Xia Qi recalled the scene at that time. At that time, he had been looking at her with beautiful but empty eyes, and he looked at her with a straight hair, thinking that he was going to rush up and fight her. But who knew that until she played with the sand and was about to go home, he didn't rush up to fight with her, let alone say a word to her, just followed her all the way home, and even grabbed her skirt when she didn't let him follow.

At that time, compared with now, his expression was even less pitiful. It was like a wooden man, she asked, and he answered. If she didn't ask anything, he could even squat beside her all day, without saying a word.

Xia Qi thought that Jun Jinyan would recall his first encounter when he was a child with her, but he didn't expect him to say lightly, "I don't remember." ”

"Don't remember?" She was surprised. He has always had a good memory, and he can almost be described as a "monster". At the beginning, Xia Qi could almost be said to use Jun Jinyan as an encyclopedic dictionary, and she didn't need to look up many questions in the book, she could get the answers by asking him directly.

"yes, I don't remember." He looked away, avoiding her gaze.

Xia Qi didn't think much about it, "If you don't remember, you can't remember, it's a long time ago." It's like I used to play with a little boy in this little sandpit and draw a picture of him in the sandpit with a branch, but now, I don't remember what he looked like. ”

The only thing she remembered was that the boy was just like her, without a father, only a mother. Maybe it was a sympathetic relationship, but she remembered that she seemed to say a lot to the other person.

Other children, he said, liked to call him an illegitimate child.

She said that there is nothing to be ashamed of having an illegitimate child, because she is also an illegitimate child, but because her mother loves her very much, she is not afraid at all.

She also drew a picture for the other party to see, but the time was too long, and now she can't remember what she painted at the time, but she only remembers that she was babbling while painting, and then, the other party seemed to be very hesitant to say, "Can we be friends?" As if she was afraid of being rejected.

How did she answer? It's like, "We're already good friends."

She thought she would see the boy the next day, and made an appointment with him that if anyone called him an illegitimate child again, she would help him beat him up.

But in the next few days, she was pestered by Jun Jinyan, and she couldn't come to this small sand pit at all, and when she could come here to play, she never saw the little boy again.

Xia Qi said to herself, squatted down, picked up the small branches on the ground, and drew them casually in the sand pit like she did when she was a child, not paying attention to it, Jun Jinyan's face at this time showed an unnatural paleness, and the hands that fell to his side were tightly clenched into fists.

The dark eyes looked fixedly at the squatting figure of the person in front of him. Once, here he was, he had seen her smile at another boy, so warm, so bright.

It is precisely because of that smile that he, who has never known what "wants", suddenly has a kind of "wanting" YU hope. He wanted her to smile at him like that, to keep her eyes firmly on him, to play with him, to tell him that they were already good friends!

There were so many wants that he was reluctant to look away, just staring at her without blinking, afraid that if he was not careful, she would disappear.

He followed her, wherever she went, he went, and when she was about to drive him away, he only knew that Lu Dao clung to the hem of her skirt, and refused to leave a step no matter what.

At that time, he didn't understand why he would have so much "want" for her, and now, he finally knew that he had the truth, perhaps, that was the so-called love at first sight.

At the first glance, when he looked at her from a distance and smiled, his world, which had been closed, cracked because of her smile.

The crack grew bigger and bigger, until it pulled her into his realm.

"It's been a long time since I've been drawing and writing on the bunker, so would you like to have some fun with you?" Xia Qi asked with interest.

"Stop drawing!" The cold voice suddenly sounded on the top of her head, and Jun Jinyan looked at the garden drawn by Xia Qi in the sand pit with heavy eyes.

"Come on, didn't I take you here to paint when you were a child!" She hadn't noticed anything strange about him, and while she kept her head down and continued to draw, she raised her hand and raised it in his direction, beckoning him to come quickly.

"I said, stop drawing!" His voice rose sharply, and he grabbed her arm, snatched the branch that was used as a paintbrush in her hand, and threw it aside.

Xia Qi looked at Jun Jinyan in surprise, "What's wrong with you?" At this moment, he was like a violent lion, full of a feeling of anxiety and impatience. It's completely different from his usual indifference.

His lips trembled, and the hand holding her arm let go, but then he clenched it tighter, "It's nothing. ”

But his face at this moment is obviously ugly and deadly! "Really nothing?" She clearly didn't believe it.

"Hmm." He pursed his lips and said suddenly, "There's nothing to stay here, I'm hungry, let's go back." With that, he pulled her away from the bunker without saying a word.

If she stayed any longer, he was afraid that she would remember more things, of the things he tried so hard to hide.

Things he wished she never thought about.

Along the way, Jun Jinyan was unusually silent, and even Xia Qi deliberately found various topics to chat with him, but he was absent-minded.

Back in the apartment, Xia Qi was washing vegetables in the kitchen, while Jun Jinyan stood beside her, not saying a word, like a sculpture.

Xia Qi washed the dishes, and when he turned around, he saw Jun Jinyan with his head down, his eyes drooping lightly, and he didn't know what Lu Dao was thinking.

"What the hell is wrong with you today?" Xia Qi asked, as if something was wrong with him since the bunker, "If I said something wrong, or did something wrong, then I could tell me directly, instead of being bored in my heart." ”

"You didn't say anything wrong, you didn't do anything wrong." His eyelashes trembled slightly, and Jun Jinyan raised his head slightly and said, "The one who said and did the wrong thing is me." ”

"What do you mean?" She asked, confused.

He pursed his lips tightly, as if he obviously didn't want to say anything. If he had been asked to make a choice, he would have made the same decision.