Chapter 294: There are swallows in the North Ridge, and the feathers are like snow (9)

(The most painful is death, the coolest is not the human heart, this sentence is simple, and it is really not until you face this moment that you realize that it is so difficult and painful.) ）

The most cruel thing in the world is that a white-haired person sends a black-haired person, not to mention that Bai Ziyan's parents only have one son, and his daughter has already married a wife, they have always hoped that Bai Ziyan can return to his side, get married and have children, and be happy on his knees.

Gu Mingxi walked in front of them and stopped, holding Bai Yan's urn in his hand, his fingers rubbing the patterns on the box reluctantly, his heart was like a knife.

"Please mourn and be good." Long Pei stood aside, his voice low.

Bai Ziyan's mother hugged back the urn, tears fell on it, and her father stood aside, sighing all the time, the pain in her eyes was self-evident.

Bai Zixuan's eyes were very red, obviously she had been crying for a long time, she suppressed her grief at the moment, and thanked Gu Mingxi and Long Pei in a hoarse voice.

Gu Mingxi didn't finish speaking, and his afterglow swept to the figure in the empty place not far away, and his gaze froze slightly.

In the crowd of people in the distance, the figure standing in the world was depressed and gloomy, a pair of deep eyes dyed with blood, looking intently at this side, and the eyes were always wet.

Long Pei blocked the news and was reluctant to let Nan Si know about Bai Yan's death, but who was Nan Si, the security commander in charge of the entire presidential palace, how could he hide the matter about Bai Yan, not to mention that Bai Yan's parents flew to the national capital.

It's just that he doesn't believe it, doesn't believe that the man is dead.

Standing here and watching Gu Mingxi entrust Bai Yan's ashes to Bai Yan's parents, watching the two elders grief over Bai Yan's death, their hearts were blocked by something, they couldn't spit it out or swallow it, and the position of their chests seemed to be about to lose their heartbeat.

Gu Mingxi's eyes crossed the crowd and looked at Nan Si, but he didn't speak, and Nan Si couldn't come over.

Should Bai Yan's death be attributed to Nanji? He is just a weak person, unable to compete with this world for his aiqing, giving Bai Yan hope and making Bai Yan despair, that's it.

Watching Bai Yan's parents, the white-haired man send the black-haired man, should Bai Yan's unfilial piety be blamed? He left behind his parents and relatives who raised him as an adult, and he was sorry for all those who loved him and cared about him, and selfishly fulfilled his aiqing.

In this world, it is difficult to have a standard definition of what is right and what is wrong. As a son, Bai Yan is undoubtedly a very wrong person, but in aiqing, he is undoubtedly the most affectionate and holy person.

He is worthy of himself, and he is worthy of the people he loves deeply.

Affectionate and immortal, wisdom will be hurt, what is said is probably white words.

Before Gu Mingxi jumped into the sea, she said that Bai Yan was a man born for love, and she didn't say the latter sentence - died for love.

I didn't think that many years had passed, and the words became a prophecy, "born for love, died for love" became Bai Ziyan's fate after all.

Gu Mingxi has never asked Nansi whether he loves Bai Yan or not, but in fact, this answer is not important at all. Because whether he loves it or not, Bai Yan loves him deeply, whether he loves it or not, it is Bai Yan who he finally gives up!

Some people may ask, is it worth it for Bai Yan to do this? For a man who got married and had children, he gave up his life.

How can someone who doesn't have a deep love understand how heartache and heaviness it is to lose someone who loves him so much, and he can't wait to die immediately in the next second. Whether it's worth it or not, no one can judge it except Bai Yan himself.

The onlookers can only sigh and sigh silently after all.

Asking what is the situation in the world is a promise of life and death.

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They did not bring Bai Yan's ashes back to the United States, but chose to be buried in the national capital, which Gu Mingxi and Long Pei were very surprised, but no one asked the reason.

Very few people attended Bai Yan's funeral, except for Long Pei and Gu Mingxi, Bai Yan's family, Banxia, no one else, even Nan Si did not attend.

That day at the airport, after they left, Nanji didn't know when he would go back, and he didn't show up at the presidential palace for many days, just called to ask for leave. Cause: Sickness.

On the day of the funeral, it was raining drizzly, and the steps were very clean by the rain. Lu Banxia stood in front of the tombstone in a black professional suit with an umbrella, looking at Bai Yan's faint smile on the tombstone, as if he was still standing in front of him and smiling at himself.

The umbrella in her hand was blown off by a gust of wind, and she stood alone in the rain, her face covered with rain that could not tell whether it was tears or just water.

The burned wound on her hand had healed and scarred, leaving a faint scar, but the person who had left her scar was forever gone.

Gu Mingxi saw that her clothes were soaked, and walked to her side with an umbrella. Lu Banxia's heart for Bai Yan, she could see it, but Bai Yan's inability to respond was also an ironclad fact.

"The medical examiner said he had a lot of antidepressant drugs in his body and that his depression was very severe." Gu Mingxi has never been able to accept Bai Yan's suicide, even if the facts are already in front of him.

