Finally spoken......

Like when she confronted the emperor last time, Xu Xun was prepared for the worst, but unlike the last time, her mood was not as happy as the last time, this time, her mood was complicated. It was so complicated that Xu Xun couldn't figure it out by himself.

Cheerful, cheerful, this sentence, she has wanted to say for many years. How many years have not had the custom of martyrdom in the previous dynasties, people were martyred in the Spring and Autumn Period, they have been replaced by figurines, the initiators, there is no aftermath, the first to replace the martyrs with figurines, is there no follow-up, not to mention in ancient times, how could there be such a system in the Tang and Song dynasties? The dynasty is against the Yuan everywhere, and hates Mongolia everywhere, but in this matter it is going to learn the Yuan, why don't you learn to learn the people into four classes, why don't you learn to learn the Yuan rule for 80 years and collapse?

Words, it is really the most liliang thing, even if it is a woman in the deep palace, it is difficult to get out of the imperial city for ten years, as long as she is literate and hyphenation, what obstacles can be between her and the world? Although Xu Xun does not have the talent to write poetry, she knows how to read, and she also likes to read. Yuan Xiu Song History, Song Xiu Tang History, these history books have been included in the "Literature Dacheng", Xu Xun carefully studied the biography of the concubines in the two histories, and never saw a trace of martyrdom. How can she convince herself that this must be the fate of the harem concubines? Why don't you use it anymore, only the concubines of the dynasty are particularly unlucky, and I don't see that only your royal family is particularly noble!

There is injustice in her heart, even if she is repeatedly smeared, thick and thick, she can't cover the block that is blocked in it, this resentment she doesn't know who to turn to, today finally erupted, and vented out to the emperor without a head, however, after a moment of refreshment, looking at the emperor's stunned face, the happiness was drowned by the torrent of various emotions. Weakness, guilt, stubbornness, distress, fear, hesitation...... She didn't know who these emotions were for, and they were all weishenme, but she really couldn't continue to vent her grievances, resentment and grievances in her heart without regret like last time.

Behind the resentment that has accumulated for many years, Xu Xun couldn't help but think again: Big brother must be very sad, he never seemed to have thought that there would be people who were unwilling to be buried.

Or maybe she could put it in a more tactful way, but no matter what she said, she was afraid that it would still hurt him...... Alas, he was really very good at her, and she really felt sorry......

What's better than not going, why does he think that Han Zhaorong will be willing to be martyred for him? There was another voice sneering in his heart, who did he think he was, why should people in the world not only be driven by him, but also be so willing to compete for the honor of martyrdom?

Her ears seemed to think of Concubine Han Li's cry before she died, and thought of the earth-shattering shouts coming from Jingyang Palace, Xu Xun's whole body was trembling slightly, over the years, she rarely let herself recall the scene of the year, the more she thought about it, the more uncomfortable she felt in her heart. She wanted to ask the emperor: Emperor Zhao presided over the harem funeral, what about you? Did you preside over the burial of Emperor Zhao's harem? Did they cry or curse when they died? After watching such a scene, how can you still think that there are really people in this world who are willing to die?

No one spoke, the two of them looked at each other at the table, Xu Xun felt as if he had split into two, one she was very cheerful, almost daring to make a sound, and the other she was worried, suffering from gains and losses-she was afraid.

Afraid? No, she has long been not afraid of death, and if she wants to live well in this palace, she can only do it if she is not afraid of death. She's not afraid of death, she's afraid of ......

After all, she was a little afraid of hurting the emperor, Xu Xun couldn't help but sigh softly, she felt that she was so angry.

He has everything, he lacks nothing, the more than 30 so-called masters of the harem, one or two thousand palace maids and eunuchs, which life and death are not controlled by him, and which one's emotions are not because of his ups and downs? From his mother to his wife, which relative's intrigue is not centered on him? Compared to him, what is she? She is just a so-called concubine, even if she dies tomorrow, she will not damage him in the slightest, and this shijie will not change a little at all...... He said that he was lonely, but he was just worried about the new words, and he knew what real loneliness was? He was not plundered into the palace at the age of seven or eight, and he never saw his parents again!

