaos after a huge impact.

Baozhu saw that her face was not good-looking, and looked at her: "Miss, this is ......, knocked?" Bumped into it? ”

Feng Luan bit her lip and didn't speak.

Baozhu is an informed and interesting person, seeing this, he didn't ask any more questions, beckoned to Qianxiang and a few little girls, and quietly retreated outside the pavilion, leaving the master alone.

How so? How could such a thing happen?!

Feng Luan kept asking herself, her heart was shocked, aggrieved, and more at a loss. I even thought that listening to Mama Zhen's meaning, my mother has been in contact with that person for a long time, so my ...... should it be, it won't be my father's own birth, right? !

She was taken aback by the thought.

But when I think about it carefully, the more I think about it, the more frightened I become, the more panicked I become—

Yes, my father didn't like him since he was a child.

In his previous life, he didn't think much about it, thinking that he was a daughter, and his mother never gave birth to a son, so his father disliked his mother and himself, and preferred Aunt Gong and her pair of concubines. I have the impression that my mother never serves my father, and my father does not look for my mother, and he does not even want to see him.

In a year, I only see my father during the New Year's holidays and someone's birthday.

In his past and present lives, his father has always been a vague shadow in his own life.

It seems that from childhood to adulthood, there are only mothers, only nurses, ginger mothers and girls. I still thought that the so-called strict fathers were like this, and they didn't like to be close to their children. But he ignored it, and occasionally when he saw his father during the New Year's holidays, his caring eyes for his sister Zhenniang were fatherly.

But although I was a little jealous in my previous life, I didn't think much about it.

thought that Aunt Gong had always been able to please her father and be obedient, so she coaxed her father to care about her younger siblings, and never thought that there would be other reasons. And now this speculation, ......for no reason, how could I think of it? How dare you slander your parents like this?!

No, no, no! Even if my mother has something to do with others, I may not be born to my father.

Feng Luan kept taking a deep breath, ordering himself to calm his emotions, a little bit, a minute, and it took a long time to look fine. She walked out of the Green Yi Pavilion calmly, and said lightly: "Mother is not feeling well, I will go to Qingxue Hall to tell my father, let's go." ”

“…… Be. Baozhu's eyes rolled, and he didn't dare to ask.

Different from a cluster of flowers in the Begonia Spring Dock, the layout of Qingxue Hall is very simple, as soon as you enter the gate of the courtyard, it is the scene of ancient trees towering to the sky and strange rocks. Even the girls were dressed very plainly, all blue and blue, as if they had suddenly entered the Qingxiu Ancient Nunnery.

Because of this, Feng Luan never liked to come to Qingxue Hall when he was a child.

Originally, my father didn't like himself, he never had a smiling face, and when he saw these cold scenes, he felt cold all over his body, uncomfortable from head to toe.

"Second Miss?" The girl at the gate of the courtyard was taken aback, gave a look, and asked another girl to hurry in to report, and said with a smile: "Why do you have time to think about coming over today?" It's not far away, the second miss is tired, right? There was a little nervousness and caution on his face.

Feng Luan knew in her heart that she almost never set foot in Qingxue Hall, and the girls were not used to it.

Aunt Gong walked out of the inner door, "Second Miss is here." She wore a stone blue embroidered half-sleeved, moon-white middle shirt, and a blue Xiangshui skirt underneath, plain and elegant, coupled with Sven's demeanor and delicate appearance, she didn't look like an aunt, but like the wife of the main house of a small family.

Feng Luan greeted, "Aunt Gong is good." ”

Speaking of which, although I don't like Aunt Gong and my younger siblings, I don't hate it.

Aunt Gong is from the distant side branch of the Gong family of Pingnan Hou and is the niece of her grandmother. Because the family was in decline, and he wanted to provide for his brother's education, he was ruthless, so he committed himself to his father as a concubine. Because she is chaste and quiet, she is deferential, and she has always been well-behaved, not the kind of bewitching and flattering vulgar aunt, so she can't hate it.

Besides, I can't see her a few times a year, and I don't have a chance to hate her.

Like the vague shadow of her father, Aunt Gong is also vague in her impression, as if her father, Aunt Gong, and a pair of younger siblings are all legends of Qingxuetang.

