Chapter 1217: Terrible Loneliness and Despair
"Qin Yan! You bastard! ”
As soon as Qin Yan and Nina returned to the flagship, they heard angry shouts and curses, and then saw Her Royal Highness the princess pounce with her teeth and claws.
Wrath?
Anger was no longer enough to describe her mood: that damn mission had already been completed, and she would have been able to return to the base within half a year, but Qin Yan ordered to listen here, and the result?
More than four years!
She actually stayed in this damn place for more than four years!
There was only one damn battleship here, no expeditionary force base, and no Lyra Empire's territory spanning tens of thousands of light-years, and spending a few years in such a small battleship, with her character of loving to run around, was definitely more cruel than any punishment.
Of course, she was not under house arrest, Qin Yan had already said that she could come and go freely, and he had told her before that if she couldn't stand it, she would go back to the base.
But......
There's no way she'll go back!
She paid such a big price to have the opportunity to join the No. 51 formation, and to have the opportunity to carry out tasks with the team, how could she leave so easily?
At the beginning, she was thinking about how to deal with Qin Yan, thinking about what to do when Qin Yan came back from outside, but when she waited for a month and Qin Yan didn't come back, she couldn't stand it, and as a result, she waited for more than four years, her patience had already been completely worn out, and now she couldn't wait to tear Qin Yan to pieces and eat it.
"Why are you still here?"
Qin Yan looked at Winona with incredible eyes, and rushed over with teeth and claws: "I thought you would have returned to the base or the imperial capital a long time ago." ”
Like a lobster wielding big pincers, Winona pounced like crazy, but was easily blocked by Qin Yan, and no matter what, she couldn't cross the barrier formed by the power of dimensional space.
Probably realizing that anger could not solve the problem, and realizing the huge gap in the strength of the two sides, she stared at Qin Yan with resentful eyes, and her snow-white teeth grinded and gurgled.
She was really angry.
After more than four years on this damn battleship, all the members of the 51st formation secretly avoided her from time to time and left the battleship, not knowing where to run, and after a while another group of people would be replaced, and these guys obviously regarded her as an outsider.
Why?
She is also a member of Formation 51, why is everyone avoiding her?
"You promised me to join Formation 51." She gritted her teeth and growled.
"yes, aren't you already in now?"
"But they all rejected me!"
"That's someone else's personal problem, what does it have to do with me that they reject you?"
"Don't think I don't know, you're helping them improve their strength!"
“……”
Qin Yan couldn't help but be stunned, and wondered how she knew, at this time, Ayler's voice sounded in his ears: "When she was angry, she started with others, and found that everyone's strength had improved. ”
I see.
Hearing Ayler's explanation, Qin Yan was released, and then shrugged his shoulders: "Even if that's the case, it'...... What does this have to do with you? ”
"Why? Why are you treating me differently than you are to anyone else?! Her Royal Highness roared.
"I'd love to." Qin Yan was too lazy to talk to her.
"You ......"
After more than four years of waiting and unfair treatment, Winona now has no way to complain, and the more Winona thinks about it, the more she feels wronged, and she can't help crying.
Big drops of crystal tears rolled down the smooth and beautiful face: "Qin Yan, who are you?" Why are you bullying me...... Whining...... I hate you! ”
"Whatever."
Qin Yan looked indifferent, pouted and said, "You have always hated me, haven't you?" What's more, there are more people who hate me, and they don't care about you. I'm still going to stay here for a few years, and if you can't stand it, you can leave as you please. ”
Cold.
Ruthless.
Winona looked at him stupidly, letting the tears roll down her cheeks, she no longer cried, nor scolded coquettishly, just stared at Qin Yan like that.
Nina sighed in her heart and said to the crowd who came up, "What do you see? It's all gone, what should I do, what should I do, and Qin Yan will have something to say later. ”
When she said this, everyone dispersed, Nina glanced at Qin Yan and left, leaving only Winona and Qin Yan at the scene.
"Whatever, I'll leave beforehand." Qin Yan turned around and was about to leave.
"Stop!" Winona shouted.
"Something?"
"I'm going to duel you!"
"You?"
"Either you die or I die!"
Tears were still dripping, and she drank word by word: "I don't want to go on like this, otherwise one day I will definitely die in your hands, it's better to get rid of it as soon as possible." ”
What is this?
It's like I'm doing something to her, but in fact, I'm not doing her.
Qin Yan frowned, turned to leave, and at the same time threw down a sentence: "There are many ways to die, such as suicide, as long as you don't look for me." ”
"That's what you said?" Her voice was unusually cold.
"Of course."
"In your eyes, I'm really cheap enough, not as good as anyone here."
