Chapter 165: Fear
This night, Xia Hanqiu stayed at Xia's house.
When she was nearly eighteen years old, she slept in the same bed with her mother for the first time in her memory, and the feeling of being carefully cared for made her very nostalgic.
In other words, he also gave her this feeling, but it was just family affection and could not be replaced.
Xia Wei was absent from all the processes of her daughter from childhood to the present, she couldn't wait to understand, asked one question after another, Xia Hanqiu was not impatient at all, she answered whatever her mother asked, and gently brought it if it was not so pleasant, and said a few more words about happy things.
The two mothers and daughters both want to make up for the missing years, if it weren't for Xia Hanqiu thinking about her mother's body, I'm afraid that there would be endless words in the morning.
Pretending to be asleep for only half an hour, the person next to the pillow breathed for a long time, Xia Hanqiu opened his eyes, quietly looked at his mother's sleeping face for a long time before he got up quietly, gathered the quilt tightly, opened the door and walked out.
She didn't know that the person she thought was asleep was looking at her back as she walked out with his eyes open.
Although they don't get along much, but the mother and daughter are connected, how can Xia Wei not see that her daughter is pretending to be in her heart, and then thinking of the crying during the day today, no matter how worried she is, she can only pretend to be in her heart, and remind herself from time to time that even if she can't help her daughter, she must not make trouble for her.
She doesn't want to disrupt her daughter's life because of her return, and she doesn't want to become a stumbling block for her daughter, if possible, she wants to be a stepping stone for her daughter to help her go higher, better, and more stable.
With a long sigh, Xia Wei closed her eyes again and tried to make herself asleep, just for the sake of her children, she also had to take good care of her body. lest they have to worry about themselves.
Xia Hanqiu, who walked out of the door, did not go far.
Standing under the porch and looking up at the dark sky, even at this hour, it still made her feel gloomy and depressed.
It's not that she's not sleepy, she just doesn't dare to sleep.
The images she had seen during the day were still in her mind, and she tried hard to get out, but even a happy event like today could not calm her down, and the occasional flash of a face in front of her eyes was enough to make her distracted.
She was afraid that if she fell asleep, these people would fall into her dreams, and if she couldn't get rid of them in her dreams, where else could she flee to?
There is a flower in front of me, and there is already an extra cloak on my shoulder, so I don't need to turn my head to look at it. With this familiar smell, she also knew who it was.
"Why did you come here at this time? You are not afraid of being thrown out as a disciple. ”
Duan Ziyi held her hand. She was very dissatisfied with the cold touch, but she couldn't say anything reproachful to this person, so she had to clench it hard and warm her with her own body heat. "Your mother is asleep?"
"Yes."
I looked left and right. Duan Ziyi asked her. "Where is the right fit? Go inside and talk, it's cool outside. ”
This courtyard is next to the main house, and Ke Shi only sent someone to clean it up today. I put a lot of thought into it, and even if I first moved in, I didn't feel unpopular.
Xia Hanqiu pulled people into the small hall.
The maid on duty at night was stunned when she saw the two of them coming in hand in hand, and she was stunned and even forgot to salute.
"Bring me a pot of boiling water." Duan Ziyi glanced at the two of them and ordered.
The two looked at each other, suppressed the surprise in their hearts, one stayed here to wait, and the other went to get water.
The water is ready-made, just in the ear room next to it, and it was quickly brought over, just when the two of them were about to step forward to wait, Xia Hanqiu looked up at the two, "Let's all go down, there is no need to wait here." ”
The two hesitated for a moment, and finally withdrew.
Duan Ziyi poured a glass of white water for the two of them, "Warm your hands." ”
Xia Hanqiu took it obediently, thinking that her mother said that she couldn't always keep a calm face, and tried to make herself look relaxed, not to say that she wanted to laugh, at least not with a sad face, "I have put away the two keys and given them all to me, what should you do when you want to do something?" ”
"Looking for you, I don't give you all the belongings I saved outside, and when I really need something, will you give it to me?"
Xia Hanqiu curled the corners of her lips, "If you make me unhappy one day, or do something sorry for me, what if I take these and avoid you?" ”
"It may be possible to make you unhappy, but it is impossible to do something sorry for you, I still have confidence in myself, if I am such a person who can't control myself, how can I have today." Duan Ziyi touched the corners of her raised mouth, and suddenly changed the topic, "Don't you dare to sleep, do you?" ”
Xia Hanqiu's expression froze, lowered his head, and then gave a gentle sigh.
"I knew what I should have thought of during the day." Duan Ziyi blamed himself a little, "I asked Ge Mu to fry the medicine to calm the nerves, and he will send it over after the decoction, and you can sleep peacefully after drinking it." ”
There is someone who cares about you like this, and blames himself for not thinking enough about it, Xia Hanqiu feels heartwarming and sweet, and feels a little funny, how do you feel that the wall of the Xia family seems to exist at all for other words, come when you want to, leave when you want, like entering no man's land.
"Don't worry, I've already sent out the people, he will hurry to the Yan Kingdom and do his best to redeem it, no matter what the result is, we did our best, didn't we? Don't carry this on our backs, we just have to do our best to obey God's destiny. ”
"I know, but I just can't let go of it, like being forced to think about it, my head hurts."
