Chapter 374: Every Heart Has a Soft Threat11

Chu Bingyan still had some things to deal with in the presidential palace, Lu Banxia sat alone in the pavilion in the park and waited for half an hour, when Chu Bingyan arrived, he looked at her weak back from a distance, silently revealing a kind of depression and cold silence.

"Banxia, what happened to you?" Chu Bingyan walked up to her and sat down, his hand resting on her shoulder. Thinking of what she said on the phone-I may have had an accident, Chu Bingyan was terrified.

Lu Banxia looked at her slowly, his face was calm and indifferent, but there was panic and helplessness in his clear eyes, and his thin lips pursed lightly: "Bingyan, my depression seems to be more serious." ”

"How so?" The last time they met, Chu Bingyan obviously felt that Lu Banxia's mood was stable and good, and he didn't need to worry too much, how could it become serious after it had only been a long time.

"I don't know what's going on!" Lu Banxia pursed his lips, pain and weakness flowed in his eyes, "Recently, I can't remember things more and more, many things, many people, I don't sleep very well at night, my appetite used to be good, but now it's getting worse and worse." ”

She didn't tell Li Yueqi about this, his surgery was over, and his daily rehabilitation was very hard, and she didn't want him to worry!

She's been working hard to keep her mood happy and take her medicine on time, why is it getting worse and worse?!

"Can't remember something?" A trace of doubt crossed Chu Bingyan's eyes.

Lu Banxia nodded: "I even forgot about Murong Zhuang last time, and today I suddenly don't remember how to cook!" The mind went blank, nothing! I feel like I'm going to be a fool or a madman! ”

Think about a proud person like her, if she really becomes a madman, even if she has a moment of sobriety, she can't accept it, it's better to live like this than to die.

"Don't worry! There must be a reason why you are like this! Chu Bingyan gently patted her shoulder to comfort her, she didn't have much to do with psychology, she only knew a little about the skin, Lu Banxia looked for herself, not other psychiatrists, which means that her heart must be very chaotic at the moment, and there is no one who can be completely trusted, what happened to make her become?

"What medications have you been taking lately? I'll see if your current condition is not suitable for taking your current medication. ”

Lu Banxia took out the medicine box from his bag and handed it to her, the medicine that Dr. Zhong gave her, take it once a day, one at a time, and now there are only two tablets left. Because of this happening today, she hasn't had time to take it yet.

Chu Bingyan took the medicine box, opened it and took out the pill engraved with the letter "G", crushed it, sniffed it, his face changed, he glanced at Lu Banxia, and his voice was solemn: "Banxia, who prescribed this medicine for you?" ”

"Zhong Jingnian." Lu Banxia's heart sank suddenly, it was hot in the middle of summer, but she felt as cold as summer snow, and her voice tried her best to maintain her composure: "What's wrong with the medicine?" ”

Chu Bingyan's eyes flickered a little, hesitated for a moment, and said coldly: "This is a drug prescribed to patients with severe depression, which has just passed the test in the UK, but it has not yet been fully put into use. Moreover, this medicine cannot be taken for a long time even for patients with severe depression, and the dosage is very strict! This kind of medicine should be given to ordinary patients, at first it can make people feel happy and have a good appetite, but long-term use will cause anxiety, loss of appetite, transient amnesia, and even auditory hallucinations in the later stage, and then lose all memory, living in their own fictional world and unable to get out. If the situation is severe, you will die without realizing it. It is impossible for Zhong Jingnian not to know the harmfulness of such a medicine, how can he prescribe it to you for a long time! ”

Patients with severe depression! The six words slammed into Lu Banxia's heart, and the pain was shattered, and the internal organs were burning like fire.

Zhong Jingnian is an authoritative psychiatrist, it is impossible for him not to know the dangers of this drug, so why should he prescribe it to himself?

His face was as pale as paper, bloodless, his eyelashes were as thin as cicada's wings, and the light under his eyes gradually dimmed, or even disappeared.

Chu Bingyan saw that her face was not good, and bit her lip: "Could it be that the nurse who dispensed the medicine made a mistake?" ”

A layer of frost was covered in her starry eyes, she looked at Chu Bingyan, and asked in a cold voice: "Do you think the famous Zhong Jingnian Psychological Clinic will allow nurses to make such a low-level mistake?" ”

Chu Bingyan was speechless to refute.

The status of Zhong Jingnian's psychological clinic in the country is no less than that of the royal hospital in the presidential palace, from doctors to nurses are all top-notch, and the objects of service are either expensive or rich, how can nurses be allowed to make such low-level mistakes!

"Banxia, no matter what the truth of this matter is, now you have to stop taking the medicine immediately, and you can't take it anymore." Chu Bingyan told her solemnly, fortunately, Banxia is still only in the early stages, it is only a temporary forgetfulness, and there is no auditory hallucinations and fantasies, if it is really like that, the matter will be much more serious.

