Liu Zhien entered the house very quickly and saluted Xu Xun.

"Mother." Contrary to his usual caution, he actually raised his head to observe Xu Xun's face, paused, and then lowered his head and said, "Niangniang is fine, the slave maid is ordered by the Queen Mother to enter the palace to visit Niangniang." ”

Liu Zhien, as an internal servant, of course could not stay in Yong'an Palace with Xu Xun, and he lived outside Yong'an Palace during this time. The Queen Mother asked him to visit Xu Xun, not to visit Xu Xun. ――It's her who delivers food every day, can you see what is good? For, in fact, it is to let Xu Xun and his henchmen talk, understand the situation in the palace, and relax their mood.

It seems that although the Queen Mother allowed her to seal the palace, she may not have much doubt in her heart that she has something to do with Kunning Palace. Otherwise, Liu Zhien would not have been sent in.

Xu Xun breathed a sigh of relief in her heart, but she couldn't be happy, she squeezed out a smile, stood up and saluted in the direction of Qingning Palace, saying that she had to say kind words. "The Queen Mother is really thinking about our younger generations, but I deserve it."

Liu Zhien said politely, "Niangniang, please rest assured, the Queen Mother will let you recuperate, and everything will be said after the emperor returns to the palace." ”

Even if the routine procedures are completed, after that, Hong'er and Lan'er can be sent out, and Xu Xun and Liu Zhien can also seize the time and have a serious conversation.

It's just that the two of them are relatively speechless for a while. Liu Zhien's eyes fell on Xu Xun's abdomen first, "I don't know if my mother's jade body is okay?" ”

Xu Xun shook his head, "It's not good, I shouldn't have come yet." ”

Liu Zhien definitely didn't know about Xu Xun's menstrual period, so what about it, Xu Xun helped him make it clear. "It was more than 20 days late, and the last time it was pampered, it was just over 40 days."

Although it is a period between menstruation, it is said that it is not easy to conceive, but this kind of thing is not possible. Liu Zhien showed a hint of joy on his face, and arched his hand, "Niangniang, please take care of yourself, when the emperor returns to the palace, all problems will be solved." Yes or no, there will be an answer. ”

Xu Xun waved her hand, she closed her eyes, and couldn't help but sigh. "Kunning Palace matter, I found out if I have eyebrows."

She asked if it was definitely not Liu Bao's intention to break into Kunning Palace, but the ins and outs of this sapphire phoenix hairpin. What's more, the question is who is going to make a move behind her back, and she Xu Xun.

Liu Zhien shook his head, but he also replied frankly, "Being on the cusp of the storm, it is better to be still than to be still, and the slave and maid did not act rashly." ”

He hesitated for a moment, and then said, "It's just, the queen ......."

So he told the truth what happened in Qingning Palace that day. "The queen mother trusts you to 120,000 points, and this friendship is really grateful."

Speaking of which, the queen was very interesting to Xu Xun that day, if she didn't insist so much, the current imperial city or even the capital, I don't know how to talk about Concubine Xu Zhuang. This personal ornament fell into the hands of a handyman, and it feels like a story just to tell it, and the three of them become tigers, and many times people's reputations are ruined like this.

Xu Xun didn't thank the queen, but couldn't help sneering, "Whether it's a true belief or a fake letter, it's hard to say." ”

The words came out of her mouth and fell into her ears, and even she herself was stunned.

This cold tone, poisonous hints, this ...... This is full of malicious attitude, like a poisonous snake spitting out letters, and even every transposition seems to be soaked in suspicion and venom.

This sentence, did she really say it from Xu Xun's mouth?

When did she become so suspicious of the queen?

Since entering the palace, the queen can't find anything bad about her. ――Actually, it's Concubine Sun Guifei and Concubine He Hui, who treats her badly? Several people get along in the palace, although it is inevitable that there will be some small frictions, but after all, no one wants to calculate others in death, at least, she did not see such signs.

That weishenme she has already thought about others to such a sinister place, weishenme herself is suspicious, weishenme can't wait for the emperor to return with peace of mind......

When did her Xu Xun's mind become like this? After the election that day, Mama Qian taught her morality, how much does she remember? weishenme she has no way to continue to be that kind to others, when has she lost trust in others?

Xu Xun suddenly didn't know what she was entering the palace for, she had imagined a lot of life before entering the palace, but she didn't expect that one day she would become like this, live such a life, and become such a person.

What is she trying to do? Just to figure out the glory and wealth of her mother's family, and her own net worth?

How so? Xu Xun thought, things weishenme will become like this? Will I become like this? Am I still me?

She felt that she was a little overwhelmed by herself, and she didn't know what she was longing for.

