She doesn't know who to say these words, or she can't understand what she means, even if she says it, his mother will think she is hypocritical, and there are too many good days, but is it right to play cards and walk the dog all day long?

Wearing gorgeous clothes and brocade all day long, going out for a walk to compare jewelry wealth and status with others, playing a sharp edge and drinking tea This is her life, is it interesting? Or does it make sense?

It's not as interesting as her doing charity, at least she spent money to help people, and the farmer also knows how to send some pickles and eggs to thank her, but can she say this? Others can't live like this for the rest of their lives, can she say she doesn't want to live? Blind overseas Chinese!

She really just wants to do something meaningful, even if she is charitable, she must grasp the degree, she can't go too far, her reputation is too grand, the emperor will not like it, your reputation is better than mine, what do you want to do?

It's always like this, doing one thing is obviously a good thing, but it's just a very simple purpose, but it will always be distorted and misinterpreted by some people with intentions, misunderstood and framed to find faults, etc., and the final result is always sour.

She didn't want to bring danger to her family and children because of her little selfishness, so she had to give up these thoughts, but when she dreamed back at midnight, she would also have a feeling of loneliness, a kind of loneliness that was not understood and could not be spoken.

Men can have ideals and dreams, and they will not hesitate to do everything for them, not only will no one say anything, but they still extend their thumbs to praise a good man and have ambition. For example, Xiao Wu wants to be a general, not only can she not persuade, but also help, the two families train him together, and help with money and efforts.

But who knew that she didn't want Xiao Wu to go to the battlefield, she was afraid that her son would die on the battlefield. But she couldn't say that. Because she didn't want to snuff out her son's dreams.

Why men can have dreams. There is the right to realize dreams, but women can't have them, having dreams is ambition, not willing to be lonely, it's not right, women shouldn't be like this, they should be at home with their husbands and children, why?

Rong Yi saw where she was lying. His eyes were rolling, obviously not asleep, and the breath on his body seemed to be very resentful and sad, he sighed in his heart, walked over and sat on the edge of the soft couch, reached out and hugged her into his arms, and let out a long sigh, "You, you have the wrong baby, you should be a man." What can I do if my heart is so ambitious? He shook his head and chuckled.

Yang Lan shrank in his arms, silently crying.

She wasn't trying to do anything big. I just want to do something meaningful that I like, instead of farting with the official wife all day long and wasting some time, isn't it okay?

"Fools, women are always weak and subject to many restrictions, and I believe that no matter how many years later, it will still be so." Rong Yi said with a light smile.

Yang Lan raised her head and looked at him in surprise, she felt that he was very wise, it was true, women will always be weak for five thousand years, I remember when I was a child, my grandmother and my grandfather quarreled, and always said that women can hold up half the sky, grandpa sneered, shouting slogans can only show that the times have progressed, and men do not need to shout slogans, because the world is originally a patriarchal society.

When have you ever seen a man who also needs to shout something to top half the sky, it seems that there has never been, women have always been weak, even if the later generations have developed a lot, and the times have progressed, but in life and work, there will still be a lot of unfair discrimination against women, which makes people helpless.

Thinking about it like this, Yang Lan's heart calmed down again, and she chuckled, feeling that she was really an overseas Chinese love, to put it bluntly, she was still reluctant to put it mildly, and she felt unwilling.

"I'm fine, I just didn't figure it out for a while, forget it, don't do that, I'm still honest and happy to cook for you at home, why bother with myself." She laughed twice, she was this age, why did she have to compete with herself.

"It's okay, I've seriously considered the matter of the Guangdong Academy, the people there are much more open than in Kyoto, and their minds are more lively, and it is easy to accept foreign things, if you want to do it with us, I can't leave you, you can't leave me alone." Rong Yi smiled softly, carefully and patiently coaxing her.

Yang Lan looked at him, and suddenly found that there were small wrinkles in the corners of his eyes, the high-spirited young man was also getting older, for her for this family, for this surname He paid far more than himself, in a blink of an eye, their husband and wife have been almost twenty years, thinking of these happy times, he seems to have never complained, like an old cow, busy in and out, it should have been done by himself, he was afraid of his own hard work, and he took it all over and helped himself do it a little bit.

The corners of his eyes suddenly became a little wet, and he smiled, "Am I not very bad, I always give you problems, I am not willing to be lonely, I am always very affectionate, I want to think about the restlessness of life, is it very hard for you to marry me?" ”

She earned it, this man has protected and cared for her for almost 20 years, and he has never let her be wronged, let alone shed tears for him, she is really a lucky woman.