"Me, is it serious?" Like a stab in his throat, he made a swallowing movement with difficulty, and asked in a difficult voice.

Chu Bingyan shook his head: "According to your description, the situation has not reached the point of no return, and now as long as you stop taking the medicine, those side effects will slowly disappear." If you are not in good health, you have taken too much medicine, it is too toxic to the body, I still recommend that you do not take any medicine at present, let your body recover slowly and naturally, and rely on metabolism to let the effect of the medicine disappear in the body. ”

medicine, she didn't dare to take it anymore

"I see, thanks!" Lu Banxia's slightly trembling voice gradually calmed down, extremely calm, without the slightest ripple.

"As for whether there are other hidden dangers in this medicine, I will not be able to confirm until I find someone to test the ingredients of the medicine." When Chu Bingyan grabbed her hand, he realized that her hand was cold and terrifying, "You don't have to worry, with me, I will definitely not let you have any trouble." ”

Lu Banxia's calm gaze fell on the pill in Chu Bingyan's hand, his face was expressionless and lifeless, like a sculpture.

The calmer she is, the more worried Chu Bingyan is, I'd rather she cry and scold, at least vent the unhappiness in her heart, don't suppress your emotions like this, it's easy to have an accident!

"Banxia, tell me that the medicine was given to you by Zhong Jingnian himself?" Chu Bingyan still didn't believe that Zhong Jingnian would treat Banxia like this, without injustice or hatred, why would he harm Banxia like this.

"Medicine ......" Lu Banxia pursed her lips and paused, and when she looked at her, her lips fluttered into a cold smile: "It was given to me by Li Yueqi." ”

Chu Bingyan's hand that landed on her shoulder suddenly fell, and her amber eyes were full of incredulity and disbelief.

I even think that Banxia is not misremembering.

"Are you mistaken? How can it be? "How could Li Yueqi do this to his wife.

Lu Banxia smiled lightly, and the extreme coldness in his eyes was: "You think I'm crazy?!" ”

If she could, she hoped she was crazy, otherwise she couldn't believe that he would do this to her.

To yourself, such cruelty!

――I don't know if I'll become a fool who doesn't know anything.

- Sometimes I wish you weren't so smart, and it's good to be a little fool who doesn't know anything.

――Really?

- Yes! You'll be fooled when you become stupid!

"Xia Xia!" Chu Bingyan's fingers clenched the medicine box tightly, his eyes flickered, and he hesitated: "There is something I don't know whether to ask you or not!" ”

Lu Banxia looked at her indifferently and asked, "What else can't be said now?!" ”

She's almost a fool who doesn't know anything.

"A year and a half ago, when you came back to the national capital, Li Yueqi saw you, he had a car accident when he was chasing you, you obviously saw him, why did you leave so decisively?" This matter must not be leaked out, so Chu Bingyan has always kept it in his heart and no one has said it.

"A year and a half ago?" A trace of confusion crossed Lu Banxia's eyes, she returned to the capital, did Li Yueqi see herself?!

Chu Bingyan saw a trace of confusion in her eyes, and said suspiciously: "You don't remember?" Still is...... You don't know at all? ”

All along, not only her, but also Li Yueqi also thought that Lu Banxia saw him in the car accident, but he ruthlessly chose to ignore it and resolutely left.

A year and a half ago -

Lu Banxia's mind worked hard to recall all the details that happened when he returned to the national capital a year and a half ago, his eyes were suddenly full of mist, and the corners of his eyes were hot and humid rolling down.

Memories of the cutting line*****************

The last time Lu Banxia returned to China was a year and a half ago, when she had just had a miscarriage, was in a coma for three days, woke up and rested in the hospital for a week, and the doctor approved her discharge, but her body was still extremely weak at that time, because she had a tough attitude to get out of the hospital, and the doctor had no choice but to agree.

Alone abroad, helpless, physically and mentally traumatized, what she missed most was her mother, who had been dependent on her for many years, and booked a plane ticket to fly back to the capital to visit her at her mother's cemetery.

She booked a two-way ticket, arrived in the capital at noon, flew back to the United States at six o'clock in the afternoon, she stayed in the cemetery all afternoon, and at half past four, she got up and left.

Weak and tired from a long time on a plane, she sat in the car and fell asleep, faintly hearing the crash of the sky and the earth, and woke up suddenly.

The driver relieved her that she was fine, but it seemed that someone had an accident in the back of the car.

Lu Banxia looked back at the rear, the two cars collided together, the situation seemed to be very serious, black smoke was emitting, and the air was filled with a strong smell of gasoline.

It was evening, the sun was setting, the sunlight was reflected on the glass, the face behind the glass was completely blurred, she didn't see it clearly, plus she was catching a plane, and she didn't take this "coincidental" car accident to heart.

