Why bother to inflict the mistakes of others on yourself?
Qiao Jinglian was stunned.
He didn't expect Zijin to suddenly ask about his father.
What kind of person is Qiao Shiyun?
No matter how much resentment he has against Qiao Shiyun, but it is father and son, and the relationship between him and Qiao Shiyun, and the relationship between Gu Yanshen and Qiao Shiyun, are completely two extremes.
For him Qiao Jinglian, Qiao Shiyun is a real father.
- He grew up beside Qiao Shiyun since he was a child, except for 5 years ago, when he let himself marry a wife he didn't like, in his 20 years of life, he did not have any malicious resistance to Qiao Shiyun.
Some feelings, except for blood, are accumulated over time, even if it is a person like Qiao Jingting, she is not Qiao Shiyun's biological daughter at all, but maybe in Qiao Shiyun's heart, he also has feelings for this "daughter", so sometimes in order to hide his secrets, people who are crazy do not treat Qiao Jingting very hard.
For Qiao Shiyun, it's all like this, let alone Qiao Jinglian?
He is not a cold-blooded and vicious person, on the contrary, his heart is actually quite soft, and at this moment he suddenly heard Zijin speak, in such an inexplicable tone, asking his father, what kind of person is he, he is difficult to answer at the same time, of course, there is an accident.
“…… Why do you suddenly ask about this? Old man...... What's wrong with him? ”
Qiao Jinglian really couldn't understand it for a while, because 5 years ago, it was Qiao Shiyun who had to marry this woman to herself and be Qiao Shao's grandmother, and in the past 5 years, he has seen with his own eyes that the old man's various care for her, sometimes Qiao Jingting will be jealous and jealous because of this, of course he sees it in his eyes, how good is the old man to her?
Together with Qiao's shares, he was given 5%, which is what many people dream of, you must know that Qiao Jingting has been the daughter of the Qiao family for more than 20 years, but she didn't get anything, but she Shen Zijin ......
Qiao Jinglian couldn't understand why Zijin would ask this question at this time, but he was not stupid, the same shrewd man, and quickly thought of another layer of questions-
It's because the old man is good to her, and the old man never agrees to divorce her, so ...... Is this child she doesn't have something to do with the old man?
Qiao Jinglian was taken aback by his own thoughts, but he knew very well in his heart that if this was really the case, there seemed to be nothing strange about it.
All this seems to be unexpected by himself, and it seems to be expected.
How do you describe a person like an old man? In Qiao Jinglian's mind, an adjective quickly came to mind - to save face.
Even if he wasn't a self-respecting person, he would never allow such a thing to happen right under his nose. To put it bluntly, Qiao Jinglian now thinks self-righteously that she knows very well in her heart that the old man does not agree to the divorce, and the reason is that he single-handedly facilitated this marriage, but now Zijin has gone to everything with his eldest son, which is of course a humiliation for him.
Not to mention, in the future, the people of the entire C City will know how they will view the Qiao family.
However, if it was really just because of this, the child in Zijin's womb died alive, Qiao Jinglian felt that she couldn't forgive such an act just thinking about it.
In fact, people are flesh and blood, resentment, unwillingness, these emotions can occasionally override people's reason, but they can't control people's reason.
That child, after all, is still innocent, a life.
“…… Jinglian, I have always felt that the entire Qiao family, all the people are aimed at me and can't get used to me, but only your father, he is the best for me, he thinks about me everywhere, can help me think about everything, provide me with school, provide me with food and clothing, and let my father live in the best private hospital and receive the best treatment, I thought at that time, he is really a peerless good person, in this world, there will never be a better person than him. ”
Zijin's whole person was still curled up on the eaves of the window, and when she spoke, her soft but pale cheeks had been hidden between her legs, so her voice sounded very weak, but Qiao Jinglian heard it clearly, she said it very slowly, maybe she wanted every word she said to be exceptionally clear when it reached other people's ears-
"I really always think so, I respect him very much, I admit that before I met Gu Yanshen, I thought, I just live like this for the rest of my life, it doesn't matter if I don't be treated by you, just walk towards the path your father expected, because I married you 5 years ago, it is equivalent to living for my father, what will happen in the future, what's the difference? But God still gave me another way, so that I learned a lot in the process of stumbling forward, strong, responsible, and understood what I wanted most, I worked hard to catch it, and when I went to catch it, I saw too many things that I couldn't even think of. I know that the truth is cruel, so during this time, I kept running away until my baby was gone......"