Rong Yi hugged her, "Fool, I like you like this, although you are a little bad, but you are different from others, you are always so vibrant, so fresh and bright, I like to see you smile, smile bright and beautiful." Everyone has more or less unwillingness and grievances in their hearts, for example, I also have, I used to want to be a character like Ge Lao, emulating my master, I strictly restrain myself, and never learn the bad habits of literati, but the master still told me, you can't be the prime minister, doomed. It was fake that I was not sad at that time.

Ten years of hard study, that student didn't have such a dream, why can't I, I don't put in half a point less than others, but then the facts tell me that I really can't, I enjoy the resources and wealth that others don't have, and I am destined to pay a price, everything is fair. Because the poor students do not have my wealth and connections, they represent more people and are the power that the emperor needs. Many things are actually the same, and the same is true for your academy, the fundamental reason is that the emperor doesn't want the children of the family to be too big, so many families choose to be silent, not because they don't want to help you, but they can't, but people who have a heart still send their children to you to prove that they believe in you, but everyone has their own fetters and considerations, and there are people and things that need to be protected and chosen by themselves. ”

Yang Lan nodded and hugged his waist, "I know, I won't be stupid anymore, don't worry, I have actually let go of that thing, I will slowly let go of it after a long time, far away, thank you for always supporting me and encouraging me, in fact, you already know that I can't do it for a long time, the emperor has long embarrassed you, but you still let me do it, I am very happy to marry you, really, I am very happy, happier than them, they are jealous of me." She looked up and smiled happily and happily, like a child.

Rong Yi smiled, hugged her and smiled: "Fool, you are my daughter-in-law, I don't protect who protects you." Tired or not? Wake up early in the morning and get some sleep. ”

Yang Lan was indeed a little tired, nodded and lay down on the couch for a while.

The past is in the past, there can be such a person around you to support yourself unconditionally and without reason, in fact, it is not another compensation given by God to yourself, no matter where I am, I will live a good life, try to make myself happy, be a person who will not be too optimistic or too pessimistic, and actively work hard.

When she woke up, Yang Lan's complexion was much better, she seemed to have really let go of those things on her mind, her smile became more and more free and cheerful, as if she had really figured out a lot of things and became happy.

Rong Yi was also a lot more relieved, and his expression softened.

They traveled on the road for almost a month, Yang Lan sometimes had nothing to do on the boat and encountered good scenery, she would pick up a few strokes, and her album had accumulated a lot, Rong Yi was very careful to frame it for her and save it, saying that it must be very interesting to take it out and taste it when they have gray hair.

Sometimes Rong Yi's poetry will give her a poem, which provokes Yang Lan to be envious, improvised poetry or something, but unfortunately she has never learned to compose poetry in her life, she is so depressed, she can't pretend to be tall with others, it's a pity.

Along the way, the two spent time inscribed poems and paintings, and also found a lot of interesting gadgets in the transit station, planning to take them back to play with their grandson.

When they arrived home, it was already the end of the year, and the son and daughter-in-law specially greeted them at the door, with joy and excitement on their faces.

As soon as she got out of the car, she saw her daughter-in-law standing at the door holding her grandson, Yang Lan hurriedly walked a few steps, pulled her hand out of her sleeve warmer, touched her grandson's little hand first, and found that it was not cold, so she put her mind at ease.

"Mother, you're finally back, we've been looking forward to it for a long time, Brother Zhu is calling grandmother." The daughter-in-law hugged her grandson and greeted Yang Lan with his little hand.

Brother Zhu was a little shy, quickly raised his eyes and glanced at Yang Lan, and then called out in a low voice, "Grandmother." "The voice is soft and glutinous, with the children's voice that children have, and it sounds sweet and sweet.

"Hey, my darling. I didn't wash my body and I couldn't hold him, you first hugged it in and don't let the child blow the wind here, come to my yard in a while, let's have a reunion dinner as a family at noon, and unload the goods on the car, there are notes on it, which are my gifts to all families. Yang Lan quickly commanded, she was afraid that the child was standing at the door and the wind was blowing.

"Hey, don't worry, I'll leave this little thing to me." Wang Wan'er happily agreed.

Over there, Rong Yi was also talking to Brother Yu, the father and son hadn't seen each other for a long time, Rong Yi saw that Brother Yu's demeanor was becoming more and more calm, and he was very satisfied, and his eyes couldn't stop looking at his grandson, just because he didn't wash and felt that his body was stained with dust, so it was not good to hug his grandson. (To be continued......)