Zhang Shaoguang came to me the day before marrying Chu Rui and asked me not to hate her.

What do I hate about her? At this time, I was unmarried, she was unmarried, and the two of them didn't even have a covenant, so they were really nothing by virtue of those former tacit and heart-to-heart acquaintances.

We are all too calm people, and after weighing the pros and cons against each other, we have all come to the conclusion that it is meaningless to hate this feeling.

That's probably why we didn't end up together.

But inevitably, I became depressed.

I don't know if there really is anyone in this world who can be fearless of other people's eyes, but I know that I am far from there.

Sympathy, regret, and atmosphere ...... others All kinds of expressions made me more and more irritable. And everyone's desire to talk stopped, and my mother's worried look made it impossible for me to maintain a relaxed and happy mood.

But life still has to pass, and you can't really bury your head in your crotch to meet people.

When you are in a bad mood, you have to show "I'm fine" to face others, even in order not to irritate everyone (Uncle Chu, Chu Rui, Zhang Shaoguang, my mother...... It's too much), I even scolded a few words of "Chu Rui lacks morality", I have to find a place that must not be seen and heard.

That's what makes me sad.

Soon, my dad will be leading the army again.

In recent years, his prestige in the army has reached an extremely high level, and some Hu people do not know who the leader of the Chu army is, but they all know the prestige of "General Li".

Now, he is going to conquer the most important transportation point, and if he returns from this victory, at least we will not have to worry about food and grass for a few years.

For such an important war, Uncle Chu didn't worry about others leading troops to the battle, so my father went.

As his name suggests, Dad is strong, resolute, and immovable like a mountain, and has become the most important cornerstone of the Chu army.

Before leaving, my father talked to me. I loved to sit on the roof, because I could only see people's heads and hearts on the roof, and I didn't have to think about their faces to me.

I know my mother is worried about me, she is such a person. I never say it in my mouth, and I don't know how to express it in my behavior, but my heart is entangled, and then I ......

Just mess with my dad.

So my father came, bringing with him liquor and all sorts of good words of persuasion.

"You didn't lose to Chu Rui, but to power. There's nothing to be ashamed of. When you and I married your mother, we were also moved by wealth. How can there be so many singing and crying feelings of admiration in the world, which are all scripts that deceive the little girl in the boudoir. I watched my son frowning and drinking Fenjiu one by one, "Even if you are a girl from a country family, you have to consider whether the married Lang Jun is self-motivated, and there are several acres of land at home." ”

"I'm not willing to ......"

"If you are not reconciled, marry a wife who is more beautiful and intelligent than her. Love her wholeheartedly, maintain her, spoil her as the happiest lady in the world, and let those who didn't choose you regret dying. ”

"Daddy."

"Huh?"

"Have you ever been abandoned by other girls before, and then you found your mother?"

"Get out!"

You see, my father is like this, the truth is buried in his heart, and when he says it, he is shocking, but he has not experienced it himself.

My father is not good-looking, and his temperament is taciturn, for so many years, there are few rotten peach blossoms, and he said this, which is really not convincing.

It's not a bad idea to hear about it, though.

The premise is that I have to find that girl first.

After my father left, in order to ensure that his army's grain and grass would be worry-free, I asked Uncle Chu for orders to supervise the supply of grain and grass for the Tongzhou army. Maybe it's because Chu Rui married Zhang Shaoguang, everyone is cautious of me, Uncle Chu was very happy to hear that I took the initiative to ask for an official, and easily let me take care of logistics.

Money and grain officials have always been disdainful of the children of the world, but many people from the countryside like my father don't even know words, let alone count. I heard that the clan in Jiangnan is good at calculating and can operate, but unfortunately most of the people brought by Uncle Chu are from Guanzhong, even if they are invited, I am afraid that they will not be able to ask the clan over there for help.

The arrogance of the Jiangnan clan is not manifested in behavior, but engraved in the bones.

When you have fully demonstrated an overwhelming victory, these noble families in a remote corner will submit to you.

Hey, it's as if we, who are not noble, civilized, and have no "backbone", deserve to fight the world, and then beg them to lick our heels.

What a mentality!

Lick some early and lick it, but when it's late, I'm afraid that the people next to my feet are crowded.

Fortunately, Zhang Tingyan in Yanzhou took refuge with the children of the Zhang family, and these children of the Zhang family are willing to be some petty officials and officials, even if they are in a position like a grain supervisor and a calculator, they don't feel humiliated. They are literate and proficient in arithmetic, which really solves Uncle Chu's urgent needs, and also allows many young people to enter various key but inconspicuous positions.

These young people are energetic and energetic, and they have injected a new vitality into the army.

I admire this Mr. Zhang very much, in the Chu army, which already has a foothold in the family and Uncle Chu's fellow villagers, as a latecomer, if you want to gain a firm position by Uncle Chu's side, you must show the skills that Uncle Chu must use.

Strategy? Who else can be worthy of my teacher Zhang Yun? Fight? My dad is invincible. Give money and food? The Chu family sits on Jin and Jing, what can Zhang Tingyan provide? Yanzhou doesn't produce grain!