As long as the palm of the hand is slightly turned, she can be beaten from the clouds that everyone admires, into the quagmire, this man has such power, and such a skill, and so ruthless, the queen and his husband and wife for many years, childhood sweethearts, just because of a reason she does not know, the emperor will use all kinds of means to play with her emotions, hang her heart...... He didn't say it, but she could feel it. - If he can do this, why does he need someone else's care? Even if it did, it could never come from her, what was she? No matter how nice he sounded, he was just a slave, and a slave felt sorry for his master, and felt that he had spoken too much to him...... Heh, I really take myself seriously.

She understood the reason, but she still couldn't help it, after all, she was still not angry, looking at the emperor's stunned expression, she really felt a strong heartache, guilt and fear. She hurt him, no matter how unlikely she was to hurt him, she still felt that she had hurt him, she felt that she had hurt him, she felt guilty for his pain. She was also terrified of losing his favor—of losing his kindness to her.

Besides, she didn't care, and it was impossible not to really care, she was nostalgic for all the privileges he had given her—yes, she was also a layman, and she liked privileges, and she didn't care about gold, silver, and jewelry, but she liked the brief freedom that allowed her to immerse herself in a moment of delusion—however, she was more nostalgic for the tenderness he gave her, which, whatever the facts, really thought that he liked her very much, and when he was with her, she ...... She was happy after all, she could feel that she was cherished and pampered, and she still didn't want to lose this ...... after all This ...... This ......

"You're not right." The Emperor suddenly spoke, his jaw tensed, suppressing the expression of anger, "In the past, only wives and concubines were martyred, and slaves were martyred for their masters, and there was no reason for children and grandchildren to be martyred for their fathers. Children and grandchildren are the continuation of the bloodline, and the inheritance is extended, and the sacrifice on the ground is the embodiment of filial piety. Wives and concubines are attached to their own bodies, and martyrdom to serve under them is also filial piety, how can there be dignity and humility between the two! ”

Xu Xun secretly exhaled a sigh - it's not strange, how many years have this been, in order to tell the story of the funeral, it is natural that many well-educated people rack their brains to be far-fetched and make some big truths.

Not surprisingly, he was still angry after all, and she once again offended him to death...... This time, how likely is it that he will not be centrifuged?

Now it seems that it is still too late to admit her mistake, Xu Xun thought silently, she couldn't help it, and showed a self-deprecating smile.

"In that case, I haven't seen the Queen Mother martyred?" She heard her own voice: crisp and loud, full and high-spirited, and it was very unpleasant to be a party to the battle. "The mansion of the vassal king also has a precedent for the burial of many princesses!"

"Bastard!" The Emperor was so furious that he even raised his hand—even the last time the two of them quarreled, it failed to provoke him to do so, but this time he actually raised his hand. "You dare to say such nonsense!"

"Where's the absurdity?" Xu Xun asked rhetorically, "If the wife can't be martyred, Princess Weishenme will be martyred?" If the martyrdom of the wife is filial piety, then the old lady is not martyred, it is not filial piety? ”

"If she dies, how can I fulfill my filial piety to my mother?" When the emperor held a feast, he often had to argue with his subordinates, and in a panic, he blurted out, which was also a reasonable refutation. "Xu Xun, I didn't ask you about this, I didn't want to tell you this-"

"If she has a son, she will not die, and fulfill your filial piety, why is Guo Guifei martyred when she has a son? King Wei is still in the Ten Kings' Mansion! Xu Xun rushed to say, "What do you want to ask me, I know very well, I'll tell you now, eldest brother, I didn't want to be martyred at all since I first knew that there was a funeral." It's not just me, starting with Jingci Immortal Master, you go and say hello, as long as you can tell the truth, no one will say that she wants to be martyred. There was a man who said she was willing, and it was all a lie - do you believe it? Big brother, I'm just afraid that if I tell the truth, you won't believe it! ”

The emperor could no longer hide his expression, he stared at Xu Xun, his expression was extremely gloomy, as if he was looking at an enemy. Xu Xun didn't know what she felt in her heart at all, she wanted to cry and laugh, it was like tearing off a large piece of flesh from herself, in addition to the bloody pain, there was also a relief that could not be hidden.

