Text/Yi Xiaoshu

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It is said that in every class, there will be a fat man, a thin man, a sissy, a thug who doesn't like to read, a man with glasses who reads to death, a tall and handsome sports student, a girl with poor grades who loves to dress up, eat snacks, love to be beautiful and proud, and a girl with good grades who loves to make small reports with the teacher and is always the first to raise her hand to answer the questions...... There is also a little person who is ignored, forgotten, disliked, and humble as dust. Her name is Xiaomei.

Xiaomei was my elementary school classmate, but she was not beautiful, and she was even a little ugly. With yellowish hair, small eyes, thin lips, he looks a little stubborn, and the most dazzling thing on his body is the patches on his sleeves.

Our small town has always had the vice of disliking the poor and loving the rich, because of this patch, everyone refuses to be friends with her, and she always walks alone at the end of the queue home from school. Later, it was rumored that she had had hepatitis, and everyone lacked a correct understanding of the disease, so they stayed away from her.

The child doesn't know how to care about the feelings of others, everyone ridicules and ridicules her seems to have become a trend, and they directly call her with "hepatitis" instead of her name, she doesn't care, and the naughty little boy rushes over and kicks her, she looks back at him viciously, and doesn't fight back. The teacher also seemed to dislike her, so it became a recognized right thing to do.

One day at noon, a boy in the class rushed into the classroom and shouted, "Come and see the mother of "hepatitis" selling peaches at the school gate! Xiaomei sat in the last row, lowered her head and read a book, as if she hadn't heard it, the whole class was boiling, and the naughty boy slapped her table and said, "Will you get hepatitis if you eat the peaches that your mother sells?"

She kept her mouth shut down, her hands over her ears, and her hair hanging down, so she couldn't see if she was crying. There were more and more people around her, and everyone seemed to take the opportunity to provoke her, and she finally broke out, stood up violently, grabbed the hair of the boy closest to her, and pressed it on the table, and broke his head.

The last to be punished was Xiaomei. The boy's father seems to have become a petty official, making trouble at school every day, and in the end, Xiaomei's family lost a sum of money. Her mom was on her knees in front of the teacher's office in exchange for her staying in our school.

I remember that from that day on, her mother never sold peaches at the school gate again. After that, everyone seemed to be a lot quieter, and they didn't dare to mess with her, and occasionally talked about her in private, no longer saying "hepatitis", but saying, that neuropathy, tsk. I knew that people were becoming more disgusted with her and afraid of her, so I tried not to provoke her.

One day after school, I walked home and ran into her renting comics at a bookstore. She was a little shocked to see me, but didn't leave immediately, perhaps because I had never abused her. I saw the cartoon in her hand and asked, "Do you like Daughter of the Nile?"

She smiled relaxed and said, yes.

I think I should be the first person in the class to talk to her like that. I asked, do you like Izmi or Memphis?

She smiled again and said shyly, "I like Memphis, Izmi is too much like a girl."

That day, we walked together for a short distance and kept talking about comics.

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The next day of class, I was cowardly, like I had done something wrong. Walking into the classroom, Xiaomei saw me, frowned, and wanted to talk to me, but I immediately pretended not to see it, and passed by her with the same disgust as them. Out of the corner of his eye, he caught a glimpse of her disappointed expression.

When she came home from school, she walked behind many people as usual. During that time, it became popular to play with water guns, I don't know who was the first to shoot water on Xiaomei with a water gun, there was applause from the crowd, Xiaomei was silent, and wanted to dodge. Immediately, the second and third began to shoot Xiaomei with water guns, she was hiding in Tibet, and she was still wet, and I also held water guns and hesitated to participate in everyone.

A few good friends looked at me and coaxed me and said, you can't be a crush, then go and kiss her. I was in a hurry, pointed a water gun at her, and said loudly, sue you, she still likes Memphis, it's shameless! A burst of laughter. I became one of them in an instant.

That's the thing I regret most in my life.

I saw that she was finally crying, with wet hair and a shabby school bag, and she was crying loudly as she walked, and she didn't get angry like last time. I heard her cry in despair, like a knife cut in my heart. There were also people who followed behind and continued to shoot her with water, and I pulled him and said, forget it.

From the next day, she didn't look at me again, I felt guilty, but I didn't dare to come out of the class, and several times I went home and followed her, trying to talk to her, but she was alert and left quickly. Until a few days before the primary school graduation exam, I quietly handed her a classmate directory and asked her to leave a message for me.

This move is already a big shame in the world, but I think I'm about to graduate, and I don't want to leave regrets in my heart. She took it in silence and returned it to me after about two classes, with only the word "thank you" written on it.

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After graduating, I went to key junior high school, her whereabouts were unknown, and I tried to ask for her home phone number, but she had no friends, so no one knew.

