196. VIP138 - Masochism
Jo Yusen just smiled at Xia Chu's words:
"I'm not here for you, but for myself."
Doubts at the beginning of summer:
"Yourself?"
"Yes, myself!" Jo Yusen looked at her: "I'm afraid that I will regret missing you for the rest of my life, so I told myself that I should chase you no matter what, and not give these yellow-haired boys any chance." ”
Laughing at the beginning of summer:
"But you don't have to be a teacher, do you?"
"Why not? If you are a teacher, you are one level higher than them, you are their teacher, I think these boys dare to beat the idea of the teacher! ”
Early Summer: "......"
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Qin Luo pushed Ji Yanyu back to the ward, hugged her to the hospital bed, covered her with a quilt, and told her well:
"Yanyu, you can't run around now, it's easy to get involved in your wounds, you'll continue to stay in the hospital for a long time, if you want to get out of this hellish place quickly, you know?"
Ji Yanyu looked at Qin Luo and smiled, but did not speak.
I don't know if it's an illusion, or if Ji Yanyu's feelings have indeed changed at this moment, Qin Luo actually saw a similar emotion of loneliness in Ji Yanyu's eyes, such a discovery made him involuntarily lower his voice, leaned over and touched her hair in a softened voice:
"What's wrong?"
Ji Yanyu shook his head:
"Uncle Qin, I'm sleepy and want to sleep."
"Are you really okay?" At a young age, he actually didn't know how to hide his emotions well enough, Qin Luo could still see Ji Yanyu's unhappiness at a glance, he had already liked this ghostly little girl when he didn't know that it was his daughter, but now that he knew another relationship between himself and him, his heart could only be closer to her.
I want to know what she is thinking, whether she is happy or not, and how she is emotional at this time...... Everything about her.
Ji Yanyu nodded:
"If you deceive people, your nose will become longer, I'm a little beauty, so don't be ugly."
Qin Luo smiled lovingly:
"Then you have a good rest, I'll come to see you later."
"Goodbye, Uncle Qin."
"Goodbye."
Qin Luo glanced back at Ji Yanyu when she left the ward, she had closed her eyes and looked like she was sleeping peacefully, but Qin Luo felt that she didn't have the comfort she showed on the surface, which was a very strange feeling, but unfortunately, he couldn't find the answer himself, unless, Ji Yanyu wanted to take the initiative to tell himself.
Closing the door of the ward, Qin Luo wanted to take the elevator to the floor where he was, but when the elevator door opened, he ran into Ji Qingluan.
Ji Qingluan was obviously also surprised to see Qin Luo outside Ji Yanyu's ward, and the two didn't know what to say for a while, until the elevator door was about to close because no one had moved for a long time, Qin Luo stretched out his hand to stop the elevator door and glanced at Ji Qingluan:
"Let's come out first."
Only then did Ji Qingluan get out of the elevator and stand in front of Qin Luo:
"Why are you here?"
"Yanyu came to my office to find me, probably because he was bored, right?" When Qin Luo mentioned Yanyu, there was a smile on the corner of his mouth that he couldn't even detect: "What about you?" Jo Yusen went to chase the beginning of summer, and you are back to X International? ”
"It's just a temporary help."
Ji Qingluan's answer was a little careless, maybe she also noticed the change in Qin Luo, but at the same time, she didn't know how to solve this matter.
Qin Luo nodded:
"Then you go to accompany Yanyu first, she just fell asleep when I came out."
Since that night's confession, Qin Luo has deliberately widened the distance between him and Ji Qingluan, there is an invisible line between them that binds them together, this line is called family affection, but there is also a more powerful one between them that is pulling them farther and farther, this line is called love without love.
Qin Luo did confess, and said all the words that had been suppressed in his heart for so many years. He deliberately distanced himself from Ji Qingluan, not because he felt embarrassed, nor for any other reason, he just didn't want to cause pressure on Ji Qingluan because of his words.
When Qin Luo was about to enter the elevator, Ji Qingluan stopped him at the exit:
"Qin Luo, wait a minute."
Qin Luo stopped and looked back at her:
"Is there something wrong?"
"Come in with me."
When she said this, Qin Luo knew what she wanted to do, she wanted to tell her about the relationship between herself and Ji Yanyu, so that she could understand who was her real father, but this was not what Qin Luo cared about the most.
"I've already said that it doesn't matter if Yanyu recognizes me as a father or not."
"But for Yanyu, it's really important." Ji Qingluan looked at him: "Although she hasn't said it, we can all see what kind of weight her father has in her heart, otherwise she wouldn't have come to China alone to look for it, I don't know how she used to identify Qiao Yusen as his father, but this is wrong after all, she is here to find her father, not to find Qiao Yusen, and you are her father." ”
Qin Luo smiled bitterly:
"But I might let her down."
