350. You can't go back to the past
Three days later, Yang Zi returned to Mizhen, and as soon as he came back, he hid in his house for two whole days, without eating or drinking, and no one was seen.
Hearing the knock on the door, Yang Zi got up from the bed, feeling top-heavy because he hadn't eaten well for a few days.
Weakly opening the door, Yang Zi's eyes immediately widened.
She thought that he would be determined not to see her, but at this time, he suddenly appeared.
"You ......" Yang Zi opened his mouth softly, but suddenly stopped, and for a while, he didn't know what to do.
If her imagination is true, then the kite at this moment, can't hear anything she says?
The kite curled the corners of his mouth slightly and smiled comfortingly at Yang Zi.
"I knew that the little girl would never fall."
Yang Zi also wanted to laugh, but tears couldn't help but burst out of his eyes. She won't fall, she won't be easily knocked down by anyone, she just can't accept grandma's accident for a while!
If grandma left normally, although she would be sad, she would not be so unacceptable, but it was an accident!
Seeing that the kite said this, he silently turned away and left. Yang Zi's tears were even more uncontrollable.
She finally understood why he wouldn't pay attention to her! Why every time she meets him, he takes the initiative to speak, but never answers her questions! Why did he never respond to her cries behind him! Why would he rather write to her with ideas than meet her!
It's just, what if you know? She can make herself obligated and tell him, it doesn't matter if you can't hear, let me be your ear?
In the past, she would!
But now, she didn't want to deceive herself.
She felt sorry for him. Sad for him, but knowing that it all means nothing to him. He likes perfection and pursues perfection, but he just doesn't want this flawed him to appear in front of her, so he always hides behind Luo Ye.
She had seen Luo Ye's kung fu, and it was not just a big difference from him. She understood a lot of the time. The person who saved her was him, not Luo Ye. For example, the people who rescued her from Helian Yifan that time, such as the people who rescued her from being kidnapped that night......
It's a pity that she found out too late!
She knows herself very well, and the feeling she feels when she thinks of him is no longer the same as before, no sadness, no thoughts, no unwillingness and persistence to ask. She's just a little confused. Some people are puzzled, but they don't necessarily have to know the answer.
There are many times in life when the answer always comes too late. When the mystery you want to know is finally revealed, you lose the obsession that you had to know the truth intensely.
If he had told her from the beginning, she would have told him without hesitation that she didn't care if he could hear or not. But she didn't know until now. She and he never went back to the way they were.
Although he didn't succeed in pushing her to the person he wanted to push, he succeeded in pushing away her original heart.
She knows how to change to anyone. At this moment, she will be moved out of control by this truth, not to mention, her heart is still in desperate need of warmth and comfort.
However, she won't! All she needs is the kite's words, and that's enough.
In fact. She really didn't want to be so calm, calm and a little cold, cold and a little selfish.
But at this moment, she finally understood, in fact. She is also a perfectionist. It's not that she can't accept the kite, she just doesn't want a copy, and she has flawed feelings in her heart.
The next day, Yang Zi got up early, put on his makeup, and reappeared in the teahouse. She has a lot of things to face, and a lot of things she has to do.
Grandma can't just die in vain, she always has to ask for an explanation for her grandmother's death.
However, she knows very well what she has to do, and she will not do things that sacrifice herself too much. She is sad, hateful, and has a sense of powerless loneliness, but she will not lose her mind and will not create more love-hate entanglements.
She won't, blindfolded by hatred, to promise to stay by Baili Qingcang's side, and then wait for an opportunity to take revenge. The plots that I have seen in the past in novels do not fit into her more realistic personality.
She hates! But he hasn't hated enough to kill someone, and he won't be confused about the situation, so he hates someone indiscriminately.
In the past few days, she felt that something was wrong, but she couldn't figure out what was wrong.
Seeing Luo Ye appear in front of her again, Yang Zi was not surprised at all. She knew that the kite would not come, only Luoye. However, the news that Luo Ye brought to her was a big surprise to her.
"Uncle Liu of the old Xia family didn't see anything, but those pigeons should be used by Helian Yifan and Helian Yixuan to communicate with each other."
"What?" Yang Zi shouted. "You mean, my brother has been in contact with Helian Yixuan?"
"I'm afraid it's more than that, he should have known and believed his life experience for a long time, maybe there is something wrong between him and Xia Dongyun."
"What's going to go wrong?" Yang Zi's heart instantly became confused.
She has been feeling that something is wrong these days, and she always feels that she has ignored something, but she didn't expect that this is wrong because of Pei Yifan, and - Xia Dongyun?