Although these words sounded a little weird to Qin Yan, he didn't think much about it, and even ignored her anymore, and walked straight into the distance.
Suddenly!
With a keen sense of smell, and a hint of blood in the air, he quickly turned his head to look, only to see a silver dagger piercing Winona's chest, and blood spurted out of the wound as if it didn't need money. She didn't have any painful look on her face, she just stared at Qin Yan's back intently, without sadness or joy.
"What are you doing?!" Qin Yan was shocked, and her figure flashed in front of her.
"Don't come here!"
She roared, the dagger went deeper again, a wisp of scarlet slowly overflowed from the corner of her mouth, and she roared hoarsely: "Qin Yan, what I regret the most is to meet you bastard...... If it weren't for you, I would have lived happily, and everything about me was ruined by you! ”
"Winona, are you crazy? What the hell did I do to you?! Qin Yan scolded angrily.
"What did you do to me?"
She showed a miserable smile and exclaimed, "Now the entire Lyra Empire knows that I am your woman...... Yes, you will definitely say that I said it, but when I said it, only a few people knew about it, and your duel with the Tulloch family made everyone know about it. ”
"You seem to think you have a point? It's all because of your hatred of me, and you want to take revenge on me, that caused this situation today, right? Qin Yan said coldly.
"Yes, I want to get revenge on you to make it like this, every time I want to deal with you, it's me who gets hurt."
She smiled sadly and said, "So I've had enough of these days, that's why I said that if I continue like this, I will definitely die at your hands." That's good, I don't have to think about dealing with you anymore, I won't be hurt by you anymore, and you don't need to watch out for me all day long, everyone is clean, isn't it? ”
"What the hell do you want?"
"I want to die, are you satisfied with this answer?"
"I ......"
"She wants you to treat her like me, she wants you to value her, she seems to be against you everywhere, but in fact she just wants to get your attention."
A calm voice came from not far away, and then Nina walked towards the two: "Now the entire empire knows that she Winona is your Qin Yan's woman, and you are even more because she repelled the people of the Tallok family. Whether it's her subconscious or external public opinion, let her get close to you. Even, she has subconsciously regarded herself as your woman, but you are very cold to her, and she is even far inferior to anyone in the other party's formation. She finds her future dark, and because of the public opinion, she has no chance to go back to the past - you have made her completely hopeless. ”
Loneliness is the most terrible murderer.
In fact, under normal circumstances, Winona would not have such a pessimistic mentality, the key is that in the past four years, she has only been in contact with the people of the 51st formation.
However, in order to prevent Qin Yan's secret from being revealed, everyone, including her cousin Ayler, would be able to avoid her, and her heart was extremely lonely. Seeing Qin Yan come back, she was originally very happy, she pounced with her teeth and claws, just to vent her anger and vent the negative emotions in her heart.
The result?
As a result, Qin Yan's attitude was extremely cold, and even 'proposed' that she commit suicide, and the negative emotions of long-term loneliness were not only not vented, but were added to the fire by Qin Yan.
Thinking of all the painful experiences that happened to her since she met Qin Yan, she suddenly lost all hope for life.
Her sudden performance looks crazy and inexplicable, but it is not strange when analyzed carefully.
"You're eavesdropping on me?!" Winona yelled at Nina.
"Winona, how old are you?" Nina looked at him left and right.
"What's the matter with you?!"
"If I'm not mistaken, you're probably in your 20s, right?"
Nina sighed, shook her head, and said, "As the heir to the royal family, you have learned a lot, but in some aspects it is just a pitiful blank. You are full of contradictions, you insist on taking revenge on this man, you want to see him kneel and beg for mercy, but unfortunately you don't want to admit that you like him. ”
"Nope! How could I possibly like this crawler? You are talking nonsense! Winona became agitated.
"You know what?"
Looking at Winona with a look of pity on her face, Nina said, "If you continue to live in this contradiction, one day you will go completely crazy." What do you want to get? Love? Or the joy of successful revenge? Would you really be happy if he died, or if he fell on his knees in front of you and begged for mercy? You won't. There's no shame in asking yourself what you want and then being honest with it. In life, you must learn to grasp what you want, not to leave a bunch of regrets, and not to force yourself into a neuropath. ”
Winona opened her mouth to say something, but she didn't say it.
She stared at Nina for a long time, and finally slowly pulled out the dagger that was close to the heart point, threw it on the ground, and turned to walk outside the cabin.
After a short time, she left the battleship and appeared in the void, took out a gorgeous battleship with the royal insignia of the Tianqin Empire from the space box, and then the battleship disappeared in a wormhole not far away......