What's more, she was also in a bad situation, she didn't catch the flight back to the United States on time.

Because she passed out at the airfield.

Someone sent her to the hospital, and Xingtian, who had returned to China a day earlier than her, rushed to the hospital half an hour later, and unprecedentedly drenched her scolded dogs on her head.

At that time, her body was extremely weak, and she lay in the hospital for half a month, she insisted on leaving, and Xingtian personally sent her to the United States to hide her whereabouts.

And at that time, she fainted from time to time, and her body only got better after spending most of the year!

Realistic cutting line *************************

"Original...... He hates me so much! Lu Banxia's tears were like springs, and his lips tried to be extremely bitter.

Fate played a big joke with them, they were attached to each other, and they hated each other, and they had to let them hurt each other all over their bodies before they could stop!

Chu Bingyan held her cold fingers, and her eyes flowed with distress, "Is there a lot of misunderstanding between you?" Let's talk about it! ”

Lu Banxia was stunned, the mist in his eyes was constantly surging, blurring his vision, his tears were flickering and shattering, and his heart was like a knife.

"You go back first, I want to be alone for a while!" The hoarse voice struggled to squeeze out.

"But-" Chu Bingyan didn't worry about her.

"Go back!" Lu Banxia bit her lip, so hard that she bit her lip, and looked at her with tears in her eyes, desperate and helpless, she didn't want people to see her like this.

Chu Bingyan took a pack of tissues and put it in her hand, thought for a while, and said, "I'll go back to find someone to test the ingredients of the medicine first, and call me at any time if I have any questions!" ”

Lu Banxia didn't speak, Chu Bingyan took the initiative to reach out and hug her, she knew how strong Lu Banxia was, and any words of comfort at this time were pale and weak, so let her calm down for a while.

Chu Bingyan left, Lu Banxia sat alone in the gazebo, but the hot wind blew her cheeks like a cold wind, she leaned down slowly, covered her face with her hands, and those salty liquids couldn't stop leaking out from between her fingers.

I once thought that I would no longer shed tears for this man, and I would no longer feel heartache for this person, but unexpectedly, time flies, the world is impermanent, and she still can't escape the conspiracy and calculation in this red dust.

……

In the evening, the mobile phone was vibrating wildly, Lu Banxia held the mobile phone, watched the names on the screen keep flashing, and did not answer the phone until the screen turned black.

Li Yueqi didn't get through to her phone for the first time, she was very worried, and dialed again, but no one answered, and she dialed impatiently over and over again.

In the end, the phone was connected, and his hanging heart finally let go, "Xia Xia, where are you?" Why didn't you answer the phone just now? ”

Lu Banxia was holding his mobile phone, and his warm voice came from the airwaves, and his eyes began to hurt again......

“…… Xia Xia! Li Yueqi heard her breathing, but she didn't speak, and her heart began to worry, "Where are you?" Do you want me to go to you? ”

Lu Banxia was silent for a moment, his voice was low, and he squeezed out two words: "No." ”

"What's wrong with you?" Li Yueqi could hear that something was wrong in her voice.

"It's just that the nose is a little breathless......"

"Maybe it's too hot, you have a cold. Come back in the evening and take some medicine, it will be fine soon. ”

"Hmm." Lu Banxia seemed to respond as if he was nothing, and fell into boundless silence again with his mobile phone.

Li Yueqi didn't speak while holding the phone, listening to her breathing through the phone, a very strange feeling in his heart, he couldn't tell what it was, but her reaction made him feel too strange!

"Xia Xia, it's okay to come back early!" There was silence for a long time, he said.

Lu Banxia said "um" again.

"Then I'll hang up."

When Li Yueqi was about to hang up the phone, Lu Banxia suddenly spoke: "Yueqi ......"

"Huh?"

"Do you hate me?"

"How can you ask that?" Li Yueqi seemed to laugh faintly, although she had made herself very painful and struggling, but he didn't hate her, on the contrary, he liked her very much, liked her, and liked it so much that he could give up everything without hesitation, "I don't hate you, even if you make me miserable." ”

"I'm the one who made you miserable" But why haven't you made me miserable.

Because I almost lost a leg because I hurt you, do you want to do this to me?

Lu Banxia wanted to question him why he was so cruel, but she didn't, she just asked him with a chuckle: "If I become a demented crazy woman, will you be happy?" ”

Li Yueqi didn't understand why she asked like this, was it because of her illness?

"I'd be glad if you didn't leave me again after you became a madwoman!"

She was stunned, and a long, thin needle was stuck in her throat, and it was very deep, deep into the place called the heart.

"Okay, don't be cranky, come back early, I'll wait for you!" After speaking, Li Yueqi hung up the phone.

Obviously he should be sad, but Lu Banxia hooked the corners of his lips and smiled, and his dry pupils were almost bursting into tears.

