Unconsciously it was more than ten years.

It was already late spring, the air was full of water vapor, and the grass under the eaves was moistened into a piece of emerald green, Queen Wang came out of the house, and was about to step down the steps, but when her eyes slid through the cracks in the stone slabs, she was unconsciously frozen.

Although it is said that the warbler flies and the grass grows, it also depends on where the grass grows, and the grass can grow on the stone slab under the eaves, and it has not been pulled out when it grows so long, which shows how careless the people who clean the house are.

"Mother's mistake." Concubine Wan Chen-Wan Immortal Master saw it at a glance, so she said with a smile, "I won't let it be pulled out, the ants are still stealing, and it is not easy to grow out of the cracks in the stones, so let it grow." ”

Empress Wang was relieved, nodded and smiled, "Let's go, they should have all arrived at Qingning Palace." ”

Not far from Chang'an Palace to Qingning Palace, the two of them walked in the car, and soon entered the palace of carved beams and paintings, as Queen Wang said, in addition to her and Wan Xianshi, the people who should arrive such as Xizong Zhou Concubine, Hang De Concubine, Tang Huang Guifei, Li Xian Concubine, Changde Eldest Princess, Shanhua Eldest Princess and others, have all arrived, and when they saw the queen come in, they saluted, "Niangniang is well." ”

Queen Wang was thoughtful, motioned for everyone to get up, and said hello one by one, but she didn't bother with Concubine Hang - since the two had a conflict over the ownership of the crown prince many years ago, Queen Wang never pretended to Concubine Hang on any occasion, if she hadn't fallen out of favor for a long time, after the death of the prince eight years ago, Concubine Hang would have had a hard time gaining a foothold in the palace.

"Let's all go inside." She said, "Niangniang should have been freshened up." ”

Saying that, sure enough, someone came out and made a code, and the group went into the inner room and greeted the Queen Mother, "Niangniang is blessed and longevity." ”

"If you don't come, you forget." The Queen Mother has changed into a dress to meet guests, although she is still in the mourning period of the Holy Empress Dowager, it is not good to wear red and green, but she is no longer a vegetarian, she smiled peacefully, "Sit down." ”

The Holy Empress Dowager went last autumn, and the people in the palace are still in the mourning period, so naturally they can't celebrate the birthday of the Empress Dowager, but how to say it, this one is also an elder with the same status as the Empress Dowager, and it is also appropriate to come to say hello on her birthday. No, early in the morning, everyone gathered in Qingning Palace with a tacit understanding, just waiting for the Queen Mother to get up and go in to say hello.

"Why didn't you see the prince?" The Queen Mother's eyes circled around the room, and she also asked Concubine Li Xian.

Concubine Li Xian was busy owing, "Yesterday I was playful, I took off my coat when I sweated, and now I have some nasal congestion, so the concubine will let him rest in the palace, and today is also a homework." ”

The prince born to Concubine Hang, who died eight years ago, and the current prince was just canonized after he turned ten years old last year, and he was born to Concubine Li Xian. Empress Wang has always been friendly with her, and when she heard this, she said, "But be careful, this season is the most likely to catch a cold and fever." ”

Even though she has been unfavored for many years, and her relationship with the emperor is so cold that she doesn't say a few words when she meets, as long as her identity is here, Concubine Li Xian is still sincerely afraid of her, and when she heard the queen say this, she stood up and replied, "Niangniang is right, the concubine must be careful." ”

Tang Huang Guifei looked over with a pair of wonderful eyes, and finished reading the conversation between the two without blinking, her red lips turned up slightly, revealing a smile of unknown meaning, and then turned to the eldest princess of Shanhua, and asked affectionately, "Why didn't the fourth sister bring the children in to play today?" ”

The eldest princess of Shanhua said with a smile, "I was going to bring it, but when I entered the palace to play yesterday, like the second brother, I took off my clothes because of the heat, and I also felt the cold." ”

Concubine Li Xian smiled at her, and the eldest princess of Shanhua also bent her eyes at her casually, turned to the queen mother, and asked with concern, "When I came in last time, you said that your back hurt, are you feeling better now?" ”

These twists and turns and intrigues of the juniors, the queen mother's eyes swept away, and she didn't see them all, but she didn't want to get involved in all the things of the juniors, and it was enough to watch them on the wall.

