Xu Xun has made a new discovery in the past few days.

Taking a bath in the empty house next door, although it is much warmer to have a kang in the house than outside, but there is no stove in that house, and compared to the large water that is moved into a pot, Xu Xun still thinks that it will be better to move the bath bucket to the kitchen at one time, anyway, she is not cooking in the kitchen, and it is not very strange to put a bath bucket.

Taking a bath on the edge of the stove, not to mention the convenience of pouring water, even adding water is very convenient, and I am used to getting up and taking a bath in a hurry. Besides, there is a big stove next to it, and the room must be quite warm, and the happiness when taking a bath has increased many times. Xu Xun was even pondering, whether to study it, so he simply set up a fire on the stove to heat the bath barrel, and simmered himself so slowly.

is also because of the comfort, although he still arranged for himself to wash clothes for a while, Xu Xun's eyelids were heavy, his limbs were weak, and he couldn't get up when he was in the bathtub. Seeing that the sun was setting, he still added some boiling water to the bath bucket, and thought in his heart: If you soak for another quarter of an hour, it is really time to get up, otherwise, the mother-in-law who brought dinner will not see her, and she will inevitably have to look for her, which is a little embarrassing.

It was then that she faintly heard something - the hazy light coming from outside the window paper also changed subtly. Although he couldn't see the movement outside, Xu Xun was also faintly nervous, so he thought about it, and he seemed to hear a cough outside the door, and then the door was pushed open with a creak.

Himself red. Body. Bare. Staying in the bathtub decently, how else can you react when you meet such a person? Xu Xun instinctively picked up the water scoop, splashed the residual water in it to the door, and screamed, "Get out quickly!" ”

It was all splashed out, and the brain reacted - although it was late, she didn't light a candle, and the house was very dark, but the basic body shape was still recognizable, after all, this man had slept with her for ten years, how could he not recognize it?

Xu Xun was stupid there, and I don't know how long it took for a sentence to come out, "Uh...... This one...... You can rest assured that the water is clean. ”

The emperor probably has never been splashed with water on his head, and the whole person is expressionless, standing at the door and staring at Xu Xun without speaking, nor coming in, like a stone statue.

Xu Xun...... Xu Xun was indeed a little embarrassed in her heart, but the main thing was that she felt very cold, the emperor was now pushing the door open, and the whistling north wind blew in through the gap, and all of a sudden the water in the barrel was much colder. She had no choice but to shrink into the bucket and invite the emperor to say, "Bixia, come in, don't catch a cold......"

When the emperor heard this, he finally moved, he glared at Xu Xun viciously, turned around and walked out of the house—he still remembered to bring the door to Xu Xun.

…… Just came, this is leaving? Xu Xun was a little speechless, but her heart was not uneasy: it is not an exaggeration to say that the moment she saw the emperor just now, she had a feeling of suffocation, as if the reality that she had escaped for a long time suddenly appeared in front of her, this feeling of not wanting to face it, but not being able not to face it, is not painful, not itchy, but it is more sad than the pain, and it is so bad that it makes her whole person a little bad.

I also thought that at least after I lived in the south until the crown prince was established, the emperor would loosen the dynamics less—if he still wanted to loosen the dynamics. Even those who are still inclined to her, and those who have some affection for her, should only get in touch with her after the concubine's post-establishment ceremony. The emperor's appearance this time really surprised Xu Xun a little, so that she didn't think about what kind of attitude to adopt towards him.

Of course, the true and instinctive attitude is not nothing, but if it is exposed, it is death, although Xu Xun is no longer afraid of death, but he will not deliberately look for death. So now that the emperor can take the initiative to leave, Xu Xun is still quite relaxed, and even a little sorry for him: although the water is hot when it is splashed out, it is so cold, if you go out, your hair freezes, but it is easy to catch a cold.

When he warmed up a little, he slowly got up from the water, dried himself and put on his clothes, Xu Xun had no intention of going to the laundry again, and he didn't even bother to splash the residual water, so he returned to his house with a bunch of changed clothes in a restless manner, and after pushing the door in, he was startled again.

"Ah, why didn't you leave!" She blurted out.