If we continue like this, even if we give birth to a son, even if we are spared from martyrdom, what can we do? Is it fun to live like this?

"Mother?" Liu Zhien shouted with a little doubt, and woke up Xu Xun. She shook her head, feeling dizzy for a moment.

In any case, let's get over the current difficulties first. Whether it's Concubine Sun or Queen Hu, is this really just a coincidence?

Even if he wanted to believe it, for the sake of this possible child in his belly, Xu Xun couldn't believe that this was a coincidence.

"Near, the food in the palace, is it made in the small kitchen of Qingning Palace, or—" She asked Liu Zhien.

Hearing the string song and knowing the elegant meaning, Liu Zhien explained the arrangements of the Queen Mother. "It is freshly made in the small kitchen of Qingning Palace, and it is sent by the Queen Mother every day to point out a number of flavors to you in the meal."

It seems that apart from herself, not no one cares about her safety. The Queen Mother not only took into account her suspicions, but also considered her safety......

"Have you seen my Tianqi record?" Xu Xun asked again, "Did you go up last time?" ”

This question exposed Xu Xun's suspicions again, Liu Zhien's eyes narrowed, as if he didn't expect Xu Xun to be so keen, he hesitated for a moment, and then said in a low voice, "Shang Sleep Bureau said that due to lack of manpower, I haven't remembered all the menstrual events in the past few months. ”

Is it true or not?

-- The situation is like a pot of porridge!

Xu Xun was so annoyed that she directly pushed a cup of tea to the ground, and the crisp sound of the teacup falling to the ground brought her back to her senses - she also startled herself, and hurriedly stopped Liu Zhien, "You are biedong, let them clean up in a while." ”

She slowed down, wanting to say something, but she didn't know what to say, so she couldn't help but show an extremely ugly and reluctant smile to Liu Zhien, and she was about to say something, and suddenly felt a warm ......

Xu Xun couldn't care about Liu Zhien anymore, so he jumped up and ran to the clean room.

And then...... Then she saw the familiar pink on her pants.

She is always very reserved, and it will be officially there a few days after seeing the powder. But, no matter what, this damn god always comes.

Her chaotic mood and fluctuating mood seem to have an explanation - before Tianqi, Xu Xun's mood would always be a little low, and he would often be cranky than usual. This time, because of the special situation, the reaction is large, and it is not unusual.

Xu Xun is like splitting into two people, one can reason about the ins and outs normally, analyzing all kinds of reasons without joy or sorrow, and the other just wants to stuff his head into the bucket and drown himself like this.

Just like the months after Emperor Wen's death, she felt that she could no longer live like this, she felt that she could not see a little light.

However, the low tide after Emperor Wen's death was due to Xu Xun's fear of death. She still loves life, she's still young, and she doesn't want to die like this.

And this time, Xu Xun lost her love for life, and she couldn't find anything in her life that could support her.

The emperor can't favor her, she can't rely on a man who can rightly take it from her without having to give anything back, she should give her everything, and the emperor has given her the glory and wealth of the family. Xu Xun couldn't ask for anything more, she didn't have this identity.

She can't rely on children, she doesn't have children, and there's a good chance she won't have children for the rest of her life.

She couldn't rely on her 'sisters', she had learned not to trust them now...... Xu Xun had no way to believe it.

Who should she rely on? What is the purpose of living like this?

She didn't know how she got out of the clean room, how she sat on the chair, and when Xu Xun came back to her senses, Liu Zhien had even grabbed her shoulder arrogantly, and was bending down and shaking her gently.

"Mother, mother." He called softly, a rare hint of panic on his face. "!"

Xu Xun reluctantly broke away from him, "I'...... I ......"

She wanted to say that I was fine, but she couldn't say it, and when the two looked at each other, Xu Xun suddenly felt a heartache, and she said blankly, "Liu Zhien, my menstrual affairs are coming." ”

Liu Zhien was obviously suffocated, and extremely obvious disappointment flashed on his face, and for a while, he couldn't even interject the words. Just took a few steps back and sat on the edge of the kang blankly.

The room suddenly fell into a very oppressive, extremely low silence.

"Liu Zhien......" I don't know how long it took, Xu Xun's low voice sounded again.

"Slave." Yoo Ji-eun replied softly.

"Your father-in-law...... Have you ever told your fortune? ”

Liu Zhien was a little inexplicable, and he replied truthfully, "Although the slave maid's father-in-law is an all-round talent in civil and military affairs, he has not dabbled in the way of life. ”

stumbled obviously, and Liu Zhien looked up, but she had already raised her hand to hide her face, and daxiao.

She laughed so that Liu Zhien felt cold, but before she could interrupt, the suddenly stopped laughing.

There was silence again in the room.