At this moment, I followed her, and I lifted my skirt and went up the steps in a dazed mood.

In the hall, Feng Zhenniang and Feng Shijie saluted together, "Second sister is good." "Formal and estranged and polite, both of them were explained in advance by their biological mothers, and they were well-behaved, and they refused to say more than a word.

"Third sister, fourth brother." Feng Luan greeted and nodded slightly.

Aunt Gong took a few steps inside first, and said with a smile: "Master, the second lady came to greet you." Then he turned sideways and made a deferential gesture of the concubine's room, "Second Miss, please." ”

Feng Luan walked in slowly step by step, as if he was filled with lead under his feet.

"Why did you think you came here? Something? The second old man Feng Ze's eyes were as cold as ever, and he was a little impatient, as if he was saying, don't bother yourself if you don't have anything to do.

Feng Luan smiled and said, "It's okay, I just came to see my father." ”

A sneer flashed in Feng Ze's eyes, "Since I saw you once in Chinese New Year's Eve, it's been half a year since I was younger, so I remembered to take a look at Qingxue Hall?" Sure enough, filial piety. ”

These words were a bit heavy, and they made Feng Luan's face very embarrassed.

Aunt Gong felt that the atmosphere was awkward and wanted to persuade her, but because of her aunt's identity, it was difficult to speak casually. In case the young lady is annoyed and has a bad seizure, didn't she hit the muzzle? A little aunt, a slave seedling, how can she be qualified to interject? She sighed to herself in her heart.

But if you don't say anything, how can you get off the stage in this ......?

Just as he was about to give his daughter a look, he heard that she had already spoken, "Father." Feng Zhenniang stepped forward and smiled, "Sister Jin'er came to visit her father here, it was her kindness, why should my father be angry?" But he didn't dare to persuade more, so he turned his head and said, "Second sister, why don't you go to my room and sit down?" ”

Feng Luan was still embarrassed, and smiled reluctantly, "Don't bother my sister." ”

"I'm going to rest and recuperate." Feng Ze was thin, his face was overly pale from a long-term sick bed, he was a little excited just now, coughed, "cough cough ......" and then waved his hand, "Okay, it's okay to go back." ”

Aunt Gong hurriedly went up to serve tea and pour water, Feng Zhenniang took a handkerchief for her father, Feng Shijie held a spittoon, and she didn't even need a girl, and the mother and son surrounded her in person.

Feng Luan's eyes suddenly became hot, and then he was endlessly sad.

In Qingxue Hall, my father, Aunt Gong and my younger siblings, they ......, they are like a real family, a family that loves each other, and is kind to father and son.

...... by himself, but he is just a person outside of Qingxue Hall.

Feng Luan was afraid that his tears would roll out, so he took advantage of their hecticism and turned around silently and went out.

"Master, the doctor said to calm down." Aunt Gong kept rubbing her husband's back, beating it gently, and she was busy for a while before she got her breath. As soon as he turned his head, he had already disappeared from Fengluan, and said in surprise: "What about the second young lady?" ”

Feng Zhenniang shook her head, indicating that she didn't know what to do.

Feng Shijie replied crisply: "The second sister suddenly went out just now. ”

"No rules!" Feng Ze sneered, "What kind of mother, so what kind of daughter to teach!" Although he was angry and complained, he saw a pair of children in front of him, and he was afraid that they would be suspicious and privately criticize and cause trouble for his children, so he said, "Go back, it is enough for your aunt to serve." ”

Aunt Gong heard that the words were not like this, and hurriedly urged, "Go, go." ”

sighed in my heart, I don't understand how a beautiful and intelligent person like Mrs. can have such trouble with the master? It's clearly two people, but it's a posture of old age and death.

Still, that's fine.

Originally, when I endured humiliation and came to the Feng family to be an aunt, I was mentally prepared, first suffered from the difficulties of the eldest woman, and when I was old, I was bullied by the young and beautiful concubine. It is very likely that he will not be able to give birth to children for the rest of his life, or even die in vain, even if he is lucky enough to give birth to a boy and a girl, he will have to live by relying on others.

But the situation is completely different.

