When Yan Yan was tired of crying and went to sleep and woke up again, she found that her body was a little shaky, not like lying on the chuang, this little girl was stunned for a while, and her ignorant consciousness gradually woke up, and she returned to the cage, only then did she see that she was not at home, but in the car.

Yan Yan's red and swollen eyes still had some tears that had not dried up, her fleshy little hands hugged her mother's waist, and asked in a soft voice, "Mom, where are we going?" ”

Lan Zhixin's heart trembled, the corners of her mouth swallowed a wry smile, and said softly: "Let's go see my grandparents, I haven't seen you for a while, don't you miss your grandparents?" ”

Although Yan Yan is clever, she is only a five-year-old child after all, and she trusts her mother's words very much, so she didn't think much about it immediately, nodded again and again, and said in a childish voice: "I want to eat the red date cake made by my grandmother." ”

"Okay, you can eat jujube cake when you get there in a while." Lan Zhixin's gentle tone didn't sound the slightest bit unusual, but her heart was extremely bitter, and her mood was extremely heavy.

It didn't take long to get home.

Lan Zhixin's mother was so happy that she almost cried when she saw her daughter and granddaughter coming back, but she didn't see Lan Zhixin's father come out......

It turned out that as early as last month, Lan Zhixin's father fell, and then he was lying * recuperating from his injuries, and he had just taken medicine and had fallen asleep.

Yan Yan actually likes her grandparents very much, but compared with her mother, of course she loves her mother more. But I haven't seen my grandmother for a few days, and as soon as Xiao Yanyan entered the door, she got into her grandmother's arms, and shouted sweetly with her little mouth, which was very cute. There was a lot of laughter in the house all of a sudden, and some of the dull atmosphere was swept away.

Lan Zhixin already knew about her father's injury, she also sent some money home, and after getting 30,000 yuan in compensation last time, she also remitted 10,000 yuan, and she didn't move the remaining 20,000 yuan, keeping it for Yan Yan to go to school.

Now it's still early before the end of the meal, Yan Yan is playing with the little flower cat in the yard, her grandmother is making red date cakes for her, and Lan Zhixin is also helping in the kitchen.

It's rare for her daughter to come back, Lan's mother is very happy, she always has a smile on her face, but she is most concerned about her daughter's marriage, every time she calls or sees Lan Zhixin, Lan's mother will ask about this matter.

This time, Lan Zhixin can only disappoint her mother, she has no boyfriend, let alone marriage......

But the more important question than this is about Yan Yan, which is why Lan Zhixin rushed home in a hurry.

Lan Zhixin looked back at the kitchen door and made sure that Yan Yan was not eavesdropping, so she lowered her voice and said to her mother, "Mom...... Tomorrow morning, I'll ......"

What Lan Zhixin said later, her voice was too low to hear clearly, but she could see Lan Mu frowning worriedly......

At dinner, Lan Zhixin's father had already woken up, and when he saw his daughter and granddaughter returning, the old man's spirit improved a little, and he came down on crutches, and the family had a happy dinner.

Red date cake is Yan Yan's favorite pastry, made by her grandmother, fragrant, soft and glutinous, and it is also a snack that Yan Yan is used to eating in the countryside.

The little flower cat was pulled by Yan Yan's tail, very helpless and aggrieved meow, but she was very obedient to Yan Yan, friendly, one person and one cat had a lot of fun, plus there was a long-lost red date cake to eat, as well as the love of grandparents and grandmothers, and there was a mother's * drowning, Yan Yan slept very soundly this night, and listened to her mother's story before going to bed, and fell asleep with a smile on her tender little face.

In the dead of night, the sleeping child is like a drunk little angel, with thick eyelashes flickering on his red face, and his small mouth sometimes holding fingers and sometimes muttering something softly, full of cuteness.

At five o'clock in the morning, slowly, the silence of the night was broken, and there was a slight sound.

The sound of squirting and getting dressed was very soft, and Lan Zhixin got down from the chuang like a thief, got dressed, and looked at the sleeping child reluctantly. The beautiful natural curly hair seems to be Mo Lian blooming on a white pillow, the innocent sleeping face makes people can't bear to be disturbed, the skin that can be broken by blowing is more tender than the flower bones, the little hands and feet are almost translucent and crystal in the faint light, and the fleshy face makes people can't help but feel like kissing and pinching it......

The little cute baby loves to hold her fingers when she sleeps, and a trace of silver-white transparent silk thread flows from the corner of her mouth......

Lan Zhixin stood in front of Chuang, and endured and endured to force herself not to go up and kiss this lovely child...... She almost bit her lower lip and bled blood, the pain supported her to stay awake, she couldn't kiss Yan Yan at this time, otherwise, if she woke up Yan Yan, she was afraid that she would soften her heart under Yan Yan's crying.

And she was so eager to bring Yanyan back just to keep the child. So she could only leave before Yan Yan woke up, and it was not yet dawn outside.

What is the heart like a knife, Lan Zhixin once again realized that this painful taste can make people's hearts and intestines break, as if the whole person has fallen into the abyss.