Qiao Jinglian pursed her thin lips, and her breathing became a little slight, he didn't make a sound, and he didn't know what Lu Dao should say, he knew that Lu Dao Zijin wanted to say such a thing to herself, but it wasn't for any other purpose, maybe she was just subconsciously trusting herself, or, there were some words, she couldn't say it to Gu Yanshen, but chose to say it to herself.
But whatever the purpose, he didn't want to interrupt, he was willing to listen.
The room was extraordinarily quiet, the two of them had been tied together for 5 years in the name of husband and wife, but it was the first time for them to sit down so quietly, and this invincible young master Kuo was now listening to himself so quietly, this kind of change made Zijin instinctively, and let go of some of them, that period in the elevator, the darkest past, has always been the key to tormenting her, she couldn't open her mouth, I don't know what Lu Dao is for, facing Qiao Jinglian, she can really say it-
“…… I was really scared when I was locked up in the elevator, but what scared me the most was not the claustrophobic space, but the ...... I was in the elevator and got a call from your father......"
When Zijin said this, she paused, she took a deep breath, trying very hard to control her emotions, but the darkness came from the surface, and the deep fear almost overturned her, she was still afraid, and her voice trembled a little, "...... He said that he already knew that I was pregnant, he said that he was disappointed in me, he said that he would not allow me to give birth to this child, he called my baby a sinister seed, he did not give me a chance to speak, he said a lot of words to me, but every word was like a sharp knife, piercing my heart, I was very scared, there was a feeling that the sky was not working, the earth should not be, I couldn't refute a word, just listened to him keep buzzing in my ear, I ......"
"Zijin, Zijin, calm down! You speak slowly, I'll be with you, Zijin-"
Qiao Jinglian saw that Zijin was very wrong, after she said the most, the whole person twitched, he never knew that his father would be so ruthless, it was impossible for her to deceive herself at this time, so everything she said was true, in that environment, the words that the old man said to her were undoubtedly too hard.
He leaned forward and reached out to hug her, but his hands paused in mid-air before finally falling.
Zijin didn't push him away unexpectedly, no one knew that in her mind now, when she was in the elevator, the dark scene, and Qiao Shiyun's voice in her ears, the word "evil seed", as long as she thought about it once, she felt that her throat and eyes seemed to have something sharp, which was particularly uncomfortable.
She needs warmth, but the warmth she can feel now is not what she has always been familiar with and relied on, this is not Gu Yanshen, Zijin twisted his eyebrows, although he did not push Qiao Jinglian away, he still shrunk his body.
Qiao Jinglian could feel her silent resistance, but he didn't let go, such a soft body, he held it in his arms, he shamefully felt that it was too extravagant, and he always refused to let go, he tightened the strength of his arms, and comforted her softly: "...... I didn't know that such a thing happened in Ludao, Zijin, I'm sorry, I'm sorry...... If I had been willing to let go of you earlier, maybe I wouldn't have come to this point. ”
Zijin shook her head, she wanted to say no, in fact, she really didn't blame Qiao Jinglian for anything, she knew the Tao very clearly in her heart, there were some things, she didn't know the way, Qiao Jinglian didn't know the way, she couldn't fall asleep these days, it was because she was afraid, afraid that as soon as she closed her eyes, she would see the dark enclosed space, that feeling that life was worse than death, made her very painful, and what made her even more painful and made her slump was deep self-blame.
She seems to have finally understood Qiao Shiyun's personality, so she couldn't accept her careless behavior at the beginning.
If at that time, she could listen to Gu Yanshen's words and leave the car in such a hurry when she couldn't contact him, maybe nothing would happen. And when she thought of her father again, and thought of what Zhou Su had said to herself, she felt even more frightened.
What kind of man has she been listening to in the past 5 years?
Did she kill her own children with her own hands, and caused her father to be locked up in such a place, suffering boundless pain?
…………
This kind of voice kept echoing in her mind, so that she had no way to cheer up at all, even if she told herself countless times that the world was so big, and she was so small, in fact, no matter how big the setbacks and difficulties were, as long as she breathed, they would become insignificant.