Duan Ziyi sat beside her and took her into his arms, and said softly: "Close your eyes and rest for a while, if you really want to do something, you can think about our marriage." ”
Xia Hanqiu smiled, she really closed her eyes and thought about it, the warm body temperature of the people around her kept coming, she felt warm all over, she didn't need to say anything, compared to the heavy mood when she went out of the room, her mood was much better unconsciously.
"Ahem......"
Ge Mu looked at the sky and the earth, and he didn't dare to look at the two people hugging each other, but in this weather, the medicine was going to be cold soon, so he had to risk being cleaned up by the prince to remind the two of them of his arrival.
Duan Ziyi glanced at him lightly, "Take it in." ”
This is almost inappropriate, and it was looked at, Xia Hanqiu didn't dare to look up to Ge Mu, pretending to be full of indifference, but the hand on his lap was twisted.
Under the warning of the prince's eyes, Ge Mu didn't dare to say half a word, put down the medicine and left quickly.
Duan Ziyi scooped up a spoonful and put it to his mouth to test the temperature, "It's just the entrance, it's not bitter, and ......I drank it in one go."
Xia Hanqiu is not a squeamish person, and before Duan Ziyi's coaxing words were finished, she had already picked up the bowl and drank it all, it was indeed not bitter, but it was not much taste.
Duan Ziyi didn't know where to find a candied fruit and stuffed it into her mouth, and when she chewed out the sweetness, her frowning brows dispersed.
"It's not early, let's go back to sleep."
Xia Hanqiu's hand reacted faster than her brain, pulling Duan Ziyi's sleeve and not letting go, she even thought that Weishenme was just hiring today instead of getting married! If it is a marriage, at this time, the two can share the same bed and sleep clearly, and she will feel much more at ease when she is by her side.
Duan Ziyi was stunned at first, then happy, his thoughts turned around, and he said tentatively: "There is still a spare bedroom, if you don't worry about being said to be disgusted, I will wait here for you to fall asleep and send you back to the room before leaving." ”
Xia Hanqiu decided that as long as she hugged her, she wouldn't have nightmares, and she couldn't care less when she heard him say this, so she nodded again and again, and the hand holding his sleeve tightened.
Being so relied on by the person on the tip of his heart, Duan Ziyi deeply understood how important he was in Qiu'er's heart at this moment, and besides, he and Qiu'er were now close to the church, and it was nothing to be close.
Thinking like this, Duan Ziyi sat closer to Qiu'er, grabbed the person with one hand, and covered the two of them with the other hand, tightened it tightly, rubbed his head against his head gently, and his heart softened into a puddle of water, "Don't be afraid, sleep." ”
Xia Hanqiu rubbed back satisfied, wrapped his hand around the man's waist, and soon fell asleep.
Duan Ziyi didn't move for a long time, he knew that Qiu'er was asleep, and he could send people back to the house to sleep comfortably, but he just couldn't bear it.
The closer he gets, the closer he gets, the more he feels dissatisfied, he wants to tie people to him all the time, he doesn't have this opportunity at night on weekdays, and now he finally has it, he just wants to make this moment a little longer.
If only tomorrow was the eighth day of the fourth month, Duan Ziyi sighed lightly.
There was a sound of footsteps outside the door, Duan Ziyi thought it was a subordinate, and he didn't pay attention to it until the footsteps stopped at the door, and he didn't look at it until he didn't come in or leave.
"Madame!"
Xia Wei knew that she should be angry, at night, lonely men and widows were in the same room, if it was spread out, even if her daughter and this person had already been decided, her reputation would be ruined.
But she didn't fall asleep at the beginning, she heard the conversation between the two outside the door clearly, knowing that her daughter was weishenme and not sleeping, knowing that this man was from weishenme, she couldn't get angry.
Duan Ziyi glanced down at the person in his arms, moved his hand up from his shoulder to cover her ear, and said in a low voice, "I'm sorry, madam, I was rude." ”
"I'm not that ignorant." Xia Wei sat down opposite the two, looking at her daughter's sleeping face and couldn't help sighing, "What should I do now?" Does she have to sleep like this to fall asleep? ”
Duan Ziyi didn't know how much his mother-in-law knew, and he didn't want to talk nonsense, so he said vaguely: "Qiu'er doesn't sleep well, when Qiu'er sleeps more peacefully, I'll send her back to the room." ”
"I know Qiu'er's identity, she told me and my younger siblings."
Duan Ziyi was silent for a moment, "Qiu'er trusts you. ”
"Yes, believe me as a mother." Xia Wei sighed, her words were full of distress, "I don't know what she endured, and I don't dare to ask, it's just ...... Is there really no way to make it easier for her? It's too hard for her to be like this, and I'd rather she bother to get along with her mother-in-law than be tortured like this. ”
"There's no way, if there was a way, I would have used it a long time ago." Duan Ziyi smiled bitterly, since he knew Qiu'er's identity, he went to check a lot of secrets, and even let people sneak into the library of the Shangdu Palace, and there were not many things found, and the occasional mention of a few words was just a boast, and he had nothing to do about it.
Asking about inaction, inaction is just a sigh. (To be continued......)