The lord and the lady have their own lives, although the lady can't talk about being chaste and virtuous, she only knows how to dress up, but she has never felt sorry for herself, probably ......, disdain and don't care. And the old man has no other problems except for his weak body, beating his wife, greedy for beauty, or doing nonsense outside, but he is a very reasonable person, who treats himself gently and considerately.

The most important thing is that except for the Tongfang Qixia who stayed in the early years, the master has never accepted anyone again.

Now he and Qi Xia serve the master together, and they get along with each other politely. has a good life, not only gave birth to a pair of children, but also is well-behaved, and he doesn't have to be rubbed by the eldest woman on weekdays, which is considered a good life in his aunt.

I hope it will continue to be safe and smooth like this.

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Compared with Aunt Gong's happiness and expectations, Feng Luan was full of unspeakable sadness and discomfort, but she didn't dare to cry outside, and forcibly held back her tears, choking her heart with choked pain. She felt as if she had been punctured, her whole body was limp, the soles of her feet were floating, and her mind was foggy.

It wasn't until today that I really understood that my father's eyes were not only cold, but also in the depths of his eyes, there was an unconcealable disgust. So, is it because Zhiludao's mother is unchaste? Or is it because she is not his biological daughter? I think my father will look at him more and feel disgusted.

There is a small voice screaming in the bottom of my heart, no, no, no, I ......, I am the second lady of the Feng family in Fengguo Mansion! ——

Not a wild species.

Feng Luan stretched out his hands and stared, his skin was as white as jade, and his fingers were like shallots, but he suddenly felt very dirty! It's very dirty and dirty, even dirtier than the feeling of being forcibly occupied by Xiao Duo in his previous life! Ten times, a hundredfold, a thousand times!

I suddenly remembered, no wonder ......, no wonder my mother didn't like to touch herself.

Does she think that her daughter is dirty, and she thinks she is dirty too? I see.

Feng Luan smiled self-deprecatingly.

There are some things that will be kept in the dark until you know it. Once the layer of window paper is pierced, many unclear things are revealed, and many clues are revealed.

Feng Luan thought about it, and a light suddenly flashed in his mind.

By the way, my sister's name is Zhenniang, and my brother's name is Shijie,...... Chaste? Jay? …… Chastity?! The father gave such a name to his younger siblings out of infinite anger towards his mother, right? Mother, she, has long been unchaste*.

Feng Luan's heart was shocked, and the tears that he had forcibly suppressed came up again.

"What's wrong with you?" A calm and majestic voice suddenly sounded.

Feng Luan's eyes were raised, and he saw that the eldest uncle was standing at the door of the courtyard of the long house, he was tall, his face was dignified, and he looked majestic and solemn in a casual indigo homely robe. Hurriedly paused, "I'm ......, it's fine." I don't know how to explain it, "It's really okay." ”

Feng Yuan walked over and looked at her, "What's wrong?" Then you're like a frosted eggplant. His eyelids jumped, and he immediately waved away all his subordinates, and asked in a deep voice: "Isn't it, you dreamed of something bad again?" ”

"No, no." Feng Luan hurriedly replied: "Before the Xiliang War, nothing bad happened. I really didn't know what reason Lu Dao made up, so he bowed his head and said, "I'm just, just ......, and I'm a little tired just now." ”

Feng Yuan looked up and asked, "You came from Qingxue Hall?" ”

"Hmm." Feng Luan nodded, "I went to see my father." ”

"Something?" He asked the same.

Feng Luan shook his head, "No, just go over and see my father." ”

Feng Yuan was silent for a while, and then said, "You come with me." Led her, the two went to a small rest room that was idle next to them, closed the window and asked, "Was it reprimanded by your father?" ”

"Nope." Feng Luan replied weakly.

Feng Yuan already understood a little in his heart, and his brows furrowed, "Your father is weak, and he usually needs to recuperate in a clean and pure manner, so don't bother him if he has nothing to do, just talk to him wherever he goes." Then he said: "You are getting older day by day, you are not a little girl, you have reached the age of getting out of the cabinet and getting married, so you have to be more steady." ”

When it comes to getting married, Feng Luan can't help but feel wronged.