So he made the right choice.

He asked the whole clan to put □ stage, and all started from the lowest. Although the location is inconspicuous, it is full of real shortcomings, and it is also the place where the ability is tested the most.

That's how Zhang Jing and I met.

The first time I saw 'him', I inexplicably developed a liking for him. Then I can't say what this favor is for. No matter where he was, whether he was in the crowd or not, my eyes were the first to look at him.

I have wondered countless times if I have been struck by the eyes of others and have broken my sleeves. But it turns out that I still have the urge to look at women's bodies, but I don't feel it at all when I look at men.

Excluding the reason of "I am a broken sleeve", I started to make friends with Zhang Jing without any worries.

He has a jade-like temperament, is gentle and elegant, has a good background, and speaks well.

Such a young man from a family is no different from Chu Rui and Zhang Nuo, the only difference is that he looks a little feminine, and he loves to laugh very much, his eyebrows are extremely clear when he laughs, and the whole person is in a better mood when he sees it.

Zhang Jing is the clerk of the baggage battalion, and even I can't sigh at the good handwriting. Every time I get the booklet that he counts, the first thing I look at is not the numbers, but his words.

Such words cannot be practiced without more than ten years of hard work.

I knew him well with each other, and then I knew each other.

He was a good friend, a talkative, kind-hearted, and extremely cheerful.

I've never seen anyone who can laugh for a long time even if a flower blooms on the side of the road.

"The world is so hard, why don't you laugh when you see something that makes you happy? If you don't laugh now, you won't know if you can laugh again. ”

His answer surprised me a little.

Because no matter which way you look at it, Zhang Jing is a cheerful and optimistic person, but his answer is so pessimistic that it makes people feel like they are dying.

However, everyone's personality is different, and everyone's personality is not simply described by words like "optimistic" or "enthusiastic".

Perhaps, it was Zhang Jing's complexity that attracted me.

One day, there was a problem with the baggage, and the amount of grain and grass out of the warehouse did not match the amount received by the recipients, so they insisted on their own words and ran to Zhang Jing, the clerk who recorded the quantity, to make noise. Zhang Jing confirmed that the number of shipments was correct, so everyone scuffled in the tent, Zhang Jing was injured by mistake, and fainted with a blow in the ribs.

Zhang Jing was sent to the military doctor's tent for treatment, but the military doctor came to me in a panic and told me that Zhang Jing was a woman.

At that moment, I finally knew where the sense of disobedience that I had always felt weird came from.

He never came into close contact with us.

He always pauses before he speaks.

He had a few days off every month because of an "old illness".

Zhang Jing is a woman.

It sounds unbelievable, but I'm not surprised.

I was even faintly happy.

I told the medic to keep it a secret and not to mention it to anyone. But I know that Uncle Chu will definitely know, because the military doctor can hide it from everyone, but he doesn't dare to hide it from Uncle Chu.

But for the sake of the Zhang family's reputation and ability, Uncle Chu must have chosen not to make a noise.

After this incident, Zhang Jing still stayed in the barracks, but was transferred to my side as an adjutant.

I don't know if this is what Uncle Chu means by asking me to help her cover up, or if Uncle Chu is deliberately trying to match me and her.

Either way, I'm destined to not be able to leave this woman.

Since I admire Zhang Jing, Zhang Jing does not reject this kind of appointment, and I think he has a good impression of me, in this case, why can't I try it?

Let's see if she's the woman my dad told me about?

After Zhang Jing's identity was completely exposed, I gradually touched her true nature. Just as I used my calm and introverted side to cover up my inner madness and extremism, she is also a woman who disguises her shocking side with a cheerful and optimistic appearance.

She was the most bizarre woman I had ever come into contact with.

Among the women I have come into contact with, Zhang Shaoguang is naturally the most special. Her "perfection" is the ultimate that a family can cultivate, and she was almost born to ascend to a high position. But even so, she never felt that women could be the same as men, or surpass men.

She chose Chu Rui and chose that kind of life, and that's why she chose that.

But Zhang Jing really thinks that men and women are the same, and there is no difference.

She had a lot of thoughts that people couldn't understand.

She thinks that women are not necessarily worse than men as officials, and she thinks that the biggest problem for children from poor families is not whether they can climb to a high position, but whether they can maintain their hearts after climbing and not be trapped by greed and luxury; She felt that the Hu people were greatly superior to the Han people in some aspects, and that the Han people should accept rather than reject them, she felt......

I'm actually a crazy person in my bones, but I also inherited the steady side of the Li family, so I can't show it on weekdays.

If the previous Zhang Jing only attracted me, then the current Zhang Jing completely made me unable to take my eyes off.

I love this kind of woman with such a whimsical idea, and I am deeply fascinated by her.

My dad came back victorious, and I told him that I had a woman I wanted to marry, and I wanted him to propose.

My father went to Zhang's house, thinking that he should have wanted to meet Zhang Jing. He is such a person who does not act according to common sense, how can there be any Lao Tzu in this world who hears that his son wants to marry a wife, and simply kills someone else's house to see his future daughter-in-law?