Yes, the child will have, but who knows that she is not really so haggard and vulnerable because of a child. She was really too scared, and if the truth was what she thought, she didn't know what position she could position herself in.
She was very scared, and she didn't dare to say this to Gu Yanshen if she was so scared.
“…… Zijin, there are a lot of things I don't know very well, I actually always feel very unfair, 5 years ago, I didn't like you, but the old man was tough to stuff you to me, 5 years later, I think you are actually very good, I want to get along with you, but suddenly there is a Gu Yanshen. Can you understand that feeling? I feel like a monkey who has only been played with by fate, how can a proud person like me accept this? So I have always refused to let go of you, until I knew that you were pregnant, I finally suddenly woke up, I can't continue to delay you like this anymore, you and Gu Yanshen are together, for me, it is indeed a kind of irony, but in the end, isn't it because I didn't cherish you? I told myself that being a human being always has to look forward, even if sometimes I don't want to admit that I am just a pawn played by fate, I have to admit that being a chess piece can also be divided into good and bad. You're right? ”
Zijin didn't move, she seemed to be listening very quietly, Qiao Jinglian continued: "...... Many times, many things, we are out of our control, I know that you must be very uncomfortable, very self-blaming, you will feel that the child is in your own body, you, as a mother, but you have not been able to protect it. But Zijin, if we can really do everything, then we are not human. Can you understand what I'm saying? You must be strong, if you torture yourself like this, in fact, it is nothing more than - the enemy is fast, and the relatives are painful. Let me tell you one more thing, you had a relationship with Gu Yanshen in the UK. Night. When I knew the Tao, I was shocked and angry, I was real, I even wanted to kill someone, but I went to Gu Yanshen, but he told me that this matter was just an oolong, and the initiator of this thing was Xie Lingxi. ”
“…………”
"At that time, I really felt that life was too ridiculous, the woman I had always held in the palm of my hand, I never knew her true face, I had been with her for so many years, I didn't know what to do, it turned out that she was a very scheming woman. I felt like I deserved it, and I deserved nothing. But now I think, who said that every person we have experienced in our lives, every period of the past, is not a representative of maturity? At least I later saw her as a person, and at least I understand now that I shouldn't just look at the surface when looking at people. Zijin, we can't impose other people's faults on ourselves, we have to learn to bear it. Actually, I don't know how I can say such things to you, but they are all my sincere words, and if you can understand it, you will definitely understand what I want to say to you, what it is. ”
“…………”
Zijin's throat was sour, she seemed to really understand, and just wanted to say something, the door of the ward was suddenly pushed open from the outside, and there was a steady footstep coming, accompanied by a familiar male voice, just said, "...... I know, you go back and rest first, and leave it to me here-"
The last word came to an abrupt end, and then the man roared angrily, "When did you come in?" What are you doing?! ”
Ji Yang stood at the entrance, extremely stunned.
When did Qiao Jinglian come in?
Gu Yanshen's face was already iron-blue, his gloomy eyes stared at Qiao Jinglian's hands holding Zijin, and the whole person exuded a kind of aura that people didn't dare to approach, as if in the next second, he would pounce on him without hesitation.
He slowly raised his head, the light under his eyes was floating with some overly obvious broken ice, gritted his teeth, and said word by word: "Let her go." ”
Qiao Jinglian came in today, he really didn't plan to provoke Gu Yanshen anything, he was willing to take out the divorce agreement, this woman, he really wanted to fulfill it, although such an idea always made him feel that he was too cowardly, but when facing her, he also felt that he was no longer qualified to correct her. Pestering.
However, he is a man after all, and he is also a proud man.
Gu Yanshen's current demeanor made him feel like he was a thief, who stole the treasure that belonged to him without forgiving, Qiao Jinglian thought it was funny, Shen Zijin, then now she is still her own woman, no matter what, she is now wearing the title of Qiao Shao's grandmother, he can't come to see her?
"If you can take care of her, no one else will have a chance!"
Not only did he not let go, his tall body turned to the side, and he blocked Zijin behind him, and fought back in a deep voice, "Gu Yanshen, haven't you always felt that you are very powerful?" But you didn't protect her, why did you let others go? ”
"Qiao Jinglian, this is the hospital, don't force me to do it, I don't want to quarrel with you now, you leave immediately!"