"This, if you want to figure it out, you have to ask Helian Yifan or Xia Dongyun yourself." Luo Ye said, suddenly changing the subject. "You've lost a lot of weight these days!"
"It's fine!" Yang Zi looked at Luo Ye and replied quietly.
Originally, for a moment, she really wanted to ask Luo Ye the truth, wondering if what she was thinking was right. But in just a moment, she quickly suppressed her impulse.
No need! Even if she knew that everything was true, she would not be able to regain her old feelings, and she would not be able to start over with the kite because of this truth.
She is a person who pays too much attention to her "feelings", and if she doesn't feel right, nothing is right.
Love, she can't give it. Sympathy, he doesn't need it! And why bother!
All she can do for him now is to pretend she doesn't know anything!
"Brother Luoye!" Yang Zi certainly hasn't forgotten her biggest concern. "The one who went to save me and Xia Dongyun that night was the person from 'Night Butterfly'?"
"Yes!" Luo Ye replied, looked at Yang Zi deeply, and took back the words in time.
"Then, is it the one who went to make trouble?" Yang Zi asked again.
"I don't know!" Luo Ye replied. "Do you need me to send someone to check?"
"Forget it!" Yang Zi thought about it, shook his head at Luo Ye, thought about it again, and looked at Luo Ye seriously. "In the past few years, thank you and - Brother Kite!"
After all, she still said the word thank you, this time, it was not perfunctory, it was not flattering, it was the truest thank you in the depths of her heart.
All she could do for him was to know nothing! All she could say to him was a "thank you".
Although she understood, he didn't need to!
"Not necessarily!" Luo Ye spoke softly. For some reason, I felt that Yang Zi's "thank you" was very harsh, but I couldn't bear to put on a cold appearance towards her at this time. "What's next, what do you want to do next?"
"Keep opening the teahouse." Yang Zi thought for a while and said. "The tea over there in Lushui Village is still being collected, and I have to go back and have a look when I have time."
She knew that her little lie couldn't be hidden from Luo Ye, and she didn't deliberately hide it.
It's just that she can't always rely on Luo Ye and Kite.
Whether Luo Ye is for her or for the kite, he has done enough! It can be said that you do your best.
Whether the kite is for her or for Luo Ye, he has done enough! It can be said that there are no regrets.
There was a feeling that she couldn't accept, and she couldn't afford to repay. She can no longer be as willful and arrogant as before, no one owes her, she must learn to rely on herself.
Even if they were willing to help her, they wouldn't be able to.
Luo Ye was noncommittal to Yang Zi's words, neither debunked her, nor said good or bad, but just slightly told Yang Zi to eat well, and was suddenly a little embarrassed by his own advice, as if these words of concern should not come out of his mouth.
Yang Zi is sad and funny. In fact, she felt that she was arrogant, this Luo Ye, how could she not be arrogant, she always put on a cold appearance with facial paralysis to cover herself, and it was no wonder that she found out so quickly that he was not a kite.
Sending Luo Ye away, Yang Zi found Zhou Bingwen and asked him to hand over the recent accounts to her, and the two of them chatted while calculating the accounts.
"Brother Zhou, when you go back to the capital to see Second Brother Mu and Third Brother Mu, don't forget to greet them and their families for me."
"Yes! Good! Zhou Bingwen simply agreed, and glanced at Yang Zi a little strangely.
This Brother Yang is really strange, every time he and Su Li go back to the capital, he will say it again, but he never mentions it on weekdays, why did he suddenly talk about it this time?
He looked at Yang Zi for a while, and suddenly thought of something.
"Brother Yang, aren't you, you want to fire me and Su Li, right?"
"Not dismissal." Yang Zi smiled. "During this time, you and Brother Su have really helped me too much, and I know that the little salary I give cannot be compared with your efforts at all......"
"Not so, Brother Yang. In addition to your salary here, in fact, there are two ...... The second son and the third son also gave us a lot, Brother Yang, don't mind......"
The men of the wooden brothers are really loyal! Yang Zi shook his head secretly.
She's such a money obsesser, how can she mind paying them too little! If you really mind, just add some to them. She went through her grandmother's affair, thinking that they also have parents, family or wives and children in the capital, and she didn't want them to be separated.
"Won't Brother Zhou and Brother Su be homesick?" Yang Zi spoke softly.
She knew that if it weren't for the order of the Wood Brothers, no one would want to leave their family and business and come here to be some kind of teahouse buddy for her. It's just that Bingwen and Su Li looked foolish and loyal this week, and it seems that if they want them to go home, they still need her to talk hard. (To be continued......)
PS: Today's second update, what?