Chapter 24: The Sail That Drifts Away (11)
"It's not a concubine, it's still a sister." Jing Yi said softly.
Yamei sighed, but she was helpless, and only said, "I'll be back soon." I hope you'll be here when I come back. I can't bear you and my mother. ”
After she left, Jingyi patted her sleepy daughter and walked slowly in the house. Then he sat down by the fireplace. The hot water has not yet been boiled, and the fire in the fireplace is burning vigorously and warm enough. Nannan's forehead was wet, and Jingyi was worried that she would catch a cold, so she hurriedly carried her to take a hot bath.
Nan Nan's naked little body was put on the bed by her, and she rubbed her hands warmly, rubbing her little belly.
Nan Nan comfortably posed her little chubby arms and grabbed Jing Yi's hanging hair......
When Tao Xiang entered the door, there were only Nan Nan and Jing Yi in the room, whispering something that the two of them could understand each other. Jingyi obviously didn't notice that he had entered the door, and with his daughter, she was in a state of complete relaxation...... He hesitated for a moment, and was about to quietly exit, when he saw her pause.
Jing Yi turned around and saw Tao Xiang.
She was dressing her in a nightgown, and when she saw him, her complexion did not change immediately, but she also smiled.
Tao Xiao took off his coat and military hat, and came over to hug Nannan, but Jingyi hugged Nannan and avoided him. She looked at him indifferently, as if at this glance, she looked him around, found any traces in him, and said, "Wash your hands and hold her again." ”
Tao Xiang was calm, and really went to wash his hands, but when he came back, he didn't come to hug him immediately.
Jingyi was patting her daughter in the cradle, and said without raising her head: "It's time for Nan Nan to sleep, don't disturb her...... In the future, you will remember to wash her before you hug her. ”
She didn't hear Tao Xiang's answer. After a while, she turned her head and saw his calm face.
"Do you mean you don't want me to get close to Nan Nan anymore?" Tao Xiang asked.
He kept his voice soft, not wanting to disturb his daughter.
Jingyi looked at him for a while and said, "The child is still young, and he can't touch dirty things." ”
She saw Tao Xiang's jaw twitch, a sign that he wanted to get angry.
She turned her eyes to the girl who was staring at them in the cradle with wide eyes—her calves kicking, her fat arms open, as if she wanted Tao Xiang to hug her...... She whispered, "I don't care what you do outside or who you associate with." But this is my daughter...... We're still here for a day, and you can't come in and hug her with something dirty from outside and nowhere......"
"You can make it clear." Tao Xiang said.
"How clear do you want me to say?" Jing Yi asked softly, seeing that Tao Xiang's originally calm face had a hint of waves, "I can't say it more clearly...... Disgusting. ”
She unfolded the small quilt and put it on her body. This skinny baby girl quickly kicked the quilt away, and she was about to cover her again, when Tao Xiang reached over and blocked her hand. Taking advantage of her angry face turning blue and stunned, Tao Xiang picked up Nan Nan - the little quilt slipped into the cradle, and the chubby little guy in the pink robe quickly spat bubbles at him...... He lifted his daughter up and made her laugh.
It was as if only angels had such a smile on their faces.
"Tao Xiang, let's separate. I can't live a day like this. Jingyi whispered.
Tao Xiang held Nannan above his head, and Nannan's little chubby feet stepped on his face...... He obviously heard Jingyi's words, but he didn't say anything for a while.
Nannan's fat feet are sweet like ice cream, and people can't help but want to take a bite...... He put the girl down, didn't look at Jingyi, and asked, "Have you figured it out?" ”
"I would never give her to a father like you." Jingyi said. She stretched out her hand to take her daughter back, but as soon as Tao Xiang turned around and faced her, her face and eyes turned cold...... She suddenly felt nauseous.
Tao Xiao saw her clenching her fists, her body trembled, her face turned from white to red, and it seemed that just facing him in front of her had made her feel pain and discomfort...... He whispered, "Nan Nan is the only condition that cannot be negotiated. ”
Jingyi turned around and grabbed Nannan's cradle.
There was a kind of weakness and soreness in his body, like a boulder rolling down from the top of a mountain, unable to resist, but still trying to block it...... But she finally couldn't bear it anymore, turned around and rushed to the bathroom.
Tao Xiang saw her float past him, stunned, put his daughter back in the cradle, and followed—Jing Yi lay on the platform, gasping for breath.
Jing Yi's eyes darkened. She held on to the platform, gradually leaned down, and squatted on the ground...... She slowly regained consciousness, and saw a large shadow on the snow-white floor tiles in front of her, and the clearly outlined pattern. The shadow was to wrap her tightly...... She couldn't help but sweat on her back.