"It's much better, but when the seasons change, I have some cough." She was somewhat self-deprecating, "After all, I am old, old and sick, and when I went to the Holy Queen Mother, I also said that I have to be inferior to my body in this life, you see, it has only been less than a year, and I will not be able to do it soon." ”

"Birthday." The eldest princess of Shanhua was unhappy, "What are you talking about!" ”

Everyone also smiled and persuaded the Queen Mother, and Queen Wang's expression was slightly restrained: It's also a shame that the Queen Mother can whitewash these words to this extent. Before and after the death of the Holy Queen Mother, she has always been on the side.

'The body and bones are not as good as you', the Holy Queen Mother did say this, but it was not this tone, this wording, what she said was, "Unexpectedly, in the end, you can't even survive, and you will be defeated." ”

At that time, the Queen Mother shook her head and sighed, also with a tone of complaint, "At this point, is it interesting to say such things?" ”

The Holy Queen Mother was originally depressed, but after hearing about it, she also smiled with relief, and there was a bit of a smile and hatred between the two, which is true, but the words of the Holy Queen Mother were not the meaning that the Queen Mother said just now.

Of course, at this time, she would never debunk this matter, but lowered her eyebrows and listened to everyone flattering the Queen Mother, but by chance she glanced at the old man and saw her clear face with a casual smile, and knew that in fact, she didn't listen to these words at all, but it was just a false story.

Don't look at the people who are now also their grandchildren around their knees, in fact, the queen mother's temperament has always been very 'alone', and she has not been kind because of her age, and now she is sixty years old, and she should be thinking about her grandchildren all day long, but whether it is the prince and her younger siblings, or the children of the eldest princess, the queen mother is spoiled but not spoiled, although she is also teasing the children with a pleasant face, but she has never been the same as ordinary folk grandmothers, and she is overjoyed when she sees her grandchildren. Usually except for going out for a walk, occasionally listening to the play, there is no extra hobby, although Qingning Palace is often crowded with people, but in the eyes of Queen Wang, the bleak place, but it is by no means inferior to the Kunning Palace where she lives.

“…… In the spring of the previous year, there were about two rains. I don't know who talked about the climate, "This year is a lot of rain, and it is warm quickly, and the spring rain is as expensive as oil, so farmers should be happy." ”

"Isn't it?" The Queen Mother finally came back to her senses, "I don't know what happened to the flood situation in the Jiangnan area, I just hope that the wind and rain will be smooth." Last year, it was either drought or flooding, and it was really tossed enough, and the emperor's body was weak, so he was tired and sick a few times at that time. ”

While he was talking, the emperor also entered the house, Wan Xianshi and Concubine Xizong Zhou hurriedly avoided the adjacent room, and Empress Wang led the concubines forward and greeted the emperor, "Are you going down to court?" ”

"Hmm." The emperor nodded, didn't pay much attention to the queen, and stepped forward to salute the queen mother, "The child has asked the mother to say goodbye, the mother will live a long life and live a long life - for a while, the child will accompany you to eat longevity noodles, you will reward me with a few more, and let the child touch your blessings." ”

The Queen Mother was amused by him, "One is one bowl, how many bowls do you want to eat?" ”

Everyone gossiped for a while, and the imperial kitchen had already sent several bowls of exquisite longevity noodles, and everyone ate a bowl, which was regarded as the blessing of the queen mother. This year's birthday, even if it is over, the emperor and the queen mother are planning, "Next year's birthday, let's do a good ......"

"Why be so extravagant, when I was fifty years old, I was tired of tossing. It's just a birthday, and it's not fun to work too hard and lose money. "The Queen Mother has never been keen on this kind of thing." Let's have a meal and watch a play together, and that's about it. ”

The emperor smiled, "My mother is still the same, she said it well, she doesn't like extravagance, she doesn't say it well, she is afraid of trouble at all." ”

Everyone laughed and laughed, the emperor saw that the queen mother was tired, so he took the lead in getting up and retreating, everyone also retreated one after another, the queen still had something to go back to the queen mother, so she stayed one more step - but it was not a big deal, but this year coincided with the year of release, some details to ask the queen mother, because the queen mother was tired, she made a long story short, and also quickly ended the topic, Rao is so, but the queen mother is already exhausted, sneezed twice in succession, and coughed several times.

Everyone has only stayed for more than an hour, and the Queen Mother's energy is already so poor, it can be seen that the years are really unforgiving. Queen Wang also had some emotion in her heart, seeing that it was still early, she simply turned her head and went to Chang'an Palace again, recently she was very interested in Buddhism, and debated Buddhism with Wan Xianshi, often sitting for a whole day, and I don't feel how difficult it is to pass the time.

