Liu Tao took a deep breath again, although she had already lived again, and she didn't want those past to affect her present, but those memories were still unforgettable, and she couldn't erase them.

She stumbled and grew up, and the couple didn't break their promise and kept her going to high school, but when she was in high school, she had an accident again!

Her grades have always been in the middle, not very good, not very bad, anyway, she has thought about it, even if she does not study well and her grades in the college entrance examination are not high, if she wants to continue studying, the couple will have to provide for her. Besides, the shadow of her childhood and the strange eyes of others did make her disheartened and couldn't get out.

But she didn't have a puppy love, she looked down on those who spent her parents' money, didn't study hard but spent money to buy this and that for her so-called boyfriend and girlfriend, and she had to die if she was rejected, just like the scumbag who hurt her.

The scumbag later went to college, and he fell in love with a girl in college, to say that although he himself is not very good, he looks ugly and does nothing all day long, and he is idle and has nothing to do, but his vision is quite unique, and the girl he came to see later is said to be quite good.

But the girl obviously didn't like him, and rejected him more than once, and the scumbag didn't know if he was really desperate to scare people or really desperate, so he committed suicide by cutting his wrists in the school dormitory.

Of course she doesn't think that the scumbag will really be desperate, but she just wants to threaten other girls with rogue means, of course it doesn't matter, the important thing is that the scumbag is really dead.

When she got the news, she was in her third year of junior high school, and when she first heard about it, she didn't believe it very much, and in order to confirm it, she secretly followed the woman who had been her adoptive mother, and saw that her face was haggard. It seems to be much older. She went to the neighborhood where the couple lived—they had already moved and no longer lived where they were—and sure enough, many people knew about it.

She felt in her heart that this was a relief! She is not the kind of fool who repays her grievances with virtue, of course she will not be sad for that kind of person, and when she heard that the person died, she ran out to celebrate by herself, and thought with hatred in her heart. This is called the recompense of evil for the wicked.

Looking back at the couple's money, she was still at ease that they owed her!

may have experienced the warmth and coldness of the world too early, she seemed more mature than others when she was in high school, and she looked down on those classmates who were in early love from her heart, if she hadn't met him, she even felt that she would not have love in her life, and only guard against and alienate people.

It was the summer vacation of my freshman year of high school. Because there are people for her to study, she doesn't have to go out to work, mainly because she doesn't want to work, and at that time, she would rather sit alone in the park, look at the flowers and grass. She is always wary of people, and the only things that can make her feel peaceful in this world are flowers and trees.

She sat alone. Some of them are bored, and there is really nothing to do. I bought fish food and ran to the bridge to feed the fish, there are always a lot of people in the park on weekends, maybe she is standing too far forward, there is no railing, and she accidentally slips under her feet. and fell into the lake.

The people by the lake immediately became a mess, some shouted for help, some jumped into the water to save people, and some were eager to help call for help. And he is among the people who save people.

She was rescued. Before the ambulance came, she was woken up by artificial respiration, and as soon as she opened her eyes, she saw the person who saved her.

With a gentle smile and a mature and steady appearance, although he is not very beautiful, he is amiable to look at. Her heart was immediately warmed, and she remembered the smile like a spring breeze.

He took her to the hospital, paid for her tests, confirmed that she was okay, and drove her back to school. Before saying goodbye to him, she asked him for his name and phone number, saying that she would invite him to dinner next weekend and thank him for saving his life, and he did not refuse, and agreed very gently.

She knew she was in love, and although she never said it to him, she didn't think about him all the time.

Her grades got worse because someone distracted her, but it was nothing, she would continue to study, even if she wanted to get revenge on the couple and spend more of their money, she would definitely finish college!

She has someone to miss every day, and she has become much more easy-going, no longer out of place with her classmates, and no longer looks down on those naïve early lovers.

Her changes have made many people see her, her appearance is not ugly, and several boys have long had a good impression of her, including many good students in the eyes of teachers and parents with excellent grades, and of course, there are also those gangsters who are messing with the ruffians and hooligans in society.

She just smiled at these people, neither refused nor accepted, she thought she knew more than them, and what she liked was a man who was more mature and excellent than them. But she no longer refuses to associate with those people, her personality gradually becomes cheerful, and occasionally, she will go out to eat with her classmates, of course, male and female classmates, the kind of many people.