The emperor twitched the corners of his lips, still very stiff, and sat on the edge of the kang with a white cloth in his hand, and the big coat on his body was also removed—fortunately, in addition to his head and face, the neck and neck were still very dry. This dense black fox fur, after all, has its effect. However, it seems that it will be difficult to dry even soaked hair for a while. It's not dripping now, but it's still wet. He just sat there, not talking, not paying attention to Xu Xun, it seemed that it was...... It's really infuriating.

Xu Xun was also quite embarrassed - on such a cold day, what if he went out like this and got a cold? Getting sick in winter is not a trivial matter, and since Xu Xun entered the palace, he has heard that the wind cold does not heal and turns into pneumonia. Although the emperor was angry, he couldn't leave, and then she came back and still said this...... Xu Xun still understands his character, and his self-esteem must be uncomfortable now.

"Yes, yes, you can't go out without dry hair." She smiled dryly and quickly helped the emperor find a step. "Just now...... The concubine was reckless and offended Bixia. ”

"Since it's a bath, weishenme doesn't latch the door!" The emperor found the mouth, and he said angrily. "Why so careless!"

Xu Xun is also helpless, although there is generally no one in the yard, but she is not a fanatic, of course, she has to bolt the door when taking a bath to have a sense of security, but, "Back to Bixia, in order to facilitate access, the lower room where the palace maid lives is usually without a latch." ”

The emperor was immediately dumbfounded, and after a while, he said stupidly, "Then find something to top......

His anger seemed to have gone down a little, Xu Xun's guilt had been reduced, and she didn't know what to do with this, so she was silent. The two of them stood for a while with big eyes and staring at each other, and the emperor seemed to be distracted, but he flashed a glance from time to time. Xu Xun was inexplicably looked at by him, and wanted to ask, but he felt that he didn't have to be bored.

The two of them were silent for a while, she decided not to accompany the emperor to continue in a daze, maybe he just didn't want to deal with her at all now - maybe he didn't know that Weishenme was in a good mood, and he came to her to give her a good face or something, but after being woken up by hot water, he was so angry that he was now restraining himself from destroying her nine clans...... In this case, it is better for her to appear in front of the emperor less often to stimulate him.

It just so happened that the dirty clothes in my hands, the white cloth or anything else were not placed in this room. Xu Xun picked up a few clothes that were ready to be changed and washed, and carried them to the basin next door, picked them up for a while, and then heard the sound of pushing the door, and when he turned around, he saw the emperor appear at the door, obviously looking at the lower room with a little interest.

"The clothes are all faded." Seeing Xu Xun turn his head, he raised his chin and nu the little bijia in Xu Xun's arms.

"yes." It's been a long time since anyone chatted with her, and if the emperor hadn't scolded her, Xu Xun wouldn't mind chatting with him. "It's all like this, the color clothes must have faded after a few times of water."

This is true, the dye jishu has come to this point, and the haode clothes will fade to varying degrees after washing them five or six times. Xu Xun is a good and clean person, intimate clothes love to wash, this kind of coat has to be washed a few times, although it has not been sent in for a month, but it can't stand less clothes, and it is replaced diligently, and now several clothes are a little old.

The emperor didn't speak, but looked at Xu Xun with complicated eyes, Xu Xun was a little uncomfortable, and it happened that he had finished picking up here, so he said, "You let me." ”

Turning around and going back to the kitchen, he picked up the bucket and poured the water from the tub into the gutter bucket bucket by bucket. She used more water today than ever, and she couldn't just splash it on the ground in the yard.

The emperor stood at the door of the utility room and watched Xu Xun busy back and forth, and after a while, he said impatiently, "What a big deal, isn't it okay to move out the whole bucket and pour it?" ”

The wooden barrel alone is more than 20 catties, and the water is 50 catties, which is big and heavy, so you should hug it. Xu Xun wanted to complain a little, or quietly watch the emperor lose face, but she didn't want to die yet, and when she saw that the emperor was really going in, she hurriedly stopped, "Your hair is still wet, and it's easy to get cold when you enter and leave the house, so let's go back to the house and stay first." ”

The emperor may have been a little cold as soon as he came out of the house, and he didn't insist on his opinion after walking into the kitchen, but picked up a wooden bucket to help Xu Xun fetch water, after all, he was also a martial arts practitioner, and this didn't bother him, and he lifted a bucket of water, but he was slightly stunned, and said, "Yo, you can carry it, this bucket of water is not light." ”

"I used to work when I was at home." Xu Xun said casually, "If you get used to it, you can get used to it, they are all people, they can carry water for me at the age of thirteen or fourteen, and I am in my twenties, how can I not be as good as them." ”

"I've trained you." The Emperor's tone was a little sour. "Are you comfortable living in this house, and I gave you a book to read?"