I don't have anything to hide from you, she thought, and finally, I've got one less thing to hide from you.

Unconsciously, she said what she thought, "You are so good to me, I always feel as if I don't want to go, you say that I never tell lies to you...... I tried not to tell lies, but I didn't tell all my truth. In the future, it's better if you kill me, or if you don't come again...... It's okay to lock me up in Nannei again, my heart is always at peace, and I'm worthy of your love...... At the very least, I'm okay with it. ”

"You—" said the Emperor, opening his mouth and closing it again, "I ......"

The expression on his face changed, as if he couldn't figure out a clue, Xu Xun felt that he could shut up, but she still couldn't help but say more, "When Han Zhaorong came to me, she-"

"Xu Xun, if you don't say a few words, you'll die!" The emperor couldn't help but shout angrily, "Are you going to be angry with me to death? ”

She swallowed her words back: if she said more, she was afraid that the emperor would not be able to help but be angry with Han Zhaorong. Although, she is indeed the fuse of today's chaos, but because she doesn't want to be buried and die, it is a very ironic ending after all, Xu Xun's own life doesn't matter, but she doesn't want to harm other people's lives because of herself.

The two sat opposite each other, no one spoke, Xu Xun caught a glimpse of Mama Zhao out of the corner of his eye, and saw her standing with a blank face, as if she had forgotten even the shock, she suddenly felt a little funny, although she tried her best to suppress it, she didn't laugh out loud, but the smile in her eyes couldn't be hidden.

At least the emperor saw it, and it was precisely because he saw it that he was even more angry, although he didn't do it, but the emperor scolded with a gloomy face, "Get out!" ”

Everyone immediately scrambled to retreat, the old rules were gone, and Xu Xun also wanted to withdraw a little bit to see how the emperor reacted - however, this black humorous idea was just an instant when it appeared, he was really angry, and it was better for her not to be deliberately stimulated.

After everyone had exited, there was absolute silence in the room, and the sound of girls laughing outside the window only added to the silence inside. The emperor took several deep breaths, and stopped talking many times, as if he was still organizing his own language, and Xu Xun had to wait patiently.

She wondered: This time, will she finally fall out of favor completely? The queen should be proud, she finally achieved her goal and provoked this scene in vain.

If Zhuang'er is also taken to the queen to raise, and she falls out of favor again, maybe the queen will not take her in her eyes at all, but will be kinder to her and win her over again. After all, there's still a place here, no matter what. Of course, the premise is that the emperor does not take away her title of concubine.

He might want to do this now, Xu Xun thought, she studied the man in front of her, speculating about what he might think: however, when he demoted her to Nannei last time, he also saw her attitude clearly. He would know that depriving her of her title would not hurt her. If he wanted revenge, he had to find another way.

What will he do? Take Zhuang'er away? He can do it, but she doesn't care very much, Zhuang'er is always the second son of the emperor, and if he is not by her side, maybe it will be better for him. Take the dots away? Like Zhuang'er, if she didn't abuse a little bit, she wouldn't be hurt, and he wasn't such a person after all, and the eldest brother couldn't do such a thing......

How funny, Xu Xun thought, except for stabbing blindness, poison and dumbness, and death, she couldn't help her eldest brother come up with a suitable way to deal with herself. It turns out that when a person doesn't care about anything, he can really be invincible, although this kind of power gives people a feeling that there is nothing but irony.

"Do you know......" the emperor spoke, and after a few words, he stopped again. Do you know - do you know how good I am to you? Xu Xun? Do you know me...... I ......"