Who said that only the pain of love in the world is the most tormenting, for a mother, separated from her child, this pain of digging out her heart and lungs is no less than parting with her beloved life.

Ordinary families may not be able to experience such a tangle as Lan Zhixin, not only to hide Yan Yan's life experience, but also to take into account their own economic conditions, as well as the situation of their parents, Yan Yan's mood, and everything they can do. Reality, too many constraints, bind people's hands and feet, and people have to struggle and compromise in torment...... Now Lan Zhixin can only compromise temporarily, leave Yan Yan in the countryside, and then take Yan Yan to the city to go to primary school a few months later, when the mother and daughter can be together every day.

Every step towards the door is like slashing your heart with a knife. Lan Zhixin forced herself not to look back, and walked out of the house with difficulty, with a chill on her back.

A figure came out of the other room, it was Lan Zhixin's mother.

The mother and daughter glanced at each other, and their helplessness and distress were all in their words.

Out of this house and into the yard, Mother Lan sighed and was very heartbroken, and said earnestly: "When Yan Yan wakes up in a while, she will definitely cry and make a fuss to find you, and the child should suffer again." ”

Lan Zhixin didn't know this, but she had to do it, Yan Yan's hand was injured today, although it was not a big problem, but it made the mother's heart afraid, in case she was not at home Yan Yan had a mistake, it would be useless for her to cry to death at that time. Even if Yan Yan can't do without her, even if Yan Yan will cry to death, Lan Zhixin can't be soft-hearted anymore, and this time she must leave Yan Yan to be taken care of by her grandmother. At least there are people at home every day, and Yanyan is taken care of, and there is less danger.

"Mom...... I can't help it, Yanyan relies on me too much, but in the city, I go to work every day, and I leave her alone at home...... When I go to work, I'm scared. I can't hurt Yanyan because of my soft-heartedness, so I'll let her stay here for a few months now, and in the second half of the year, when school starts, I'll pick her up. ”

"But...... Yan Yan's eyes...... Will you go to elementary school in the city and meet those children who bully Yan Yan and say that she is a monster? Lan Mu's eyes turned red when she talked about this, and her heart ached more and more.

Lan Zhixin was also worried, but she could only comfort her mother: "Mom, the children in the city are still a little different from the children in the countryside, and the management of the school is also standardized. ”

Hearing her daughter say this, Lan's mother relaxed a little, and sighed faintly: "I can only pray like this, Yanyan's child is so pitiful, you said that if her eyes were black, wouldn't there be no such trouble?" Daughter, how long are you going to hide it from us? Who is Yan Yan's father? ”

“……”

This topic is the heaviest and most taboo in the family, Lan Zhixin heard this, her face stiffened, and she smiled at her mother: "Mom, I've said it many times, and I don't know the identity of that man...... Don't ask about that. I'm leaving, or I won't be able to go to work. ”

Mother Lan saw her daughter go away, and reluctantly waved goodbye...... Although the countryside is not very far from the city, two hours by car, but for busy people who work in the city, it is not possible to come every day, and this visit, psychologically, it feels like a long way away.

Lan Zhixin regards women as her life, and the happiest day is when Yan Yan is by her side, and now she has to send Yan Yan to the countryside again, and her mood can be imagined how sad she is.

The sky was a little cloudy, Lan Zhixin stood at the corner of the village entrance and looked at the familiar house, the dim light, let the cold wind blow in the early morning, dripping two lines of tears, boiling hot, floating into the wind and disappearing......

"Yan Yan...... Mom is sorry for you and can only leave while you are asleep. If mom sees you crying, she will definitely be reluctant and soft-hearted...... Forgive your mother, child, you must know that your mother loves you, and if you are not forced to do so, your mother will not be willing to let you leave your side...... But it won't be too long, four months at most, and your mother will pick you up...... Yan Yan baby, you have to be obedient, your mother will miss your ......" These words kept repeating in Lan Zhixin's heart until she couldn't cry, until she cried and fell to the side of the road.

The mental and psychological pressure makes Lan Zhixin breathless, and sometimes she really has an urge to take Yan Yan away from this bustling world and go to a place where no one knows and will not be found.

Lan Zhixin cried so much that she was exhausted, and when she stepped on the bus back, she was still immersed in sadness. The reluctance to her daughter tugged at her heart deeply.

Back in the city, rushed to the company, it was only a few minutes before she was late, but fortunately, Lan Zhixin didn't delay halfway, and hurriedly, before Asa arrived at the office, she just arrived, and was in the pantry to make coffee for Assa.

In the pantry cabinet are transparent jars, which contain sugar, monosodium glutamate, chicken essence, and even chili sauce in addition to coffee mates...... This is put by colleagues in the company, because some people don't go to the canteen to eat at noon, sometimes they bring food from home, and if they feel that the taste is not enough, they will add some condiments to it.

After Lan Zhixin arrived at the company today, she was in a trance, obviously infocused, and her mind was full of thinking about Yan Yan, so that when she was making coffee for Yasa, she didn't pay attention to what she was adding to it...... [More to come later]