Originally, I didn't want to marry into the Mu family, and I wanted to discuss with my mother, but I didn't expect to hear such a big shocking secret! The mood fluctuates, and he has an irrepressible dislike for his mother, he doesn't want to see her, he doesn't want to talk to her, so who should he tell about his family? Let who change?

"What the hell is wrong with you?" Feng Yuan saw that something was wrong with her, and said in a deep voice: "If you have something, just say it." ”

Feng Luan was at a loss in his heart.

After thinking about it, my mother was unchaste and I didn't want to see her, my father didn't care about me, my grandmother was also very cold, and the eldest lady was even more unreliable. Cousins and sisters-in-law can't, and although the third cousin is good friends with him, he can't take care of his own marriage. So now in the Feng family, only the eldest uncle can still talk and make decisions for himself.

"Uncle......" Her heart was sour, tears welled up in her eyelashes, but she didn't dare to mention the slightest thing about her mother, and she choked up in a low voice: "I, I don't want to get married." "I only dare to talk about the superficial situation," the eldest aunt came a few days ago. Listening to the little girls, they said that they were ...... and wanted to match me to the fourth brother of the Mu family, but I didn't want to marry. ”

Feng Yuan frowned puzzled, "You're uncomfortable for this?" Go to your father for this? His mind turned quickly, "Why don't you discuss the matter of the girl's family with your mother first." ”

Feng Luan didn't dare to raise his head, forcibly suppressed the emotions stirring in his heart, and replied: "I went to look for it, but my mother didn't see me when she was sleeping, so I went to find my father again." ”

Feng Yuan was silent for a while.

"Uncle?" Feng Luan waited for a moment, then raised his head and said, "You have the final say on the Feng family, or ......, you pushed the Mu family's family affairs, right?" As long as you discuss it with your aunt, it's fine. ”

After a long time, Feng Yuan suppressed his ups and downs and said, "Don't mess around, play with children." "Regarding the marriage with the Mu family, my wife mentioned to herself that the fourth child of the Mu family is not outstanding, but there is no major problem. In addition, family marriages are common, and it is not about the other party's talents, so I don't feel anything wrong for the time being.

Why is my niece so resistant?

Seeing that she was stubborn and silent, she said again: "Do you think the fourth child of the Mu family is bad?" Or ......" paused, unconsciously believing her dream, "In the dream, I dreamed that there was something wrong with the Mu family. ”

Feng Yuan's words gave Feng Luan a wake-up call.

Yes, you can lie and say that there is something wrong with Mu Siye in his dream.

But it's good, it's not good to slander people with red lips and white teeth.

Feng Luan knew in his heart that the words of the eldest uncle were very important in the Feng family, and no one would dare to refute the matter he had decided, and no one would be able to refute it. This is a major event that will affect your life! Therefore, he temporarily suppressed the mystery of his life experience, quickly sorted out his thoughts, and replied: "It's not that he is bad, but ......, he already has someone he likes." ”

In his previous life, Mu Siye and his wife gave birth to a total of three boys and three girls, and the relationship was very good-

Isn't that slandering him?

"You dreamed of this?" Feng Yuan originally believed in her because of Fan Jinliang's death, as well as the succession of the Fan family, Chengjue and other things, but this reason, as soon as she heard it, it was most likely that she was lying. couldn't help but sink his face, "What do you like or dislike?" How can you say this from a daughter who has not yet left the cabinet? Also, I don't think it's your dream, it's more like you made it up. ”

"Really, really." Feng Luan hurriedly said: "Fourth Brother Mu and his wife gave birth to a total of three boys and three girls. ”

Feng Yuan not only smiled dumbly.

Having more children does not mean that the relationship between husband and wife is good.

He and his wife gave birth to a total of four boys and one girl, not because they love her much, but because she is a wife, and all the children born are grandchildren, which is more conducive to maintaining family stability.

So he couldn't help but smile and said with a straight face: "Okay, even if your dream is true, it is not enough to explain the problem." At most, the marriage between the fourth child of the Mu family and his daughter-in-law was smooth. After a pause, "On the contrary, it can be seen that he is a person who respects his wife, even if you marry him, you can still have three boys and three girls." ”

How did you get yourself in? Feng Luan was anxious, "Uncle, it's not like that. ”