"What if I don't leave?"
Qiao Jinglian didn't know what kind of mentality she had, Gu Yanshen's words always made him have a subconscious that he would not give up, "Or, should I take her away?" ”
"Do you think it's possible?" Gu Yanshen's face was already ugly, but he still cared about Zijin, she was emotionally unstable now, of course he didn't want to put too much pressure on her, he took a deep breath and tried hard to control the speed of his speech, "Are you going to argue with me here?" Affecting her rest? Let's go! ”
Qiao Jinglian nodded, her eyes swept back and forth between Gu Yanshen and Ji Yang, and then pointed at Gu Yanshen and said, "It's okay to let me go, but you come out with me, I have something to say to you." ”
Gu Yanshen was actually more worried about Zijin's situation, he really didn't want to quarrel with Qiao Jinglian, let alone do anything with him, but when he said that he had something to tell him, his mind moved, but he also thought of something, so he simply nodded generously, "You go out first." ”
Qiao Jinglian didn't embarrass anyone anymore, the two of them, in the final analysis, were also for Zijin, no one wanted to affect her mood anymore, he was very cooperative, and when he passed by Gu Yanshen's side, he lowered his voice and said, "I'll wait for you outside." ”
As soon as Qiao Jinglian left, Ji Yang also quickly went out and helped them close the door.
Gu Yanshen took off his coat and threw it on the sofa on the side, he unbuttoned a few shirts, stepped forward, and gently hugged the woman on the window eaves, Zijin moved in his arms, and then reached out, hugged the man's waist tightly, and buried his face in his chest.
Gu Yanshen couldn't remember how many days he hadn't heard her speak, so when she spoke now, he was really in a trance for a moment, and thought it was his own auditory hallucination-
“…… Yan Shen, I'm sorry, I know that you are worried about me, but don't blame Qiao Jinglian, he didn't have any malice, he just came in to see me, and he brought me the divorce agreement. ”
“…………”
Gu Yanshen didn't know whether he should be excited or angry.
She was finally willing to speak, these days, she has been silent, secretly shed tears, he knows that she is sometimes quiet like a ceramic doll, he doesn't dare to disturb her, she refuses to rest, he can only find a way to let her rest, but now, she is sorry to herself, she is really not sorry for herself, he is sorry for her, just like Qiao Jinglian said - if she can't protect her, what right do you have to blame others?
It's just that she is talking to herself now, is it because she is afraid that she will blame Qiao Jinglian?
He put her on the sick*., let her lie down, leaned over and gently dropped a kiss on her forehead, "Baby, you are not sorry for me, don't apologize to me, you don't have to worry, I won't do anything to Qiao Jinglian, he is willing to divorce you, I am very happy, but now, I hope you can take good care of yourself and don't wronged yourself, do you know the truth?" You are willing to talk to me now, this is already too much of a gift for me, I am afraid that you will not be able to get out, as long as you can let go, no matter what, I am willing to listen to you, we can have many, many children in the future, believe me, huh? ”
Zijin's eyes turned red again, in fact, she didn't tell Gu Yanshen what happened to her in the elevator because these days, she has been in a state of self-blame, what she can't let go of is that guilt, she always feels that she is like this because she didn't listen to him, made decisions without authorization, and left the car, but today Qiao Jinglian suddenly came in, making her seem to have found an outlet, there are some things that she can't say to Gu Yanshen, but she can say it to Qiao Jinglian.
And some words, once she said it, she felt that many things were not really difficult to say.
She said it, for so many years, she had never had such a calm conversation with Qiao Jinglian, and she never knew what to do, it turned out that the "husband" who was once not favored by herself was once considered by herself to be just a young master, and it seemed that he had grown up in the middle, and he would even comfort himself......
Yes, why bother to put other people's mistakes on your own shoulders?
She felt as if the stone she had been stuck in her throat had swallowed suddenly.
Zijin stretched out his hand, went around Gu Yanshen's neck, hugged him, and whispered, "...... I believe in you, I believe in you, Hikoshen, whatever you say, I believe you, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'll never be like this again......"
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