#也不知是谁身上带了病, Xu Xun was originally decent, after getting up in the morning to meet guests, he sneezed a few times, and in the afternoon he had a low-grade fever, so he asked the imperial doctor to prescribe a prescription, took a medicine, and slept groggily until midnight, but he couldn't sleep anymore when he opened his eyes. - The elderly don't sleep much, and after sleeping for so many hours, it is estimated that they will not want to close their eyes again until dawn.

There was a candle faintly lit outside the curtain, reflecting the outline of the interior, Xu Xun opened the tent, sat on the quilt for a while, looked at the changing shadows of the trees outside the window, and after a while, he exhaled softly, and smiled again; People say that dreaming back at midnight is the best time to miss the old man, but now it is 'like this star is not last night', but she doesn't know who to 'stand up for the middle of the night'. - Most of the deceased people in her life have passed away.

Mr. Xu, Mrs. Xu went, Brother Xu went, Jiangnan brought a letter a year ago, and Xu Xiaomei was also sick and had been bedridden for a long time.

Liu Zhien went a few years ago, and after returning to Yangzhou for only five years, he couldn't afford to be ill, and Ma Shi also went to the position of the eunuch of the commander of Dongchang - generally speaking, there are few waiters who live too long, and they are all considered to be old.

Empress Zhuang Su went, Prince Xianhuai went, Mama Zhao went, Mama Qian went, and the Empress Dowager went to the Holy Mother. Hua'er and Lan'er went out of the palace, Han Nushi went to the East Palace to teach the prince, and now in the Qingning Palace, finally not even a single acquaintance has disappeared, in addition to often entering the palace to see her Shanhua, the people who have more or less occupied a little position in her life have left her one after another. It's just to miss, and I don't know who to miss for a while.

"You'll live well," someone seemed to say in her ear, "and even if I die, you'll live well...... That's the kind of person you are. ”

She remembered the man who spoke, but she had forgotten his voice, and after his death, she had lived a good life for thirty years, thirty years was a long time, so long that the memories of him had gradually faded from her mind, and she had forgotten what he looked like, his voice, his smell, his joys and sorrows, and he was left with only a faint figure in her mind—but, after all, there were some remnants that could not be forgotten.

A gust of wind blew outside the window, Xu Xun couldn't hold back, and sneezed twice, the annoying slight heat spread up, wrapping around the limbs and hundreds of remains, although the fever was low this time, but even the fingertips were painful, and the heartbeat sounded in her ears, one by one, she quickly sank with the heat, struggling on the edge of dreaming and waking.

This is what I gave to Xu Xun. 'Someone's voice smiling,' —we don't have to be so polite. ’

'It's always so treasured. Someone Lang smiled and said, 'Will I call you a baby in the future?' ’

'Xu Xun, you-you-you're going to be angry with me? ’

You hate me, but I still want to be friends with you, and I have to be friends with you. ’

'The road goes to the sky, and you didn't say that to me?' ’

Xu Xun struggled with the accompaniment of these voices, she was very hot, she was thirsty all the time, but at the same time it was very cold, countless dreams haunted her, she dreamed that in the Nanjing Taisun Palace, Zhang Guifei rewarded her with a bowl of almond milk, 'hot, drink slowly.' ’

But she didn't dare to drink more, she was weak-hearted, she lost the blue treasure phoenix hairpin that her mother rewarded, which was a very valuable treasure, much more precious than the hairpin ring given to her by her grandson. The mother took her on a journey of all kinds of diseases, and they walked from the imperial garden to the south, all the way to the thousand gates, the lanterns were paved all the way, and a road was like the Milky Way in the sky.

The Aoshan lantern under the noon gate is also very beautiful, all the faces are smiling at her, these happy dreams, accompanied by her floating on the endless sea of suffering, she doesn't want to think of those, those faces full of resentment, those terrifying, unknown cries. She was so desperate to hold on to those smiling faces, she wanted to soak in the beauty and never come out.

But she couldn't escape, she could hear the low sobs, the bitter outpouring and □□, the long, creepy hiccups coming out of her throat before she died, she had heard it over and over in her dreams, she didn't want to be buried, she didn't want to die, she didn't want to die, she wanted to escape, who would save her, oh my God, who would save her?