After a few years, I heard from my classmates that Xiaomei stopped studying and joined a song and dance troupe, specializing in singing red and white ceremonies. There are many such song and dance troupes in my hometown, not the kind of regular group, there is no basic salary, I get dozens of yuan for singing, I have to sing from morning to night for each performance, and I have to help move the musical instrument after singing, and then sleep in the truck, and the driver drives to another place overnight, sets up the instrument, and continues to sing.

My classmate knew Xiaomei's relatives, so there was always news about her, so I started to contact this classmate frequently, wanting to get more about Xiaomei's recent situation.

The classmate said, Xiaomei, I didn't expect her to sing, now that she has grown, it's not so ugly, but it's open, the song and dance troupe went to the countryside to sing for the local boss, and when she was happy, she took off her clothes, it's funny, do you dare to imagine what "hepatitis" looks like when she takes off her clothes? My classmates laughed on the phone, and I was sad.

When I was in my third year of junior high school, I came up with the idea of going out to see her and sued my classmates. The classmate said, you are stupid, what are you doing with her? Bad luck. After being pestered by me, she finally sued me, and she sang Bai Xi at the financial school for three consecutive days.

I walked for a long, long time to get to the school, and I heard the sound of the orchestra from a long distance, and it was very noisy, and a female voice was singing a gaudy pop song. I hid in the doorway and looked in, and I really saw her. After singing, she drank and ate meat on the side, and smoked skillfully.

I didn't dare to call her, and I stumbled out of the crowd with a sense of comfort. I think this is a better life for Xiaomei, no one insults her, no one excludes her, she has her own group of friends, and she can still make money with her hands, isn't it great? I only blamed myself for being too cowardly to go in and apologize to her personally.

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When I was a sophomore in high school, I once rode with my classmates through an antique city, which was the red light district of our hometown and a gathering place for hair salons.

The road was narrow, and I almost hit the woman in front of me, so I jumped out of the car, but I rubbed her leg. I looked up and saw a woman with a big mouth, a pearl necklace, and permed hair, very familiar.

She was about to start scolding, when she suddenly stopped and said, it's you.

It turned out to be Xiaomei.

I said, long time no see, you work here?

She smiled embarrassedly and said, yes, learn to cut your hair and earn a little money, unlike you, hehe, study and go to college, and make a lot of money in the future.

This time it was my turn to be embarrassed, I blushed and said, you are busy first, I have to go home for dinner. So I got into the car in a panic and left. Every time I pass by the antique city, I will point at the smiling women with my thighs with my classmates, and I feel as if they are in another world, but I didn't expect to be so close to us, and the girl I have always apologized for is one of them. I suddenly remembered that I didn't tell her "I'm sorry" last time because I was in a hurry.

After the college entrance examination, the junior high school reunion, met the classmate who was familiar with Xiaomei's relatives, speaking of Xiaomei, the classmate looked disdainful, the "hepatitis", it was a money-losing goods, when I went to be a young lady, I met a poor rural repeat student, the two lived together, "hepatitis" did business every day to make money to raise that little white face, laundry and cooking, and also made up the travel expenses and tuition fees for college, as a result, the little white face changed his mobile phone as soon as he left, and it was also fake to check the school, he was admitted to another school, and he couldn't find anyone at all.

I asked, what about her?

The classmate said that if she didn't continue to be a young lady later, it would be difficult to be angry and try to get into college. Then he said that Xiaomei later became extremely irritable, often quarreled with people and worked hard, caused several things in the antique city, changed a few hair salons, and didn't stay long, anyway, it was quite miserable, think about it at that time, we bullied her, and I regretted it a little. The classmate said to himself and asked me, what do you think? It seems that you rarely scolded her back then. I'm a little distracted.

I made up my mind to go to her, but I didn't dare to tell anyone, after all, it was still a shame to go to a young lady, but I knew that if I didn't say "I'm sorry" to her in person, I might not feel at ease for the rest of my life.

I rode to the antique city and remember it was a hot day, with the air-conditioned chassis outside the salon roaring and the noise in my ears. I went around all afternoon and didn't find Xiaomei, and even shouted her name at the intersection, I thought I must find her before leaving my hometown to study, and say "I'm sorry" many years late.

But I didn't find her. I think God arranged it this way on purpose, keeping this thorn in my heart and not letting the wound heal.

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When I came home in my junior year, I heard that Xiaomei married in Jiangxi, I don't know how her husband's family is, I don't know if she is happy and healthy, but it is certain that she is no longer a young lady.

I was very happy to hear the news, the girl I had always been ashamed to face, she had a family of her own. Although I didn't see her again, I believe that she has a husband who loves her and will give birth to a mischievous son, and I hope she will live better than all of us, and I will always bless her.

This is a scar in my heart, and to this day, I owe her a "I'm sorry". I thought, if I had pulled her back then and waited warmly, would she have been much better? At least I will love the world more and be more confident. Fortunately, she did not have a sad ending, and I hope that God will give her back all the happiness that he was stingy with her. I just want to say, if you are wrong, say sorry, and don't leave regrets for others and your own life.