"I know," Xu Xun said sincerely, she stood up and saluted the emperor, "I always knew it...... I've always been grateful to my big brother, really. ”

"Then you—" the Emperor glared again, "then you don't want to be with me—with—"

"If you say so," Xu Xun pointed out the emperor's mistakes, and she thought it was funny—not that she was good at arguing, but that this damn funeral system, with so many loopholes, that any young child could pick out a bunch of contradictions. It's a pity that for more than 50 years, so many high-ranking scholars, so many queens and concubines in the world, no one has stood up and said a word.

Actually, really, no one stood up and said, one, one, sentence, word.

"If the husband and wife in the world are deeply in love, once the husband is gone, the wife should be buried? Or, if Cao Baolin and others live behind you in the future, because you are not very good to them and have no feelings, they will not have to be buried? ”

The emperor was so blocked that he couldn't speak again, he seemed to have asthma, and his chest rose and fell so much that even Xu Xun was a little worried when he saw it. There was a strong sense of guilt in her heart, and she felt that every word she said was like a knife cutting the emperor's flesh, but ......

But she won't look back.

Xu Xun suddenly jumped out and thought again, as if she was an outsider, she thought: Is it that I won't turn back for anyone, or is his weight not enough for me to turn back?

"How can you equate me with them!" The emperor finally burst out, he seemed to have finally regained his confidence, and even his voice was a little louder, shouting, "Xu Xun! You're so presumptuous! I am the Son of Heaven, how can I be compared to ordinary people-"

Xu Xun replied to him with 10,000 words, some of them talked about things, some of them bypassed problems, and even moved people with emotion. Suddenly, she remembered the conversation she had had in Nannei - at that time, she had taken a shortcut after all, and she didn't say what she wanted to say in her heart...... She still used a clever expression to avoid the real grievances in her heart.

Yes, she was so wary of him at that time, she didn't want to tell the truth at all, she just wanted to send him away with a limited amount of truth. And now he was good enough for her, so good that she felt that she had to tell the truth, or else she would not be able to live up to him...... Good irony.

"Isn't the Son of Heaven great?" She said steadily, "Why is the Son of Heaven different from the puppet, and can't be compared with the puppet? King Qin swept **, looking at He Xiong! After you die, isn't it so rotten that you can't even hide the smell of abalone? Song Zhezong's skull was made into a bowl of monks, and Tang Zhaozong's protégé gave birth to the Son of Heaven, Emperor Shi Jingjiao'er...... What's so great about the Son of Heaven? It's not a human being yet, before life and death, everyone is the same! Everyone has the heart to survive, what if you are the Son of Heaven? You always tell me that people's hearts are subtle, how can you think that this subtle people's hearts will be willing to die with you because you are the Son of Heaven? If you want to force people to die with you, that's your business, the whole world is yours, how easy is it for you to force a few weak women? But it would be shameless to feel that others are to blame for not wanting to die. ”

"Shameless? Am I shameless? The Emperor repeated her words, his expression unspeakable, just ridiculously funny. What kind of life did you live, and what kind of life did you live when you came to the palace, and I did you wrong? I eat less for you, less for you to wear? Are you embarrassed to say shameless? Xu Xun, you-"

Xu Xunleng said to the emperor, she said lightly, "If you think you are reasonable, you might as well ask your ministers, you treat them well, and give them a fortune." The inner palace and the outer court are one, do you ask them if they are willing to be martyred? ”

"Raw and hard, how can this be the same!" The emperor immediately refuted, "You don't take this set against me!" I know what I do to you, I know it in my heart, I ask me again now, no, I ask you again, do you want to be with me in life and death! Xu Xun, you say it again, are you worthy of me! ”

"I'm worthy of it!" Xu Xun was also angry, and she said angrily, "Where am I sorry for you? I know you're good to me, but I don't want to die with you, so what? If you don't want to, let me die now, if you let me go, I'll go, but you have to remember that I will always be reluctant in my heart! No matter how good you are to me, so what, even if you treat me a thousand times better than now, ten thousand times, I still have to live if you die! Not only do I have to live, but I have to live well—"

There was a snapping sound, Xu Xun only felt a sharp pain on his face, and everyone fell to the ground - the emperor's palm was a real force, and the person he used to beating his body to, how could she, a woman, be able to withstand it? For a while, I was so dizzy that I couldn't even get up, and I struggled on the ground for a while before I sat up.