'This road can only be walked by the mother herself. Some people say, 'What kind of person you are, only you decide.' ’

But she didn't want to decide, she was so fragile and panicked, she just wanted - she just wanted someone to protect her from such pain for a while.

'Mother. Someone was shouting, and she couldn't tell whether it was a man or a woman, 'Mother! Mother! Mother! ’

"Mother!"

Xu Xun woke up suddenly—all the weight suddenly returned.

The weight of the clothes, the weight of the quilt, and even the weight of the eyelids, she even had to spend a lot of effort to open her eyes, so she could only listen to Shanhua's crying call, "Mother! ”

She's going to die.

She thought, her heart was suddenly ethereal, she vaguely realized that this was her moment, although it was abrupt, but there was no death that was not abrupt, and it was not uncommon for a wind chill to take away a person.

"Don't cry." She said with all her might, "Water—"

Soon someone came to feed the water, as if Wang's voice flashed by the bedside, and not long after, the emperor also came to the bed, he held her hand, and Xu Xun vaguely saw the tears on his face.

"The family and the country are a thousand autumns," she wanted to say, but all she could say was an out-of-tune whisper, Xu Xunzhi did her best, gently squeezed the emperor's hand, and looked at her daughter again.

"Okay......" she had no strength, so she could only struggle and command, "Okay...... Ok ......"

You're all going to be fine.

As if a thunder flashed, she fell into the darkness, her heartbeat became louder and louder, louder and louder, Xu Xun had no sadness, no joy, no shock or fear, the past was flowing in front of her, the mistakes she had made, the people she loved, the tears she shed, the smiles she had bloomed, these things had never been forgotten by her, but she was buried deep in her heart.

There was another murmur, and she suddenly returned to reality, Xu Xun opened her eyes effortlessly, facing a room of people with extremely clear vision.

The past is all in her heart, her mind is extremely clear, her heart is extremely ethereal, and there is only one question that still lingers in her heart, even in such a state of mind, she cannot get the answer.

In addition to Xizong back then, was it right or wrong, and after she eliminated the possibility of Xizong's lineage and ascended to the throne again, what will happen to the world?

Maybe King Xiu could have become a generation of Ming monarchs, maybe the current crown prince is more absurd than Xizong, the future is hidden in a lot of fog, and every choice about the throne is a big gamble. Xu Xun can never be sure what she did, whether she won or lost, this confusion has accompanied her for 30 years, and today, it finally can't bother her anymore.

"How can it be as good as it should be, but please be worthy of my heart." She read.

For the grief that filled the room, whether true or false, Xu Xun suddenly wanted to laugh, and she smiled.

"What will happen in the future?"

She's going to die. After she dies, what will happen to the world, her choice is not right or wrong, it all depends on luck, so what will be her luck?

What will happen to her when she dies? What does the world look like after death? Will there be reincarnation? Will there be hell, will there be a pure land? Will she see her old people in life, or will she sleep forever in darkness?

In any case, she will eventually leave this court, and death will be a new beginning. Before her death, she understood that she was worthy of herself, no matter what the circumstances were after death, Xu Xun thought, I will always continue to go like this.

She was finally able to get out.

It was as if someone had grabbed her heart and thrashed it violently, and suddenly she couldn't breathe, and in the blink of an eye she was back in the darkness, and the sound of her heartbeat rushed towards her, one after another. Knock, knock, knock.

The exclamations of a room could no longer reach her ears, and Xu Xun felt that he had risen into the air.

She is still rising, Miyagi has become a small point under her feet, and the capital is just a large square field with continuous lights in the dark, she goes towards the bright moon, the warm night breeze blows her clothes, she hears her laughter, crisp and exquisite, like a string of bells swaying under the laurel tree.

"Xiao Xun, let's go here." It was my father's voice calling, and he came out of the alley to pick her up, "You have to know the way, turn right here, and you will be home." ”

"Hey!" She said briskly, throwing her head back and flicking her braids, jumping up and running in her father's direction.

A white light appeared like lightning, accompanied by the last grand muffled groan, and Xu Xun's world was silent forever.

The author has something to say: there will be a chapter or two to follow

I don't know if it's tonight or tomorrow.

Announce the cause of Xu Xun's death, viral myocarditis...... By the time I celebrate my birthday, the incubation period is almost over. This way of dying is actually quite good, it is relatively sudden, and it will not be particularly painful to drag on for a long time or something