And that's what he did.

When I came back, my dad said he was very satisfied. In fact, if Zhang Jing wants someone to like her, it is difficult for you not to have a good impression of her.

Our marriage was soon decided, and on the day we got married, Uncle Chu brought Chu Rui to congratulate, and my father received the jaw-dropping gift, and since then the two families have been back to normal, at least on the surface.

Zhang Jing is very warm to people, and she is just right. My mother is a cold person, but she also likes this kind of laughing and enthusiastic person. What's more, Zhang Jing is still very capable, and my adjutant can do a good job, let alone manage a house.

My mother's biggest headache was solved so easily, everyone was happy, and I also made steady progress because the Chu and Li families recovered as before, and went directly into Uncle Chu's internal account and began to assist in military affairs and internal affairs.

I think it's really good to have a wife, Zhang Jing is both a beautiful interpreter and a capable wife, and she can also take care of my mother and younger brother.

Those years were the most proud time of my life, young and ambitious, like beautiful flowers, harmonious family, and my father's position was stable and deeply trusted......

As long as I capture Luoyang again, most of my dream will be completed.

The Hu people who slaughtered us, the Hu people who killed my sister and my relatives and friends, will eventually be completely driven out by our Han people.

The Hu people guarded Luoyang for two years, and the food in it was enough for them to eat for more than ten years, and the Han people in the city were driven to the city as cannon fodder to defend the city, but we couldn't afford to consume it at all.

The royal family of the previous dynasty was moving around, the Shi clan in Jiangnan was uncertain, the contradiction between the Shi clan and the Shu clan in the Chu army was getting bigger and bigger, the grain and grass were tight, and too many soldiers were consumed......

All the odds were against us, and the sudden plague made us even worse.

My little brother died. He was so thin and well-behaved, but he died of the epidemic.

My father had almost lost us for leaving us in the village, and since then, he has had to take my mother and my brother with him to be at ease.

His prudence and self-confidence have become an eternal pain in his heart.

When the plague broke out and there was a serious shortage of personnel, the military doctor demanded that all the corpses be gathered together and burned thoroughly, and that those that had been buried before should also be dug up and burned.

The soldiers who dug up the bodies were also infected, and no one dared to touch them since.

Because of this, I thought of a way to quickly capture Luoyang.

A method that will stink for thousands of years.

Sure enough, my father strongly opposed throwing the sick into the city, but my teachers Zhang Yun and Uncle Chu both expressed their support in a low-key manner.

My father objected because he was worried about my reputation and the people of the city. He is an idealistic man who always wants to have the best of both worlds. He's my father, and he's always worried about me a little more.

But not everything in this world can be the best of both worlds.

Luoyang City is so strong that it is basically impossible to capture it from the outside with the same number of defenders. We have not been able to attack for a long time, we have long been sleepy and lacking horses, the morale of the army is unstable, and the casualties are very large.

The Race is a double-edged sword, and when you act like you can't win, it will turn to your head and cut down.

My father is a general, if he has no soldiers to send and no food to spare, what will he have left? The clan can still return to the land of the county, where can our Li family go?

Exile like a lost dog?

My dad doesn't understand, or doesn't want to understand, that even if I don't do it, someone else will do it. But Uncle Chu and Chu Rui will never leave such a notoriety, so someone must carry it.

Whoever bears this notoriety will go to the most conspicuous position.

The city of Wang is broken, and the great Chu is established.

My father patted his ass very simply and handed over the military power, and was ready to go back to his hometown to farm with my mother. People all over the world think that my father may be retreating, but Uncle Chu and we all know that my father is serious.

As a result, my father's earnestness was exchanged for the title of "Xinguo Gong", and I also became the heir, all the way to the center of power.

Even Zhang Jing turned out to be sent by His Majesty, I don't care.

I have lived with the person next to me for so long, if I can't tell whether it is true or false, then I have lived in vain for so many years. What's more, our family has never thought of rebellion, so what is there to be afraid of.

I live openly, without fear of any temptation.

I watched Da Chu recuperate and rejuvenate, and I watched my father and His Majesty get along with each other, day and night, and my heart gained a long-lost peace.

I was expecting a day like this.

But nothing is perfect in this world. The royal descendants of the Yin Dynasty made frequent moves, and His Majesty ordered me to investigate this matter thoroughly, and I checked and checked, but I found my wife's head.

……

What can I do?

Righteous annihilation?

I can't.

I concealed this result, but I can't hide Zhang Jing's background forever.

There is no impermeable wall in this world, unless you don't make a wall, but a stone. This is what my father once told me, and I have always believed in it.

Now, I can't find a way to keep my wife and children after the incident.

The remnants of the previous dynasty, rebelled, had no data points in Beijing, and secretly befriended the heroes of the Great Chu......

Any one of them is a heinous sin.

So, when that arrow came at His Majesty, I took a step forward.

There's no going back.

The author has something to say: the next one is Zhang Ying and Gu Qing.