The shadow shook in front of her, and the emperor walked up to her and stood, he looked down at her condescendingly, his face changing several times, as if there was a trace of remorse, but it quickly dissipated again, leaving only an unpredictable blank space. He was watching her, to see if she regretted it, if she was afraid......

Xu Xun's cheeks were numb, and after that just now, it wasn't very painful now, but it was also a little numb, and he wasn't very obedient. She forced herself to raise the corners of her mouth, revealing a smile that would certainly not be very good--although it was not good-looking, but at least it was a smile, at least, now that she felt very down-to-earth, she said it, she no longer had to feel guilty, she always felt as if she was cheating the emperor's liking, and felt that she had never told him the truth.

She looked at him calmly, without speaking, without speaking, she knew he would see it. She has no regrets, she will not regret it, she will not change her mind, the husband can't win the ambition, just like before, even if he has power all over the world and is rich all over the world, he still can't change her will, no matter life or death, she will always be her own Xu Xun.

"I'm ......," the emperor took a deep breath, and when he spoke again, his tone was already very calm. I'm very disappointed in you, Xu Xun, I ...... you"

He shook his head, suddenly bent down, pulled her up half-forcedly, put her on the chair and sat down, took out the yellow handkerchief in his sleeve, and wiped Xu Xun's cheeks.

It wasn't until he moved that Xu Xun realized that the corners of his lips were actually overflowing with blood, and the corners of his lips were wiped by the emperor, and the corners of his lips were still a little painful.

She took the handkerchief in the Emperor's hand and gently pressed the wound - she was the best at pinching it, and the Emperor's movements made her hurt.

The emperor looked at her for a while, and suddenly showed a trace of sadness, he shook his head, sighed, and didn't say anything more, but directly lifted the curtain and walked out of the back room.

After a while, Mama Zhao walked in quickly with flowers, and when she saw Xu Xun's face, she gasped. Hua'er cried at that time, "Niangniang! ”

What happened next was naturally logical, and the henchmen gathered together again, busy looking for medicine for Xu Xun, and applying the wound on his cheek - after a while, Xu Xun's right face was swollen high, as if it was a steamed bun. It is estimated that in the next few days, the palm marks will gradually stand out. If there is no good medicine, it will take at least ten days and half a month to get better.

"Mama." Xu Xun was still smiling, she asked Mama Zhao who was mixing the medicine powder there, "Mama." ”

"What for?" Mama Zhao was rarely angry, she fell off the medicine pestle in her hand, and went to pull Mama Sun again, "This still doesn't work, you go to Wang Jin and ask him to ask Dongchang Jinyiwei for the injury medicine, their medicine is symptomatic and more effective!" ”

Mama Sun didn't know the ins and outs at all, she was still doing things behind her just now, and she was also anxious and distressed at this time, so she didn't pay attention to Xu Xun, nodded and ran out. Mama Zhao walked back and asked Xu Xun, "Does Niangniang have instructions?" ”

"Staying at the time......," Xu Xun said hard, "do you regret it now?" ”

If you regret it, you still have a chance to get out.

"What are you talking about now?" Mama Zhao was even more angry, and gently pressed Xu Xun's cheek with her hand to determine the boundary of the lump. "I didn't go out then, will I go out now?"

Xu Xun couldn't help but laugh, "...... in the future." Ouch! In the future, it still won't change. ”

Mama Zhao sighed from the bottom of her heart, she shook her head, glanced at Xu Xun, and said in a low voice, "Get used to it." ”

Xu Xun couldn't help it anymore, she laughed silently, but she touched the affected area again, and the pain shrank, Mama Zhao was angry and funny, and while helping her with medicine, she couldn't help asking, "Niangniang, is it interesting to live like this?" Isn't it good for us to divide An'an? Do you have to say those words? ”

Xu Xun snorted and spit out a mouthful of bloody saliva.

She smiled, "It's hard to live like this, Mama, it's only to live like this, it's alive......"

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