"Yoo Ji-eun?" It's monotonous, it's mechanical.

"Slave." Yoo Ji-eun tried to answer steadily.

"You...... What are you entering the palace for? There was no emotion in' voice, it was like gossip.

Liu Zhien looked at Xu Xun.

This is a very beautiful woman.

She is in her prime, although she is a little less haggard and dressed very plainly, but after all, she is in full bloom, and even so, it is not very moving. Usually, like a very elegant flower, in the light smile, her beauty is inadvertently contaminated into the wardrobe, as if the fragrance of flowers is lingering, lingering and difficult to go.

But now, this flower has lost its soul, and the have lost their luster in their eyes, and she looks at herself as if she is looking at a blank space. Although her posture was so elegant, Liu Zhien could clearly feel how desperate she was.

He sighed, barely cheered up, and knelt down beside Xu Xun.

"Uncle slave maid, who was once the prefect of Guizhou, Guangxi," he whispered, "because of the maintenance of the Jianshu people and the support of Fang Rebellion, he was beheaded for all crimes." At the time of the incident, the slave and maid were still in infancy, so they were spared death, and together with their mother, they were confiscated into the official slavery. Later, when he was ten years old, there was a shortage of people in the palace, so he put the slaves and maids into the palace. ”

moved, and she whispered, "Ah......"

After a while, she asked again, "Then you were ...... After cleaning...... Is it uncomfortable? ”

"It's uncomfortable." Yoo Ji-eun said in a deep voice, "I feel like I've lost something important...... I'll never get better in my life, and at that time, I hated to die in bed, get on, and never come down. Every day when I close my eyes, I wish I never had to open them again. Every time I open my eyes, I am very disappointed in God, God has no eyes, I am not dead yet. ”

looked at him for a while, and suddenly, she cried.

She threw herself on her knees and twitched silently, her pale cyan skirt getting wet and dark.

"Yoo Ji-eun," her words were interrupted by snorting, and said intermittently, "You know, I really want to go out, I...... I sometimes feel that this palace is ...... The terrible place in this palace is not for you to die, but for you to feel that there is no point in living...... I really want to go out, the last time I begged my eldest brother, I was sincere, I was sincere......"

Liu Zhien raised his hand, he hesitated for a long time before slowly patting Xu Xun on the shoulder.

"Mother." He whispered, "Listen to me." ”

Concubine Xu Zhuang slowly stopped crying and slowly raised her head.

This is a very lost and depressed face, although she was born well, but it is not charming at all, the expression on her face is really too miserable, so miserable that people can't even see it, so they can only turn their heads away.

"There are some things in this world that we can't allow ourselves to decide." Liu Zhien looked at Xu Xun and said very steadily, very steadily. "It's like a slave Yanggen, if you lose it, you lose it, and you can't get it back. As long as you are alive in the world, you can only face this fact. If the mother has no heirs in her life, it means that there are no heirs, whether you are buried or not, you will face this day after all. When you are afraid of being buried, it becomes very boring to live, and you are always afraid, always counting, always worrying...... But if you accept the fact of martyrdom and accept the words of this day, you will only die left and right, what else do you have to fear? ”

Xu Xun looked at Liu Zhien blankly. Her small mouth opened slightly, turning into a question oval.

"Huh?" She said softly.

"Life is given by heaven, but life is lived by people. Entering the palace is the life of a slave. Yoo Ji-eun continued, "As long as you want to live, you have to accept it, being happy is a day, and being unhappy is also a day." The slave and maid accepted their fate and did not think about the rebirth of the severed limbs, so after seeing this, every day was very satisfied. The sin of Zhulian can take away my limbs, but it can't take away my peace and happiness, Niangniang, do you understand this truth? There are some things that no one can take away if you don't want to. ”

A trace of surprise flashed on' face, and she slowly stopped her tears, as if she was thinking deeply about Liu Zhien's words. But Liu Zhien unexpectedly regretted it a little - today, he really talked too much.

"You get some rest first." He changed his words again, "The matter of the heir, the future is long, so why rush for a while? Slaves...... Come back to you another day! ”

With that, he stood up, stepped on the broken porcelain, and hurried out of the room.

――After walking for a long time, I felt a slight pain in the soles of my feet. Liu Zhien looked back, and realized that before he knew it, he had stepped out of the bloody footprints all the way.

The author has something to say: Hey, it's not easy for Xiaoyanagi, and he has to make a cameo appearance as a psychiatrist

This chapter is really painful to write.,I knew last night I couldn't get stuck.,It's been stuck for a long time today.,It was supposed to be a chapter with yesterday.,But yesterday I wasn't in good health.,Emotions can't really brew.。

It's brewing today.