"You won't."
"So confident in me?"
Ji Qingluan smiled slightly: "Yes, I have confidence in you." ”
Speaking of which, Qin Luo still rejected Ji Qingluan's proposal: "But I don't have confidence in myself, Qingluan, let everything take its course, don't deliberately change it, I still have something to do, go first." ”
Qin Luo still left, leaving Ji Qingluan alone to stand at the elevator entrance and think for a long time, but in the end there was still no clear answer, and in the end he could only walk into the ward.
Qin Luo just said that Ji Yanyu had just fallen asleep, but when Ji Qingluan pushed open the door of the ward, he was frightened by the scene in front of him, Ji Yanyu was using the fruit knife on the table next to him to cut the wounds on his arms one by one, and the wounds that were already scarred were leaving bright red blood again because of her intention.
"What are you doing!! Ji Qingluan couldn't believe her eyes, she didn't believe that a little girl who was only 7 years old and should have been afraid of pain would treat herself so cruelly.
Ji Yanyu obviously didn't expect Ji Qingluan to suddenly appear at this time, she threw the knife on the ground in fright, re-bandaged the gauze indiscriminately, and then put her arms behind her back, looking at Ji Qingluan in anger with a weak heart:
"Didn't you go to the company?"
Ji Qingluan walked over quickly, and didn't care if she had a wound, and suddenly pulled her arm in front of him, because it was a new wound, those casually bandaged gauze had already been stained red with blood, Ji Qingluan squinted his eyes slightly, staring at Ji Yanyu:
"Do you know what you're doing? No wonder you haven't been able to get out of the hospital, it turns out that you did it yourself! ”
Ji Yanyu wanted to withdraw her arm, but found that the disparity in strength between them was too great to succeed, so she was very aware of the compromise of current affairs:
"You let go of me first, I hurt."
"Do you know the pain? Why didn't you say it hurt when you cut yourself with a knife, Ji Yanyu, you really disappointed me! How could I have a daughter like you! ”
Ji Yanyu didn't know where the strength came from, so he suddenly waved away Ji Qingluan's clamp and looked at her coldly:
"Ji Qingluan, how can you have a daughter like me This is to ask yourself, it's not me pestering you to be your daughter, do you think I want to? If I had a choice, I wouldn't want a mom like you! ”
After Ji Yanyu finished saying this, she lifted the quilt and jumped out of bed, and then ran to the door before Ji Qingluan could react from this sentence, and when she turned around and wanted to chase, there was only a long, blood-stained gauze on the ground.
She chased out, but there was still the shadow of Ji Yanyu outside the door, she panicked all of a sudden, when the six gods had no owner, she could only call Qin Luo, Qin Luo had just returned to the office at this time, when the phone rang, he was greeting the people in the department, and when he saw the word Qingluan jumping on the screen, he was a little surprised:
"Qingluan."
"Qin Luo, the smoke and rain are gone."
Qin Luo was startled, then immediately turned around and walked towards the door: "What's the matter?" Wasn't it okay when I came out just now? How so? ”
For a while, Ji Qingluan didn't know how to explain Ji Yanyu's abnormal behavior:
"I'll explain to you later, let's look for the child first."
Qin Luo hung up the phone and ran towards the door of the hospital, he was worried that Ji Yanyu would leave the hospital alone, which would make it more difficult to find, but when he arrived at the outpatient hall on the first floor, he saw the little girl standing in the middle of the hall at a loss, her two arms were dripping blood, and there were two nurses beside her asking her something, but she just lowered her head, as if she hadn't heard anything.
Qin Luo ran over:
"Smoke and rain."
When the two nurses saw Qin Luo coming, and they also knew the little girl, they couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief:
"Doctor Qin, do you know this little girl?"
"Yes, thank you, you guys go get busy first, I'll take her back to the ward."
The two nurses nodded and left the scene, Qin Luo squatted down, glanced at Ji Yanyu's face, and then slowly moved his gaze downward, when he saw her two bloody arms, he couldn't help frowning, he didn't ask anything, didn't say anything, just picked her up and walked towards the nursing station.
When dealing with the wound, Ji Yanyu refused to approach anyone, and in desperation, Qin Luo had to do it himself, he was a doctor in obstetrics and gynecology, but he was also very good at dealing with these simple flesh wounds, he carefully picked up one of Ji Yanyu's arms, and gently disinfected her, probably it was too painful, she couldn't help but pull her arm back, but was grabbed by Qin Luo in time.
Ji Yanyu didn't resist, just bit his lower lip tightly.