"I brought it in at the time." Xu Xun clarified, "But I'm very busy every day here, and I haven't read a few pages." ”

"What are you busy with?" The Emperor seemed to be a little happy again.

Xu Xun also knew what he thought she was busy with—she had been thinking about it behind closed doors, she must have been busy thinking about it.

"I'm just busy boiling water and pouring water." Xu Xun reviewed it and told the emperor with certainty. "There's also the fire, handing firewood or something. No one was looking at the stove, so I had to go there to see it every now and then, and it would be bad if the fire was turned off. ”

Such a simple answer made the emperor's mood fluctuate again, and he was angry, "Pretend to be stupid with me?" You want to live here for the rest of your life, don't you, Xu Xun? ”

Xu Xun also knew that the emperor was definitely not here to beat and scold her now, in fact, his attitude was quite obvious, as long as she made a sincere statement at this time, cried, knelt down and hugged his thighs to reflect sincerely, it was estimated that she would be able to go back to Yong'an Palace after a while - what the emperor wanted, she knew very well, the problem was that she didn't want to pretend like this at all, otherwise, she wouldn't fall into Nannei.

"It's all at your command." She said calmly. "If you want me to live for the rest of my life, I will live for the rest of my life, and if you want me to die, I will die...... I'm your concubine, what do you want me to do, can I have anything else to say? ”

According to her assumption, the emperor heard this, even if he didn't pick up the wooden bucket and smash her to death, he probably had to leave in anger, but the emperor was just stunned, he glanced at Xu Xun thoughtfully, and didn't even listen to the action of fetching water, and after a while, he brought a bucket of water out to Xu Xun, Xu Xun took it and poured it back, the emperor had already moved the bath bucket obliquely, and said, "The rest of the water is going to be scooped out, and the wooden barrel is not satisfied." ”

He held the bucket, Xu Xun bent down to scoop water, the two of them didn't speak for a while, Xu Xun scooped a few scoops of water, and the emperor said. "Xu Xun."

Xu Xun snorted, his hand didn't stop, he didn't look at the emperor, and the emperor didn't care, and continued to ask. "Do you think I'm treating you badly?"

From the moment he entered the door to the present, his voice has always been a little pinched, and his tone seems to be pretended, not very relaxed, so that people can't peek into his real emotions. However, when this sentence was asked, there was still a little trace of emotion, and the pain in it, at least to Xu Xun's ears, could not be faked. -- A proud person like the emperor would not have cheated in such a matter.

She suddenly remembered the last time they quarreled, at that time she was different from now, she still had some naïve fantasies in her heart, and she still felt afraid, at that time, she was still very afraid of offending the emperor. Xu Xun is not afraid to admit that she has never had a good night's sleep from after the quarrel to before the reconciliation, and she is always afraid of the unknown fate.

But in retrospect, all kinds of emotions at that time seemed to have faded, only after reconciling with the emperor, when lying beside him and looking at the top of the bed, the sadness in his heart still seems to have an aftertaste.

Now, at this moment, this familiar sorrow came up again, Xu Xun shook his head, and said sincerely, "Bixia is really good at taking care of me everywhere...... At the very least, it's much better for me than for others. ”

This is beyond reproach, if even she is not favored, how should others live? From entering the palace to the present, there is no face to sleep, after the bed, ten years of popularity, the emperor is by her side every time he goes out, and every detail of life is also taken care of. Xu Xun didn't know what else he could ask of the emperor.

And that's where the greatest sorrow lies, isn't it?

This sorrow penetrated the bone marrow, penetrated Xu Xun's limbs, and although she had the heart to stop it, it still seeped into her posture. Even the Emperor didn't seem to notice, and he slowed his tone, "But you're still not happy with me. ”

Xu Xun smiled bitterly, and did not deny it, the matter has come to this point, so why lie to each other again?