Go back early and go back to continue taking medicine, and then completely become a crazy woman, is this your revenge and punishment for me?

Li Yueqi!

She had always wondered why she was suddenly able to accept him to stay in her house, it turned out that everything was in his calculations, first numbing her nerves with drugs, and then gradually turning into a demented madwoman.

Looking back on this life for most of the month, it is so unreal, like a gorgeous mirage.

thought it was a new beginning, but he didn't expect it to be another carefully compiled net by him, in order to make her fall into hell completely.

-- We don't want children in the future, I am your child, you are my child, I will help you remember what you don't remember...... Even if you forget the whole world, I won't let you forget me!

Is it really just a dream of mine?

The young master asks for the dividing line of the recommendation ticket********************

Li Yueqi cut the phone, and when he saw that the time was almost right, he washed the rice first and cooked it. Turn over and go to the balcony to collect the washed clothes, sit on the edge, fold the clothes slowly and neatly, and put them in the closet.

Turning around, he saw that her dressing table was a little messy, so he cleaned it up, and didn't notice that his injured leg hit the cabinet, and he frowned in pain, bent down and rubbed his knee.

When he got up, the corner of his eye inadvertently saw that there was paper exposed in the gap of the cabinet under the makeup table, as if he was pulling in the dark, he reached out and opened the cabinet door, and took out the stack of materials that Lu Banxia had not had time to destroy, originally just wanted to help her sort out the rear.

But when you see what's on the page,

Qingjun's face turned a little pale, and then gradually gloomy, his dark eyes were full of disbelief, and he turned around with those materials and went to the living room to get his mobile phone and dial Lu Banxia's mobile phone.

"Sorry, the user you're calling is turned off......"

Before the cold voice could speak, Li Yueqi immediately cut off the phone and dialed Qin Nansi's phone, and the anger in his voice could not be suppressed: "Lu Banxia is there for you?" ”

"She didn't come to me, what happened?" Qin Nansi felt strange and guessed that something must have happened.

Li Yueqi didn't say anything, and cut off the phone directly.

Qin Nansi took the phone and looked at the darkening sky outside, his heart was drumming, and he had a bad feeling, so he immediately dialed Xingtian's phone: "Have you seen Banxia?" ”

"Nope." Xingtian was at the presidential palace all day.

"Li Yueqi is looking for Banxia, there is something wrong with his voice, I am worried that something will happen to Banxia."

Xingtian is also almost done, "I'll go find her now." ”

"I'll look for her after I pick up Xi Feng and come back."

Cut off the phone, and the two men went their separate ways.

***

The person everyone outside who was looking for was sitting in the bar at the moment pouring himself glass after glass of whiskey.

Since childhood, the changes in the family and the growth environment have created her to be an emotional master, habitually guarding all her emotions from being touched by anyone, no matter how painful and embarrassing things have happened over the years, she can also bear it quietly, digest it slowly in her heart, and transform those grief into a kind of light breeze.

However, this time she found that she couldn't, her heart was hollowed out, and the pain still remained in every corner of her body, every cell.

When love is beautiful, it is a mouthful of honey, and it can be sweet to the bottom of the heart when it is held in the mouth; When love is cruel, it is a sharp sword, which decisively pierces the heart, vicious and deadly.

She thought she could control this love and not lose control, but in the end it was still a failure.

Doom!

Her empty stomach was burned by the liquor, and she seemed to be unconscious, numb as she poured cups into her throat.

She remembered that some people said that wine is a poison that pierces the intestines. The thin lips involuntarily rubbed away the mocking smile, and the real intestinal poison is love.

If time could go back seven years ago, she would definitely tell Lu Banxia back then, no matter what, don't marry a man named Li Yueqi, if you really can't get married, you must not fall in love with him.

If you fall in love, don't believe him, and if you believe in him, then leave him, forever and ever.

***

The first to find Lu Banxia was Xingtian, who stood at the door of the bar and saw her drunk, her expression was cold and arrogant, but her back was extremely lonely.

He first made a phone call to Qin Nansi to reassure him that he would take care of Lu Banxia.

Cutting off the phone, he walked up to Lu Banxia, grabbed her wrist, snatched the wine glass from her hand, and said in a low voice: "Don't drink it......"

Lu Banxia half-squinted, looked at him in confusion for a long time, and then asked the bartender for a glass of wine and drank it all.

"Lu Banxia......" Xingtian called her in a low voice.

"If you're drinking with me as a friend, please take a seat, if not, don't bother me!" The lips moistened by alcohol and crimson were lightly pursed, and the voice was calm and waveless, as silent as death.

Xingtian didn't speak, and sat beside her. Her look and voice were calm, but he knew that her heart was tormented by pain, and there was nothing she could do.

There's nothing he can do either!

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