Lu Banxia's rain-soaked eyelashes trembled slightly, and his cold voice choked up for the first time: "I already knew before he left." ”

That time when she was cooking ginger soup for him at Bai Yan's house, she wanted to find brown sugar, and accidentally saw the medicine bottles in the cabinet, one bottle was a sleeping drug, and the other bottle was an English annotation of the effect of the drug - antidepressant.

She knew at that time that Bai Yan was suffering from depression, or that Bai Yan had suffered from depression earlier, and he had already begun to have mild depression when Nansi was about to get married......

Later, it got worse and worse, and finally it was out of control.

Lu Banxia thought that if he let him leave, he could finally get out of this emotional storm and find a new life, even if it wasn't him, it didn't matter, as long as he was alive. Unexpectedly, Bai Yan's obsession was deeper and more stubborn than she thought, and he had been waiting for Nansi.

Nansi doesn't love him, he waits, Nansi chooses him, he's waiting, Nansi wants to get married, he still waits, even if Nansi's father dies, he continues to wait without regrets......

Throughout the ages, how many infatuated lovers have been ruined on the word "wait".

After Bai Yan left Country C, Banxia actually called Bai Yan, but unfortunately he didn't answer a single call! Lu Banxia was worried about him, but there was nothing he could do......

Gu Mingxi patted her weak shoulder, wordless comfort, her feelings have always been like drinking water, and she knows her warmth and coldness.

After the funeral, Bai Ziyan's sister Bai Zixuan's husband sent the two elders back to the hotel to rest, and Bai Zixuan invited Gu Mingxi to sit and chat.

Gu Mingxi knew that she might have something to say to herself, so she asked Long Pei and Lu Banxia to go first, and she and Bai Zixuan went to the café to sit down.

Long Pei hesitated, glanced at Bai Zixuan, and finally nodded in agreement, and went back to the presidential palace with Lu Banxia first.

The dividing line of the young master's monthly pass****************

The café was quiet, the room was filled with the smell of fragrant coffee, and the heavy rain outside the window was getting heavier and heavier, beating the glass frantically, leaving hideous water marks.

In front of Gu Mingxi was a cup of flower tea, rising slowly in the white mist, with some vague outlines. Bai Zixuan drank coffee, the silver spoon stirred gently, and her heavy expression seemed to be hesitating about what to start with.

Gu Mingxi took a sip of warm flower tea and said softly: "Miss Bai, please say anything directly!" ”

Bai Zixuan pinched the spoon's hand and paused, a bitter smile appeared on her pale face, and she looked at her with painful eyes: "Actually, I knew about you a long time ago, Ah Yan once drank too much, I heard him mention that he has a very good and very good friend named Mingxi!" ”

Gu Mingxi's delicate eyebrows were raised, but he didn't speak, listening to her continue.

"Ah Yan has been introverted since he was a child, and even said that he is weak, but he is very smart and stubborn. At first, we all thought that he was just because of his reverence for Your Excellency, although his parents were not happy, but seeing that he was doing well in Country C, he was relieved after he was angry. Ah Yan's lifelong event has always been a heart disease for all of us, and he has introduced many good girls to him, but he refuses them one by one, and he is not even willing to meet him, saying that he is the most important thing about work and cannot be distracted. He thought we didn't know all along, but we all know, but we all know...... We always knew that the person he liked was a man. ”

Bai Zixuan said, the tears in her eyes fell instantly, flowing down the corners of her eyes to her lips, extremely bitter.

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The majestic rain, the buds that just emerged from the branches were hit by the heavy rain and lowered their heads, and some fell to the ground and were trampled invisibly.

The entire cemetery was shrouded in wind and rain, solemn, gloomy, and empty all around, except in front of Bai Ziyan's tombstone, which had just been buried today.

He stood in front of the tombstone soaking wet and lonely, looking at Bai Ziyan's warm smile, like a dream.

- I waited for you to be forty years old, and before you returned to me, I went to find someone else.

Some words are still fresh in my ears, saying that people who will wait until they are forty years old have now crossed the door of life and death.

Kneeling beside the tombstone with weak legs, the misty silhouette was filled with endless pain and unwillingness, how could he die, how could he die like this!

Nanji went back from the airport, not to go home, but to the place where Bai Yan once lived, looking at every thing he had ever used, every fragment and every detail of their relationship for so many years floated in his mind, and the unprecedented pain of chiseling bones.

He was sick, he couldn't afford to be sick, except for calling the presidential palace to ask for leave, he didn't answer any phone calls, he didn't contact anyone, he didn't get a drop of water in Bai Yan's house for days and nights, and he couldn't sleep day and night.

The heart is empty, a big, big piece, unable to be filled, muddy, sometimes I feel the pain of tearing out the heart, and sometimes I feel extremely empty and numb.

Lu Banxia sent him a text message, just a string of addresses.

He didn't expect Bai Yan's parents to finally leave him in the national capital, and looking at Bai Yan's tombstone at this moment, he only felt that his soul was drying up little by little......

If he hadn't saved Bai Yan at the beginning, if that night, he hadn't drunk too much impulsively and asked for him......

If, sometimes, it's really a word that is incredibly painful.

A fishy sweetness surged up in his throat, and he couldn't restrain it, and the warm fishy sweetness overflowed from the pale lip flap in an instant......

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