"I'm not very happy with you." She stopped scooping water, stared at the bluestone slab in front of her, and whispered. Said sadly.

"What else?" The emperor still held the bathtub, and his voice was not dissatisfied, but it was protected by another layer of camouflage, and the emotional background was missing. "Where are the dissatisfactions?"

"I don......'t know," Xu Xun said truthfully, "Maybe I'm too greedy, the better you give me, the more dissatisfied I am." ”

"You don't like me being nice to other women?" The Emperor asked tentatively.

Xu Xun quickly shook her head—she had never thought about it, and she and the emperor might not have reached this point yet.

"Also...... Maybe it's because I'm disappointed in you. She also tried to analyze her emotions, before the emperor asked, Xu Xun had never studied and straightened out her mood, she didn't want to think of the emperor - why spoil her mood?

"Disappointed? Weishenme disappointed. The Emperor was a little surprised. Am I not good enough for you? ”

"I don't know." Xu Xun thought for a long time before he asked uncertainly, "Big brother, are you not satisfied with me either?" ”

The Emperor acquiesced.

"You think I'm not good enough for you." Xu Xun understood the emperor's anger, "What do you think...... I refuse to listen to you, and I have wronged myself for you. ”

"Am I asking too much?" The emperor was noncommittal, but asked rhetorically.

"That's why I'm disappointed in you." Xu Xun finally found a suitable explanation. "In the past ten years, you have given me enough dignity, eldest brother, and you have rewarded me with a lot of gold and silver treasures...... Since I first met you, you have been good to me, big brother, and I ...... in my heart I've always been grateful to you. Among the clan vassal kings, there are not many people who love their concubines like you. ”

This is not a lie, King Zhao even wants to kill his wife's relatives, and among a large family of relatives, the emperor is already much higher than the average.

"I have been serving you with all my heart and soul for the past ten years...... I have been by your side for ten years, I think my understanding of you will not be much less than that of Sister Hu, although my identity is not as good as them, here is not as good as there, but my sincerity in treating you is no worse than anyone else, although I am stupid, but I am still a little persevering, I have been spending my mind on you for the past ten years, and I can be regarded as knowing you a little. ”

Xu Xun suddenly wanted to cry again, she thought of their first night, and thought of the two of them playing polo in the empty imperial city of Beijing...... At that time, she really admired the emperor very much and was very close to the emperor.

"But because I know you so well," Xu Xun still didn't want to look at the emperor, she still stared at the ground - it took too much courage to admit this embarrassing fact. "I also understand that you don't know me at all. In your heart, I am not even a person, and I am not even worthy of my own thoughts...... Even if there is, it's not worth knowing. You were so happy to say such things to me that day, let me go to Changning Palace to make peace with Sister Sun...... Even if you knew a little about me, even if you knew a little bit about me, even if you put a little thought into it, no one as smart as you would say such a thing......"

She whispered, "just so happily to say such a thing to me, and sincerely expect me to accept it with joy...... Even if you use intrigue and trickery to calculate me, and use coercion and domineering to oppress me, it is not so hurtful. ”

The Emperor seemed to freeze on the edge of the tub, and he did not say a word.

And Xu Xun didn't have the strength to continue, she felt a strange humiliation - for the first time in her life, she felt this humble situation, how many times she knelt down did not bring the realization, and now as her words slowly spread, this pain was even worse than the severe pain she felt when she gave birth.

But she didn't want to cry, at least she didn't want to cry in front of the emperor, Xu Xun looked at the ground, trying to hold the sourness on the tip of her nose, but it didn't work, a tear still fell from her eyes into the residual water, splashing a little ripple.

With a heavy muffled thud, the emperor bulldozed the tub flat.

"Not really." He said he squatted down, ignoring Xu Xun's struggles, and wrapped her shoulders in his arms. "It's not like this, Xiao Xun, it's not like this......"

The author has something to say: ...... The youngest daughter is going to take off the shift tonight

After a busy day, I stuck the concubine again, and I was already exhausted when I wrote it, and I felt sick if I didn't rest......