She never goes out alone, which makes her feel insecure.

But even so, she still did not escape the tricks of fate on her.

She felt that her spirit was beginning to lose concentration, she was always sleepy, she was languishing day by day, and sometimes she had snot and tears flowing together. At first, she thought she had a cold, but gradually, she realized that she suddenly couldn't do without one thing, that is, a cigarette given to her by a male classmate who had expressed a crush on her.

She didn't smoke originally, she only thought it was fun at a meal, and when she smoked one, she felt that the thing was not good, I really didn't understand that Weishenme would be liked by so many people, but she didn't expect that it was the only curiosity that made her addicted to drugs.

The school expelled several students at one time, including her, and the boy who gave her cigarettes, and the couple soon found out about it, and probably didn't want to deal with her for a long time, and now they finally have a legitimate reason to decisively stop her tuition and living expenses.

She has always been a little disheartened, but she doesn't want to live that kind of life where no one is a ghost or a ghost, although she has not worked hard for so many years, and she is not social, but she also tries to make herself live like others, but she finds that now, even if she tries hard, she can't quit the drug addiction she accidentally contracted.

She would occasionally make excuses to meet him and try to be a normal person in front of him, and only in front of him would she feel that she was still alone. And once out of his sight, she is a person who can do whatever she wants, as long as she satisfies her drug addiction.

It can also be said that she can't be called human at all.

She mingled with the male classmate every day, and she accepted all the people he introduced to her, as long as they gave her money, she used to sell and smoking, and was almost caught, and the classmate who caused her to become addicted to drugs was even worse than her, and after being forced to detoxify by her family, she hallucinated and committed suicide by jumping off the building.

She didn't sigh, she didn't even have the pleasure of "evil retribution", her feeling for this shijie, if you use two words to describe it, that is-numbness!

There are only two things that make her happy, and that is when she is not addicted to drugs and is like a normal person, reading novels on the Internet, or meeting him.

Of course, she only watches piracy/version, she is indeed reluctant to spend money, when she is normal, she does not want to lose her dignity for money again and again, she knows that once she is addicted, it is not easy to quit, she must save every penny and keep it for herself.

He didn't seem to notice anything unusual about her, and when she called him, he went to the appointment as usual, as if he didn't know her thoughts, like a gentle big brother, until one day, she saw him in the newspaper.

Still so gentle smile, still so cheerful, but he would never smile at her again, his smile was frozen there, and it became a pain in her heart that could never be erased.

His deeds began to be widely circulated, and she knew that he had saved several people, including children, the elderly, the suicides, and those who accidentally fell into the water like her, he was a hero in everyone's minds, she was proud of him, and she was full of deep inferiority complex for the insurmountable distance between herself and him.

He died, and in this life, she could no longer make herself beautiful for him, and it was impossible to cross the gap between her and him, and she cried for days and nights, crying all day and night. She felt that the only beautiful fantasy in her life had turned gray with his death.

Since then, she has nothing to be nostalgic about.

That morning, although she was very uncomfortable, she did not take drugs, she tried to restrain herself, and she felt that she could bear it a little longer.

She wore a long light gray dress, and he once said that she must look good in white, but since she became addicted to drugs, she never dared to wear white, and she felt that she was unworthy. She could only try to dress lightly and try to look like a princess in front of him.

She put on her favorite light gray dress, and painted a light makeup, she didn't want to die, even if she lived so hard and humble, so humiliated and painful, she still didn't have the courage to die, she just wanted to go to the place where he left to see him, to feel the coldness before he died.

And when she maybe zuihou went to see him once, she didn't want to let herself go back after taking drugs.

It was not the lake he had saved her, but another river, and the report said that he went to morning exercise that day, and happened to see an old lady walking by the river accidentally fell into the water, and jumped into the water to save people without saying a word, and the old lady was later rescued by others, and he lost his young and warm life forever.

She took off her shoes, she really just wanted to test how cold the river that devoured his life in the early morning, but as she walked, she had the idea that maybe she would see him when she fell.

It was really just a momentary thought, she didn't want to die, but when her head suddenly dizzy and accidentally fell, her heart was so calm! (To be continued......)