Tao Xiang came to her and held her up. Jingyi pushed him. She wanted to stand up on her own, but she was dizzy.
"You look at me, Jingyi." Tao Xiang said. His voice was so low that it stopped in her ears and fell on her heart...... She didn't look up, knowing that she couldn't get rid of him at this time, so she simply didn't move. He didn't move, not even exert himself, she still felt that she had struggled to use all her strength, and that he was still in control. "You're ......"
"I don't believe it either." Jingyi's face seemed to freeze, "...... I won't give birth to this child, let him remind me how he came to be...... I can't deal with a child like that...... I won't let my children tie me up......"
She trembled and bit her lip and teeth fiercely. She didn't want to look at Tao Xiang at all, so when she finished speaking, she pushed him and got up to leave.
Tao Xiang didn't let her go away. He took her in his arms.
Her body was as frozen as her face. Each bone seemed to have spikes on it, stabbing at him as hard as it pained herself. Instantly, it was bloody, and it was miserable......
"Give me some time, I'll think about it." He said.
"What else are you thinking about? What is there to consider? Do you think I can raise another child in this house, by your side? She said it very quickly. It's too late to say all these things. "You don't necessarily have to us. Make a decision on this, you and I will have nothing to do with each other from now on. ”
"Cheng Jingyi!" Tao Xiang whispered, "Calm down." ”
"It's my business," Jing Yi looked at him, "it won't change anything if it drags on any longer." I've decided. ”
"How is this your business? This kid is just as ...... as Nannan."
"He's not the same as Nannan! He is my disgrace. Jingyi said loudly.
Tao Xiao held Jingyi's shoulder and looked at her.
He seemed to be slapped by her again, and he didn't spit out a word for a long time.
"I don't want him. You can't force me either. Jingyi said.
Tao Xiang stiffened, and his gaze as cold as ice stopped on her face.
But beneath the ice-cold, ice-hard, fragile exterior must have been his volcanic magma rage.
She was waiting for the volcano to erupt.
She fought hard and didn't want to give in anymore......
Tao Xiang said, "Give me three days. ”
"There is no need to delay any longer...... This kind of relationship, I don't need it between me and you, and I can't have it anymore. Jingyi said.
"Jingyi!" Tao Xiang's face was also ugly, but he still stared at Jing Yi and said, "You promised me not to make my own decisions." It's not just life-threatening, it's dangerous. ”
"I'm not even afraid of death, but I'm still afraid of this danger?" Jingyi pushed him away.
"Shut up!" Tao Xiang shouted.
Under the pressure of his heavy gaze, Jing Yi stiffened his throat and said, "You'd better not be delaying time. It's useless, I won't change my mind. And I'm going to be out for the next two days -- don't let anyone follow me, let alone look at me. Otherwise, I'll have a way to fix it now. ”
Tao Xiang's face became more and more ugly.
He finally turned to leave, and the figure quickly disappeared in the doorway.
It was still for a long time, and it stood there without moving...... His shouts were still ringing in her ears, so she couldn't hear anything else. For a long time, she didn't know if he had left.
Tao Xiang walked out of the room, only to remember that his clothes were all left in the room, he wanted to turn around, but stood still.
When he came downstairs, he immediately saw his eldest sister Er An sitting in the living room. Mama Zhang, who was standing with her hands hanging on the side, lowered her head, and it seemed that she stopped Er An in time.
Er An came over, helped his arm, and whispered, "I'm here to say goodbye to Jingyi." In this case, I'd better not go up. ”
Tao Xiang nodded.
"Why are you arguing?" Er An asked, walking out. "I don't want to meddle in your business. Just watching, I'm really anxious......"
Tao Xiang sent Er An out.
Seeing that he was only wearing a shirt, Er An pushed him back and whispered, "Don't get cold." There are so many things to worry about at home and outside the house, Ah Si has to go out again during this time, what should you do if you get sick? ”
"Big sister." Tao Xiang didn't care about that.
Er An sighed and said, "I know, I won't talk too much in front of my mother." But I really don't want to see you get this far. Just thinking about Nan Nan makes me feel very distressed. ”
"I can't send you tomorrow." Tao Xiang said.
"Some people send it, but you don't need it. You're so busy, take care of yourself. Also, no matter what happens to you, remember to send me a letter as soon as possible. Though I am not at home, I am always thinking of you. Er An said, waving his hand to let Tao Xiang go back quickly.
As she walked, she looked at her brother who was standing down—he didn't immediately turn around. In the gray courtyard in the night, a deep shade of gray enveloped his figure...... Tao Xiang put his hands in his trouser pockets and walked slowly in the yard.
The chill penetrated into the body minute by minute.